A.N. Ciao my friends! You guys are full-on beast mode with the reviews. I'm trying my best to respond to every single one and take on the ideas you're giving me :) One review said that 14DD doesn't exist in bra size; this is from the second chapter or something. I live in Australia so those are the sizes we get in every shop here so… :D We'll be starting off with Jacob's POV, viewing his thoughts on his almost kiss with Halo, the little cat fight and thoughts after. Lots of you requested for his POV, so here it is. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own the Twilight Saga.
Jacob's POV
God I was exhausted! Sam had given me the last shift for patrol and I had just finished. Apparently the entire pack was down at the beach, which was completely fine with me; I could use a little relaxation. The wind was blowing towards me, blowing the delicious scent of vanilla and cinnamon towards me. The scent seemed to be the only thing I could smell as I followed it to the beach. The aroma triggered a memory in me – the day I imprinted on Halo. It was her; she was the delightful fragrance that plagued my dreams and haunted every step I took. No! I don't even like vanilla that much. Bella's strawberry scent is way more appealing. Ah Bella…the smile that graces her face makes the butterflies in my belly go wild – what the fuck. Butterflies? In my belly? God I'm becoming such a pansy. But seriously, I would do anything for Bella. She's the perfect one for me, I don't know why the spirits chose Halo for me, it's just not right. Sure Bella loves that leech, but I know she feels something else for me, so I'm not giving up on her.
As I neared the pack, I saw Halo's body turn slightly in my direction, even though she was in deep conversation with Paul. She was getting awfully close with him. Does she have feelings for him? Does he have feelings for her? If he does any- no I don't care. I have Bella and that's fine with me; Halo can do whatever she likes. I reached our group and sat down, not saying a single word. I looked at Halo and saw that she was really happy here. But there as something in her eyes, something that made my heart throb. I want us to at least try and be friends, so I got up and asked her if she would go on a walk with me. At first she shook her head and continued her conversation, but I kept insisting and she eventually sighed and got up.
We were walking in silence and it was starting to get a little awkward. "Can we just start over?" I exclaimed. She looked at me in surprise but gave me a small nod, shock still evident on her face. "Hi, I'm Jacob Black." I greeted, feeling like an idiot.
"Hi, I'm Halo Shaw. Nice to meet you." She said, smirking a little. We both stared at each other, trying to keep in our laughter, but we failed. "Sorry, but that was stupid. I don't think that's even remotely possible, what with you being on your man-period half the time." She teased, a giant grin on her face. She's really beautiful when she smiles. I chuckled and shook my head at her. The wind picked up and seemed to get stronger. Sadness rushed through me as I realised I could no longer feel the cold. Sometimes, I wish to have my own life back, where there were no wolves or vampires. It would have been just me and Bella, living our life together, our happy life. But the fucking bloodsuckers had to move back to Forks, triggering my first phase, making my life complicated as fuck. But there's nothing I can do about that now, but I'll keep fighting for Bella, for a choice.
Halo was shivering from the cold and my instincts told me to take her someplace warm, but I stifled those urges. "Are you cold?" I asked.
She rolled her eyes and replied. "No, I'm just working on this new dance move. It's called 'The Chihuahua'." I snorted and shuffled closer to her. Slowly I put my arm around her shoulders, drawing her closer to me. She stopped breathing and I could hear her heartbeat rising.
"Better?" I murmured. She just nodded and turned her head to look at me. I didn't realise how close our faces were, till I looked into her eyes. They were so bright and beautiful. But Bella's were much better. Her eyes looked like two warm pools of hot chocolate, but Halo's looked like a stormy sky. So then why did I find myself inching closer and closer to her face? Stop it! Don't kiss her! Bella's lips are the only ones you should want! But the connection between my brain and my body had been disconnected. So close…
"Jake!" A voice called out. This voice usually had my heart beating faster, but right now, it just irritated me – wait – that's Bella! My mind screamed, and I realised what I was doing. I let go of Halo and jumped back a good ten ft. Crap! Did Bella see that? I really hope she didn't, she needs to know that she's the only one. I looked at Halo with hate, hoping she got the message that I didn't want her. Bella ran up to me and hugged me. I wrapped my arms around her and couldn't help but think that she was too thin for my liking. She didn't have mouth-watering curves like Halo – but it doesn't matter, because she's beautiful to me.
"Hey beautiful." I whispered with love. Halo glanced at Bella and a sudden look of anger crossed her face, before turning into one of pain. She clutched her stomach and began walking away from us. I turned my attention to Bella and smiled at how cute she looked. We linked hands and slowly began walking towards the pack. "So what are you doing here Bells?"
"Well, Edward said I could visit you if I liked, so I decided to surprise you." She said softly. She was so gentle and soft, whereas Halo was rough and loud. My mind went back to what she had just said. Edward let her visit me? He doesn't fucking own her! She should be able to come see me whenever she likes.
"That's really nice Bella." I said, looking down at her with a loving smile. When we reached the pack, the guys were shaking, glaring at me and Bella. Halo put her hand on Paul's arm and it calmed him down a little. That little action sent jealousy coursing through my veins, making me want to rip Paul's arm off. Bella didn't seem to notice and blushed when she looked at the pack. Aw she's so cute. Halo, however, was looking at her in disbelief.
"Hi Halo." Bella greeted. Halo just scoffed and turned to Paul, getting up with him and walking towards the shore. She's so rude! She doesn't have to be a bitch to Bella just because I chose her.
"It's rude to not respond to someone, especially when they're being nice." I gritted out in a steely voice. She stopped walking and turned around, casting a murderous glare on us.
"This." She said gesturing to her face. "Is the expression that says 'I don't give a fuck'. You see Jacob; I'm a very real person. I'd rather be rude than fake." She said bitch-ily and Bella clung to me, closer than before. It made me feel good knowing that she felt safe around me.
"I was just trying to be nice." Bella said nervously. Halo was scaring her! "I get that you hate me but I was trying to be your friend and I would really appreciate it if you'd try as well." She said sweetly. I don't understand what Halo's beef is with Bella; she's trying to be nice. Even when she knew that Halo was my imprint, she was kind towards her.
"Me? Hate you? Come on, I have better ways to spend my life. The only way I can save energy is to pretend that you don't even exist." My gaze snapped to her face, anger and disbelief radiating off my skin. The pack was laughing uncontrollably, even Emily was smiling. Bella's face was red with embarrassment. How dare Halo embarrass Bella in front of everyone? That's just low. Halo just smirked and continued walking with Paul. Bella stepped forward and grabbed Halo's forearm. Halo flipped around and glared at her hand.
"Look, I don't know what your problem is but I was just being polite okay? There was no need for you to insult me like that!" Bella said, wounded by Halo's behaviour towards her. Halo however, was just staring at her hand, ignoring everything she was saying. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to take Bella away, but I also wanted her to teach Halo a lesson.
"Let go of my hand." Halo said coolly. She looked calm, but I could feel the frustration rolling off her body.
Bella just smiled at her and that's when I intervened. She was going to get hurt. Halo was going to hurt my Bella, and there's no way I'm going to allow that. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and pulled her back a little, telling her to let go, but she wouldn't listen. The coppery scent of blood wafted through the air, making my wolf growl in anger. I looked down at Halo's forearm, only to see tiny streaks of blood oozing out from beneath Bella's nails.
Halo stared into her eyes and whispered, "Don't do something you'll regret Bella. Let go of me or things are going to get ugly." But still Bella didn't let go.
Holy crap what do I do? Somehow, I knew that Halo was on the edge of her breaking point, so I spat out, "Halo, if you so much as move a hair on her head, I'll-"
Before I could finish my sentence, Halo's hand had smacked Bella right across the face. Everything went silent, the tension rising. I was livid, furious. She had hit my Bella! Suddenly I was in front of Halo, grabbing her upper arms and shouting in her face.
"How dare you slap her?! Who the fuck do you think you are huh?!" All of a sudden, Halo's eyes glazed over, and it seemed like she was seeing something completely different. She screamed and screamed, punching relentlessly at my chest. I was horrified but still so angry that I couldn't let go. Paul lunged at me, tearing me away from her.
"Halo! Let go of her you asshole!" He screamed at me, gathering Halo in his arms and gently stroking her hair.
"Halo? I'm so sorry!" I exclaimed, finally realising what I'd done. Paul growled at me when I took a step closer, making my wolf growl murderously. How dare he stop us from getting to our imprint?! She's mine! It screamed. I looked around to see that the entire pack had surrounded Halo, protecting her. My wolf whined as it realised what they were shielding her from. They were protecting her against me. I wanted nothing more than to scoop her up in my arms and take her far away from all this pain. I was about to take another step when Bella burst into tears. I forgot about everything and immediately rushed to her side. She showed me the left side of her face, which was now a bright red. I pulled her close to me and we slowly began walking up the hill.
We were walking in silence when we were stopped by a hard voice. "Hey!" Halo yelled in our direction. We turned around and looked at her. Dry tears stained her cheeks, her eyes swollen and red. She glanced at Bella and said, "You won okay? Have him, I don't want him. But know one thing. If you touch me one more time, I will have no problem dislocating your fucking jaw." Fine. She doesn't want me. That's exactly what I wanted. I wanted her to keep living her life and forget all this. She's doing exactly what I wanted. Then why did her words cause bullets of pain to shoot through my heart? Why did it make me want to fall to my knees and beg for her forgiveness? She then walked right up to me, pain etched into every feature of her angelic face.
"Don't come that close to me ever again, unless you want your balls sitting in a jar." She threatened, spinning on her heel and walking back towards the pack. I just stared at her retreating back, the tug in my heart becoming more and more insistent. I took a deep breath and began walking back up the hill, too absorbed in my own thoughts to check if Bella was still there. She caught up to me and put her arm around mine but I shook her off. She looked at me with hurt eyes and I immediately felt like an ass.
"I'm sorry Bella. I've just got too much on my mind right now. I'll walk you up to the border. You bloodsucker is probably waiting for you." I said.
"I'm sorry for ruining today. I was just trying to be nice to her, but I don't know what her problem is." She whimpered. I just shushed her and hugged her. Poor Bella, she didn't deserve this to happen to her.
We walked in silence the rest of the way, but my mind kept thinking about Halo. Her hands will be all bruised tomorrow. Does she hate me? Of course she does, you were about to kiss her and then you left her behind. I groaned in frustration and I saw that the treaty line was not that far away. As expected, the walking disco-ball was pacing way too fast to be considered human. I ignored the leech and hugged Bella goodbye. She walked over to his side and gave him a kiss. Ouch, that hurt. That's probably how Halo feels when you ditch her for Bella. Just saying, but you're probably the worst imprinter in history. Edward glanced at me and smiled.
"You better watch out Jacob. If you keep this up, you'll lose something – and when you do, you'll suffer." With that he walked away, dragging a confused Bella behind him.
Stay out of my head you son of a bitch! My mind screamed.
I grumbled and kicked a tree trunk, making it groan and creak. There was so much confusion and anger in me. And because of who? Halo! I burst out of my clothes, howling in pain and frustration. I charged for Emily's house, needing to talk to her. I phased behind a tree and marched into the house. With one look at me, Emily ordered everyone to go outside. Once I knew they were out of earshot, I collapsed on the couch, burying my face in my hands. Emily sat beside me, rubbing my back in a motherly fashion.
"What happened Jake?" She asked with concern.
"I don't know Emily. Everything is piling on top of me and I feel so suffocated. There's Bella, then the bloodsuckers, my dad, school and now there's Halo. She's bothering me so much! I never wanted to imprint on her, I wanted to imprint on Bella. Now she's in my life and she's constantly going to be in danger." I rambled out my frustrations.
"Jacob I get everything except the Halo thing. Why can't you just accept her and move on from Bella. You have a gift – a gift that allows you to find your soul mate. Someone that will always be by your side, through thick and thin. You've found that person, yet you're unwilling to let go of your past. How do you think Halo must feel? Have you ever even thought about what she feels? She has just moved to this place to get some peace, to get away from her old life, and already there are two people that hate her for no reason." I looked at her, wondering who the second person is. "Come on Jake. Don't tell me you're that clueless. Bella hates her too. And for what reason? She hates Halo because she knows she's a threat to your relationship. From the moment you first imprinted on her, you've been treating her like she's nothing more than shit on the bottom of your shoe." I stared at Emily in shock; she never swears. "That 'almost-kiss' today was bringing her hopes up and then you slashed them down when Bella came into the picture. So tell me Jacob, who exactly is the sufferer here? How is what you're doing, fair to anyone?" She questioned. I could see the anger on her face, threatening to lash out at me. She calmed down a little and asked, "Why are you so against imprinting Jacob. Is it really that bad?"
"I wanted a choice dammit!" I yelled. "I wanted to imprint on someone I knew, someone I was already in love with. Bella was always there, even before I became a wolf. My feelings for her are real, they're not fabricated by some connecti-"
Emily cut me off. "Is that what you think it is? Fake love? Jacob…" She sighed, exhaustion showing on her face. "Imprinting is like a sign. It points you towards the right direction, and it gives you a choice. If you don't want to follow it, then don't. But think of Halo, and what that might do to her. You're playing with fire Jake, and you're losing control of it. You don't fall in love with your imprint the second you see her; you begin to fall in love with her once you get to know her. But you're not even willing to give Halo a chance because you're too caught up with Bella. Open your eyes and see Bella for who she really is. Is she really worth all this pain, because at the end of the day, she's using you, and you know it." She got up and went to the kitchen, starting on dinner. I got up silently, Emily's words bouncing around in my head. I phased before I even reached the forest, Halo's tear streaked face being all that I could see.
Halo's POV
I knocked on Emily's door, needing to urgently talk to her. She opened the door with a smile, but tiredness was clear on her face. "Hey Emily, I was wondering if I could talk to you about something. Is this a good time, or should I come back later?"
She just shook her head at me and pulled me inside the house. "Tell me Halo, what's on your mind."
"Okay, I'm going to be straight forward about this. Why does-"
"Why does Jacob hate you so much?" She finished for me. I nodded and she motioned for me to sit on the couch. "Ok I want you to just listen ok?" I nodded once again and waited for her to continue. "When Jacob was very little, his mom died in a car accident. Soon after, when his older sisters were able to, they left him and his dad, claiming that there were too many painful memories." I looked at her with shock. I had never heard about Jacob's life before. "You know how Jacob became friends with Bella. He developed feelings for her even before he phased for the first time, up until the moment he imprinted on you. The second he looked into your eyes, his feelings for Bella had evaporated, only leaving a connection with you. He was never in love with Bella, he was simply holding onto Bella because she's the only reminder he has of his normal, old life. He never asked for this life, yet he got it due to his genes, something he could not control. He's been hurt many times before in his life Halo, and he's afraid of being left again. He doesn't want to get close to you because he's afraid of feeling something for you and eventually forgetting about Bella. I also think that he's holding Bella so close to him because he wants to save her humanity. She wants to be one of them – a vampire." I scoffed in disgust. Why the fuck would you want to be something that only ever thinks about blood. She'll be a monster; well more than what she is now. "He lost his mom, his sisters left him and now the one he 'loves' wants to be something he is bound to hate."
"Emily…" I sighed. "I never knew about that. That's so horrible, having to go through all that. But… why does he have to treat me so badly? There are times where he is so sweet and nice, like earlier today, and then there are times where it seems like he wants to kill me."
"He was such a happy person. That person is who you see when he's happy and kind. The other Jacob is a result of Bella and Edward. Please believe in him Halo. He'll realise what he's doing is terrible and he'll see Bella for who she really is. Please stay strong Halo, he'll come around."
I smiled sadly at her and replied. "I'm not worried about myself. I'm worried that the bitch will damage him so much, that the shred of his former self will be destroyed."
A.N. There you go! That's what Jacob was thinking and as you can see, he's very confused. They both get wise words from Emily, but will they act upon those words? Now I remember saying that Bella is 19 so the graduation party will be for Halo, Jacob etc. Alice will want to throw them a party and Jacob will go for Bella, so then everyone will have to go. Edward will promise Bella to change her graduation but then the newborn shit will be introduced. Let me know what you think!