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Original story idea from Ookami21Kage in 'Not a curse for some'
Thank you BTW
I was kindly granted artistic licensing from this wonderful author to use her story and let me write about it. A lot has changed from the original. I just liked the idea. Poor Jacob pregnant and roaming, it's original and well you can do anything to it if you wanted.
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Edward POV
Jacob's heart started pounding and his color drained at his father's question.
Edward! I…I can't tell him. It'll kill him. I...I can't do that to him. You're the only one who knows exactly what he did. I don't want anyone to know. Please. I… I feel dirty and stupid and used already. I don't want the pity or hate or disgust that will come from others knowing. Please…Please!
I nodded as Jasper's voice drifted to my head.
I've never felt so many emotions, mostly negative. Hate, self loathing, shame, disgust, betrayal, fear, panic.
Jesus Edward, calm him down. I can't influence him like this. There's too much coming at me, I can't get a lock on any one emotion.
"Billy," I spoke softly looking at Jake while I stroked across his forehead to his jaw.
"Jacob really doesn't want anyone to know," I turned to Billy now, "exactly what happened. And I don't know all of it, but with what I do know, it's taking everything I am to keep from hunting Sam down and destroying him myself. It was rape," Jake flinched while I said this. I turned back to Jake and gently stroked his cheek again, trying to convey my feelings and support for him in a single touch.
"Jake asked him multiple times to stop. Sam told Jake that he was Jake's alpha and that as his alpha he was basically ordering Jake to let Sam do that. Jake's asked me not to tell you details so I won't, but wait until they change, I'm sure that you can get it out of one of the others." Billy nodded and let his sorrowful gave fall upon his son.
"What happened after you ran, Jake? How did you get to England?"
"I just ran; I was only in wolf when I was running. I snuck onto a ship; I didn't know where it was going but I didn't care, I just needed to get away. I'm not even sure how long it took. I got off and stumbled around until I found a park. I slept and hunted there for what I guess was a few weeks. Then I wandered away from the city, I was so tired that I fell asleep between a couple of bushes. Next thing I knew Edward was there."
Jasper and I spun off into what happened from that point on. Billy seemed surprised that I would help Jacob; I could also tell that he was pissed at Sam.
"Billy, could you tell us everything you know about imprinting?" Carlisle asked.
"Basically, the wolf spirit inside finds his mate. Most of the time the person doesn't need to be in their wolf form to imprint. Jacob, because you are pregnant there is a chance that you didn't actually imprint. Because Edward was taking care of you, helping you while you are pregnant, the wolf only imprinted because he was weak and Edward was being a strong mate. With you being the rightful Alpha your wolf is the oldest of our tribe. He has decided to take Edward as a mate, claim the strongest around. Edward was the first to protect you, which is why you imprinted…technically it's not even imprinting."
"But I was helped 2 times before and I was a wolf around many people while I was in the park. I stayed wolf for two weeks. That's how Sam found me, I think."
"What do you mean you were helped while in wolf form?"
"I was in the park hunting in the surrounding forest one afternoon. I was stalking a deer, but before I could get it, a hunter shot it. He heard me close and aimed at me. Another hunter that came upon us stopped him, and I whimpered looking at the buck. It was the second day I was there in the park and it had taken most of my energy to change; I was failing by then. The hunter that stopped the man from shooting me let me take the buck and watched as I ate. I looked at him many times and I didn't imprint on him. They were around 21 and 26."
"Then… maybe you did actually imprint on him."
"Billy, Jacob couldn't hear the others when he was changed after he imprinted on me. I'm not sure if it was because he imprinted or that he was so far away from home."
"I could hear the others just before I looked up at you, then I imprinted. That was when I lost the connection. I could hear everyone in my head while I was in the park."
"Why would the connection just stop?" Jasper asked.
"Because Jake felt alienated from the pack and he has a new one growing inside of him. When he imprinted, he found his beta, and his pups became his new pack."
"What if I still want to be friends with some of the others? It's Sam that I'm scared of. I want to be apart of the pack still."
"Jake, son this is a situation that we have no complete information on. Understanding will come as the situation develops, so we'll have to figure this out as we go. I do not want you near Sam. I need to figure out what is going on with him, and then make the decision with the rest if he should be banished from the tribe or allowed to stay. If you want to be apart of the pack again, I have two rules. First, you need to discuss it with your mate. Second, it will not happen until the pups are able to shift to human form."
"As long as your senses are back to normal, and you are sure that is what you want, then I'm okay with it. I invite anyone you want over, but Sam. I'd be okay with you crossing the border, but Sam is there. He is unstable, and we are unsure of what he will do. If what I know of blood bonds is true, it's like a brother correct?" I looked to Billy, who nodded.
"But this seems different. Something seems different about this relationship. I have a feeling it has to do with you being the rightful Alpha of the pack. I think his impregnating you turned him almost into a lover of sorts, it made the relationship into the Alpha and Beta couple. But I could be wrong; all that was going through Sam's mind when he attacked was 'Protect Jacob, get him home'."
"That could mean anything, I agree, but this does seem different. A lot of times those impregnated against their will or on accident tend to leave the pack, but the way Sam is acting seems off. I will talk with him. Edward, I understand that being the imprintee, your feelings for Jake are just as strong as his, and with what Bella had told us of you, you're very protective of those you care for. If you wish to be present, or question Sam on your own, you are welcome."
"Thank you Mr. Black, but I'd be too temped to destroy him. Until we know for sure what is going on, I do not wish to break the treaty in anyway."
"Concerning the treaty, I wish for Jake to come and visit, but understanding your feelings, as long as you do not harm a human, then you are welcome upon our lands. All of the Cullens are. Please understand that this is going to be fought by some of the pack, but they will be told not to attack. If they do, I give you permission, with no harm to come to you, to disable that member. Do not do permanent damage. Causing confusion is the best method to disable the member and you may flee onto the land. Please call when you are coming, and do not come alone. My home will be neutral ground; no one may fight in anyway in my home. Carlisle, is it alright if my pack has freedom to come and see Jake at your home?"
"If it is alright with Jacob, then I have no problems with the other members of the pack or from the tribe coming to my home at anytime."
"I'm not sure right now. I'm not sure if I want them to see me pregnant, especially when Sam replays it in his mind a lot. I don't know if I can face them now."
I pulled my scared and hurt mate into my arms, and Jasper spoke again.
"Jake, this wasn't your fault. Don't feel shame for any of it. If you wish, I'll be there to help. Or kick them out."
Jake smiled up at Jasper, "Thank you."
"You're a member of the family, you're my brother already," Jasper smiled and ruffled Jake's hair.
"Billy, I'm willing to stand there beside you and use my gift to help when needed. I wish to be present for your talk with Sam. I'll be able to feel his emotions and feel if he is lying."
"Thank you… "
"Jasper," he finished off for Billy, and stood to shake his hand. Billy hesitated, not entirely trusting of the family, but he was willing to make an effort. After everything that had been shared with him, he believed Jacob had actually imprinted on me, but until Jacob and I were intimate, until we tried to complete the bond, we would not know for sure.
Edward, if you are listening, just wait until Jake is ready. He's going to have a hard time allowing you to be intimate with him, but I know what you'll be feeling and it will be hard, on you both. You'll feel as if you're being rejected and that you're unwanted. But it isn't true. With what Sam did to him, he's going to be skittish of being intimate, and it's going to make you feel that way. Take it slow and remember what you really feel now, and my words. Feel free to come to me for reassurance if you need. You're always welcome in my family. I expect you to take care of him, and if you don't, I'll let the pack loose on you. Please love my boy better than you loved Bella. Love him like your father loves your mother. Like I somehow know you can love him. Promise me?
"I promise to heed your advice. I promise and I deeply thank you."
Come to me later with Jasper. I wish to talk more about the imprinting; Jasper seems to care about Jacob and I don't want any of your family alone on my land.
"I agree; Jasper and I will meet with you later."
Why am I meeting him with you? Jasper asked.
"He wants to discuss the imprinting more. You're the only other one he believes really cares about Jake. That is the only reason that he trusts us to be alone with him, and he doesn't want any one of us to be alone on his land," I said at vampire speed and in a tone that only my family could hear.
"Esme has cooked some spaghetti and Alice made a Caesar salad. Dinner is ready for you in the kitchen. Do you wish us to leave for your privacy or are you comfortable having everyone in the house? The wolves are welcome to eat as well," Carlisle told Billy.
"I want Jacob to have some time with his father alone. If the others want to eat, then they can but away from Jacob and his father," I spoke.
Billy looked at me and a smile almost graced his lips.
"Is there a private area where Jacob and I can eat? Edward you're welcome to join us."
I very much appreciated the gesture and I shook my head in response.
"No, you two need some father-son time. I offer you my room; Jasper or I can get you up the stairs and any of us are just a call away for anything that you need."
"Thank you."
I smiled and he told me it was alright if I helped him up the stairs. If Billy was going to be a large part of our home, I'd need to suggest to Carlisle a chair lift or elevator. For Billy's independence, respect, and comfort.
Once I had Billy up into my room, I quickly cleaned off the table I had in the corner and placed it in the middle of the room. I pulled the couch over to the table. With a quick kiss to Jake's cheek I left them just as Esme and Alice brought up the meal they had prepared.
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