Disclaimer: Its still in the first chapter like always.
It was his fault…
Every time he stepped into the room, every time he looked at her or Rei's face, it couldn't help but feel like he failed them both…
Shinji looked at Asuka's pale face, as the beep of the life support system continued to fill the room, the boy reached out and touched her hair, being extremely careful not to touch the tubes coming from her mouth or nose.
"Would you still think of me as a killer after I destroy Unit 01?"
Shinji pushed the chair back to where it originally was and prepared to exit the room, but not without speaking to his fellow pilot first, "…Just know that I care…I don't like blood!! As a matter of fact I don't even like to hurt people!!" he took a few breaths and calmed himself, and lowered his voice, "…Why is it everybody else is innocent…I'm the only one with blood on my hands."
He felt like a fool, he already knew the answer to those questions, but he just lied to himself to fell better and try to shake off the feeling of guilty.
He fought and killed because of the rush, be it angel or man, innocent or guilty, he killed just so he could see the look on their faces. Yes, the look that begged for mercy.
Shinji looked around the hospital room, every wall was white, to be more specific eggshell white.
White the color of innocence, the pure untainted color…
But for a certain boy, it was just too much, the walls seemed like they were beginning to close in on him. Like they wanted to wash him of his sins, and make everything better, or crush him because of the wrongs he committed.
He had to get out.
So he did the second thing that came to mind…he ran.
As he ran through the halls of the medical ward, Shinji thought with a bit of disgust that the first thing to come to mind was to fight.
He ran until his heart felt like it was going to burst though his chest, he needed to return to the shadows that would welcome his darkness…he just couldn't stay in a place surrounded by innocence.
Shinji looked at the small staircase and hid under it, holding his knees to his chest, the boy couldn't help but feel lost.
And he felt even more lost when the alarms started to go off, making the shadows he hid in turn red one second and the black in another.
Shinji felt something was out of place, he reached in his pockets and then the forgotten object came to mind, 'Oh shit!! I left my phone in Asuka's room…'
"I'm useless…"
When he heard footsteps approaching, he pressed his back against the wall retreating even farther into the shadows, '…Probably somebody to tell me how useless I am or something'
"The Third Child has been spotted. Yes sir." When Shinji noticed that what the men were wearing wasn't Nerv uniform, he started to get worried, and he almost completely panicked when he saw the guns they held in their hands.
The man with only a handgun stood in front of Shinji, and took aim, "…I'm sorry kid, its nothing personal."
He fired.
Shinji couldn't express how much that hurt, the only reason he didn't get shot directly in the between the eyes was because he moved at the last moment, surprising the men, but getting gunpowder in your eye hurt in a way words couldn't describe.
"That fucking hurt!!"
"…Oh shit, these children are really demons!!"
The man who all but screamed that last statement got a bullet implanted in the side of his head, a spilt-second afterwards his eyes rolled into the back of his head and fell to the ground.
The two other men, returned fire as soon as the man fell to the floor, only for one of them to be shot directly in the eye.
Misato ran up to the man nearest Shinji and knocked him into the wall causing him to drop his gun, "Its nothing personal…"
She pressed the trigger causing blood and brain matter to splatter on the wall.
Shinji crawled out from under the staircase still holding his eye; Misato was on his side in a matter of moments asking him if he needed help.
When he shook his head, Misato checked one of the soldiers for a radio, upon finding one on the guy who she last shot, she used it contact Nerv Headquarters.
"We need a way to Unit 01."
/Most of the paths are cut off, you are going to have to take the car elevator then take route 31/
Misato gave Makato a quick thank you and her and Shinji was off.
~*~*~*~
"I'm useless…"
Depth charges were blowing up on the side of her causing the Eva to shake.
"…Why can't I die?"
…because I love you…
"…I don't want to be here…"
…I want you here…
"…Why do they all hate me…?"
…I don't…
"…Who will love me…?"
…I always will…
"I always will…"
"I ALWAYS WILL!!"
Asuka eyes snapped open, as the noticed where she was, "…My entry plug…"
The young girl screamed as another depth charge exploded causing the Eva to tremble once more, "I can't do anything…I can't pilot"
"Let me help you….", Asuka eyes got several sizes larger as she figured out who the voice belonged to, the young girl closed her eyes as she felt her mother's comforting embrace surround her.
When she opened her eyes she was in complete control of Unit 02, at first she took a few steps…then she did a back flip, Asuka smiled as she played in her Eva despite the depth charges exploding around her.
Unit 02 looked up at the ship above that was dropping the depth charges, using its AT field in the same was as the 13th and propelled itself upward.
As it crashed through the ship, Unit 02 lifted both halves and used it to stop the missiles that were heading towards it.
Tossing the ship aside, Unit 02 went on a rampage as it stepped on the soldiers and threw the tanks at the heavy artillery.
Using her AT field, Asuka sliced the helicopters in half and watched as they fell in the lake, and she crushed the ones that didn't blow up.
Once again propelling herself into the air, by using the AT field, Asuka smiled as she felt the wind on her face even though she was in the entry plug.
She felt free.
In the distance she could see more aircrafts heading in this direction, and the seemed to be bringing…Eva's.
~*~*~*~
"Alright Shinji, the elevator is down this path."
Still holding his eye, Shinji looked around and didn't notice the soldiers until the shots were heard.
Before Shinji could fully grasp the situation, Misato jumped in front of him.
And like so many things times before, everything happen in a flash.
He saw the blood on the back of her jacket.
He watched as she dropped her gun and started to fall to the ground.
Shinji picked up the gun and shot.
And he kept of shooting till he heard the click.
Both of the remaining soldiers retreated leaving one of their own in a pool of his blood.
"…Shinji…the code to the elevator is 3471."
Shinji looked at Misato, who was pushing herself off the ground. Shinji stopped worrying about his eyes as he helped Misato up.
As they moved towards the door, which was only a few feet away, Shinji tried his best to ignore the trail of blood coming from Misato.
Upon reaching the door, Misato handed Shinji her Nerv id card and waited for him to slide it across the electronic lock. Once granted access, Shinji half carried and half dragged Misato into the large room with only a single elevator.
Shinji turned his head as Misato coughed up more blood, "Shinji…remember you…have to destroy Unit 01…"
She limped to the control panel of elevator and keyed in the code and waited for it to open, "…Shinji I'll stay here and make sure no one tries to get on the elevator…"
The forced smile on her face almost made Shinji cry, he knew she was trying to make it so he could leave her here to die…he didn't want to see her like this.
The beep the elevator stopped the flood of pity for Misato that was washing over him, "…Its here Shinji…"
"Misato I'm not getting on the elevator without you."
The smile on her face disappeared and was replaced with shock as Shinji stood their staring at her.
"…Shinji…"
The boy helped her up and the both entered the elevator, Misato slumped down in the corner as the elevator started to descend.
"Shinji…I don't think…"
She trailed off, both of them knowing what she meant.
And that ended anything conversation that might have happened, after a while Shinji stepped out, dragging Misato.
For a moment he thought his mind was deceiving him, but the coldness of Misato's skin made him remember this was reality.
Shinji's frustration and anger came out in a loud angst-ridden scream.
Misato was dead.
And Unit 01 was incased in bakelite.
It couldn't get any worse…
All of a sudden Maya' voice flowed over the intercom, "Shinji…Asuka…Asuka…is…"
When she broke down crying Shinji got the idea, for the umpteenth time in his life everything went straight to hell.
Shinji turned around and took another glance at the trapped Unit 01.
He failed without even getting a chance to try…
"…I lost…"
And so he sat there and cried, he didn't care anymore, he didn't care about the tears of blood coming from his eye, he didn't care about living and he almost didn't care about getting revenge, until Unit 01's hand burst out of the bakelite.
~*~*~*~
Hell…
It's a place where the devil rules the land as the demons torture the bad people that end up there.
…But if they were fighting angels, then of course, demons had to be worst by far.
Yes, one may have considered the Eva series to be demons, but as Unit 01 burst out of the Geo Front, he was a devil with wings.
Shinji not forgetting Misato's plea, summoned the Lance of Longinus, as the spear detached itself from the moon. Shinji started having last minute thoughts.
"…I really am going to die…"
…don't hate me, don't love me, don't touch me, don't hug me…
Shinji swore he heard voices coming from inside the entry plug but he simply dismissed it as paranoid. He could see the spear in the distance, coming forth with speeds that cough match the speed of sound.
He took a glance around only to see the remains of Unit 02 falling out the mouth of Unit 05.
"…I don't want to die!! I'm going to kill them all!!"
Shinji began to move Unit 01 but the promise he made to Misato kept him in the same position, besides it was for the…greater good.
…don't hit me, don't hurt me, don't wait, don't leave…
The pilot turned around only to see nothing but LCL. He was on the thin line between sanity and insanity and he wasn't going to let some voices make him lose it.
As Shinji waited he couldn't help but grow mad at himself for not being there for Asuka, he just wanted to rip at least a few arms off, no, he wanted to pull out the spines.
The boy shook his head; he couldn't break his promise, even if it meant his own death…
"...I have to do this…"
Shinji tensed up when he felt arms around him and could see a cloudy figure of a woman in the LCL. He almost screamed as its hair brushed up against his ear.
…don't kill me…
The lance stopped mere centimeters away from Unit 01's neck…
As Unit 01 grabbed the spear out of mid-air, the boy in the entry plug simply started to laugh, and once again the twisted smile appeared on his face.
He laughed as the Eva's series spears bounced of his AT field, he laughed as he drove the lance through Units 7, 6, and 11 at the same time, and he laughed as he ripped Unit 9's head off and drove the lance into where the neck used to be.
He even took the time to make a drawing on Unit 05's chest after he ripped all of its extremities off.
Before he knew what happened he had a spear going through each of Unit 01's hands, and the remaining Eva's bite the wings as they all raised higher into the air.
Even though the pain in his hands were so painful that the nerve ends became paralyzed, he didn't take notice to the red spots in the center of his palms or did he care about the Eva's that held onto his wings…
All he noticed was Unit 10 holding the lance of Longinus in front of his chest, what shocked him most was the way the armor fell off revealing the core of the purple Eva.
"…I'm sorry Misato."
The moment the lance came into contact with the core, Unit 01 turned into the tree of life.
Blinded by the red substance covering Unit 01's line of vision, Shinji could only cry because of his selfishness…
He may have started the beginning of the end, otherwise known as the Third Impact.
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May sorries, I send about chapter nine, it was the worse, I even did in my opinion…-_-'
Since my pre-reader is a very busy person, I decided to look over this myself, and I may just do the same to chapter nine also.
The strange thing about this chapter was that I did it before chapter nine, and I feel that I messed up bad somewhere, but chapter 10 and 11 are my favorite chapters in the world, second only to my first story…~_~
And a quote for the wise, "Everybody is intelligent, most just lack the means to express their brilliance." ~ Chibi Fenrir