Leave my loneliness unbroken..."
-Edgar Allan Poe
A/N: Sorry I haven't updated sooner. I have been writing away and just got carried away. I'm not into long drawn on kidnappings so Londyn's rescue is coming soon. I also want to point out that this will not be a love triangle. I just wanted to give Bucky and Londyn a little connection for a sequel that may or may not be in the works but I am determined to finish this story first and my Saving Me story. I haven't posted it on this site because well I'm lazy. But it's on my account same pen name. I know it's a little short but I didn't want to dive to deep into Bucky's romantic feelings. Anyway so sorry for the delay. Next chapter will be up no later than Friday. As always enjoy.
Londyn knew she wasn't suppose to be up here but she couldn't help it. She was curious. She wanted to at least see what Steve's friend looked like in person. She had heard he was a brainwashed super-soldier, one that her husband had helped maintain control over. She wanted to see an actual victim. She needed to at least meet him and explain to him how sorry she was for not seeing the bad side of the love of her life. So here she was standing in front of the containment room with a tray of food and a few books to read.
Looking through the two-way window Londyn's eyes fell upon the dark haired stranger casually lounging in a chair that faced a window that overlooked the city. He was wearing a tank top and black sweatpants. She couldn't see his face but she could definitely make out the metal appendage he now called and arm. Lightly rapping her fingers on the glass to gain his attention, the soldier turned around and his stormy blue eyes met her wild green orbs.
"I brought you some food, if you're hungry." Londyn held up the tray to the window to show him he was telling the truth.
"Slide it under the door." Bucky turned back around and continued to stare out the window.
"Well you're not a dog I'm not going to slide you some food under the door. Besides i made some for me too I was thinking we could eat some lunch together…" Her voice trailed off as the man rose from his seat and walked over to the window.
"I don't want company. I rather be alone."
Londyn rolled her eyes.
"Nobody wants to really be alone. You just want to punish yourself. So you think that isolating yourself is going to make amends for all the things you've done and didn't do. Well it won't. It only makes the drop that much longer. It only makes the screaming from the fall last forever."
Bucky eyed her up and down. She was a very pretty girl. He could see why her name came up a lot when he and Steve actually had normal conversations.
"How would you know what falling is like?" His words held much malice but it didn't deter Londyn from replying.
"I was married to Brock Rumlow. I think i know a thing or two about falling." Londyn's eyes casted down to look at the food on the tray.
Bucky's eyes widened with surprise. She was living here in the tower so obviously if she was a terrible person she wouldn't be here unsupervised. He took a step back and gestured to the door. Londyn smiled up and him brightly and punched in the code to step into his room.
She walked over to the table and took a seat. Bucky joined her. Londyn busied herself with unloading the tray.
"I made some homemade mac and cheese. It's my grandma's recipe. I hope you like it."
Bucky picked up his fork and started eating. A comfortable silence passed between them.
"So I take it you snuck up here didn't you?" He asked between bites.
Londyn smirked.
"I did not sneak. I'm sure by now the A.I has alerted Tony and Steve.
Bucky nodded his head. He knew Steve was going to be pissed discovering her in here but figured the girl could definitely hold her own. He could easily see why Steve liked her. Even though the words were never spoken directly out of his mouth. He had known Steve all his life really. When Steve like a gal it wasn't hard to tell.
Londyn set down her fork and picked up one of the books she brought for him to read.
"I brought you some literature. It's nothing fancy but everyone should know the story of Harry Potter. At least read the books before you watch the movies. So you can feel all of your feelings."
Bucky let out a chuckle. She was absolutely adorable and a breath of fresh air. No one had even mentioned anything about the new age. Everything was about the past or his time spent in HYDRA. He welcomed her cheeriness.
"I'll take a look." He muttered and finished his last few bites of his food. Londyn cleared her throat and began to put all the used dishes back onto the tray. Just as she was about to speak up the doors flew open and in walked Tony and Steve.
"Londyn what do you think you are doing?" Steve asked with his eyes narrowed. Tony's own face mirroring Steve's.
Londyn gave her signature eye roll.
"I was having lunch until you two assholes came barging it like there was a fire." She shrugged her shoulders and turned back to Bucky and winked. He tried to stifle a chuckle but it didn't go unnoticed by Steve who sent him a death glare.
"You can't just steal my pass code and come in here like it's safe. You don't know Bucky and his condition what-"
Londyn stood up and help up her hand effectively silencing him.
"You're right I don't know Bucky. But i was trying to make a friend and cheer him up. I thought he could use a fresh face and an empathetic ear. Not some half placed super soldier and drunken vainglorious-superhero constantly pestering him. I figured I could cheer him up a bit about you know , with his depression and all. Talk about something other than HYDRA and his time in the 40's. You guys..." She motioned between him and Tony. "... no offense don't know the first thing about trying to make him at least smile. Something i think Ive done at least 2 times…"
"Three." Bucky interrupted her.
"Right three times since I've been here." She crossed her arms and placed all her weight onto her right leg.
"Besides you calling him dangerous, or at least were about to, he's hardly dangerous. He's just and emo. An emo who doesn't need us feeling sorry for him. Now get out because Bucky and I were going to discuss all things Harry Potter and if he's lucky I might just braid his hair."
Londyn motioned her hand for them to get lost. Tony let out a chuckle. Bucky with his hair braided would be a site to see.
"Oh and for the record Steve, you're birthday hardly constitutes as a 'pass code'" she used her hands to make air quotations. Steve turned around and scowled at her but kept his mouth closed.
"And Tony I expect him to have a room made up next to mine by the end of the day. That is all."
Londyn turned on her heels and faced Bucky. Her green eyes were full of mischief and Bucky couldn't help but feel a sense of peace gazing into them.
"Now where were we?" Londyn asked plopping herself down onto the couch pulling up her feet and getting comfortable.
Natasha watched as Bucky was in Londyn's room just looking through her picture albums. She had come to speak with him about a possible lead but the sight made her heart stop. After all she could see what no one else could. Buck was in love with his best friend. It was confirmed when he had punched Steve in the face hours earlier. Still no one else seemed to even notice.
"You know she is going to kill you for being in here when she gets back right." Natasha sauntered over and sat down on the bed next to him.
"She will threaten me and yell but I highly doubt she will kill me." Buck bit back.
"Bucky look I know you're upset with Steve but it's not his fault she's gone. The only person who is responsible is Brock. You know and HYDRA."
Bucky looked up at her his eyes holding back unspoken words. Londyn was his only reason for climbing out of his depression. She was his anchor. If they didn't find her soon he was dreading the man he would relapse into.
"I know Bucky. I know how you feel about her." Natasha decided to break the ice.
"You don't know anything." Bucky tried to steer the conversation away from where it was headed.
"Look. I know you love Londyn. I know you are in love with her. Do I know what kind of love that is? No, I can't say that I do but when she comes back you need to tell her."
Buck slammed the album closed.
"NO!" He growled out. "I will not take her away from Steve. He loves her and she loves him. I could never be the kind of man she deserves. I'm fine with her friendship. I don't want to ruin that. No matter how strong my feelings are. Steve is happy. I've never seen him so happy with a woman. Londyn actually smiles when she's with him. I can't come in between that."
Natasha stood up and walked back over to the door.
"I never said you had to. I only said you should get it off of your chest. The decision is yours. When you're done digging your grave you need to come join us in the interrogation room. The HYDRA agent we captured could have a lead as to where she is. I think you could coax it out of him."
Natasha left the room humming a tune to herself. Bucky picked up a picture that had fallen out of the photo album. It was of him and Londyn last Halloween. She decided they were going to dress alike. He was dressed as Gomez from the Addams family and she was dressed as Morticia. They had won the contest Stark had put on. He grabbed the picture and tucked inside of his combat jacket. Rising up he headed towards the makeshift jail cell, Natasha's words weighing heavy on his heart.