Todd sat at the kitchen table in the Brotherhood house staring at the table top, waiting for Lance who was leaning against the counter to say something. Todd had been released from the hospital the day before, two days after he had woken up. Todd had been mostly quiet since he got home. He didn't know what he was suppose to say, not to his team, not to Kurt, not to anyone. His team looked at him differently now and Kurt only stared at his arms and wrists.
"Kurt's coming over today" Lance told him.
"Why?" Todd asked, usually Kurt asked Todd if he could come over or told Todd if he was coming over.
"I asked him to, Me and Pietro have to go grocery shopping, Fred's got detention, and Wanda's got a date" Lance replied.
"So he's babysitting me?" Todd snapped at him, annoyed and angry.
"Damn it Todd! You can't be left alone" Lance said.
"Why not? I can take care of myself, I've done it before" Todd argued.
"Because the last time you were here alone you almost killed yourself. The doctor said it herself you got lucky, you do it again you might not be so lucky" Lance told him trying not to yell at the younger boy.
"I already said I'm not going to try it again" Todd said.
"I know that, but I cant take the chance Todd. Until I'm sure you won't do it again somebody will always be here with you" Lance explained and Todd sighed knowing that he had lost.
"When's he coming?" Todd asked.
"In about an hour" Lance replied and Todd nodded standing up from his seat. "Where are you going?" Lance asked.
"My room" Todd replied. "Don't worry, I know the door stays open" Todd added after seeing the look Lance gave him. He wasn't allowed to be in his room alone unless the door was open and even then Lance looked in every few minutes. He hated that they couldn't just trust him, but he guessed he understood why they were doing what they were doing.
Once Todd was in his room he sat on his bed staring at the rug on the floor. He knew what was under that rug, of course he knew, he had been sitting in that spot when he had cut his wrists. He sighed and turned his gaze to the white bandages that still covered his arms and wrists. They doctor said they had to be changed every other day. Lance was the one who changed them because Todd couldn't do it with only one hand. Todd sighed and laid down on his bed deciding to take a nap for a little bit. He hadn't gotten much sleep the night before, he had stayed up drawing since he didnt feel like sleeping.
Todd was woken up by Lance shaking his shoulder with Kurt standing not too far from him and smiling slightly.
"We're leaving now, Kurt's here if you need anything" Lance told him and Todd nodded sitting up in his bed and stretching. Todd followed Kurt and Lance down the stairs where Pietro was waiting for Lance by the door.
"Bye Lance, Pietro" Kurt said and the two mutants nodded waving good bye to Todd and Kurt, Todd ignored them though as he sat on the couch.
"Is there anything you vant?" Kurt asked turning to face Todd.
"No" Todd replied and Kurt nodded sitting on the couch beside him.
"How are you?" Kurt asked after a few minutes of silence.
"Fine, I guess" Todd said shrugging his shoulders.
"Are zhey healing vell?" the fuzzy teen asked motioning to the bandages that covered both of Todd's arms.
"Yeah" He replied. "I miss you, you know? You haven't called or came over since I got out of the hospital. Do you hate me now?" Todd asked after a second before Kurt could say anything, Kurt gave him an incredulous look.
"Nein, of course I don't, I vill alvays love you Todd. I didn't know how to talk to you" Kurt admitted grabbing one of Todd's hands.
"Talk to me about what?" Todd asked looking up into the fake brown eyes of his boyfriends image inuced form. "Will you turn that thing off please? I like your natural form" Todd added pointing at Kurt's image inducer.
"Sure" Kurt replied turning off his image inducer so that his natural fuzzy blue form showed. Once he was in his natural form he looked back at Todd. "Better?" he asked and Todd nodded.
"Talk to me about what?" Todd asked again.
"Your note, vhat you said in it about zhe zhings you never told anybody, zhe secrets and vhy you felt like you couldn't handle your life" Kurt explained.
"Oh, you read it?" Todd asked and Kurt nodded.
"Vhat did you mean? Vhat secrets?" Kurt asked.
"I can't tell you" Todd whispered.
"Vhy not? I zhought you told me everyzhing" Kurt said.
"Because you wouldn't think of me the same way if I told you" Todd told the fuzzy teen.
"Nein, I vont, Todd" Kurt said grabbing the other boys hand in his. "I love you, you know zhat" Kurt added.
"Promise me you won't think differently of me?" Todd asked gripping Kurt's hand.
"I promise" Kurt replied and Todd nodded. Todd looked to the floor and took a deep breath, he had never told anybody what he was about to tell Kurt.
"My momma was a prostitute, she was one before I was born and she was one while I was growing up. She had no idea who my father was, just one of her clients. She brought her Johns to the house sometimes, she always told me to go in my room and don't come out until she came and got me. Sometimes I stayed in there for an entire day until my momma came. When I was little I didn't know what she was, she always called the guys 'work friends' when one of them was coming over. Didn't mean I didn't hear though, when I asked she told me that they were only playing a grown up game that I wasn't allowed to play until I was a grown up. I know now what was going on though" Todd told him.
"Vhy vould I zhink diffrently of you for zhat? It vasn't anyzhing you did" Kurt asked.
"I was scared that if people knew they wouldn't want to be around me anymore, coming from a home like that" Todd replied.
"I don't care vhat your mother did as a career, it has nozhing to do vith you" the fuzzy teen said.
"Thanks" Todd replied and Kurt wrapped his arms around him pulling him closer until he was leaning into Kurt's side.
"Is zhat all?" Kurt asked playing with Todd's hair absent mindedly.
"No, I'll tell you more later okay? I want to sleep right now" Todd said yawning and resting his head against Kurt's shoulder and Kurt chuckled.
"Zhat's fine, go to sleep" Kurt replied kissing the top of Todd's head as the other mutant drifted off to sleep.