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(Maka's POV)

(Maka's Soul)

My soul has never been the brightest, but its never been the darkest either. My soul is grey. No color. But I guess living your life in fear of yourself and hurting those you love dearest can make anyone's soul like mine. Lifeless.

The only time my soul has had anything but the color gray was when I met Angie. My anger and rage at those men made my soul turn bright blood red with black spots. That is something I never want to happen to me ever again. So since then I've learned just to not let my emotions control me like a normal person.

I guess some would call me a robot.

I would have to agree with them. But its not like I have no feelings. I do its just, I don't let them touch me like a normal person. But then again Half witch half grim reaper im not considered normal. Im an abomination. I shouldn't exist. Not in this life or in death. My place is nowhere.

(Soul POV)

I felt like I was floating around. I looked left to right and all I saw was grey, endless grey. I suddenly heard a voice. Not just any voice. Maka's.

'My place is nowhere'

Her voice sounded so empty so void of emotion. Like she doesn't have any.

The next thing I know I am standing in a small room that is filled with only two chairs, a little table and books on books. It was all gray. I was pushed to sit in the chair. The curtains parted and Maka walked out of them her face holding no emotion.

"What are you doing here?" She asked as she came closer to me. Behind her was a tiny little creature that was bright green, the only thing that had color.

"Your weren't waking up Angie suggested..." I trailed off as she laughed bitterly.

"Don't listen to what she said. You have no reason to be in my soul." She said and sat down in the chair that was opposite where I was seated. The little green creature hopped up on the little table that was between us.

"I have no reason. Maka you were in pain what was I supposed to do!" I shouted at her gripping the arm rests.

"Let me experience it." She said and clenched her hands. "Let me feel the pain. I deserve it. After all I am an abomination."

"Maka you aren't an abomination!" I shouted the little green thing as watching us fansicated.

"YES I AM!" Maka yelled angerly. The gray color disappeared and was replaced with red with black spots. Maka's eyes widened and she fell out of her chair and held her head in her hands.

"No not again!" She mumbled. I got out of my chair and brought her in my arms.

"Maka its okay." I said and she pushed me away making me fly two feet away. The red and black disappeared and was replaced with gray.

"No its not I let anger touch my soul. I don't let emotions touch my soul!" She spat out gritting her teeth.

"Maka thats no way to live!" I yelled and stood back up.

"Maybe not for you but its the only way to live for me." Maka said and turned away from me.

"You know back if you just gave into me it wouldn't be gray anymore. It could be purple or green," The green creature said and Maka turned her attention to it.

"Go back to hell where you came from demon. I will never give into you!" Maka yelled at the creature.

The demon grinned madly. "You will one day. They all do." It disappeared in a pool of a black substance.

Maka sighed in relief and turned back to me her features softer then when the demon had been here. "You can leave now. My pain is over." She said and disappeared.

I found myself disappearing to and waking back up.

(Out of Maka's Soul)

I blinked my eyes a couple of times and looked around. Everyone was asleep. (Stein left). I looked down and Maka was staring up at me.

"I appreciate you trying to help me but no one can help me soul. Not Angie, not Lord death, and not even you. All you can do is push back what will eventually happen." Maka whispered before closing her eyes and falling into a dreamless sleep.

I think this was one of my more depressing chapters so far, but I have a feeling it will only get more depressing (Maybe) I hope i don't ruin my laptop from my own tears.

~The Writer