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For those of you who love Dimitri and Rose, ther is an important message for you at the end oof this chapter!

We find out about Adrian in this chapter. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own nor claim Vampire Academy as my own, Vampire Academy belongs to Richelle Mead. I Ashleigh Wood claim this plot as mine and no one may copy any ideas from this story without my written permission.

Chapter 9

Previously on Gone forever?

"Everything is going to be alright. They are not going to hurt you anymore. You're safe I've got you!" he kept saying over and over. When I finally calmed down enough to speak, I said "It's not me that they were hurting it was you. You begged me to help you and I couldn't, you begged them to stop but they didn't. It was so horrible, they killed you!"By the end of the sentence I started sobbing again. Dimitri not letting his confusion hold him back, started to rock me again. He said comforting things in Russian.

I felt myself starting to drift off and I fell asleep in my comrade's arms!

Present...

The next morning I woke up groggily, I tried to roll over but was held back by big warm arms. I stiffened what the hell? Then I remembered waking up and seeing Dimitri and crying. I grimaced, I cried last night and in front of Dimitri. Why is he still here? Surely after I fell asleep he would have left. God that man is confusing.

First he tells me, no I have a girlfriend and then he says that he has only ever loved me and it's only me that ever made him feel loved and then tells me I'm on a jealousy trip. This man is making my head spin and toying with my emotions. "Mmmmh" he mumbled in his sleep and turned slightly. I looked over at him and sighed.

What am I going to do? What are we going to do? This whole situation blows! "God that sounded cliché" I shook my head. I tried to get up but Dimitri's arms tightened around me, "Dam!" Time to think, I could elbow him, no. Maybe I could wiggle my way out that seems safe. I took a deep breath, "OK, I can do this." I started to move my body up the bed.

I moved my body from left to right and started to slowly slide up the bed. Half way up and Dimitri woke up, "Rose, what are you doing? Where am I?" he asked looking around. Shit, "I need to pee!" I said while trying to keep a straight face. "Why are you in my room?" "I'm not?" it came out like a question as I was highly confused. "Dimitri, you're in my room. Last night..." I trailed off, not knowing what happened.

"Aaah yea." He said remembering. "I heard you screaming. So I came through and found Lissa sitting over you and trying to wake you up." I looked at him confused, not remembering Lissa there last night. "She was tired so I told her I would stay with you until you were alright, but I ended up falling asleep. Sorry I was going to leave once you fell asleep, but yea."

"It's ok but I still need to pee." I said. He gave me an odd look. I pointed to his arms which still rested around my waist. He released me immediately and apologised, I waved it off got out of the bed and ran into the bathroom across the hall. I didn't actually need to pee; I just needed to get out of the room and away from him. I needed to think without having him around to pull me away or distract me from my train of thought.

Ok what am I going to do about Dimitri? We couldn't go on the way we were, messing around and not really knowing what we were doing. We could ignore each other, that would just lead to a build up and we would explode or go crazy. But we could be mature and be friends, we could act civilised and be adults and talk about problems and work through them. I decided to talk to him and sort it out like the mature adult I was. Or was trying to be. "Then again Dimitri could do the right thing and dump her and be with you." that annoying little voice said, but it was right.

Yea I wish he would do that would make everyone's lives so much easier. I flushed the toilet to keep my cover and walked out. I carefully snuck up to my door and looked around the corner to see if he was still in there. Hey, just because I was going to talk to him and act like a mature adult around him doesn't mean I have to start acting like one now. I smiled when I saw the room empty, I was about to walk in when a voice asked "What are you doing?"

"Christian you scared the shit out of me." I said, turning around. Christian stood there looking at me; he was carrying a large bundle. He started laughing at me when I jumped about a meter in fright. "Just checking my room, you know you can never be too careful." "I see!" he said while giving me the Rose-is-crazy look. He turned and walked downstairs. I waited till he was downstairs until I got ready to take a shower. I dressed in the bathroom and walked downstairs to the kitchen but stopped around the corner when I heard Lissa, Dimitri, Adrian and Christian in a debate.

"I think it's a good idea." Lissa said.

"We should wait, I mean it's been three days and its bound to leave a mark, let's wait another week and see if she settles down before we start talking about counselling or medication." I heard Dimitri say.

I paled but continued to listen in, this whole situation reminding me of when I had confessed to seeing ghosts in the infirmary, "I hate to admit this but Belikov is right, we should wait and see if Rose settles down and if she doesn't then we can take it from there. Liss remember it's only been three days. Maybe at the end of the month we should decide on what action to take. But I don't think we should decide without Rose present. This is her we are talking about and we should allow her the choice on what action to take." Adrian said.

I was shocked, Adrian had said a very good point and I hoped that they listened to him. "No, I'm still going to talk to Doctor Reddy." Lissa stated. I heard someone sigh and then Dimitri say, "Lissa, if Rose finds out about you talking to a psychologist about her she is going to shut down and not talk to anyone about it. We should wait; she will open up soon and talk to someone. Maybe it might be you but if you go and talk to the doctor, it won't be you. It won't be anyone." He sounded defeated towards the end.

He was right, if I had to go and talk to a doctor or a psychologist person, I would mess them around and not tell them anything. What happened to me, I need to deal with not someone else. I have too much on my plate and worrying about what Lissa is going to do or what she is going to meddle in, is just too much. I have to worry about the fact that I didn't escape, that Jason and Blake are up to something. Also, I have to figure out what's going between Dimitri and me.

I backed up slowly and walked out the back door, trying to avoid the gang. I stood on the back porch and looked at the garden. It was dark outside and the moonlight barely lit the garden and it was covered in shadows. There was no sound, complete silence. The only thing that proved that it was real and not some illusion was a breeze that blew through from between the trees. It was so peaceful and tranquil, quite the comparison from the stress I have experienced over the past how many years. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the moment, knowing that this peace would not last long and that something, more like someone, was going to end it soon.

About ten minutes later, I heard the backdoor slide closed. "Well it lasted longer than I thought it was going to." I thought out loud. I looked over to who had come outside, Adrian. He walked over to me and sat down, then patted the spot next to him signalling me to sit down. I smiled tightly but sat down anyways. I looked down and waited for him to say something. A little while later he took a deep breath and began, "Rose." He stopped, I felt him slump, his shoulders falling forward and his head hanging.

I was shocked, I started to worry. "Adrian are you ok?" I asked turning my body so I could face him. "Rose I don't know where to start. After 3 years, I thought you were dead and then you call me like nothing had happened and you just. Rose you were kidnapped and we thought you were dead and then you called me and said hey. Do you know what that does to a person?" I put my arms around him, trying to calm him down. "It's ok; it's going to be alright. Don't worry. Shh!" I rocked back and forth.

It's strange how everyone says the same things when trying to comfort someone, it may differ slightly but it's still the same principle. Everyone says it's going to be alright, it's all going to be okay, everything is right in the world. It's all very comforting but it's hardly ever true. It's not actually going to be alright, it's not ever going to be okay. And yet we still say it, we still hold our loved ones and tell them these things, even if we don't believe it.

I guess we still have to tell them those things, tell them things that will make them feel better, even if it is just for a little while. During my internal ramble, Adrian just sat and looked at me. He was slightly amused. "Your aura, its swirling but I can't decipher the colours. There's black but that's to be expected after what you've been through. There's a little yellow, you're slightly happy and there's blue and purple, a lot of them. Depression. But there's cream and white, with a pinkish colour. I have never seen it before, on anyone."

"Is that bad?" I asked slightly worried about what he had said. He examined me again and then said, "I don't know, as I said earlier I have never seen anyone with these colours before. I'll call Sonya and ask if she has encountered it before and what it might mean!" I nodded, "How are they, Mikhail and Sonya?" "Good, good. Sonya just had a baby." He said, smiling. "Everyone's having a baby, it seems." "I'm not." He said laughing.

"No you're not." I said. I felt comfortable sitting in silence. "What happened Rose?" he finally asked. I was glad he wasn't beating around the bush, but I wasn't happy that he had asked it. "Adrian, I don-"he cut me off, "Okay you don't want to talk about that then let's start with something easy, mmm, how you got out?" "He left the door open, I knocked him out, looked him in the room and ran outside, jumped over the wall and I was home free!" I wanted to say that but instead I said, "I was let go." He looked confused, "Rose they wouldn't have just let you go." "I know and that's what worries me."

He looked taken aback, "they must have wanted something from me or wanted me to do something. I'm worried because I don't know what I'm supposed to do about the fact that they are probably sitting there waiting for me." "They? Rose who is they?" "They are Jason and Blake. Jason Ivashkov and Blake Madison." Adrian flinched when I said Jason's surname. "Do you know him?" Adrian shook his head, "I have a large family and he could be anyone. I mean he could be my cousin or my distant uncle. Maybe he even married into the family."

"Adrian, when a couple get married they take the man's surname. But you're right you do have a big family. A very big family." He shook his head, and said "Rose if a man marries a royal and his family tree has a large amount of that royal blood in it, he gets to choose whether or not to take his or his wife surname. But I will go into the family archives and look him up. Did he mention a wife or anything?" "No not that I know of. Mmm."I thought and then it hit me, Britney. The woman he used to lure me around the back of the restaurant. "Britney, he used her to get e to come around the corner. Yea she's his wife. She was Moroi but I don't know if she was royal. She attacked me and accused me of killing her children after they had become guardians."

He suddenly looked confused, "Rose wait you just said to me they were both Moroi, right?" I nodded wondering where he was going with this, "Well Rose if they were both Moroi how come they had Dhampir kids?" that floored me I had not thought of that before. They had both mentioned their kids, how I had killed them but how could they be? "Maybe he had a mistress? No, she said her kids and so did he." God something else for me to worry about great. "Why the hell would they say our kids, if they couldn't have dhampirs together. Aaag I'm so stupid why didn't I see this before?"

He seemed to think about it, "Maybe it was a cover story. Maybe he just used it so that he could..." Adrian trailed off not knowing what he wanted to say or more likely not what Jason was up to. "Maybe Jason Ivashkov wasn't even his real name. Maybe he purposely gave you the wrong information so that if you did escape or was let free or whatever, you could not go to the authorities and point him out." I threw my head into my hands,, I hadn't even thought of going to the police or guardians, but now if I did I couldn't use the only piece of evidence I had. That was not true I knew what he looked like.

"No, no, no." I cried in frustration, "This is all so confusing, why my life couldn't be simple. Wake up in the morning, eat, dress, go to work, eat, come home, eat and go to bed! Huh, why couldn't it be like that safe and orderly?" Adrian put his hand on my back and said, "You would go insane, your life would be boring and you wouldn't be you. You are the way you are because of what has happened to you and who has happened to you." I laughed, it sounded sad and forced. "Great now I have you feeding me inspiration Zen crap as well. I could barley survive with one person doing it and now there's two of you guys. Must be a man thing! How the hell am I going to survive?"

He laughed, it was rich and warm but it had fatigue in it as well. I looked at him, he looked bloody tired. Like dog tired, almost like he was ready to pass out any second. "Adrian, when last did you sleep?" he looked sheepish and shrugged, "Honestly I don't know. On the plane the other day I sleped a little bit and then yesterday for about an hour. This job has been keeping me really busy!" I smiled sadly at him and stood up, grabbing his arm pulling him up beside me. "Whoa Rose where we going?" I looked at him a said, "Have you seen yourself lately, you looked like you haven't shaven in days. Your clothes are all scruffy and you stink."

He looked offended at my comments but allowed me to pull him inside. "You my dear, are going home and taking a bath, shaving and going to bed." I said, he tried to say something but I stopped him. "No! How are you supposed to do your job if you are going to pass out? The only way to help or work better and faster is for you to be on top of your game." I hoped that he would take the bait and he did. "Your right, if I want to do better at my job. I have to be and feel better." He took a deep breath and walked out of the front door.

"How the hell did you get Adrian to stop working? I have been trying to get him to go home and sleep for two weeks now. Two," Lissa held up two fingers, "he's always at the office, before I get there he's there and he leaves way after I do. And I'm queen; I have the longest working hours out of everyone." She seemed impressed and unbelieving all at the same time. Pregnancy, it fucks you up! I laughed out loud at my thought and everyone looked at me oddly.

"It's nothing. Just me being me!" I said trying to clear the air about me randomly laughing. Well random for my friends but for me not so much. I walked into the kitchen picked up an apple and bit into it. "Mmmmh!" I moaned only then realising how hungry I was. "Good this apple is so good." I said alerting my friends as to why I moaned. "You would think Rose was the pregnant one not Lissa with the way she goes on about food." Christian said, teasing me. I bit a piece off of the apple and trough it at him. It hit him in the head and he stopped mid-sentence, I had interrupted him. I saw Dimitri raised an eyebrow and step back away from Christian.

I was highly amused and quite happy with myself; I had caused such a reaction from him. "Oh, you would think Christian was the one pregnant with the mood swings he has!" I said mimicking him and get his voice spot on. I saw Christian hand twitch. The whole room was silent in anticipation of what was going to happen. "Oh twitchy," I continued to tease him. "You know they say if you play with fire, you wet your bed. Now that explains so much!" I heard a growl and he jumped over the couch and tried to attack me but I stepped out of the way just in time.

"This looks like it could be fun. Just like old times hey?" Lissa stood there watching us, while Dimitri had sat down and read the book I had given him last night err I mean this morning. I laughed at my pathetic excuse as to why I had given him the book so late or early or whatever it was. I need the space, ha ha. He must have been tired because he didn't fight me on it. "Christian calm down you know she is just messing with you and if you let her know that it bothers you, she's just going to keep doing it." Lissa stated, he looked over at her and nodded, "Your right, one of us has to be the mature one around here."

"Oooo, I better step up then hey." I said just to piss him off. Lissa gave me that don't-start-Rose, but I could tell she was also very amused by the whole situation. Just then a cell phone rang and Dimitri answers it, "No!" and then hung up. He could probably feel the whole rooms attention on him because he said, "I don't want to talk to her." He then continued reading. "Ok weird." I said slowly but walked into the lounge area and sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. Some movie was on, I was really interested but hey its TV you just sit and watch.

Turns out it was about, this guys who murdered people and never caught, then this young female cop looks at the case and solves it. So predictable, but it was a break from my own life and its mysteries and worrisome things. I laughed at some of the gory bits of the movie and scoffed at the fight scenes of the movie. "Wow, the movie was?" I said waiting for someone to give me an adjective to describe this movie. "Interesting?" Dimitri supplied.

He had started watching it after I told the actors off on how fake the fighting scenes were. "Yea the funniest part was when Rose started screaming at the TV, saying how fake the fights looked. And I quote, 'What a stupid bitch, you can't fight in high heels. Yea it would love to see you do a double kick, punch combo in a pair of 9" stiletto boots. Not possible!" Christian said quoting my exact words. Feeling the need to defend myself I said, "Well you know what it's true. I once tried to fight in a pair of three inch square heel boots and I nearly broke my neck. So how would a cop be able to do that when me, a highly trained kick ass, fucking, bad ass guardian can't even do it."

They all rolled their eyes at me. The door bell rang, no one got up to answer it, so it rang again. "Is anyone going to get that?" I asked. They all shrugged, so I stood up and walked to the door to see who it was. I wished I hadn't. "Oh hi Adele it's you." I said in a bored voice. "Rose," she said in a high excited voice, "I can call you that right?" I decided to mess with her, "No, please call me Miss Hathaway or Guardian Hathaway." Her face fell, "Are you serious?" I pretended to think about it and then said, "Yep, I mean those are my official titles. So I wanna be called by them." "Oh ok."

She seemed down, cool! "So I can I help you?" using my full on Rose bitchy, attitude voice. I looked her up and down. Pulling my face into a grimace like I saw something wrong with her outfit, she suddenly seemed uncomfortable under my gaze. "Um, is Dimitri here?" "No!" I said and then slammed the door and walked back into the lounge, "Who was at the door?" Lissa asked. I panicked, "No one they had the wrong house so I directed them to the right house." "

"Rose you haven't been here at court for years so how could you give directions?" I smiled, "I can't. That's the genius of it all. Now he's going to walk around the court for hours till he finds the right place." I pretended to be smug about the fact I had just sent some poor bloke on a wild goose chase. Even though I hadn't. She bought it and scolded me about miss leading some poor man. I just shrugged it off and told her that someone should have gotten the door before I did.

I saw something more outside on the porch; I squinted to see what it was. Adele, shit. She looked pissed off, I laughed, and I just slammed the door in her face. I then realised that I was sitting next to Dimitri and I had told her he wasn't here. Oh well, time to mess with her yet again. I moved closer to Dimitri and he picked his head up at me. "So cowboy, what this epic story about this time?" I asked while pointing to the book.

He smiled at me, "Rose you ask that about all the books I read and then you laugh at me when I tell you." I rolled my eyes, shook my head and said in a high exasperated voice, "That's because they're all about a guy named Johnny or, or Bob. About this guy that rolls into town and is an outsider and he gets rejected by everyone and then some outlaw, criminal thingy type person come into the town and he stop him and all the girls fall in love with him and, and then something happens and he gets cast out and his chicky gets taken by this bad guys and he saves her. The end I have no bloody clue how on earth you read these things."

He gave me a comical look and it was then I realised that Dimitri Belikov had come out to play. "So you've read this book then hey? And here you're telling me you can't read these things." "Omg, are you telling me that is the plot? Omg isn't that the same thing you read while we were at the academy?" he gave me a sly smile, "The characters name is Wayne. But yea pretty much the same plot." now have you ever seen dogs get confused? You know they do that thing when they turn their heads to the side and make a funny little noise. Well yea, I just did that.

He started laughing at me, "What?" he asked. "Why the hell are you reading it then?" "Because the plot line is the same it's just the characters are different and different characters can make the story seem different? You tell me, all those vampire movies where they drink animal blood. They've been around since I was what five. Yet people are still interested in them. This Twilight thing is so predictable. For about thirty years, that plot has been around but now look at all these youngsters going mad for it."

"Twilight? What the fuck is twilight?" I asked confused. Realisation dawned on him, "it this book/movie about a family of vampire that don't hurt humans. Bunch of rubbish. That's not the point." I thought about it, who the fuck wants to go and watch a bunch of vampire suck so bunny rabbits dry? "Romance novels. The gut and girl hate each other in the beginning but then end up living happily ever after in the end. But people still read it. It's the same with these." He pointed to his book, he had a point.

"Never considered it like that, but they are still rubbish." I said. He just rolled his eyes and laughed at me. "Rose, Rose, Rose."

Hi guys! Ok so what did you think?

*Did you guys hear? Richelle Mead said that if she won the CBS award for Spirit Bound, she would write a story about Rose and Dimitri visiting his family! I know it's so awesome! I was in the mall when I read it, I think I screamed!

No flames for what I said in the above chapter about Twilight. I was to make it as if they really did see Twilight and I think that's what he would think about it. i made up the movie they were talking about in this chapter, so don't go and look for it! ")

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