This chapter is the beginning of all the slash I think. I mean…well, it's more the big change. The mirror started everything. Now…were about to take a turn. So please bare with me I've never written anything like this, so hopefully it's good. By the way be prepared this might end up a little sad.

People who don't like slash, best turn away from this story from here on out. You have been warned.

When the doors of the great hall opened and Sirius and Remus walked in. James and Lily were already there. And Peter who knew where he'd gotten off to. No one really paid much attention to the two boys. They either were dancing or just enjoying the festivities.

James had gotten butterbeer for the party as well as other drinks. The party was in full swing. Remus adjusted his hat. He couldn't believe he'd been talked into actually dressing up. Since it had been optional.

"Why did we dress up again" Remus sighed, he felt ridiculous really. Walking around looking like Zorro, it had been Sirius' idea. So of course he ran with it, and now as he walked around felt like an idiot.

"Because its fun, and don't whine you look sexy" Sirius chuckled, he was dressed like the fourth Doctor from Doctor Who was excited about the whole thing. Remus felt himself blush and was all the sudden very glad to be hidden under the black hat and mask.

"Ya think so" Remus finally had the courage to ask. Sirius had grabbed two butterbeers for them as he chuckled.

"I know so dearest Moony"

"You've already been drinking" Remus sighed; he could smell the ting of alcohol on his breath.

"Only two shots of fire whiskey Rem, you know I can handle much more than that. It's just a small buzz I promise"

"Yea yea" Remus grumbled into his butterbeer, all the sudden not taking Sirius' compliment seriously. 'I can't be sexy unless you have alcohol pulsing through your veins' he thought bitterly.

"Well look here" Lily's voice reached their ears. James' laugh could be heard as he traveled behind her. "I see Zorro and," she turned to Sirius.

"Blimey Sirius, that's awesome!" James grinned ear to ear "Lily meet the fourth doctor"

Lily looked between the four boys. "Sirius Black is a nerd" Lily teased.

"Nothing nerdy about being the Doctor, coming from Gallifrey, and having a Tardis it's the second best thing to being a wizard." He looked the two over "Who the hell are you two"

"I'm a witch" Lily chuckled "Nothing special or weird I know. But eh, I couldn't come up with anything else. And I got to wear a cool hat"

"And her skirt is pretty short" James winked getting elbowed in the gut from Lily. "And I'm Merlin"

"Did you borrow Dumbledore's robes?"

"No he did not" Dumbledore chuckled from behind causing Sirius to turn on spot and chuckle nervously. "I will take that as a compliment Mr. Black" he smiled through his half-moon spectacles.

"That's how I meant is sir" Sirius smiled.

"I was just coming to congratulate Mr. Potter and Miss. Evans on their fantastic party" Dumbledore smiled "Also to ask James where he got such a wonderful robe" he chuckled winking.

"Er…well Professor it's a long story" James chuckled rubbing the back of his neck. Remus hid his chuckles as he pulled Sirius away.

"Excuse us Professor" Remus smiled as he slipped away Sirius in toe, neither of them saw the smile Dumbledore gave them.

"What was that for Remus" Sirius asked looking his friend over as they reached a table full of sweets. "If you had a sweet attack you didn't have to drag me" Sirius chuckled as he reached for a pumpkin pastry.

"I just figured you'd want a snack" Remus chuckled nodding towards the pastry in his hand.

"You can't lead a dog to food and not expect him to eat" Sirius chuckled as he swallowed. "So when are we going to dance" he asked. Remus looked at him eyebrow raised "you're my date remember"

"No we came has friends Sirius, you never said anything about date"

"I did too! At breakfast this morning!"

"I didn't think you serious!"

"Well you said yes" Sirius grumbled "Are you dumping me now"

"NO! I mean…err…this is awkward" Remus rubbed his forehead. Of course he wouldn't dump him. That was if they were really dating. No Sirius just wanted to come with someone so he had asked Remus, and of course Remus with hope in a dream that would never come true had said yes.

"Come on Moony" Sirius chuckled. Sirius couldn't help himself as he reached out and lifted Remus' chin up to look at him. "Let's have a good night". He hoped the look in his eyes told Remus what he wanted so bad to say but couldn't dare bring himself to utter it.

"Did you still want to dance" Remus asked, smiling. He couldn't understand Sirius' eyes but something in them, something asked him to hold on. He knew he was seeing things, as he had over the years, but it didn't hurt to keep believing in dreams.

"I'd like to" Sirius chuckled licking his fingers from his pastry. "But only if you want to" he heard Remus sigh and lead him out to the floor.

"If only you promise not to step on my feet"

"I've never stepped on anyone's feet; I learned when I was small how to dance well"

"Ahh you Blacks and your lessons" Remus chuckled.

Neither of them knew how long they danced together, laughing and just having a good time. Nor did they keep count of how many butterbeers they had. Also for the older students they were serving light alcoholic drinks, though no one knew how the teachers allowed it. So along with those uncounted butterbeers came uncounted amounts of those drinks. They weren't sure how long they had just been together. Just the two of them, Peter was busy with his date. And James and Lily were doing their jobs as hosts, as well as dancing and hanging out together. They had never seen either of their friends so happy.

"Well at least he got the girl" Sirius chuckled raising his glass "To James"

"To James" Remus repeated his voice a tad slurred. "Though don't tell him that their still friends"

Sirius' bark like laughter filled the corner he and Remus were sitting in. It made every inch of Remus shiver with delight. He loved when Sirius laughed like that. He loved when Sirius was happy, he loved being around the man. Everything about Sirius even the darkest parts he loved. He looked down at his drink. Maybe he should have kept count?

Sirius looked at Remus, lost in the look the other man was giving him.

"Sirius" Remus whispered it was almost so soft that Sirius didn't catch it.

"Remus" he whispered back, he could feel butterflies form, at the sound of his tone. He'd heard it so many times before but now, as a knot formed in his throat he couldn't breathe. Was Remus really calling him like that?

"Let's go up to bed" he whispered standing. Sirius caught him as he swayed. "I'm not feeling so hot"

Sirius only nodded and had his friends arm wrapped around his shoulder as he walked up to the tower. Remus was leaning on him, as his eyes were watching as they walked ahead Sirius didn't dare glance over, no their faces were too close together he couldn't control himself if he looked. Though every inch of his body begged him. And if tomorrow Remus asked questions he could blame it on the drinks. No, he wouldn't take advantage of Remus like this.

When they reached the tower Sirius laid Remus down on his bed. "You alright now" he asked, Remus had drank more than he had. Normally Remus never got drunk, but apparently either James had somehow found something strong enough to get Remus drunk or he nearly hadn't eaten enough to help with the edge.

"Undress me" Remus purred. Sirius felt himself freeze. His heart stop beating, his lungs kept him from breathing.

"W-what"

"Please…I don't feel like doing it" he whispered, grabbing a hold of the scarf around Sirius' neck and pulling him further. Sirius gulped, as his hands shook. He was so used to undressing women why did this scare him? Easy because he was in front of the man he cared most about and he was drunk and was finding every way to test his control. His fingers fumbled with the knot that tied Remus' cape and once it was done he pulled his shirt off. What he had forgotten to watch was Remus' hands which had slid under his shirt and were now running over his abs.

"R-Remus" Sirius breathed letting his head hang, he groaned softly biting down on his lip.

"You're so warm Sirius" Remus whispered sitting up and pulling him even closer with the scarf. Sirius looked up, despite every inch of him warning him what would happen, he let his sliver eyes clash into the golden ones of the man who right now had him wrapped around his finger. If Remus right now were to ask for anything Sirius would give it to him willingly.

"Remus" Sirius let out a shaky breath. He felt the blonde push his jacket off and Sirius let it fall in a puddle on the floor. He let Remus pull him over top of him. The blood in his head rushing straight to his groin. He felt himself cave in, control be damned.

"Your so damn handsome" Remus whispered, his eyes glazed over from the alcohol, and his eyes dilated from need. Sirius felt his body shiver.

"So are you" Sirius whispered leaning down, their noses touching. Sirius could feel Remus' breath on his face. "Oh Remus I…" he started before he was stopped mid sentence by the warmest mouth Sirius Black had ever felt.

He didn't stop him, didn't dare pull away. As his mind froze the seconds ticked by, and before he realized it Remus had started to pull away. In a second Sirius regained all thinking, ignoring the screams of his mind and kissed Remus back, knotting his fingers in the blonde's hair.

And the world stopped spinning as clothes were ripped off, neither caring to be gentle as they ripped them to pull them off of one another. Moans and gasps were all one could hear.

Sirius wasn't afraid until they were down to boxers. Until he could feel his partners own erection against his own did his body react.

"Rem…no…I" he pulled away, his heart cracking, daring to break "Your drunk so very drunk. If you weren't…I wouldn't, I-I couldn't tell you no" he had to fight the tears that brimmed his eyes.

"I don't care" Remus breathed "Please"

"I can't" Sirius whispered "You have no idea how bad I want to…but I can't" Sirius felt the sting of tears in his eyes now. 'No don't look at me like that Remus…please this already hurts' his mind whispered to himself.

"Don't leave me" Remus whispered, his own eyes glassed over with tears. "I'll stop…just don't leave"

Sirius felt himself swallow the lump he hadn't realized had formed in his throat. He felt his body ache, not from the need below his waist. But from the pain that his heart now had to endure. "Nothing could make me leave you" he whispered softly and he laid down beside Remus "Come here" he whispered holding his arms out, letting Remus crawl over to him and snuggle close.

"I'm sorry"

"Shhh, its ok Rem" Sirius whispered resting his head on top of his friends. "Its ok" he whispered now more to himself. "Just go to sleep, it'll be over in the morning" he could hear his heart shatter. "I promise". He held back his tears, held back the silent sobs. He waited until the soft slow breathing told him that Remus had fallen asleep.

And only then did he let his tears slip down his face. "Remus…I'm sorry" he whispered before he placed a soft kiss on the man's head "I'm so sorry" he sobbed. Sirius was never a man to take advantages, of anyone. No matter what everyone else thought. He was a good and decent man. Honestly he'd never had sex with any of his 'flavors'. Sex was meant for love, and he'd never loved any of them. Cared about yes, but never love.

And now in his arms was the man he loved, truly and deeply. And he almost let himself take advantage of him. And that hurt him more than anything. Not only that but if Remus remembered in the morning, he'd most likely hate him. Sirius let himself silently cry himself to sleep, holding Remus tight against him, as if he let him go he'd surly be lost forever.

All the while, James Potter stood in the boys dorm door way. Watching his best friend, not daring to walk over to him. He'd made a grave mistake, he felt like he had stabbed them both in the back. "What have I done" he whispered to himself.

So…what did you guys think? Was it ok? Let me know. I don't normally ask for reviews but on this chapter I'd really like them, cause I want to know if I could have done better, thanks in advance