CHAPTER 10

Magnus PoV

I groaned when a light beam found my closed eyes, effectively waking me up from my muchneeded rest. It took me a moment to realize that I hadn't slept this well in a long, long time. Thereason; the gorgeous man resting beside me. I slowly opened my eyes, looking at the ceiling aboveus before turning my head to look at him.

heart ached just from thinking about whathe had been through, yet he was still willing to look strong and fearless for his family. I placeda chaste kiss on his temple and smiled a little when he began to stir before opening his eyes.

"Morning darling," I said softly, reaching to my pocket to retrieve my phone and saw that westill had about half an hour before visiting hours.

"Please call the doctor," he said, burying his face on my chest. I raised an eyebrow upon seeing hisgrowing blush.

"What is it?" I moved to rest my head on my elbow, looking down at him as he moved just enoughto hide his head under the blankets…now, that was adorable and troubling at the sametime"Alexander, tell me."

"I-I'm…I'm bleeding," came his muffled reply. My frown deepened, not understanding why he was soembarrassed about was normal for his wounds to bleed. I huffed, before taking the covers andgetting them down slowly, a little surprised that he had let me do it in the first place. I moved themuntil I reached his waist, but saw nothing there. "Not there," he whispered, so low that I hardly heardhim. I let my eyes travel back to his face, taking in his pained expression, the redness of his skin and the sorrowful look that was portrayed in his eyes…then I understood.

"Wait here." I moved to kiss his forehead, feeling my chest heavy before I moved then, Isaw the dark crimson spot that was beginning to show on the fine hospital covers. Knowing thatit was bad for him to lose this much blood, I practically ran outside to the nursing station. "I need adoctor," I informed the first nurse I saw. "Now…please." She nodded before taking her beeper andcalling for the doctor. A couple of minutes later a young doctor came.

"Hello, I'm Dr happened?" she asked politely.

"My boyfriend… he was r-raped and he's…he's bleeding." God, I hated to stutter like that, but it wasdamn hard to even think about what had happened to Alec…I didn't even stop to think about howmuch I loved to say that he was my boyfriend.

"Let's go back to the room," she instructed, following me as I turned and ran back to him. Once wewere inside I grimaced, seeing Alec in a foetal position with the covers completely over his head. "OhGod," whispered the woman, seeing the stain on his butt.

"Alec, there's a doctor here to see you," I spoke, going to kneel beside him. "We need to see…" I bitmy lip, hating the thought of anybody looking at him like that while he was in this state.

"Okay," he said after a moment, moving away the covers and turning to look at the doctor. "I don'tthink it's bleeding anymore," he said as he lowered the covers. Knowing that he was probably lessthan fine about letting me see his body, I moved to the other side of the room to look through thewindow.

"You're right," she said, putting on a pair of gloves. "Can I see?" Alec nodded, turning his back to her as she lifted his clothing.

I couldn't look any further, so I turned back to the window, frowning when I saw a notable amount of important must've had an accident or something. I cringed when Alec hissedlightly, my whole body wanted to turn back and run to his side… but I couldn' after he madesure to let me know that he was still mad at me. Maybe now he let me be near him, but I wassure that it was highly likely that the drugs he was under were the cause of his calm mood. Isighed, closing my was so hard to try to think of a way Alec should behave; the shy boyfrom the park would surely be terrified and completely ashamed of himself…I had seen traces ofhim in those hours, but at the same time, I saw a trace of the confident man in the bar, the onethat was clearly still mad at me and that wanted to show his strong face to the world…I was loston what to do or how to act once the drugs wore out, the only thing I had left was to hope that wouldn't kick me aside because if there was one thing I was certain, was that Isabelle was right, Iwas the only one he could…would trust.

Alec PoV

If someone asked me how it was to live with my head right now, the only answer I could give was that I felt like I had the worst cold of my life and had a big dose of pills to keep me at bay. My mind was foggy, and my body felt clumsy and stiff, meaning that I didn't totally trust my decisionsat that moment.

As the doctor called a nurse to change my sheets, I struggled to get up, only to find Magnus rightthere where I needed him, ready to help…I gave him a small smile while he gently helped me tostand.

"How long until visiting hours?" I asked him.

"About ten minutes," he said, taking a strand of my hair and pushing it aside so he could see my eyes. I bit my lip knowing that I was blushing hard. "Does it hurt?" His mesmerizing eyes were glued tomine, making it even harder to think.

"Not really…I just got worried," I answered. When I first felt something tickling down my ass allalarms rang inside my because Magnus was next to me, but because I knew the feelinga little too well and I wanted someone to check that I was not going crazy, that it was not just mycrazy body remembering a nightmare…that I was indeed in a hospital bed and not in dreamland, only beginning to awaken thanks to a bloody ass finding myself on that dirty floor with someoneputting on his pants next to me.

"All ready, sweetheart?" said the nurse before walking out of the room. I moved to lay down again, not bothering to ask her for a new gown. Magnus put the covers on me before taking his seat.

"How did you sleep?" he asked me.

"I didn't have any nightmares, so I´m okay." I shrugged, resting on my side so I could see himbetter."You?"

"Better than in a long time."He put his elbow on the bed and rested his head on his hand. Neitherof us spoke for a while, only looking at each other's eyes. "When did you stop wearing glasses?" he asked in a curious voice. I frowned at the completely random topic.

"I've never stopped…I just don't need them that much, but now that my eyes are tired, I thinkthat having them would prove useful to get rid of my headache."

"Are they still the same as before? You know, big, think and black?"

"Not so big, but definitely black." I managed a small smile which he returned. "What happened toyour make up? You seem…almost normal."

"You happened…I haven't been home in a while." I frowned and his smirk grew. "I visited yourapartment."

"Huh… Did any of you guys feed my cat?" He looked genuinely surprised by my words before slowlyshaking his head.

"We didn't see any cats around…I thought you would be allergic to them," he chuckled.

"Well I don't have that many allergies." I smiled before grimacing a little, my cuts had begun tosting a little…maybe the meds were wearing off.

"You okay?" His eyes were wide with worry and sadness. I hated seeing him like this.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I took a deep breath just as the room's door opened revealing Isabelle, Jace andmy mother… was unexpected. "What the fuck are you doing here?" I asked, fixing eyes on hers. Isabelle gasped, Jace made a strangled sound that was a lot like a muffled laugh, andMagnus simply chuckled dryly.

"I should've warned you, he's drugged and by that, his bluntness is at its 1000%," he explained while my eyes didn't stray frommy mother's. She did not blink and only moved so that she was standing in front ofthe bed.

"I'm here to see you…"

"Mission accomplished…you can go now," I said, hating her for being there, pretending to careabout me.

"Alexander…" she began, and I felt a pang in my heart at that three people in my worldcalled me like that, and all three of them had wounded me in a way… I was beginning to hate my whole name thanks to them.

". Please leave." I turned to look at the window, knowing that if it wasn't for the influenceof drugs I wouldn't have said anything like that, but I couldn't bring myself to care. I heard thefaint sound of her high heels as she made her way to the door, leaving the room in a deep silence.

"Want to talk about what happened?" questioned Izzy. I stubbornly kept my eyes on the wall, notwanting to get out of my happy little druggie ball, but feeling it disappear with every breath I took.

"…No"

"You´ll need to tell the cops…" started Jace and I flinched hearing his voice. I hated the self-pitytone he was using that was supposed to be mine to was always confident and awesome…

I knew that some part of me was pretty pissed at him and felt kind of happy that he was havinga bad time right now, but I couldn't really stand whatever came out of his mouth, so I did thereasonable thing to do.

"Can all of you get the fuck away from here?" They all turned to look at me like I was some sort ofalien, but I did not mind them and kept talking. "I woke up with my ass bleeding, every time I closemy eyes I feel someone shoving his dick inside of me. I probably have a new found fear of needlesso, no… I don't want to talk about what happened, not to the one responsible of it or my you please go away?" Jace´s face got tense before he stomped away of the room andIsabelle didn't move a muscle.

"Now that you need all of us you decide to grow some balls? Alec come on, we can't leave youlike this…" She began, clearly mad. "Maybe Jace and Mom deserve to be treated like that, but I ain'tmoving a muscle, even if you beg me… not until I know that you're okay."

"Well then get comfortable…" Again, the disbelieving looks…what was with them and looking at melike that?

"Alec… I think you should consider what you are saying before you now I think the drugs are talking morethan you," said the pop singer, not without a hint of amusement in his eyes.

"So?" At this he snorted, before passing a hand through his hair.

"I do love your straight forwardness, but…"

"I need a shower." I didn't want to be lectured and I felt gross in more ways than one, so I went forthe logical way to stop their discussion. I began to get up only, to be stopped my Magnus' firmhand.

"Let me call a nurse so she can help you."

"No!" He froze half way out and turned to look at me. "I-I can do it on my own."

"Sorry Alec, but I won't risk you injuring yourself any further…"

"NO!" I managed to stand, raising a hand to stop Isabelle from rushing to my side. "Please…I don'twant anyone…" I looked down.

"I can't let you on your own…"

"Then you help me." It was out before I even thought about it…maybe Magnus was right about thedrugs speaking for me, but this time I felt like it was the right choice being that he wasthe only one I was not afraid of…well, except Isabelle, but I was not asking my baby sister to cleanme.

"…" Magnus stood there in the middle of the room, completely speechless while he kept lookingat me like I had grown another head. Seriously, I was starting to grow tired of that. "You can't beserious."

"I am." I took a step forward. "I'm not asking you to shower with me." I looked down, feeling mywhole face on fire. "Just to stay at the other side of the curtain…"

"Is that blood?" I heard Isabelle say behind me.

"What part of 'I woke up with my ass bleeding' didn't you understand?" I practically growled beforetaking Magnus' hand and walking to the bathroom, not caring that by doing that I was giving him afront row view of my butt.

"Do drugs take away all of your inhibitions?"

"Dunno. I just don't care." I shrugged as we entered. It was going to be fast, I was good at fastshowers…nothing awkward and uncomfortable…just a practical way to do things. "Help me outwith this." I pointed at the gown. I heard him swallow hard before sighing.

"I see that in six years you can grow a lot more stubborn," he said as I felt his hands undoing theknot. I moved inside the shower, closing the curtain behind me and taking away the gown.

"Can you give me a towel?" I heard him moving around the place, only to see his hand slidinga white towel to me. I took it before handing him the gown and then putting it around my waist and then opened the curtain again.

"Need help with the bandages?" I nodded and he signalled me to turn around. I did and his handsmade their way to my back where the bandages closed. "Fuck," he cursed when he undid them, probably seeing my back. I took a deep breath, stepping away from him and closing the curtainagain, not daring to look into his eyes. I turned on the stream and sighed, letting the hot water hitmy tense muscles as my mind began to wander into those past days.

After he moved the syringe away from my neck, my body began to feel strange,like all mystrength was completely drained and my mind was slowly being filled with fog…I didn't like it onebit.

"Let's see." I tried to fight the hands that roamed my body, but I only managed to exhaustmyself "There's no use, pretty boy." I felt callous hands grip my face, making me look at the oldman. "Now stop moving if you don't want things to be…a little more forceful."

"No…no…no." I didn't want to hear him. I moved, attempting to kick him away, but my movementswere slow and allowed him to dodge me easily.

"I said stay still!" With that came the first blow, easily making me kiss the floor. After that one, alot of more followed. When he was done I had no desire to even breathe as I felt him take awaymy shirt and pants, leaving me completely naked before him. I swallowed a sob, pinning my face tothe ground, embarrassed by my own weakness. "I see that you work will definitely bringsome interest," he said. I felt like a dog under a critics gaze, hoping to be good enough for a not-so-bad owner. "Well then, I'll be leaving you. Your brother still has some hours left, but we both knowhe won´t gather the money so…prepare yourself pretty boy." He passed a hand through my thighs, making me cringe at the disgusting feeling of his old hands on me. He chuckled before walking out.

I closed my eyes, thinking that maybe some sleep would help me clear my head. I tried to thinkabout my family, but all that came to mind was a pair of yellow-green eyes. Magnus. I had stoodhim up, probably losing the last chance I had of making things right and finally give us a shot…orit was just wishful thinking from a guy that knew that he was going to be sold like an object in amatter of hours. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the door opening again. I turnedmy head, only to find the blond guy from before looking at me.

"Such eyes."He took a step forward."Such form."His cold gaze roamed through my body ashe ducked his body closer to mine. I tried to move away from him, but my body wouldn'tcooperate…no, this could not be happening. "I need to test the merchandise, don't I?" I shudder ranthrough my spine as I saw him kneel next to me and I felt his hands move to my legs.

"No…" It was hard to even speak. I squirmed, trying to get rid of his touch, feeling the sting of tearsinside my eyes. His hands ghosted around my body until they reached my face. I turned awayshaking, knowing what was about to happen.

"What? No screaming?" I froze at this prior seeing him take his hand to his pants and taking asmall object from them, a small razor. "We have to fix that."

"N-no…no!"My heart began pumping like as though I was running a marathon as I did everything in my power to getaway. The guy smirked, reaching for my right leg and pulling me back to him in one strong tug. Before I knew it he was cutting me with the razor, effectively getting a scream from the furthestpart of my being. He moved to open my legs until he was sitting between them, not letting me outof his grasp and using every one of my movements as an excuse to cut me again, and again, andone more time. He kept like that until I began to see black dots and all I could do was whimper forhim to stop. He chuckled and turned me around, putting me on my knees. The sudden movementmade my alerts ring back, but I was too weak to try anything except biting my lip and take a deepbreath before he shoved himself in me. I screamed, experiencing a pain I had never felt like he was tearing me apart with every stroke. He pounded without rest. I cried, digging mynails into the floor so hard I knew I would end up with bloody fingers when he finished.

"Scream for me," he said in my ear as his fingers dug inside my wounds, earning him more yells. Isaw no point on trying to mask my pain. It was hopeless. The old man was right; there was no wayJace could get the money in time. Even over my own cries, I heard him say disgusting things behindme as I felt his body begin to lose control, probably reaching his climax. He screamed one last timeas he came, leaving my insides filled with his cum, before moving away and pushing me to the side.

"Yes, we'll get good money out of you," he spoke, standing up and putting on his pants. "See you later, pretty boy." After he was out, I didn't move. I just let my emotions take over and for the first time ina long time, I cried myself to sleep.

"Alec! Alec!" I snapped out of my memories thanks to Magnus' worried calls. "Alec, are you okay?"

"Yes…I'm fine." I sighed, closing the now cold stream knowing that I was anything but fine, and Ihad no idea if I would ever be fine again.

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