Wow, okay so I never realized how long I had actually been gone for. I'm super duper sorry and I'm extremely sorry that I haven't updated I haven't done any writing at all. And I haven't been in such good shape lately (I fell down and broke my foot) and it's all been really crazy.

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We stood there looking at one another in complete silence nobody was saying a word. My hear was racing, I wasn't sure if I should cry, or scream, or run to him, and hold my arms and tell him I never wanted him to leave me, or listen to the stupid things while I say when I'm mad. I was shocked, and again my body went into lock down and the words weren't coming out of my mouth, and my body wasn't moving. I wanted him to say something, and I was sure that he felt the same way. It was like on Christmas morning when you find what you want under the Christmas tree and nothing you get after that gift is going to compare to it.

"Nessie, I'm sorry." Before the sentence was completely out of his mouth I was in his arms, and holding him close. His warmth felt almost as if I hadn't felt it before. So strange, and so good, and so familiar and above all that it was safe.

"Don't ever, ever, ever stay away from me for that long again" I breathed in deeply, inhaling his sent, I never wanted to be far away from him again.

"But you said" I felt the need to interrupt.

"Yeah, don't ever listen to what I say Jacob." My arms loosed from around him and as I pulled away I felt a urge to kiss him. Stronger then any feeling I had ever experienced before.

My fingers ran through his short hair –short just the way I liked it- I took a deep breath, my head tilted to the side our faces moved closer together and my lips touched against his, I never expected them to be so warm. My hand slowly moved from the back of his neck to this shoulder, and I felt like my insides turned into jell-o as his lips brushed against mine. He pulled away, and I looked at his face, I didn't know if he was confused, upset or just surprised. I hoped I hadn't gone to far.

"Wow."

"Is that a good wow, or a bad wow." I hadn't kissed anybody, so I really wasn't sure what to expect but I thought it felt good.

"Good wow, really good wow." His hand ran through my hair and he pulled me in closer to his body. The heat radiating off of his body felt good, I large soft hands sent shivers down my spine as his other hand moved down my back.

I wrapped my legs around his waist, his hand was underneath my ass holding me up on him. His lips trailed down my neck, the sensation was severely intense completely unlike anything I had ever felt before. I hadn't expected our first meeting to be like this, I knew was going to happen next, but everything was so completely new to me. I wasn't sure what was coming next. He was walking backwards and we suddenly feel back on the bed, I felt like I had a loss of breathe. I wasn't sure how to react to what he was doing, my heart was beating faster then it ever had before.

-- I just thought I would give you guys a little something to look forward to until I actually have time to sit down and write something half decent.