Hey everone! This is kinda like a bonus chapter for you all. This is in Eddie's point of view. Mainly so you can understand a bit of what's going through his mind right now. And if something doesn't make sense, or if you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask me. I just want to make sure that I'm being clear. Enjoy the chap!
"I've made her life so hard. Damn my instincts!"
Eddie sat at the edge of the forest, watching Kelly's peaceful form in the sunlight. He sighed. He knew her life would have been much easier if he had never shown up. She would probably be safe at home, excelling at school, and training has hard as ever on her voice, trying to pursue her dreams. He had seriously screwed up her life.
"I shouldn't have been so selfish. I should have had more control. Oh, but I love her so much…"
He patted Shadow's head in a rhythmic, almost therapeutic manner.
He was raging a war within his mind. One was with how he could have let all this go so far out of control. The other was working on how to make her think of him as more than just a friend. Right now, the one that was beating him up was more dominant.
He began to explain everything that happened and why he did things to Shadow, although it was more his way of sorting them out and justifying his actions.
"You know Shadow, one thing that's distinctive of vampires is our instincts. They're fifty times stronger than a humans, which can be good and bad. It can save us in a dangerous situation, but it can also make us act out of character. For instance, you know when I kissed her? That wasn't my original plan. I simply wanted to talk to her, you know, to try and get on her good side. I also wanted to make sure that she understood me when I told her that I loved her. But when I saw the moonlight bounce off of her, my instincts kicked in, telling me to kiss her. The instinct was so strong, and I knew I could make her think I did it to convince her of my love, so I gave in to my instinct. Well, look what it got me. I frightened her and reveled what I truly am, she nearly gets eaten by Matt, and we both get sent to the council!" He sighed. "This will be one hell of a ride."
He paused for a moment, and looked back to Kelly's sleeping form. He smiled.
"But, she's worth it. I've never met someone quite like her. You know, I think she's an actress in everyday life. On the outside, she looks happy and content. Someone who cares for the people close to her. But it amazes me how dense people can be! Can't they see that behind her exterior, her interior is hurting immensely? Only when she was alone in her room would she let her true emotions show. She seemed so alone! She had no one that tried to understand what she was feeling. Everyone simply assumed that she was happy. At times like that all I wanted to do was hold her close and comfort her. She needed someone. And I wanted to be that someone." His eyes stayed planted to their spot on the ground, lost deep in his thoughts.
"But, you know what? I think I need her more. All my exzistence I've been surrounded by people. All of them would listen immidietly to what I'd say, but no more than that. I could have had anything I ever wanted. But, something was missing. I felt like I wasn't fully there. I started wandering the human world, trying to see if that would do anything. I'm glad I did. I ended up finding Kelly. Just being around her makes me feel happier than I have in centuries."
He paused to look back at Kelly, who still hadn't stirred, and then looked at the sky. He could tell that it was about two in the afternoon. They would leave at around six. He glanced back down at Shadow, who had fallen asleep. It didn't matter to Eddie, really, if Shadow was awake or not. He really didn't think Shadow listened anyway. He just needed someone other than himself to ramble to, mainly so he wouldn't look insane. He leaned against a nearby tree, letting his body relax into a state of sleepiness. He knew that he would need some sleep for the trip there, and for anything else the council threw his way. He let his eyes go back to Kelly for a moment, and assuring himself that she wouldn't wake up before he did, he allowed himself to fall asleep.