Author: Everything_Once
Pairing: Naomy/Emily and some others ...
Rating: M
Warnings: Swearing

Summary: Sometimes you need help to deal with your life... Effy and Naomi are living together with Effy's daughter ...
Disclaimer: Skins isn't my property, even if I secretly wish so! At the moment I pretty much own nothing...

The title and the name of Effy's daughter are the property of EmilyShitificationFitch ! ! ! (Read her work it's totally worth it!)

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Chapter Ten

*** Naomi's thoughts***

I haven't seen Emily since almost 10 days, last time was of course after her aggression.

Effy has keep me updated about her, but I'm still missing her.

I can't help myself to feel guilty happen what happens that night.

So I've been pretty much awful with everyone since that night.

But today, I've decided that things were about to change.

That's the reason why I'm now in front of my old house.

I've been there for almost an hour now, I'm just fucking scared. I'm about to knock when the door opens.

"About fucking time Campbell ! ! !"

"Nice to see you too Effy, do you know that sometimes you just sound like Cook?"

"Yeah he probably give me some habits when we were fucking years ago with some diseases as well …"

"Classy!"

"Well, I'm pretty sure that the subject of your visit isn't my sexual life, so what do you want?"

"I …well… I wanna see her."

"Naomi, I don't know if she's ready for that. I've told you how she is, maybe it's too soon."

"I don't care what you thought, I have to see her! Please let me in, and if she really doesn't want me here, then I'll leave. I swear…"

"Ok."

I'm about to go upstairs when I hear Effy.

"She's in the garden with Hayley."

"Thanks."

As soon as I'm in the garden Hayley rushes over me; God I've missed her too, but not as much as Ems…

"Hey princess!"

"Auntie Nana! Where have you been?"

"I'm living with Mark now."

"You're gonna have a baby?"

"WHAT? No! Of course not. You know you don't have to be pregnant to live with someone."

"Yeah, Hayley she's right, you just have to be in love. Right Naomy?"

"Uhhh… I … It's… well your mum is probably right Hayley."

"Hey sweetheart do you wanna come inside with me, I was about to watch shrek …"

"Cool!"

She's running to her mother. Emily still hasn't turned to me. But she doesn't move neither.

"Listen Ems, I just wanna see you and make sure that you're alright. But if you don't want me there, I'll let you be…"

We stay like that a few minutes.

It's even harder to be that close of her without being able to be really close from her.

It's killing me from the inside!

"Sorry then, I'm gonna go. Hope you're a bit better. We will probably see each other soon."

I'm about to go when I hear her husky voice whispering…

"Stay…please…"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. It's one of the only things I've been sure about for days. I need you there."

I slowly approach her.

She turns to look at me and then she fall in my arms, crying and shaking.

"God, I've missed you so much Ems!"

"I know. I've missed you too."

"Please tell me that you're alright and that we are ok?"

"As much as it's possible to be! I'm really sorry for pulling you away."

"You have every right, I'm the one that should apologized, without my brilliant intervention he wouldn't have been able to find you… I'm so sorry for letting him hurt you! I'm so ashamed of myself!"

"What! No, he's the only responsible, he's the only one who should be ashamed! To be honest the reason why I've been pulling you away was cause I was ashamed that you have seen me like that, I mean so weak and so dirty and broken… I care about you a lot and you seeing me like that was just too much to handle…"

"I care about you a lot too Ems, and the vision that I have about hasn't changed. Well actually it's wrong, I'm so proud of you know cause you're a fighter and a very very strong person. Ems … I … well I don't really know how to say that, but I've been … well I've been feeling things for you. I'm not really sure what kind of feelings they were, but I just know that you mean a lot for me. I need you near me Ems, since that night I've been shit cause you weren't there…"

"Naoms … you … I … Mark."

"I know. And to be honest I'm not even sure of what I expect us to be. But I've been attracted to you, and it's something really new and strange for me. So in some ways I'm scared, but happy too…"

"Naoms, I don't need you to rush things. Last time was a bit of a mistake."

"NO!"

"No, not like that. What I mean is that I've been hurt and you're with someone so maybe it's not the best timing for us to be … well us. Maybe we just need to wait and see how things are going… What do you think?"

"Right now… I'm pretty much ok with you, but at the same time I'm scared. I don't want to rush things, but I don't want to take the risk of loosing you neither."

"Neither do I. Naoms since the first time I've met you, I've fancied you. It means something right, so I pretty confident about the future. But right now…"

"Right now all I want is to kiss you… Is it ok?"

"What about him?"

"I don't know Ems. Please, I just … I just want to kiss you know!"

"I'm sorry Naoms but I can't. it won't be fair on him, on you and on me… We all deserve better. You need to figure it out first… I'm sorry."

"No, I'm the only responsible there. Don't be sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for."

I slowly approach her and kiss her on the cheek before whispering to her:

"I'll come back soon I promise. But I think that I'll need sometimes to realize who I am now…"

"I'll be there waiting for you."

I hug her one last time and then I headed back home.

I really need to figures it out, because now I'm only hurting everyone, especially those I really care about.

And it's not fair on them and on me.

When I enter our apartment, I immediately spot Mark sitting on the couch watching a soccer game.

I take some minutes to look at him. As much as I'm confused right now, I can't deny the fact that he means a lot to me too.

"Hey baby, you're back. Where were you?"

"Hey, Mark I need to talk to you…"

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