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Tris POV
"No!" I scream as Tobias lurches forward and off of the ledge. His body lays directly on Kai's. I dialed up the ambulance a long time ago, and they have just arrived. I walk slowly over to the tree where the patched blanket lays roughly on the ground. I pull my knees up to my chest and begin to cry. They are both dead. Why would this happen to me? Of all people, this happened to me. One of the officers comes over to me and crouches down so we are eye level. His eyes are full of sadness.
"I'm here to inform you that one of the two men is dead. I'm sorry Ms. Prior."
"May I ask which one is dead?" My whole body is shaking.
"The shorter one." Kai.
He walks off over to the ambulance, and the tears begin flowing. My entire body just breaks down and begins to crash. I fall on the floor and close my eyes. I don't want to be here. I want to be with Kai. I can't live without him. I loved him, with all my heart. This is going to kill me.
I pull my phone closer to me. Music always helps when I'm feeling broken and down. I click on the first song that comes to mind.
Sha la la la la, sha la la la la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong
I never want you to leave
I want you to stay here holdin' me
I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you
You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh, how I wish you could see
everything that's happening for me
I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast
I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you
I know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me
I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you...
I get in Kai's car and drive back to my house. I crawl under my covers and begin to cry until my body can no longer take the pain. I lay there, almost lifeless except for the light rise and lower of my back as I breathe. My mind wanders to unknown places as I contemplate life. I usually don't do that unless I am completely gone. I have nothing left. I am gone. I have nothing left to do. I roll off of the bed and into the bathroom. I turn the shower on all the way and hop in. I cringe as the burning water touches my skin. I reach back and run the spots that hurt, and skin peels off. I am holding layers of my skin. My arms begin to do the same. I jump out and wrap a towel around my body. I look at my body which is cherry red and burning. It's almost like sunburn. I put on super-short shorts and a tank top before I climb back into my bed. I turn on my music and sit there. I don't move. I don't think. I just sit there. I sit there for days, weeks, months.
My phone rings a hundred times a day with messages from Christina, Will, Zeke, and Uriah asking where I am and if I am okay. I do not answer. I sit in my chair. I do not do anything but sit and stare at my wall with the words, "FEAR GOD ALONE," plastered across it. Tobias put that up when we were younger. I still remember falling off of the ladder and on top of him. I was taller than him then. I wish I had these kinds of memories with Kai, but I don't and I never will.
I go into this numbness that I don't think I will ever overcome. I fall into this darkness with no one else but me. I pull myself out of the world and into my own alternate reality. I am alone.
After two months, I gain the courage to exit my room and venture outside. The cool air is blowing on my skin and making my hair flow. People who walk down the streets look at me with gaping awe and give me the oddest looks. They haven't seen me in the longest time. I haven't seen anyone. I don't know how to talk to people. I don't even know how to look at anyone. My life has changed, and I don't know how to go back. I have changed.
So… really depressing chapter. Tobias is not dead. Yay. The song is I Miss You by Miley Cyrus. Keep guessing which state and leave reviews. Thanks. Bye
-Kay