Kaitlin's POV

We were at home after a long day at the BAU. I was in my room looking at pictures of my family. Derek had come over and he and Emily were having a 'discussion'.

"Derek, this isn't okay. We'll discuss this later, alone. I have a child to take care of now. You need to leave." I heard Emily say angrily, but in a hushed tone.

"Just because she's here now, doesn't mean that this can't work. I love her as much as you do. And I love you. Maybe it's you that doesn't want this relationship to work," He shot back.

"Me? Everything I do, before I do it, I think of you, I think of us, and now I need to think of her, too." Emily said angrily. Was this about me?

"You didn't have to take her in right away," Morgan retorted. Oh no…they really were arguing about me.

"It was my choice. It's my apartment, my life," Emily said.

"Not just your life! Hers, too! And you didn't even talk to me about it!" He said, his voicing raising…

"Talk to you? You were right there in the hospital with me! And why do I need to talk to you any way? Where do you come into this picture at all?" Emily yelled back.

"Obviously nowhere. I'll see Kaitlin later. Maybe we'll shoot some hoops in the park, but you and me, this relationship is over," Derek said angrily, but in a quiet voice, and then slammed the door and drove away.

"Derek!" Emily called to him. A tear rolled down her cheek. I heard her swearing under her breath.

I wiped the tears from my eyes. I put some of my clothes in my backpack. I quietly slipped out the back door. I ran down the back stairwell. I started walking down the road with an address in my pocket. It started to pour.

About a half an hour later I reached JJ's house. That's where I had walked to. I rang the doorbell. A man opened the door, it must have been her boyfriend, or husband.

"Is JJ here?" I asked.

"Yes…who are you?" A man with a weird French and southern accent asked.

"I'm Kaitlin, I'm staying with Agent Prentiss…" My voice trailed away. He looked like he knew who I was. JJ must have told him. Then I heard JJ's voice. "Will? Who's there?" JJ came to the door with a baby in her arms.

"Kaitlin?" She asked me surprised. I nodded.

'I'm sorry for coming here…but I didn't know where else to go," I told her. She pulled me inside out of the ran.

"I can take Henry," Will said. JJ handed him the baby.

"Oh, honey, what happened?" She asked me. She gave me a hug. She brought me inside and to the upstairs bedroom. She held my hand and sat down on the bed. I sat next to her. "What happened, Kaitlin?"

"Derek came to Emily's and they were in a fight. He said he wanted the relationship to work, and that they didn't even talk about taking me in, and Emily said it was her choice, and that she didn't want him…and…and…and.. it's all my fault…I can't stay there any more. I can't cause her more pain and trouble than I already have." I started to cry again and she held me tightly.

JJ's cell phone was ringing.

"Hello?" She answered.

"JJ?" Emily sounded as if she had been crying, or as if she still was. "I can't find Kaitlin. She was in her room, while Derek was over, but when he left and I went to go to check on her, she was gone!" I heard her crying on the other end.

"Emily, calm down, it's okay. She's here with me," JJ told her.

"Oh my god, she is?" Emily asked.

"Yeah, do you want to talk to her?" JJ asked.

"Yes! Put her on the phone, JJ!" Emily said.

JJ looked at me, then handed me the phone.

"Hello?" I said quietly.

"Oh my…thank God your okay! I got so worried. You are okay aren't you?" She asked. She sounded worried.

"Yeah. I'm fine," I told her.

"How did you get there?" She didn't sound angry.

"I walked…" There was silence. "I'm really sorry, Emily, it's just that you and Derek were fighting and…and, I didn't mean to listen, but you guys were really loud, and your relationship wasn't working, and it's because of me…" My voice trailed away as tears streamed down my cheeks.

"No! No! It wasn't you! It was never you! It was me being stupid, but never ever was it you," She assured me.

"I didn't want to hurt you any more, or cause you any more pain," I told her, "And I didn't know where else to run to…so I went to JJ…" I explained.

"I'm coming down to get you," She told me and I handed the phone to JJ.

"Tell her I love her JJ," She said and hung up.

"She says she loves you," JJ said to me.

"I know she does. I've just been so afraid to tell her honestly that I do, too, because I don't want to forget about my mom…" I explained. JJ nodded and gave me a hug.

"JJ, can I tell you something?" I asked her.

"Of course…" She told me, still holding me.

"Do you know what the last thing I said to my mom was?" I asked her.

She shook her head no. "I called her a bitch." I said feeling so ashamed.

"We had gotten into a fight about something, something so stupid that now I don't even remember what it was about. As she was dropping me off at school we were still arguing. I called her a…a bitch and slammed the car door and walked into school. I didn't say I love you, I didn't say see you after school. Nothing. Right after I slammed the door I felt so bad. You don't even understand how bad.

"I wanted to call her, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I felt bad all day. Right after I finished my test after school I planned to run home and apologize and everything would be okay. Obviously…it wasn't. I wish I had said sorry…I wish I could have apologized, told her I loved her, or at least thanked her for all she does for me…

I'll never get to tell her I love her now. I'll never get to apologize. I just hope…that as she was dying…she thought of all the good things I had said to her…and I hope that as she was dying…that morning never crossed her mind…" I cried and cried and JJ kept holding me, and rocking me, like I was a baby again.