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Chapter 10 Breathe

In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt before
And I know
And you know
There's no need for words right now

'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

BPOV

After sending Edward the E-mails I started thinking, for me that is sometimes a mistake. Over-thinking most of time is my downfall. In this case I knew I was wrong, but I couldn't quit doubting myself. How could Edward not hate me for what I did? He made it more than clear he wanted to be with me. He told me he wanted there to be an us. Then in a short 5 seconds I threw it all out the window. Everything we had, everything we shared, everything he said, I just threw away in a moment of doubt. How could Edward ever forgive me?

Those doubts are what change the hotel idea from a sweet night of reunion, to a way of protecting myself. I could not meet him at his house now. Now being here at the hotel seem like the best idea. This would be easier for me. It would be better for me if he just didn't show up. I didn't think I could handle it if he came home and told me to leave his house. I would have to see the hate in his eyes. I would have to see the hurt I caused on his face. I'm not strong enough to handle that.

If by the grace of god he does show up tonight, there is no way I'm holding anything back from him. I will beg for his forgiveness. If I do get it, I will tell him how much I love him.

I put on my favorite dark blue dress I knew Edward loved on me. I did my hair and put a little make-up. Then I waited impatiently for Edward. I did not know when his flight was supposed to come in, but I told him I would be here anytime after 5. Of course I was nervous, because I was ready by 4.

A little after five I heard some noise from outside my room. So I stood and waited on the other side of the room. Then the most handsome man I have ever seen walked into my room. Relief flooded through me. He was here.

The most beautiful face I have ever seen looked a little worse for wear. You could see the lack of sleep that showed in his eyes. He still had worry lines etched in his face. But still he looked as handsome as ever.

He surprised me by quietly crossing the room and taking me in his arms, holding me tight to him. The relief I felt could not hold back the tears as I buried my face in his chest.

"Edward, I'm so sorry." I cried to him.

"Shh Angel, everything is going to be okay." He reassured me as he held me tight and rubbed my back to calm me.

I finally calmed down. I lifted my head from his chest to look in his eyes.

"Edward, please tell me you forgive me for doubting you." I begged him.

"Bella, there is nothing to forgive you for. I understand why you reacted the way you did. All that matters now is that you are here in my arms where you belong." He told me as he held me tighter.

Edward just held me for a while, but I needed more. I loosen my hold on him and he pulled away a little. He so softly took my face in his hand and press his lips to mine. The moment his lips touched mine I felt that electric current that always runs through us when we touch. I missed it. I missed him. I didn't realize how badly I needed him until now. I knew I needed him, but how much I felt better by him just holding me and his lips on me just made me realize there was no way I could live without him. With his lips just pressed to mine I knew I had to tell him now.

"Edward, I love you." I said around his lips.

Suddenly Edward started to kiss me with a whole new passion. That same passion ran through me as he picked me up and I wrapped myself around him. With every move we made, the deeper our kisses got, the more whole I felt.

I deepen our kiss and as his hand moved over me. They left a trail of fire along my skin. It only left me wanting more from him. He laid kisses and licks along my neck to my collar bone and back up. He had my body singing for him. I couldn't stop the quiet moans from coming out of me. I was just about to beg him to take me when I felt his breath on me and he whispered in my ear.

"Bella, I love you."

That was all I needed to hear to know we were going to be okay.

"Edward, make love to me. I need you right now." I begged him.

Edward kissed me again with a new hunger. It was full of need. Our tongues danced as he carried me to the bed in the next room and carefully laid me down. He removed his lips mine and looked in my eyes as he hovered over me.

"Bella, I love you. I have been wanting to tell you for weeks now. You are the most important thing in my life. I don't think I can live without you."

"I love you too. I hate what I am without you. I don't want to live without you. I'm not whole without you. I need you. You make me, me."

"Bella, you are my life now."

"I want to be your life, as you are already my life."

He kissed me again. I was more than willing to deepen it. I poured all of me into our kiss. I needed to make him feel my love for him. I had to know that he knew without a doubt how much he meant to me.

Edward moved his kisses down to my neck as he gently pulled me up to sit in front of him. With his soft gentle hands he carefully unzipped my dress. Then he caressed my back. Edward soft touches eased my nervousness that was building. I had no idea why I was nervous, I wanted to give myself to Edward a 100%, but we have never been this far before.

He slowly rubbed his hands up my back to my shoulders and carefully moved the straps of the dress over my shoulders and down my arms. I watched Edward's face as he watched my dress fall to my lap. I watched as he looked me over, then his eyes slowly reached my eyes and a huge smile crossed his face. That smile gave me courage as I slowly went to stand beside the bed and let my dress fall to the floor. Edward moved to sit on the bed in front of me and took my hands. I felt a blush creep over my face and spread down my chest as I stood there in only my thong. Edward pulled me toward him to stand in between he legs. He looked up at me to look me in the eyes.

"Bella, you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen."

I move to straddle Edward's lap and gave him a deep open mouthed kiss as I removed his tie and unbutton his shirt. I broke our kiss and watched my hands move over his chest and shoulders as I removed his shirt. I then held his face in my hands and looked him in the eyes.

"How did I get so lucky to have you love me?" I asked him.

"It is not luck sweetheart. I was made for you and you were made for me."

I just could not keep my lips off him. I started our kissing again as I got a little bolder and moved my hands down to unbuckle his belt. Soon I had his pants unbutton and unzipped. Edward didn't waste anytime. He soon had me lying on the bed again and was hovering over me as he kicked his pants off.

Edward made his way along my jaw line down my neck and kept moving his way south. My body was hyper-aware of his every move. I felt every kiss, taste and move of his hands, no matter how small, like it was the first time. When he took my breast in his hand and put his lips to the other I was ready to explode. I couldn't stop the moans and cries for him that came from my mouth. They became loader as he circled my nipple with his tongue, then lightly bit and sucked on it. He moved and did the same to the other. He paid so much attention there he had me writhing under him. He shifted so that his still covered manhood rubbed against my hot, wet center. That small movement sent me over the edge with the strongest orgasm I ever had. Now I had to have more. I quickly moved my hands down his back to push his boxers down as far as I could. Edward kicked them the rest of the way off, as I removed my thong.

Edward pressed his lips to mine as he situated himself between my legs. He then pressed his forehead to mine and looked me in the eyes. I could see the question in his eyes. I gave him my silent answer by reaching for his lips and bucking my hips toward his.

If I thought the connection we had was strong, then it got 100 times stronger as he entered me. Us being connected like this was remarkable. I never believed I could feel this way in such a simple act. If I never believed we were made for each other before, there was no doubt about it now. We fit together perfectly. 2 missing pieces finally finding its mate. We moved together perfectly in sync.

As we moved together I felt our connection grow stronger, emotively and physically. I felt whole, all the pieces finally falling into place and pieces I didn't know was missing.

With Edward all around me, he was moving in and out of me, he was moving over me and his lips were moving all over me, I could feel the intensity building inside of me. I could not hold it back no more. Edward moved his lips to my ear and whispered my undoing.

"I love you."

I couldn't ever say the words back as I felt my orgasm rock through my body. I think I was only able to scream his name over and over again. As soon as I got some grip on myself I repaid the favor.

"Edward, I love you, too." I whispered in his ear.

Then I felt his arms squeeze me tight as he press his forehead to mine as he groaned and whispered my name. His body gave a slight shiver as he empty himself into me. After laying still for a few minutes Edward rolled us over until he was on his back. I pulled the covers over us and found my spot on his chest.

"Sleep my sweet Bella." Edward whispered to me as he kissed my on the forehead.