Chapter 10 NOT lovers.

Hi! Sorry I didn't update quicker. I was gonna update Friday but I had my skating lessons and then my internet was down:( I hope you all forgive me! How did you guys like the last chapter? Please read! And Review!

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Natsume's POV

I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Mikan. She was supposed to be dead. Gone. Forever. It was like a dream come true seeing her again. I hoped so much when Jinno said she died that she would burst into the door proving him wrong. But she didn't. And now she's here, standing in front of me. I didn't know what to say or what to do when I saw her. Did she know what pain I went through while she was gone and then when we were told she died?

Guilt, Pain, Regret, and Happiness filled my heart. I felt guilty and regret for letting her go. I knew I shouldn't have but I did. She didn't leave me. I left her. I abandoned her all alone. That was her only choice I really gave her. It was my fault. But I was so happy seeing her there in front of my eyes. I can't even say how much happiness I felt. I felt as if my heart would burst. And I was sure it was beating hard enough for anyone to hear.

She said my name and then I could see the tears starting to streak her face rolling down. She ran over to me and hugged me as hard as she could manage.

I was surprised at her act but never less I returned the hug. When she pulled back she looked at me with sad eyes sparkling with radiance.

"Natsume. I missed you so much." I smiled at this. She missed me. So she must have not forgotten about me.

"I missed you too….Polka." I whispered.

She whined at this while saying, "Natsume! I came all the way here to meet you and all you do is say you miss me then tease me!" She pouted in a cute way like a puppy would.

I smirked. I missed her whining when I teased her, the smile to cheer me up, or how she smelled like fresh strawberries all the time. I loved seeing her happy and admired her happiness and how she tried her best to keep the bad times joyful.

But then confusion crossed my thoughts. Why did Jinno Sensei say Mikan died? I didn't understand. Why did the teachers do this? Even our dad thought she died! The principal came to our house before I got home the same day I found out and told him the story. We were suppose to attend the funeral in America! What will he say when he sees Mikan?

"Mikan, where are you staying?"

She looked up at me and said, "Oh. I live in the dorms. I wasn't allowed to see any friends or family for some reason."

I asked her if she knew about her 'death' and that Dad knew and I also asked her what she was planning to do next.

While all this was happening I could see from the corner of my eye Permy smiling at us and silently leaving to give us some space.

"Natsume, meet me under our sakura tree at 11 pm."

I wonder why she said this. She was probably planning something. "Why?"

She leaned in closer causing me to furiously blush multiple shades of pink and then in a whispered tone, "Because, that's the only way for me to visit Dad. I have to sneak out. I can't let anyone see me."

"Okay." I never knew how much she changed. She's not the little girl she was before.

She actually has a brain now.

But she's prettier than before. She's almost like an angel. I couldn't look away from her big glowing brown orbs that I got lost inside. Her perfectly shaped face, smooth with a tinge of pink in her cheeks. She's still just as childish but more feminine in a way both good and bad. I don't want other guys seeing her, I want her for myself.

A while after we left I couldn't stop thinking about the call she got right before.

Ring! Ring! Ri- She picked up the phone while saying, "Sorry, I gotta get this."

She turned back to the phone and said, "Hey! Whats up?"

Then whoever was talking to her said some stuff.

"So you want to go on a date Saturday night? Awwww. You're so sweet!" She exclaimed.

Who the hell was this guy? Don't tell me - no- this guy can't be her- I grunted out loud trying to hold back what I really wanted to do.

I wanted to take the phone and throw it out the window, find the guy and get him out of the picture.

Mikan got off the phone and looked back up at me.

"Who was that guy? Your boyfriend?"

"How do you know it was a guy?"

"Obviously, Idiot you're going on a date with him."

"How do you know I'm not homosexual or something?"

Since when did she know all this vocabulary? I never knew she could figure all this out on her own.

"Anyways, who was that?"

"My boyfriend, Yo Chan."

"Tst."

I was so mad. I can't even describe what I felt. If I ever met this guy I was gonna kill him, literally.

"What class is he in?" I tried to ask as calmly as I could bare.

"Class 2B."

What? That's my class. Who is this guy? How did I not notice him?

"Full name."

"Hijiri Youichi."

Damn. The new kid from America. I should've known.

What was I gonna do to win her back? I should just move on. Yeah. She's back, safe, and…..

Happy. That's what matters. If I really do care about her I should leave her the way she is, happy. Move on. I did before but my heart never left her. I wanted to go back. My chest was in pain so much thinking about giving up. But it was something I had to do.

I know that right now in Mikan's life I'm the only thing stopping her for a good future for her.

Mikan's POV

I couldn't believe that Permy did that for me! I love her….. As a friend appropriately! I couldn't- not in a million years- think that I'd see Natsume again. I missed him so much. As I walked back into the dorms I almost cried thinking about him. About how much I missed him and had to cope without him. I think I'm finally over him though. It's stupid that we once thought we actually could be together. It's wrong. Forbidden.

As I walked into me and Permy's dorm I saw her sitting on the sofa staring at me which a dog/cat like expression. Exciting. And eager…..to know more. Obviously about what happened with Natsume.

"So. Aren't you gonna tell me what happened?" She said anxiously.

"Um sure."

"Well, go on!"

"Uh well we just talked about what happened when I was gone, where I went, and stuff."

"Gimme the spice! That's the boring stuff! Nobody cares about that!" She yelled at me.
"I'm going out at 11 to meet him."

"Ooooo. Romantic."

"What?" I whipped my head up from looking at the ground to see her.

"I know about you two." She smiled deviously. "Your lovers. Aren't you?"

"No it's not like that!" I said defensively. I couldn't help but blush though.

"Don't worry. Your secret it safe with me."

"No! I'm saying that I have a BOYFRIEND. I moved on!" With a strong emphasis on boyfriend.

"What?" Now it was her turn to be confused."Hotaru told me-"

"That was before she knew I moved on." I harshly cut in. I walked into my room angry while leaving her sitting there surprised at my outburst.

I hated how people didn't realize that the love Natsume and I thought we hadn't been real. We both know that. Natsume and I are just siblings, friends, whatever, but NOT lovers.

I just don't love him anymore. But when I said that, for some reason a strong ache came from my chest. Not physically but mentally. I started to cry. What was wrong with me? Why was I crying for no reason? Or was there a reason?

What should I do?

Ring! Ring! I stopped my tears almost immediately and picked up the phone, wiping my tears away quickly as if the person on the other end could see me.

"You are not permitted to have contact with you family or friends. There will be serious consequences if you break this rule." And with saying that the person hung up leaving me dumbfounded.

Who was that? The elementary school principal? I know that he said that before too. I wonder if he knows about what I've been doing.

Hey! Did you like this chapter? Sorry I didn't make it long because my annoying friend *ahem* TemariSakura, the idiot, was bugging me to update soon. I was gonna make it longer. Gomen. Blame her.

Also I'm sorry if I made any grammar mistakes or something cause once again I was threatened. Well not literally but I could tell she was thinking about the cost of my gravestone. I HAVE to post today.

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