Did anybody watch the crossover last week with fire? That car chase scene and the Linstead make out had me screaming lol

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"Oh, and by the way I love you too"

It had been three weeks since the car accident. The doctor had just given Erin the all clear to go back to work and she was more excited then ever. Some other people though, didn't feel the same way she did.

"Maybe you should just take another week off" Jay said as Erin pulled their new black car into the underground garage of the district.

"Why?" she asked turning to look at him for a brief second. "The doctor gave me all the clear, so I can go back to work"

"I know" he mumbled as she parked the car and turned it off. "But I just worry about you" Erin turned and looked at him as she leaned in for a brief kiss before pulling back.

"I know but I'm not just going to sit still and look pretty. This is my job; this is what I want to do"

"I know" he mumbled as they both got out of the car. "I just wish it wasn't"

"Look on the bright side" she said as she opened the door to head up to Intelligence. "If this wasn't my job we never would have met"

"And that I am grateful for every day" he said looking around for anybody before leaning in and kissing her before they both headed up the stairs.

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"Erin!" everybody yelled when she and Jay appeared from the back room. They spent the next few minutes in hugs with everybody each making sure she was okay.

"I'm fine guys" she said after a full round of hugs. "If I wasn't the doctor wouldn't have cleared me, but he did which means I'm okay"

"I'm glad your back kid" Voight said smiling at her before turning to the team. "Now, besides for Erin's accident nothing new has come up. The clubs have been quiet the last few days and Daniel hasn't been on his usual corner selling drugs. Which mean's they think something is going on and they might be keeping a low profile"

"Any news on the accident?" Jay said turning to Mouse.

"Nope" he said sitting in his chair. "I have no witnesses but I am trying to crack the code on the security camera that was right at the intersection of the crash. See who came out of the car, if there was even anybody in the car"

"There had to have been someone in the car" Jay said rolling his eyes.

"Well" Atwater said from his desk. "CPD was only three minutes out from the time of the crash apparently. If someone was driving the car they wouldn't have just walked away with a couple of scratch's meaning they couldn't have gotten far. But CPD checked the entire area and didn't find anybody or any sign of anybody"

"Then who called in the crash?" Erin said confused. "If there was nobody around to witness it who called it in then?"

"Ah" Mouse said a smile on his face. "That's where things get fun. See the government has put up these new cameras at intersections to catch people who run reds or do other illegal stuff. But they also have this new feature that if an accident happens and that camera catches it, it sends a signal to a nine one one operator stating where the crash is at so they can send people. It's encase of situations like these where no one is around to call the camera's now do it for you"

"So we have no evidence of who hit the car, and nobody around to call it in because a camera did it" Jay said huffing out a breath in frustration. "Fantastic"

"Listen" Voight said. "Maybe you two need a few more days off"

"No!" Erin and Jay said at the exact same time. "I mean" Jay said as he looked at Erin. "Were good sarg, no worries"

"Alright well" he said as he looked at everyone. His eyes were blood shot red and he had dark circles under his eyes. Erin's accident wasn't just affecting Jay. "Keep searching, looking and even go out if you need too. Halstead and Lindsay you guys can head back to your apartment and maybe hit up the club again in a few days, and see where we are at. All I want done right now if finding out about this crash, it is priority" and with that he was back in his office with the door shut behind him.

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The car ride had been silent for the two of them when they drove back to the apartment. It had been a rough couple of weeks. Jay wasn't sure who was getting the shitter end, him or Erin. Yes, she was in the car accident and had no idea what had happened to her but Jay was the one who had to wait to make sure she was going to make it and be alright. And even though she was the one who lost the baby it was their baby. They both weren't sleeping well at night. Both of them waking each other up by either screaming, thrashing or crying; and they both did all three.

When they walked into the apartment and took their jackets off Jay suddenly felt the little lump in his pocket and remembered what he had. He was sure it was going to brighten the mood of this shitty day.

"So I have something for us" he said a small smile on his face; proud of himself. She turned around from the kitchen with a worried look on her face.

"Jay" she said her hands up in defense. "If you have an engagement ring in your pocket right now I might scream" His smile dropped from his face and was placed with a scared look himself. "I'm just not ready to be engaged right now with everything happening so if it is a ring I am going to have to say no" his smile was back.

"It's not a ring" he said walking towards her.

"Oh thank God" she said letting out a breath, she than noticed the smile on his face and her worried look set in. "They way you are looking at me right now is freaking me out and honestly I really wish you just had drugs in your pocket"

"Well you guessed it, it's drugs" The worried look was still on her face and her brows pressed together. "Excuse me?"

"It's drugs" he said as he reached into his pocket and pulled out a bag that held about three grams of weed in it.

"Are you joking?" she said as she snatched the bag out of his hand. "Were cops, and it's illegal!"

"First off" he said snatching the bag back. "We are off duty so it doesn't matter, and second it was illegalized two months ago in the state of Illinois. So ha" he gave her his signature smile and she couldn't help but melt into it and smile back.

"I was thinking" he said wrapping his arms around her small fragile waist. "That we light this puppy up, get a good buzz going and then order a pizza"

It didn't even take her two seconds to agree. "But I'm taking the first hit" she said snatching the bag back once again.

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It had been one hour since they had been home. Jay had rolled a joint for them and they took turns as they smoked it off their balcony. The result had been a very high buzz, the both of them laughing so hard Erin basically pissed her pants. Now they currently sat on the couch in front the TV with some show that was on that neither one was paying attention to. An extra large pizza with extra cheese sat on the table in front of the couch with both of them four slices in.

"As much as I hated this idea, it was an amazing idea" Erin said as she took another bite of her pizza and then washed it down with a sip of her beer.

"You are welcome" Jay said leaning over to place a feather light kiss on her lips before finishing off his fourth slice.

"Hey" she said pulling his attention from his now fifth slice to her. "Can I ask you something?"

"Of course baby, what is it?"

"Did you mean it?"

"Mean what?" he asked with a mouth full of food.

"The other night" she said. "Our conversation in bed. Did you mean it?"

Jay thought back to that night and remembered what had happened.

She had woken him up by thrashing and yelling in her sleep. He had to shake her awake before she woke up in tears with him by her side.

"Hey it's okay" he said wiping the tears with his thumb and lightly brushing away stray hairs that were stuck to her face with sweat. "Another bad dream?"

"It was the face" she mumbled as she sat up in the dark bedroom. "I could see a baby's face"

"Shhh it's alright I'm here now" he said sitting up beside her as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder and pulled her into his chest.

"I still can't believe what happened" she mumbled. "I never would have assumed I was pregnant, I thought we were careful…" she mumbled off.

Jay was silent for a few moments. Since they had come home from the hospital two weeks ago neither one of them had mention the miscarriage, he had been waiting to see if she would bring it up.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked softly.

"Would you have wanted it?" she asked not even answering his question. "If I hadn't have lost the baby would you have wanted to keep it?"

"The chance to have a child with someone who I love more then ever, I would give my entire world to have a baby with you" She smiled at him through the dark room not knowing what time it was.

"Would you have wanted it to be a boy or girl?" she asked.

"A girl, the chance to have someone with your eye colour and dimples I couldn't pass up" he smiled. Talking about what had happened was a good coping mechanism for the both of them.

"Names?" she asked again.

"I've always like Charlotte, or Valerie. You?"

"I've never thought about girl names but Katherine is really pretty"

"I like that name"

They were both quiet for a few moments, the pitch black room seemed to make the silence worse between the two of them. After a few moments she was the one who broke it.

"I had never thought about having children until what happened" she mumbled. "After what I grew up with I could never imagine myself as a mother" Small tears slipped out of her eyes and she let them fall down her check and then off her face hitting the comforter that covered her waist.

"You are not your mother" Jay said sternly.

"You don't know that" she said back.

"I do. And I know you enough to know that no matter what you grew up with and what has happened to you and what you have done. There is nothing that could turn you into your mom"

"Would you ever want children with me?" she asked looking at him. Even though he couldn't see in the room he could see her glowing eyes, that glow had never gone away since the day he had met her, and he hoped it never would.

"I would give anything to have children with you. To spend the rest of my life with you and have half you and half me running around would be the best thing in the world. I love you"

"I love you too" They both leaned in and kissed heavily and one thing lead to another and soon clothes were being taken off and bodies were being worshiped. And beside the bed on the bedside table the clock read 3:27 am.

Jay was drawn back into the real world after thinking about their conversation that night.

"Of course" he said setting his beer down on the table to move closer to her on the couch. "I want children with you now and I will want children with you in twenty years. What you don't see that I do is that you will make the best mother in the entire world. You are so caring and compassionate. You and drawn to helping people and loving them and I know it's hard for you to think about being a mom because of your past, but all of your amazing qualities that made me fall in love with you in the first place; is what will make you an amazing mom to our future children"

"Wow" was all she could manage to get out of her mouth. The weed was still having it's affect on the both of them making them high and tingly all over. "No one has ever said anything like that about me, ever"

"It's all the truth. Our conversation in bed, what I just told you now. Everything. I will never lie to you Erin Lindsay"

"God you turn me on so much" she said as she stood up from the couch and moved to sit right back down on Jay. She straddled him, each leg was on either side of his body. "This smoking idea was the best idea ever" she said a little smirk on her face. "I just feel so good" she hummed the last part out her eyes closing as she leaned into Jay. He wrapped his arms around her waist and held onto her.

"Does this make you feel good" he said slipping a finger underneath her shirt on her back as he traced patterns across the scared skin and then pressed his warm lips against her collar bone. He felt her shiver at his response and her body temperature shot up and he swore he could almost feel heat radiating off her body like a fireplace.

Jay had never felt a connection like this before with anybody. She was his sunlight, and his stars. She could make him laugh at 3pm or 3am. He didn't think he had ever smiled as much in his entire life until he had met her. He planned to marry her someday and have kids as well. Watch them grow and then head off to college, the two of them retiring in his family's cabin. He could see it all. His entire life ahead of him. And every single moment involved the girl sitting on his lap.

Hope you all enjoyed it writing this chapter felt a bit odd and I'm not sure its very good...Please review and let me know! xoxo