Christmas.
It was the day our projects would come back.
Mello was boasting already.
Never in his dreams would he expect to lose.
But he did.
I got perfect scores, Mello, had only one mistake.
His usual mistake, he had overlooked one small detail.
At first he didn't say anything.
He was too shocked to say anything.
"…Are you okay? You don't look too good."
"Huh? What are you saying? Of course I'm fine."
I could tell that he really wasn't.
He was pale, much paler than usual.
"It was a good fight. We both worked our hardest."
He smiled. A normal childish smile.
But to me it looked slightly different than his real smiles.
To me it looked as if he couldn't accept the fact that he had lost.
As if he was too proud.
I smiled.
"Yes we did."
I acted as if I didn't care.
"Um, I have to prepare something. I'll be in my room."
Mello went to his room. Matt followed him.
I didn't dare move from my place.
I had that sick feeling again.
As if I felt sorry for him.
He was my first friend, and knowing him I knew that he would never forgive me for doing this to him.
But I also had this other feeling.
That I had finally gotten what I wanted the most.
A chance to become L.
After some months, the air between us had changed drastically.
The only reason why we were together was because Matt and a girl called Linda kept (or tried to) keep us together.
But I had changed. I worked hard on my schoolwork, ignoring Matts pleas to at least give Mello a chance.
One day even the patient Matt got sick of me.
He said that he couldn't believe that I actually was friends with Mello, that I didn't deserve to be his rival.
I kept silent.
I didn't care for a beating, or any type of verbal abuse.
Nothing would stop me from getting what I wanted.
Than one day he stopped trying.
And me and Mello stopped trying to communicate with each other.
We were both blind to everything but our own dreams.
Matt despised me, and the only person left to support me was Linda.
She was kind, but I couldn't see her kindness.
I was alone again.
Just as I always was, and I knew I would never change.
My name, my wish, had no meaning.
Authors Note: I'm to busy to upload my story it seems.
I'll probably upload the next chapter on either Monday or Tuesday.
Sorry for the slow uploads :(
Thanks for the support!