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A Better Place Chap 10

At the door stood an angry Russian, a fiery blonde and the rest of our friends taking in our position. It wasn't like we were doing anything sexual we were just laying here comfortably. Adrian, Mia and Eddie's faces showed shock though, before all this Chris and I were never close and wouldn't have been caught in a situation like this ever but now things have changed and his the who is saving me. I looked up at Christian and he shrugged, well if he was fine I was not moving, I'm exhausted and extremely comfortable. Apparently Chris could read me and decided that he was comfortable too and started to run his hands through my hair massaging my scalp a little, I let my eyes flutter close.

"Come in guys, take a seat." Chris said motioning for them to enter instead of standing in the doorway like muppets. After what I suppose is a few minutes, I really need to stop zoning out, the silence was once again broken.

"What the fuck?" Lissa asked. I opened my eyes to see the group had sat in front of us and looked even more shocked and Dimitri looked furious. I looked at Christian and it turns out I had made myself even more comfortable, I was now sitting in his lap with my head resting on his chest and his arms around me. We looked at each other and I'm sure my face mirrored the shock that his showed. Apparently I had subconsciously decided to be closer to him and he had no objections. I gave him a look saying 'we need to talk right now' he nodded his face conveying the same message.

But right now we had to deal with these visitors who were cutting into the time that we needed to talk about everything, but by the looks on their faces, besides the shock, they had come here to discuss something important. Adrian was the first to break the silence.

"We need to talk after this." He said looking at me and Christian. Could he see something in out auras? God this situation is complicated.

I pulled myself away from Christian and immediately felt a loss of comfort. I tried not to show anything but from the look on Christian's face he felt it too. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed myself a bottle of water and sat down on the bench, trying to put as much distance between Christian and myself which was surprisingly hard.

"What's going on guys?" I asked casually as if that weird moment hadn't happened at all. They just stared at me waiting for me to break and show any sign of weakness but I wasn't going to, I'm not going to break in front of these people again just so they can feel sorry for me and show me sympathy. I don't want their sympathy! I don't want them to worry about me and I sure as hell don't know what I'm doing anymore but I'm trying.

"Why were you and Christian wrapped around each other before?" Lissa spat at us.

"After everything I've been through he's the only one who hasn't left me, or hurt me and I have some sort of connection with him and I don't know what it is about. Is that really what you came here to talk about?" I asked the last bit with every bit of venom that she used with me.

"No, we came here to see how you're doing after you were released from hospital and to talk to you about what is going to happen now. But then we found you and lord Ozera all cuddled up on the couch." Dimitri said in that Russian accent that used to make me swoon. Used to? I need to figure out what is going on, well at least confirm my suspicions.

"Let's just stay on topic." Eddie said with authority. I gave him a small smile before the serious questions were fired at me.

"Roza have you cut since you came out of your coma?" Dimitri asked. Everyone turned to me and I suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable. Did they really have to start with that question? My hands started to shake and I felt my fingers twitch over the healing cuts on my thigh. I was about to start scratching at it or pinching it, just to feel some sort of pain as a distraction but Christian was in front of me in seconds holding my hands and looking into my eyes.

"I can't Chris. I can't do this." I mumbled those words for the millionth time in the past few weeks.

"I'm right here Rosie, you can do this just look at me and it's going to be alright." He whispered back. I started to protest but was cut off by Christian's strong chest as he wrapped his arms around me and held me close. "It's going to be ok Rose I'm right here, I promise you I'm not leaving." I pulled away from Christian and looked into his eyes there was no sign of him lying or hiding anything from me. Someone behind us cleared their throat, I liked back at them to see their eyes on us. Time to face the music.

"Yes I did. I cut my thighs in the hospital after I told you all to get out." I said looking at Christian, I didn't want to see their faces when I said this.

"How?" I heard Mia asked. I flinched at this. I hadn't even told Christian, I guess now everyone was going to find out. I bit my lip in anticipation, Christian squeezed my hand and gently removed my lip from in between my teeth. He gave me a gentle smile trying to encourage me.

"The nurse came in to check my vitals and had a scalpel in her pocket. I thought it was odd, you know, bringing a scalpel into the room of a suicidal patient, I assumed Adrian had compelled the hospital staff to think that I passed out from exhaustion or something. I cut myself before you came back to see me." I replied honestly. Christian looked shocked but gave me a supporting smile and squeeze none the less. It was like I was just tell Christian not a room full of people that I was once so close with.

"Why?" I heard Lissa spit out. Did she seriously just ask me why? I could feel myself start to get angrier and the rage was just building up. How could she be so stupid and ask why? My hands started to shake and I looked up at Chris, I could see the anger building up in me in the reflection of his eyes. This was about to end badly for someone, the only question is will it be them or me?