Anger issues
"Bradley, what am I 'post to do without you? How can I
get to sleep?"
Schuldig rolled over to look at Yohjis sleeping peacefully next
to himself.
On the next bed of course.
Schuldig had to promise a thousand times before the Blond would
go to bed.
Not to try anything, but Schuldig was desperately lonely, and
in need of a drink. His stash for emergencies was gone, and Yohji
had refused to share. Schuldig crawled out of his bed and in the
dark moved to place his face just by Yohjis on the bed. Studying
the blond intently.
Farfarello was undruged, uncontained and unhappy. He sat not
three paces from his new partner. Weiss, his kitten slept peacefully
slumbering, drool leaked over his left cheek and onto the blue
pillow Farfarello was completely captivated by this man.
Why? He didn't know. Was it Kens friendship with his mother before
Farfarello had killed her? Was it the fact that he looked swell
in his blue jeans and T-shirt? Whatever it was, Farfarello hated
not knowing why this man made him feel so right.
It bothered him, and so he was unhappy. He moved closer picking
up Kens pocket knife that was on his dresser.
"Sleep my kitten, peacefully slumber." Farfarello leaned
over Ken, within striking distance he laughed, tilting his head
back he smiled to the stars he knew were beyond the roof.
Schuldig ran his hands down Yohjis handsome chest and smiled,
leaning himself over the deeply sleeping playboy humming softly
to himself a German melody.
He wanted Brad back. He was lonely without his leader, and even
though Brad was a stuck up prick of an American. Schuldig had
grown found of him and Brad was not that mean to Schuldig. Not
as horrible as some people were. Rozenkreuz still burned his
mind. he hated them, he also hated the fact that Brad was the
only reason he made it out of that place.
And so had devised to take Yohji on.
It made sense, Schuldig lonely Yohji shared a room with him, and
was quite handsome at the same time.
Schuldig had had a fascination with the other man for quite some
time. and had told no one of it.
Yohji was his little secret that he could never have, so he just
dreamed. But now, Yohji was in reach. Schuldig suddenly had a
chance to make some of those day dreams come true. It had been
awhile since he had turned a straight guy. He thought it would
be fun, a sort of challenge.
A chilling scream of pain that shook the house woke Yohjis mind.
Not at all distracted by the scream, Schuldig pushed the playboy
down on the bed.
Yohji frowned, not really awake enough for it to register that
Schuldig was molesting him.
Both pairs of jaded emeralds in the dark locked and Schuldig delighted
in the look of terror in the older mans eyes.
"Get off of me!" The blond, suddenly, lively, screamed
and kicked Schuldig.
Who, gracefully, let a sly grin come to his face before doubling
over from the blow to lower parts of his body.
"That was below the belt." He gasped from the floor
in his futile position, clutching himself. Yohji got up and snatched
a shirt up off of his dresser.
"You better not have been below the belt. For your sake."
Schuldig glared on the floor, in the dark.
"Your such a pussy Yohji!" Ignoring Schuldig Yohji quickly
gathered himself and there was a flickering of the power as Schuldig
sighed. He felt Nagis wave of shock and terror run through his
mind. One, two, three.
Bam! bam bam bam ...
Pop! bam bam!
All the lights in the house exploded as the little shop shook
furiously. Nagis powers running through the power lines as each
fuse exploded with a bang!
The light bulbs littered glass, in a pretty shower, all over
Yohjis head. The blond cursed as he fumbled in the dark for the
door.
'don't worry, it's just Farf. He's got your little Kenith with
a knife. But he only stabs once. Nagi has been rudely awaken
and has sent his shock waves through the building. Nothing to
worry about'
"Nothing more then you raping me in my sleep! Get out of
my mind!" Yohji fingered Schuldig in the dark and stormed
out of the room. Schuldig heard him stumble down the hall and
a exchange of voices. He followed unconsciously attracted to
the action.
"Why? What did I ever do to you?" Ken spat at Farfarello
who was still holding the bloodied knife. He clutched the bloodied
wound in his thigh and was not really that much in pain, more
angry at the sudden resentful action against him or no apparent
reason. His anger boiled up and struck out at Farfarello with
vengeance.
"You were..." Farfarello seemed to think for his actions
too late. Ken cursed at the Irishman as fists hammered into the
door.
"KEN! Ken are you all right? Ken please open the door."
shuffling and hushed voices.
"Open the door you dirty fucker! You maniac! If you've hurt
ken! I'll..." Yohjis voice loud and clear.
"Yohji!" Omis voice scolding Yohji.
Ken sighed. He really didn't need any help. He just wanted to
sort out why the mad man had stuck him with his own pocket knife.
"I'm fine go away!" Ken shouted at the voices behind
the door. The athlete turned his attention back to his partner.
Better to work out problems now, before they had to work together
on the mission.
"Now," Ken got up and walked over to Farfarello who
flinched back and held the knife up in defense.
"Farfarello hasn't done anything bad! Don't punish him! Please
no. I didn't mean to hurt ken, Just God. Only God. Just God..."
Ken tilted his head to the side and watched the frightened Irishman
shiver and hold the bloodied knife out towards Ken.
The knife was not pointed at Ken, more offering it to him. As
the whit head was Mumbling incoherent jumbles of his thoughts
and apologies all mixed with random passages from the bible as
he shook in the dark.
Farfarello looked terrified.
"No drugs, no please." Ken took the knife from the shivering
hand and flung it away. He didn't know quite what to do with the
man before him.
Rocking back and forth humming Catholic tunes the other was not
really any more a threat. Ken thought it was almost like Farfarello
didn't know why he had hurt him.
All Ken knew was, the man was not threatening any more.
"Farfy." Ken was no longer afraid of the pathetic mess
shivering before him. He put a hand On Farfarellos shoulder and
There was more pounding on the door followed by Omis voice.
Ken ignored them. Farfarello stopped shaking and looked up at
Ken with tears in his eye. Ken thought it was possibly the most
messed up person he had ever met. And sitting there in the dark,
wondered how the Schwarz members had bared to look at this.
how they had done this to him. Gently, softly, slowly, Ken brushed
Farfarellos shoulders to comfort him.
"I'm not going to drug you, and I'm not going to punish you."
Farfarello looked down at Kens hand, unsure what to do with the
contact.
"No drugs?" Farfy questioned and there was more banging
on the door. Ken shook his head softly to answer Farfarello.
"No. No drugs," Farfy looked puzzled.
"But Farfy, he didn't do something wrong?" Ken shot
up with the thought, it hadn't even crossed his mind..
"No! Farfy is bad! Farfy hurt Ken! Look!" Ken pointed
to The knife wound on his leg and Farfy followed his hand to gaze
at it. He looked for a second then crocked his head.
"Then why you not punish Farfy?" Ken sighed and closed
his eyes, leaning against the wall with Farfy.
"Why did you do that Farfy? That's all I want to know."
Farfy paused for a second and thought.
"There was a reason, I remember. I was not happy with you.
But I forget why. I don't know, it was a unhappy feeling, discomfort
if you will. And the only way I could make it go away was hurting
someone else... Besides me." Ken looked down and for the
first time noticed that Farfy was bleeding from more the one place.
Great gashes down his chest, arms and legs. White bandages torn
away from his blood soaked skin. Ken gasped. Farf was bleeding
more then he was.
"Farfarello! Why do you do this?" Farfy blinked at Ken.
"No one has ever asked more questions about me. No one ever
really cared why. Why should you?"
The door burst down and Omi, Yohji, Schuldig and Nagi rushed in
through the dark.
"Ken!" Omi rushed over and Nagi with a quick step over
to Kens dresser took up the tranquilizer and quicker then Ken
could respond to, Darted Farfy in the chest. Farfy looked down
at the dart and then to ken, smiled, his insanely creepy smile.
"No drugs?" Ken sighed and Farfarellos head slumped
onto his chest in sleep.
"Ken! Are you ok? Look what he's done to you, why didn't
you open the door? Can you walk?" Omi was all over the wound
in Kens leg, but all Ken could do was look past the blond boy
over to the Other man.
"He didn't even know why he did it." Nagi walked over
to Farfarello and check the man over.
"I told you to drug him at night, or at least put him in
a straight jacket. You should of listened to me." Ken felt
a angry white flame start inside of him at that dark haired Japanese
youth. He didn't know where it came from. But a dark remorse welled
up inside him as Nagi pulled Farfy up and out of the room.
"Wait!" Nagi stopped at the door way, floating Farfy
in front of him. Ken felt all eyes on him as he leaned on Omi
to get up.
"I promised him I wouldn't..." Nagi looked at him and
Ken felt extremely Awkward.
Schuldig burst out laughing.
"Ah ha!" He pointed at ken and didn't hide one bit of
laughter. Ken went red.
"You feel sorry for him do you? After he stabbed you in your
sleep? You still feel sorry for him? Oh gosh. What a push over.
Nagi, leave the man here. Ken can sleep with him. he doesn't want
you to drug him. Or punish him." Schuldig continued to laugh
and Nagi frowned deeply after the look of shock passed over his
face.
"Very well." Nagi flung his arm and Farfarello was flung
across the room and, after hitting the wall, dropped on his bed.
Nagi left the room.
"Ken," Omi put a hand on Kens shoulder. His blue eyes
held much worry. Ken hated it when Omi worried over stupid things.
"I'm fine Omi..." Omi put a hand over Kens mouth.
"Shuss, I don't know what you have planned. But please be
careful." Omi looked down to Kens leg and shook his head.
"I need light." Omi looked at Yohji and Yohji sighed.
"I'll go get some light bulbs and replace the fuses."
Yohji left the room trailed by Schuldig. Ken sighed and Omi bit
his lip, kneeling down to look at Kens leg.
"It's a good thing you didn't have jeans on, that would
of caused more trouble." Ken sighed and felt the warm blood
dribble down his leg. It hurt, but he was used to pain. Omi walked
ken over to his own bed and ken sat down slowly.
"I'm gonna have to stitch that up." Ken nodded and leaned
back so he was lying down. Sleep came to him as quickly as it
always did. This time it was almost involuntary.
Kens head was clear, and the morning breeze meant that Omi had forgot to shut the blinds and Door to the deck. He moaned and remembered. Omi wasn't living in the same room as his any more. he was in the storage room with Nagi, and he was stuck here. In this room with this mad man. Ken smiled and looked over to his new partner sleeping peacefully in the bed next to his. He sat up and the sore pain in his leg came in sleepy waves. He moaned and scratched the back of his neck. Looking down at Omis patch job he smiled. He loved that kid. He got up and right to the left side of him were a pair of crutches with a sticky note on them in Omis writing.
This is for you, you'll be one them for three days at the least.
Get better soon Ken
-Omi
Ken picked up the crutches, not even bothering to see if he
could stand on his own. Omi was always right. He moved slowly
wobbling on the supports, over to his dresser where he found a
pair of shorts and a T-shirt to put on, moved back to his bed
he sat down and pulled on the shirt. Moving slowly he pulled
the Shorts over his boxers and sat up. he was greeted by a slightly
shocking but still familiar face.
"Good morning Ken." Ken was surprised to here his name
from Farfarello. Who had, until this point in time, Called him
Kitten.
"Good morning Farfarello, you sleep well?" Ken was surprised
he didn't feel a bit remorseful at the man. Ken felt a finger
tracing his wound and flinched back. Farfarello looked up at him
as he pulled his Leg up.
"I did that?" Farfarello asked standing up. Ken nodded,
a bit of fear returning to his mind. Farfy nodded and moved away.
Ken flinched as His entire arms from shoulders to elbow was bandaged
with Red stained white. Also his legs from ankle to knee, and
shoulders. The stringy man looked awkward slouched over as he
walked. Ken felt sorry for the man. Ken watched as Farfy pulled
a vest pants and tank top on along with his leather collar. It
seemed he slept with his eyes patch on. Farfy moved out of the
room without any more contact with Ken.
Nagi was eating peacefully by the time Omi got up, it was nice
to have someone else in the house up this early. Omi smiled as
he entered the kitchen. Aware that Nagi was still irritated with
him for last nights events. Omi remembered Nagi had been sleeping
so peacefully and then as soon as Omi touched him, Bam! Nagi
shot up a screamed awake. Clutching at Omis hand, a look of terror
beyond anything Omi had seen all over the younger boys face. and
then the lights when out with a bang! And the shop shook for a
few seconds as Omi calmed Nagi out of his shocked state. Nagi
had blown all the light bulbs and fuses. He had slapped Omi as
hard as he could across his left cheek and gave Omi a long lecture
about not touching him when he slept. Omi was so socked at what
had happened he was sure he would NEVER do that again.
"Good morning Nagi." He offered and Nagi gave him a
curt nod and continued with reading the paper he had gotten for
himself. Omi always got the paper. Swallowing Omi moved over
to the refrigerator and opened it to find something to make breakfast
for everyone. cooking was more of a two person job now. For all
these people. It was a chore, Omi always enjoyed cooking. Realizing
that Omi new nothing of what Schwarz members liked to eat he turned
to Nagi.
"Umm..." Omi struggled for words in the awkward silence.
"Spit it out." Nagi placed the paper down and looked
at Omi content.
"Is there anything... You guys don't like to eat?"
Nagi smiled a bit.
"Don't be so tense Omi, it was a mistake anyone could of
made. Cool it, I forgive you. I was just angry last night that's
all. Now," Nagi walked over to the refrigerator to peer
inside. Icy eyes scouring the contents, finger tapping on his
fine chin in thought.
"Here!" Nagi pulled out the milk and Eggs, then some
lunch meat.
"Where do you keep your cereal?" Omi pointed to the
cupboard three from his right just above the sink and Nagi pulled
out the sugar coated stuff and decided it was good enough.
"Farfarello always has Raw eggs blended with lunch meat,
ketchup, tuna, olives and mustard. He won't anything else in the
morning so..." Omi shivered.
"Gross! He actually eats that?" Nagi nodded with a smirk.
"HE thinks it taste good. And Schuldig, he don't eat too
much, diet contains mostly drugs and liquor. But sometimes he
eats a protein Shake and ice cream." Nagi handed Omi the
ice cream and Omi gave him a puzzled look.
"That's not very healthy." Nagi smirked even more.
"Schuldig himself, is not very healthy, I'd watch out if
I were you. You could get AIDS just by standing next him. So
don't get too close." Nagi pulled the blender from it's
very rarely used position. Omi caught him from falling off the
counter, supporting the younger boys legs and Nagi blushed as
he was resting on Omis head.
Omi pushed Nagi upright without a word and Nagi cleared his throat
and put the blender down.
"You'll need to keep this in a more accessible place."
Nagi stated as he got down from the counter top he had been sitting
on.
"Schuldig, if you are within twelve paces from me I would
run before I open my eyes and see you." Yohji heard some
rustling and a light flickered on. Both men Screamed and turned
over in there beds, burring there head in the pillows. Screaming
each others name to turn of the light.
"Schuldig?" Schuldig heard Farfarellos voice and threw
the alarm clock at the man.
"Go away! And turn of that light! Now! Before I..."
Yohji heard Schuldig screech some more at Farfarello and then
the door slam and the lights go off. The locking of the door and
a rustling of blankets as Schuldig flopped back down on his bed.
"Don't worry, I'm nowhere near you." Schuldigs voice
was muffled by the pillow Yohji knew was gripped in his mouth.
Yohji sighed and opened his jade eyes, taking a few moment to
adjust to the darkness.
The fan was turning slowly overhead and the window was open. Yohji
felt a could breeze swish over his chest as he breathed in the
morning air.
"What time is it?" Yohji rolled over to face the ceiling.
"Nine." Schuldig answered and Yohji groaned again wondering
if Schuldig got waken up like this every morning.
"No," Yohji shivered at Schuldigs answer to his thought.
Frowning at the invasion of his privacy.
Schuldig just continued, flicking a small piece of hair out of
his face with a feminine jester that Yohji found strangely fitting
for Schuldig.
"It's strange the way Farfarellos been behaving lately. It's
not like him to do any of the stuff he's been doing of late."
Schuldig looked at Yohji, green eyes smiling in the darkness.
Yohji was his. He could tell Yohji had just thought about him.
It made him feel good to have his blond man thinking about him
so often. Gave him a slight giggling fit in his mind. Like a
school girl that giggles because the hot, calm, cool, collected
guy just waved at her.
It was always contained though. Never going anywhere but his
mind. Yohji looked at him puzzled and frowned, sighing and picking
up a pair of pants.
"Why must you constantly be in my mind?" Yohji was
too tiered to be mad at the man. It was a simple question he wanted
to be answered. Nothing more, he though.
Schuldig smiled larger, his wide German mouth always pulling off
the perfect smirk that spread from one corner to the other corner
of his face. and just when you thought it couldn't get any bigger.
Schuldig could always prove you wrong. Pulling off an even wider
grin.
"I have only been IN your mind once, that's it." Yohji
snorted at that statement. Schuldig rolled over to face his blond
partner a slight frown to his lips.
"You don't believe me do you?" He sighed and rolled
back over to face the ceiling once again.
"I don't need to be in your mind to read your thoughts. It's
like you think..." Schuldig never really had to explain it
before.
"...You think really loud. It's hard NOT to here your thoughts."
Yohji faced Schuldig in the dark.
"I THINK loud? How is that even possible?" Yohji asked
and Schuldig smiled in the dark.
"Really, the louder ones, they are smarter. They are the
ones who think everything through before making an action. You
and Omi, gosh you guys are loud." Yohji nodded spotting
the hidden complement.
"So back, back when we were... Captured and you told us to
shut up. You didn't mean to stop talking."
"Bingo." Schuldig perked up, a sparkle to his eye. Yohji
was getting this.
"You guys were loud. And for some reason my Abilities retaliated
when I put up mental barriers. Another words, I couldn't block
out any of your thoughts. They just kept coming." Schuldig
sat up on his bed and turned on the small dim lamp on his corner
table. The light caught him in a perfect pool, softly lighting
his pale skin and bright hair, illuminated by the light, it almost
seemed blond.
"I like Ken, he thinks really slowly, really softly and very
sparsely." Schuldig flashed a grin at Yohji and Yohji couldn't
help but smile back.
"Ken, your up early." Ken hobbled down the stairs
to be greeted by Omi, who was as of now blending a kind of sickening
orange mixture and smiling as he always was in the morning.
"Farfy left the door open, the cold air woke me up."
He said waving curtly to the other youth, Nagi nodded and gave
him a smile.
"What on earth are you doing?" Ken looked around the
room with a slight smile at Omis unorthodox ways.
"I'm making breakfast, what would you like Ken?" Ken
smiled at his blond boy.
"No thank you Omi," Omi almost dropped the cup he was
getting.
"What? Ken you always eat. More then anyone. You feeling
ok?" The athlete smiled back at Omi and nodded.
"I'm fine Omi, just not hungry." Ken then got back
up and just as Schuldig walked in the room, excited.
"Have you seen Farfy? I have a bone to pick with that squaw
fish." To Omis surprise Yohji walked in the room right after
Schuldig, rubbing his eyes and looking around the room. He smiled
at Omi with a nod.
"What did he do this time?" Nagi smirked at Schuldigs
foul glare.
"He woke me up! At nine!"
"And in the process woke me up too!" Yohji sat down
and Omi brought him a cup of coffee with plenty of sugar.
"Thank you Omi." Yohji drank it as if it was life support.
Schuldig smiled at the blond boy as he got another cup ready.
That's right, you better make that coffee. Smug grin was in place
as he sat down.
"And you are mad at him?" Nagi peered over his laptop
to gaze idly at Schuldig.
"Ja! I mean, you just don't do that to Schuldig." Nagi
snorted at Schuldigs power hungry statement.
"Good luck, I don't think Ken will let you near him Schuldig.
He's pretty set in his ways." Nagi went back to gazing at
his laptop as Schuldig stormed out of the room to search for
Farfarello.
Yohji moaned, mumbling to himself. Omi smiled and sat down beside
the familiar Taller blond. It was good to have Yohji with him.
"Rough night Yohji?" Yohji knew to what Omi was referring
too and nodded sipping his coffee. Omi smiled and put his hands
on Yohji shoulders and began to rub away the nights crooks. It
was something Omi did when Yohji just go too stressed. Overworking
Yohji could result in bouts of depression witch resulted in Yohji
Aya fights and Omi hated that.
So he would calm them both down. Mostly Yohji.
He and Yohji were quite close. After all Omi was always the one
to drag him in the door when everyone else was asleep because
it was a unholy hour to be up.
Omi was always the one to Clean Yohji up after one of his many
drunken fights. He was always gentle. And Omi was always the one
to talk things out between Aya and Yohji when things got to locked
doors and suborn attitudes. Omi had a way to seeing both sides
of the problem. And could almost always find a solution.
Yohji leaned forward and put his head on the table. Omi smiled
and Nagi gave him a funny look. It looked as if the dark haired
youth felt slightly awkward with Omi touching Yohji, but didn't
want to move.
Omi gave him a smile but didn't bother to explain. Yohjis shoulders
fell down and he seemed to fall asleep on the table. Omi smiled
at the taller bond. At least he wouldn't be on the mans bad side
when he was grouchy this afternoon.
"You'll let him touch your shoulders?" Yohjis head
snapped up and Almost hit Omis head. Omi flinched backwards and
sighing, shook his head at the Orange haired man.
"Because he trust me." Omi stated.
Yohji sighed and flung a hand at Schuldig, trying to dismiss the
German man.
Schuldig just walked further into the room and sat down in the
chair beside Yohjis giving the blond a good look he snorted. Omi
threw his head up in a snobbish gesture and with a final pat
to Yohjis head he left to go to the pantry.
"No wonder your tiered Yohji," Schuldig go up and resumed
Omis spot behind Yohji and Yohjis head shot up once again as cold,
light fingers prickled his shoulders.
Schuldig smiled brightly, Yohji had not gotten a wink of sleep
last night. It was all because of Schuldig of course. The blond
had not trusted the other to keep to himself. So had forced himself
to stay awake. Schuldig smiled at the situation.
"Sussh." Schuldig cooed into Yohjis ear and Yohjis head
fell straight forward again. Not hitting the table by a inch,
held up by Schuldigs Hand gripped firmly on Yohjis chin. Omi
turned away, with a gasp.
What should he do? What was Schuldig doing?
Yohjis eyes didn't respond to anything, they just kind of lulled
into the back of his head. Schuldig smiled at his prisoner.
Yohji was immobilized, for now. It was a trick he had picked up
from working the streets. You just had to shut there brains down,
Yohjis mind was so easy to navigate, it was so easy to find the
right switches.
What plans he had for his pet. Schuldig picked a piece of hair
up off of Yohjis forehead and tucked it behind his ear.
"Please! Take your toy somewhere else to do that Schuldig!"
Nagi rolled his eyes and Schuldig smirked.
"I'm sorry sweetheart. Did I disturb you?" Nagi got
up slamming his notebook on the table, ready to take the matter
farther. Omi beat him to the punch, coming into the room with
the bottle of red ketchup to put in Farfarellos drink, eyes like
Ice Omi clenched his fists.
"Hands off Yohji!" Omi was suddenly brought to the center
of attention and Nagi shook his head.
Bad move on Omis part.
Schuldig would have his toy no matter what the boy did. And if
Omi tried to stop him, Schuldig would only smile and make matters
worse.
Which he did.
"You mean, don't do this?" Schuldig smirked, trickling
his hands up and down Yohji chest and planting a kiss on Yohjis
right cheek.
Omi broke.
If it was one thing he would not stand for, it was the abuse of
his close friends, in Any way.
The blond boy ran after Schuldig with the bottle of ketchup raised
above his head. Schuldig smiled and Caught the boys flying fists
with grace, flipping the blond over and hearing a crack as Omi
landed hard on his back.
The ketchup bottle in Schuldigs left hand.
Omi arched up as white pain ran through his spinal cord and head.
A cry of anger and pain escaping from his trembling lips, his
arm felt out of joint, and quite possibly, was broken.
Schuldig smiled down on Omi.
With his inhumanly speed, like quick silvery, he melted down to
the boys side. Omi gaped with tears in his eyes as Schuldig trailed
a finger down the blonds heedless form. His emerald eyes not Meeting
Omis, but lulling over his shape on the floor.
"You are so sweet and innocent, would you like to loose that
innocence? 'Cuse I'm sure your would taste soo sweet."
"Schuldig enough!" Nagi watched As Schuldig picked
up a chair and was going to resume beating the blond boy until
Omi learned to not interfere with Schuldig love slavery.
But Nagi was quicker, Taking the chair from the Mans hand and
whacking the back of his head with the one leg, taking Schuldigs
own feet from under him.
The orange haired German was now on his back too. A glare of
death aimed at Nagi.
"What the fuck is the matter with you!" Nagi hurried
over to Omi, turning the boy over and helping him up as he glared
at Schuldig.
"We're not 'post to hurt one another! We are a team now Schuldig!
We must work together!" Nagi glared even more at the older
man and Schuldig leaned against the Doorway, working on a glare
of his own.
"That's not it," Schuldig struggles as his glare turned
into a smirk. Nagi gasped,
"Get out of my mind!" The determined youth screamed
form his corner of the room. Schuldig smirked at Nagis sudden
defense raised up around his mind, it was too late, Schuldig already
heard the boys thoughts.
"Tell him the truth." Schuldig spat out, pointing to
Nagi.
Nagi froze under the finger point. In to a dreadful shock that
gave Omi goose bumps to watch the other struggle for his own free
will.
Nagis lips trembled as he turned, rigidly, to face Omi, a look
like a half there frightened rabbit.
Eyes glazed over and face expressionless, Omi could still see
the battle inside his mind through his dark, glass-like eyes.
His heart was going a hundred mile an hour. But Schuldigs control
over him was strengthening every second.
Schuldig dug further into Nagis mind. Gripping him and his functions.
Nagi looked at the blond teen before him and trembled.
"Stop! Schuldig! Stop it!" Omi screamed his voice hoarse
and off-key. He held himself against the walls. Schuldig smirked
at the feebleness of the two boys before him.
"Tell him! Tell him what you think!" Schuldig threw
a hand out to Nagi who fought with all his might to keep his secret.
Tears ran down his blue eyes that suddenly now held so much terror
it made Omi wanted to run. But Omi knew he couldn't. Nagi was
gripping him. He could feel the invisible fingers holding onto
him.
Nagi couldn't help it. Omi felt him grasping at his older partner.
A feeble attempt to stop that, Nagi gulped down and whimpered.
"Tell him!" Schuldig smiled as Nagi whimpered and more
tears came.
"The more you resist the more you feel pain!" Schuldigs
last word was accompanied by a howl of pain from Nagi who would
of fell to his knees, Omi was sure, If Schuldig wasn't holding
him up.
"You are... Are... Are... You are... God forgive me...
Only... Thing... Ahhh!" Nagi gasped with painful words.
All coming from the quivering lips by force.
"Stop it! Schuldig! Your hurting him! Don't do this! Not
to your own teammate!" Omi lunged forward to be greeted by
Schuldig, who picked the boy up by his hair.
"Listen!" He hissed and forced Omi face close to Nagis.
An insane look to his crazed eyes.
he had lost it, Schuldig was mad.
"Can you hear his thoughts? Can you here them! I can, I can.
And why? Why for you?" Nagis Tears fell on Omis Cheeks there
faces were so close.
"I'm sorry." Nagi bit his lip till it bled and looked
down, attempting to shadow his face. hiding the pain.
Schuldig had never gotten this angry at him before. Nagi didn't
know or care what Schuldig was angry at him for. All he knew was,
Schuldig was angry.
Pain was coming.
Detach yourself.
You are no longer with your body,
Let yourself go, he was quite good at this by now.
Beatings and other volitions of his body were an act against
him from very young. So he had learned to ignore his body, in
a way most people though impossible.
He would take pain in this way, it was a buzz in his brain.
So he did, letting his body go and fading deeper into his mind.
Nagis will was fading, his eyes became more and more distant
as illegible gurgles came form the others lips. Omi cried out.
"Get off of him!" Omi was so glad to here kens voice
he screamed out for joy. but he was greeted by a more horrific
face.
Farfarello jumped on Schuldig and with a small movement Schuldig
wasn't even able to resist. Schuldig fell down.
Nagi Fell to his knees and Omi fell with Schuldig, gasping for
breath Nagi felt the tears come.
Tears he had waited all his life to cry. Tears of loneliness
and self pity he never had time for. he had kept them so in check
before. He never wept when he endured beatings from random people
as a child. He never wept when he saw his mother die in his own
arms when he was only two. He never wept when Brad was stolen
from him. His only real comparison to a father was Bradley. Nagi
never felt the need to cry, to howl out rage. He was too collected
for that. Emotion was only in the way.
It all came to him now. Abuse from years ago resurfaced. Nagi
wasn't sure weather it was Schuldig pulling out of his mind that
brought out theses wounds. Or the fact that someone else was weeping
in the room. Beside him Omi held out a hand to his partner. He
was crying. What a pussy. Nagi made himself laugh, a hoarse
choke of emotions mixed. Nagi looked away to see Schuldig was
lying there on the floor. Why was he so angry at me? Nagi felt
more tears flow from his cheeks and sniffed leaning over and letting
the tears flow. A coked sob heaved his body. Then suddenly there
was a soft warm comforting form around him.
Omi held the younger boy in his arms. A comfort Nagi had never
felt before. Nagi Turned quickly to gasp at Omi. Both pairs
of blue eyes met and Omi smiled softly, tears still running down
his cheeks.
"It's ok, it's all over now." Nagi pushed himself deeper
into Omis grasp. He had never felt so cared for in his life.
When Omi smiled at him. When he knew there was a friendship there
that only came about after a night. It wasn't something that
Nagi wanted to hold back. But the emotions brought up by Schuldig
unwillingly let Tears flow and uncontrollable sobs. Pity. Nagi
hated it. Yet when it was painted across Omis face. It didn't
seem that bad. Nagi needed that comfort. More then anything now,
now that he felt it. Now that he had a chance to taste kindness
and feeling that dulled Brads. A compassion and mercy of a fellow
human being. It was all too much too fast. But Nagi didn't care.
Omi caressed Nagis dark hair and smiled to himself on how much
this child reminded him of his younger self. Way back when. He
had felt alone. He had felt sorrow and he had felt that the only
thing he would ever feel from others was fear, hate and remorse.
Then Omi had met his team. He knew how it felt to have the leader
ripped out of his life. Nagi seemed to take Schuldigs betrayal
of his personal space hard.
A dark wave of emotions shook the boy and Omi squeezed Nagis
shoulders. Silence was broken:
"Nagi?" Farfarello took a gentle step closer and kneeled
at Nagis side. Nagi still clung to Omi with a desperate grasp.
Tears wetted Omi yellow shirt. Farfarello smiled at Nagis tears
and wiped a single one from his pale cheek.
"Nagi, why you cry?" Nagi sniffed and Smiled at Farfarellos
kindness. Worry if you will. Letting go Of Omi Nagi seemed to
realize what he was doing and kindly pushed the older teammate
away from him.
"I'm sorry." He muttered and Omi nodded,
"It's all right, I don't mind." Omi struggled with the
words in his choked up throat. Farfarello moved closer and Nagi
smiled at him patting the Irishman on his left shoulder.
"Thank you Farf." Nagi gathered himself and stood solemnly,
on his own with out another word the Japanese youth excited the
room with a quickness that Omis mind blanked out for a second
and missed him.
Omi regretted not saying a few things before the moment was past.
But it was gone and all he could do was sit there. His arm felt
like it was going to fall off. And by the looks of the broken
limb the pain seared into his mind. A realization of how much
damage the German could do so quickly.
Ken knelt beside the blond boy and embraced him in his grasp.
Omi felt tears dry up and quickly stood with Ken.
"I'm sorry I couldn't get here quicker." Ken said and
Omi shook his head.
"It's not your fault. It's theses screwed up people!"
Ken ruffled Omi hair and smiled at the younger blond.
"These people are screwed up for a reason. WE don't understand
right now why they are like this. They all have there problems.
But it's not there fault the world is cruel, we just have to
be patient." Omi was stunned, Ken was defending the man who
just broke Omis arm and possibly injured his back.
Omi would of thought something like that from himself. Ken was
wallowing in there pity. and yes they were pitiful. Omi shrugged
away from Ken.
"Your wrong, they're heartless bastards, no matter how they
became this way. They will always be heartless bastards."
Omi couldn't look at ken. He walked away promptly. He was passing
the kitchen when Yohji sprang awake and looked at Omis left side
of his face and arm.
"Holy Shit kid! What the fuck happened to you?" Omi
gave Yohji a half hearted smile.
"Yohji, can you take me to the hospital? I think I broke
my arm." Yohji was in disbelief.
"What happened?'
