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Chapter 10

Don't Let Me Fall

I took a good deep breath then knocked on Jasper's door. "Come in." he said, his voice soft as silk and smooth as honey, I never realized how much I could miss it, I was immediately struck with a pang of guilt. How could I cause so much pain to this wonderful being? I cautiously walked in his room. He must have felt the immense guilt and fatigue come off of me for he said, "Bella it's not your fault, it's not anyone's, but we can talk about this later, you need to sleep." His voice was so warm and comforting, yet there was still that tinge of sadness coloring his tone. He wasn't facing me though; he was actually turned towards the window, painting, I didn't know he could paint; it was blue, different kinds of blue, light and dark. Then in the other side there was a girl, she was covering her face, and she too was made with a mixed assortment of different shades of blue. I wasn't going to ask what it meant…. not yet. I had a feeling of what it meant, but I would ask him later.

I walked towards Jasper and gave him a feather light peck on his smooth cheek, he brought his hand up to where I kissed it, but I didn't look for his expression for I was already heading towards the huge four poster bead in the opposite corner of the room. I laid down, and gave a small sigh of contentment and relaxed into the soft flannel fabric of his pale blue comforter, when I head hit the pillow I was already asleep. Being I vampire enhanced all of my senses I knew that, the sight, the hearing, the speed, but what I didn't know was that it enhanced my dreams. It was so vivid I was sure that it was real.

It started out nicely little did I know that would soon change. I was in my old room in Charlie's house, reading pride and prejudice for the hundredth time, when I heard a movement outside, it was the crack of a twig, but I still heard it. I got up from my bed and walked down the hall, without the even glimpse of grace and balance, I got to the stair case and walked down where the eerie floorboards, made that ghastly creaking noise like in horror movies. The hair on the back of my neck started to stand up, but I kept going. When I got downstairs I looked around, everything seemed to be perfectly fine and calm. The kitchen, still slightly cramped. The family room, ESPN was on the TV the volume was very low so I couldn't hear it. Charlie was nowhere to be found. That was the only thing that seemed to be misplaced but I didn't dwell on that for long. I decided to check outside, when I went through the door, the cold winter air came to greet me, and it was even chillier due to the fierce blowing wind that whipped past my face. There was an eerie texture to the situation I was about to go back inside and try to forget about what was happening when, I heard another twig snap and I turned around to see what it was.

"Hello? Is anyone there?" I called in a hoarse voice due to the rising fear that was starting to take over me. There was no answer but there was another snap, which I turned around to come into view with Jasper and Edward, blank looks set upon their faces, they stared back at me with cold, hard, eyes that were pitch black, not the warm golden color that I have grown accustomed to. "Jasper…Edward..," I whispered, in a soft voice, that was colored with disbelief and fear. What had happened to them? I walked towards them, neither mad any approach to come near me, I reached for them, but they got farther and farther away with each of my advances. "NO!" I screamed as I started to walk faster and faster which started to turn into a brisk run. Tears were beginning to brim around my eyes, and I screamed and reached for them again, but they both kept moving away from my reach. I finally broke down and started panting and breathing heavily, my hands were on my knees and I was bent over, trying to calm myself down. When my breathing became regular and steady I looked back up to the men I loved. "Why?" my voice came out weak, barely audible to my own ears, but I knew they heard me though they didn't give me an answer. Everything was calm, quiet. The tension was building, something had changed. I knew it I could feel it. When I looked at them again they were gone. I stared at where they once were and a small tear dripped from my tear ducts. I shook my head. No, this was not the time to start crying, as I stared again where they once were, they appeared again.

I walked smoothly, yet briskly towards them, and they didn't back away this time. I almost breathed a sigh of relief. Right when I reached them there was a big puff of smoke, I waved my hand away from it trying to get the smoke out of my irritated eyes. When the area was clear of smoke, where Edward and Jasper once was James and Victoria appeared. James had a sick smile on his face, he was going to kill me I could feel it, and Victoria would help him. He started closing in on me and I tried to back away, but my attempts were fruitless since Victoria snatched my arms and made me stay put. I looked back at James and he still had that evil gleam in his eye. He came closer to me and used his index figured to lift my chin up so he could properly see my face. I struggled, trying to get away from this monster, but Victoria's hold made restraints around my torso and I couldn't move. James clicked his tongue, reprimanding me.

"Now there, you weren't trying to escape from me were you? I sure hope not for the sake of your beloved Jasper you wouldn't want what happened to Edward to happen to him to would you? I still have no clue why either of them would want to waste their time with you; after all you are just a pathetic human." He dropped his hand and turned away. What he said burned a hole right through my chest, he was completely right. Why would either of them want me, it still made no sense. Everything was quiet again and James tensed, his fists clenched. "I wish I could kill Jasper the way I killed Edward, just for the fun of it, to make you suffer." He sneered, and his voice wasn't even the least bit smooth and comforting, it was a voice that made all the little nerve endings hyperaware and made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Then James looked up at me again, sick smile still in place. "Actually that's exactly what I'm going to do, its not like you could stop me."

I saw red, and anger and adrenaline pulsed through me, no one was going to hurt Jasper. After losing Edward, no one was even going to think about getting close to Jasper. I pushed passed Victoria, I don't know how I summoned that strength to do so but I did and the shock was etched on to her cat like features. I walked to James and grabbed his neck and pushed him up against the tree. "No one is going to hurt Jasper, not if I can help it" I spoke in a calm voice which made is sound all the more lethal. He didn't look surprised one bit, and that angered me further. He noticed this and smirked. "When I do kill Jasper," he continued on without even paying attention to notice the furious glare placed upon my face. "I want you to avenge him, I know you wont be able to beat me and I would love to see the face of pain come across your face when I make you suffer a slow and painful death" the sick smile came upon his face once again, I couldn't see my vision was filled with red and James burst into flames. "No one will hurt Jasper" I whispered as I watched the pain come across his face and I filled with pride, knowing that I did that and that I inflicted the pain that caused his death. Victoria screamed her voice was hoarse and not attractive at all, she came after me but once again she stopped dead in her tracks and burst into flames as well. I looked down at the pile of ashes at my feet and smelled the thick incense that coated the air. "For you Jasper, I will keep you safe…always." I breathed.

I felt like I was being shaken and I heard Jasper's sweet voice that was once again filled with concern, I felt love fill inside me, knowing that I could save him. "Bella wake up!" wake up? I was asleep? It all felt so real, and the fury I felt was worse than anything I have ever felt by ten fold. My eyes fluttered open to see my angel staring back at me, his honey eyes filled with worry, his smooth blond hair falling into his eyes, how beautiful he was, and he was mine. I stared at him and put my hands on his face, just to make sure this beautiful creature really was here and wasn't a figment of my imagination. I sat up and combed my hands through Jasper's soft golden hair. "I love you Jasper" I whispered in my soft voice. I know Edward would have wanted me to be happy, and as it said in his letter, Jasper was the better choice for me, I was beginning to think what he said was true, and I was going to let Jasper prove it.

Jasper wrapped his firm muscular arms around me and buried is face in my hair, "I love you to, Bella, more than everything, more than anyone" I smiled, a real genuine smile, I couldn't believe that after all I have done, when I left. I knew he thought I wouldn't come back. When I cried, it hurt him so much to feel my pain, and I was truly sorry for that. "Thank you Jasper." I said my voice filled to the brim with gratitude, love and thankfulness. "What for?" he asked. Curiosity was clear behind his voice. "For loving me," then without even stopping and thinking on what to do I grabbed his head and brought my lips to his. The kiss was filled with so much passion and love. It was sweeter than anything just to have my lips connect with his soft ones. I felt like I was on cloud 9 just being with him made me happy. I brushed my tongue against his bottom lip, asking for entrance, to my surprise he obliged. He tasted of vanilla, it was sweet, me exploring the mysterious cavern of his mouth and him doing the same, I felt safe wrapped in his arms.

After and immeasurable moment we broke apart. We smiled at each other and then my smile slowly faded and I sighed. We still needed to talk about things first I would have to tell him about my disturbing dream. My frown deepened, I really did not want to tell him, but I had to. "What's wrong Bella?" came the confused voice of Jasper. I sighed again and spoke softly, "We need to talk." He chuckled, and I pouted what was so funny about that? He gave me a short peck on my pouting lips. "That's all your worried about? We have all the time in the world to talk." The truth of his words made me crack a smile, we really did have all the time in the world to talk, but I needed to take care of this now and get it off my chest. "We need to talk about this now, Jasper. I want to get it done and over with. Where should we start first?" I said. Though the last part wasn't meant for Jasper to hear, he heard me anyway and answered to the question.

"How about the dream that you had, I have never felt so much hatred and fury directed at something. Also during that, you were giving off a strange red glow, I was going to talk to Carlisle about it but I wanted to stay with you to make sure you would be okay. So where did all that anger come from? Start from the beginning it would be easier for me to help you that way." So I started form the beginning and told him exactly what happened, I told him about James and Victoria, and he stiffened, then I told him how I had that power surge and defeated him, he listened and patiently waited until I spoke again. I also told him about how I did all of that for him, and while I told him this I felt love from him swirl all around me and it mad me feel….happy. When I was finally done with telling him the details of my dream he called the rest of the family into the room to talk about what it might mean. Jasper retold my story to everyone, Esme looked at me out of the corner of her eye with a concerned glance, and Rosalie remained indifferent though I could have sworn I saw even a little worry for me. Emmett was looking like he would rip apart whatever threatened his 'squirt' and then Carlisle remained calm and nodded in understanding with most of the parts. Alice wasn't back yet, but I knew she would come back soon, she just needed time.

When Jasper was done telling my story, Carlisle spoke. "I think this dream has something to do with Bella's powers, somehow I think that this dream has allowed her to access her powers while in a subconscious state." Carlisle seemed satisfied with his theory, and decided that we should test it. Jasper and Emmett came outside with me, to make sure nothing goes wrong while Carlisle Esme and Rosalie watched from the porch. "Try to think back on a strong memory or emotion and see if it awakens your power again," Carlisle had said before we came outside. So as I was standing in the middle of the yard, I thought of all the pain I felt yesterday when I discovered Edward's letter. After I thought of that a tear slipped from my eye and unlike the red from my dream, I saw blue.

I distantly heard shuffling and heard Emmett whisper "Whoa she's blue. She was freaky as a human and now she's freaky as a vampire." Followed by his statement I heard a loud smack and Emmett mutter a 'ouch' and assumed that Jasper had smacked him. If I wasn't so absorbed in my power then I would have laughed. It started to get cold, very cold. Ice started covering the ground and there was wind and ice blowing, but all I saw was the blue that was covering my vision, just like in my dream or nightmare if I was really being honest with myself. After ice had covered everything I began to feel fatigued, the blue slowly wiped away from my eyes and I fell down, Jasper was right there in a second picking me up and holding me close to him. Carlisle was amazed, even though his perfectly controlled expression said otherwise. I still wasn't sure why I could know these things but I would dwell on that later, since right now I was still shaken by my power and what happened, so I would talk to Carlisle about that tomorrow.

Jasper carried me back to our room and sat us down on the floor. I looked back up at him then the painting that he did earlier, "Nice painting, Jasper. I wish it wasn't so sad, I like to see you happy." I said my voice was filling with emotion; I wasn't sure why it was just a simple statement. I shook my head, "Emmett was right, I was freaky as a human and now I'm freaky as a vampire to, plus I have a major case of bi polar disorder now to." I said the last part mostly to myself and Jasper laughed since he heard it. "I wouldn't worry too much about that Bella, besides…I love you just the way you are, freaky self and all." I laughed a little and playfully punched him, but since I was still stronger than him since I was a newborn, it actually hurt him and he grunted a 'ow that was mean' and turned away from me. I just stared at him for a moment before cracking up, then yellow covered my eyes, and I felt a huge wave of happiness shoot out of me, and then everything was clear again. This time using my power didn't make me tired anymore.

Little by little I was starting to get used to my freaky self. I felt a strong presence, like someone was coming. On cue the door burst open and there was Alice. I stared at her for only a moment then rushed towards her and wrapped my arms around her small body, "I'm glad your back Alice." She smiled and hugged me back then whispered, "I brought a mirror since you still haven't seen yourself yet I think you just about give Rosalie a run for her money, and I like your power, it's really cool." She smiled at me again then pushed me in front of the mirror. I gasped in shock; I really did give Rosalie a run for her money. Staring back at me was a tall statuesque looking women, with curves in all of the right places, with cascading chocolate brown hair that went to the middle of her back, she really was the pure essence of beauty, and I couldn't believe that the figure that was looking back at me, was me. It truly was mind boggling.

Jasper came and wrapped his arms around me; I looked in the mirror again to see two beautiful people looking like a couple straight out a fairytale movie. I relaxed into our embrace and I turned to Jasper and gave him a soft sweet kiss onto his lips, to show him all the love I felt for him in that small action of affection. Jasper smiled at me as I, him. I silently thanked Edward for leaving that letter, for without it I wouldn't realize how special Jasper was to me. "Jasper?" I called he seemed a little distracted for he was skimming his nose along my collarbone but he looked up nonetheless "Hmm?" was his brilliant response, I laughed then came serious and he stiffened by my sudden change of emotion "Jasper, Don't let me fall." He relaxed and his arms tightened around me. "Never"

A/N woo! Another chapter up theres a little angst and then some cuteness all mixed in one :). Okay so first off the title is based on the song Don't let me fall by Lenka and its on my playlist. Now on to the good stuff, so I bet you have some questions on Bella's power so I'm going to explain it. The first one where she kind of has a sense of what is always going on and everyone's actions and whatever, well that was because she was very perceptive as a human so she has like a sixth sense which tells her that. The second power was because when she was human she let her emotions affect her a lot, so with the power was that if she feels very strongly about something then it will affect her actions, like with the fire and the ice, and the happiness. This doesn't work for all of her emotions though only if she feels very strongly about a certain thing. I think that should answer most of that, concerning Bella's power but if you have any other questions then feel free to PM me. Okay I'm sorry this A/N is so long :) and lastly, I want at least 5 reviews before I write the next chapter, that's not asking for too much is it? So you know the drill review review and review!