Chapter 10 And I'm never gonna dance again

Raven's POV

I just kept looking at the roster refusing to believe it. This wasn't happening, it couldn't be. Today I had a check up at the hospital, usually I got Wade or John to take me. They didn't seem to mind but today they were both busy, everyone was, except Randy. In my frustrastion I started to bang my head against the table, "No, no, no"

Suddenly someone grabbed my head and made me stop. Shockingly to me it was Randy.

"You should stop that. You will get hurt" He drawled.

I actually didn't know what to say, it was the nicest thing he had ever said to me. Instead I just went to my locker to get my cellphone, hopefully if I was nice enough Iziah would make the long drive. I didn't hold much hope of that actually, as much as she loved me she hated driving and doctors so I didn't really see her coming all the way here to take me. Inside my locker were a bag of green lollipops, my favourite and another note. "Incase you run out Rae"

"Did you put these in my locker?" I demanded at Randy.

"No"

I wasn't sure I believed him, "You didn't put these in my locker?"

"Why would I waste my time trying to be nice to the cripple?" He leered at me.

"I'm only crippled because of you" I snapped. I promised I wasn't gonna use it against him but he was asking for it. There was no need for him to be an asshole about it, what was wrong with just saying no? "You must feel so big for taking out a young woman, really what an accomplishment for you. Seriously way to go"

Randy stood up abrubtly, that cold viper like look on his face. "Watch it or I'll take the other leg"

Angrily I smacked him in the knee with my good crutch, "Just you fucking try"

Before I knew what was happening his lips were on mine, burning their way into my sense of like and hate. With my good hand I managed to push him away, I tried to stay calm but it was hard. He freaked me out a little. He just gave me that smirk like what he did was perfectly ok, "Have a nice day Rae"

The way he said it told me he was being his usual sarcastic annoying self.

All I could do was sit back down at the table and wait for the throbbing to stop. I took another look at the roster and found that it hadn't changed. I only had two options, walk or ask Randy. I had the feeling that he wouldn't be doing me any favours anytime soon and I wasn't about to ask. Without thinking I pulled out one of the mysterious green lollipops and stuck it in my mouth. The lime taste swirled over my tastebuds in a vain attempt to get the taste of Randy out of there, it wasn't working. I swore I could smell him on me. In that short moment his disgusting cologne had managed to seep into my pores and linger for what seemed forever. I just kept thinking why? Why did he have to do that? With one harsh sentence I hated him and with one sweet kiss I fell for him all over again. I think Izzy was right, I need a thearpist. I was so lost in thought I didn't hear John come in which was amazing because EVERYONE hears it when John Cena enters a room.

"You ok?"

"Not really" I admitted, I wasn't about to tell him what Randy did knowing his big mouth the entire locker room would know in about thirty seconds flat. "I ain't got no one to take me to the doctor"

John frowned and looked at the roster, when I came back that was one of my clauses, that I could have some time off each week to visit the doctor, his clause was that one of his staff take me. Guess in his own weird way he wanted to make sure I actually went to the damn thing because he knew me, I wouldn't go. I had medical training I could be my own fucking doctor but according to this country that was illegal.

"There is someone to take you" John started gently. I swiftly shut that down.

"No."

"Rae you have to go"

"Then I'll walk"

"You can't walk to your appointment Raven and you know it"

"I'm not gettting that jackass take me to the doctor" I stood up, grabbing my lollipops. "There is no way in hell I want to ask that bastard for anything"

Randy's POV

That kiss stuck with me all through out training, I didn't want the memory to ever stop replaying in my mind. At that moment she wasn't an enemy and all I wanted to do was rip off her clothing and take her right there on the table. That would of been freaking sweet.

"Hey I need a favour" John cut in. He was my best friend but if he interrupted my Raven-indulged sex fantasies again I was gonna kill him.

"What?"

"I need you to take Raven to the doctor"

I just looked at him like he was joking, he was providing me with the best opportunity to be utterly alone with her. This was just way too perfect. "Ok"

"Look I know you don't wanna do it but-Did you say ok?"

"I'm the one that crippled her John, least I can do is take her to her appointment. I'm not entirely heartless"

"Are you kidding me? Your completely heartless. You would be the only one to play keep away with her crutches" John joked.

"I would only do it once or twice" I joked back. "Or until I was made to stop"

"Yeah beware of the British accent" John laughed.

"I heard that" Wade snapped from behind him.

"You were meant too Wade"

"Ok you fight with your boyfriend, I'm gonna go and deliver the bad news to Raven" I quickly got out there, too much time with those two you went insane. Now I knew how Raven felt.

"He's not my boyfriend" Wade quickly defended himself.

"You tell him babe" Was the last thing I heard outta John's mouth as I headed to the Diva's locker room.

Raven's POV

"I don't see why you can't get him to take you" My cousin Natalaya asked again. I had alot of family in this business and due to certain things in my past and my sister's past alot of my family had wiped their hands clean of us. Nattie was one of the few that stuck on our side of things. She was like my fill in sister while Izzy was away.

"Because I am not asking that man for anything. I would rather walk and risk infection"

"I think your being way to proud"

"I can't be proud, he took my pride the night he rammed a steel pole in my leg" I snapped again.

"Raven you have to go to your appointment, you know that"

"Yeah well I'll walk. I need the practice"

"Raven.."

"Nattie.."

"Randy" Randy drawled from the door-way. It was like de-je-vu all over again.

"Oh goody more of them" I snapped "What the hell do you want?" I wanted to stay as far away as possible from him, for once I was at a loss on what he might do.

"I am here to take you to the doctor" He said evenly. It was like he wasn't sure if he liked the words that came out of his mouth.

"No your not because I don't wanna spend three and half hours with you. Five minutes is long enough"

"You know what sucks?" Randy stepped closer, that hard scary look in his blue eyes. Without warning both crutches were taken out and I found myself falling. He caught me and lifted me in his strong arms. "You don't get a choice"

I was really sick of people doing that, (oddly enough it only seemed to be people I loved doing that like my father and Randy. I expected this from Maryse or Miz)

"You are not taking me" I snapped again before looking at Nattie "Smack him! hit him Nattie"

Randy looked at her "You can either smack me and she winds up late for her appointment or you can give me the crutches so we can get a move on"

Nattie just looked from me to him. "Sorry Rae" She handed Randy the crutches and like I weighed nothing he took me out of the room.

"Traitor!"

"Stop squirming" Randy demanded at me as he took me down the corrider.

"Never" I said still squirming making this more difficult for him. "I will not stop squirming until you put me down gently, give me crutches and then fuck off and die"

He shook me and pain rattled up my leg. "Stop it or I'll keep shaking you"

"And cause more damage, well done"

"Risk I'm willing to take" He said shaking me again. The pain kept coming along with waves of nausea. I hated being in his arms because just being there made all those bottled feelings rush to the surface, there was no way I could let that happen. I've had rejection and it fucking sucks. Once inside the parking lot he set me down with one arm still around me so I wouldn't fall while he unlocked his car.

"I am not getting in that thing" I was really hoping he would be sick of my attitude and just forget it. He didn't say anything he just moved me like I was doll, until I was sitting down seatbelt and all. He took my crutches and shoved them in the boot.

"I need those to walk jackass" I snapped at him.

"Your not walking now are you?"

Randy's POV

I switched on the ignition and took off. She refused to look at me, that angry look still on her face. It made me wonder why she was fighting this so hard. There was another emotion in her eyes only I couldn't dechiper what it was, then again I wasn't very good at that kind of thing anyways, but it was there. That mysterious unknown emotion. A small smile crossed my lips as I thought of a possible emotion it could be, I didn't really hold much hope of her feeling that but still it was my sick fantasy, it could happen if I wanted it to.

"I don't get you Orton" Raven cut through my thoughts "One minute your threatening me, the next your taking me to the doctor"

"My way of saying sorry I guess."

"For what? For being an asshole or for crippling me?"

"Your never going to forgive me for that are you?" I gave her a sidewards glance.

"Let me stab you in the leg with a giant pole and end your career and see how long it takes for you to forgive me" Raven snapped.

"That's fair I guess"

Raven didn't say anything she just looked ahead, nervously tapping the dashboard with her fingertips.

"You alright?"

"Uh-huh"

"For both" I suddenly said breaking the silence. I hated that silence.

She just looked at me confused for a moment. "I don't like that word"

"Why?"

"Sorry is just a five letter word that has lost all meaning"

"I know what you mean" Thinking of all the times Sam had said that too me, why I believed her the first time was beyond me.

"Would you do it?" Raven asked, I think she hated the silence too.

"Do what?"

"Take the other leg"

"You think I would do that?"

"Your the one that said it"

"Guess I wanted to be the one with the flamethrower"

To my surprise Raven laughed softly. I loved hearing that laugh. "Well when you haven't got a flamethrower use an aerosol can and a lighter"

"Where do you come up with this stuff?"

"My sister is a pyromaniac"

We were silent for a moment and all that could be heard was the sounds of the other cars. I had no fucking idea where I was going but luckily she led me in the right direction. I wanted to keep talking not that I was much of a talker but we were actually getting along, I wanted it to continue. "Where did you get them done?" I made a pathetic stab at conversation.

"What?"

"Your tattoos"

"All over" Raven shrugged, she seemed happy only answering in short sentences. Too bad for her I was gonna keep her talking because according to her, we were gonna be here for about an hour and a half and I wasn't going to drive in fucking silence.

"You've travelled all over?"

"Yeah" She looked at me for a moment that small smile on her lips. "You don't believe me do you?"

"Guess it's hard too. Your really young yet you've done all these things"

"Well if you grew up with Shawn Michales you would want to get far away too"

"He couldn't of been that bad"

"Nah he wasn't but it's nice to breathe once in a while" She looked at me again "What about you? What was it like with your father?"

"I was a daddy's boy" I answered honestly.

"I was a daddy's girl."

"Now that's hard to picture"

Raven laughed again "I love my father even if we do disagree on everything to do with wrestling"

"What do you disagree on?"

"He thinks that Jeff Jarrett is one of the greatest wrestlers, I however think he is an idiot"

I laughed "That's nice. I bet you wouldn't say it to his face"

"I already have, twice"

"I actually believe that" I turned left it was hard to believe but we were almost there. "So where have you travelled?"

"A better question would be where haven't I been."

"Ok so where haven't you been?"

"France and that's about it."

"Why not France?"

"I don't like France or the French. Worst kinda people ever"

"Has anybody ever told you that your insane?"

"Not since this morning"

I pulled up at the hospital carpark and switched off the ignition. She went back to her nervous finger tapping, it was starting to get irritating. "Are you alright?"

"Uh-huh. Do you mind if we wait for a few minutes"

"Sure"

She opened the passenger side door "This is the part where I would need my crutches"

"Right"

She just looked at me as she took them "Would you mind helping me?" It was like she was afraid to ask incase I shut her down.

Gently I grabbed her fore arms and pulled her up, she steadied herself against me as she looped her arms in her crutches. Seering jealousy sped through me as the realiastion dawned on me, Wade Barrett had probably done this alot. It made me crazy to think that someone else had their hands on my girl. She's not yours. The words ecchoed in my brain.

"Randy? You can let go now" Raven bought me out of fantasy. "You ok?"

"Fine" It came out more bitter than I intended. I hated it that Wade was alot closer to her, it wasn't as though he hadn't done horrible things to her.

Raven's POV

I don't know why he suddenly went all weird, one minute he was fine the next he was back to snapping at me. I stopped out side the double doors and lit up a smoke. I knew I shouldn't be smoking not with all my ailments but fuck it, we all gotta die of something and I refused to let it be because of my leg. He just looked at me like I had done something really horrible.

"Don't start"

"Wasn't gonna, just wondering if you should be smoking"

"Probably not but we all gotta die of something and I refuse to let it be my leg"

He gave me that georgeous smile and as always I melted. If only he knew what that smile did to me, it was lucky he didn't because I wasn't sure I had the energy for that.

"May I borrow one?"

Ok, wasn't expecting that. If he kept doing that I would die of a heart attack. "No you can't borrow one because I don't want the munted smoke butt but you can have one" I held the packet out for him. "Should you be smoking?"

"Probably not but gotta do something"

"Fair point"

We just stood there in silence, I never expected him to be a smoker or social smoker as it were but then again stranger things had happened. I hated that silence, it was like one of us was waiting for the yelling to begin or a bomb explode. Two girls made their way into the hospital eyeing him up on the way. Pent up rage flashed in front of me, not only were looking at what I wanted, it just reminded that they would have more of shot at him than I ever would. Tossing my smoke away, I headed into the hospital muttering in Czechslovakian. That was my best trick, I knew so many languages I could easily switch and no one would know what I was talking about. To proove my point he shot me a funny look as I kept muttering death threats.

"What exactly are you muttering?" Randy looked at me curiously.

"Not important" I switched back to English. "Michales, Raven" I told the receptionist at the front desk. She told me to go on through. "You can wait here if you like. I'll five minutes. Not even that"

He took a seat on the red vinyl as I hobbled in.

"And how are you this week?" Gloria asked me, that smile on her round face. I quite liked Gloria she was good at what she did and after twenty three years she still had passion for the job.

"Meh"

"Don't know how you could say that with the eye candy you walked in with" Gloria laughed unwrapping my bandage.

"You want him? You can have him"

"I don't think my partner would like that" Gloria laughed "Although I wouldn't say no to the english gentleman you usually come in with"

"You can have him too Glor"

"Thanks. Have you been in any unusual pain?"

"Does being in a car with Randy Orton count?"

Gloria just looked at me, "No Raven, it doesn't"

"Oh then no"

"Why would being in a car with Randy Orton be painful?"

It was obvious that Gloria had no idea who Randy was. "You know the eye candy in the waiting room? That's Randy Orton. He's the reason I'm sitting here having this conversation"

"You know I have been here for twenty-three years and thats the most horrible thing I have ever heard"

"It gets better" I muttered darkly as she went back to my leg.

"Any unusual discharge or aching?"

"Nope. It's pretty much the same"

"And are you keeping up with the medication?"

"Yeah even if it does make me feel like damn druggie"

Gloria wrapped my leg back up happy with her observation. "Now would you like try this week?"

"Uh no" I was already off the table, crutches in hand.

"I don't see why you won't try Raven. You will have too eventually"

"Gloria why can't you people just accept this? I have"

"Because you and I both know that if anybody can walk again it's you"

"Gloria it was a miracle I actually survived that night, I'm not gonna push it by trying to walk"

Randy's POV

I just kept thinking about what I over heard, I know I had a habbit of listening to her conversations but it seemed to be the only way I got information. She was never gonna walk again, forever she was on crutches. All because of me. I had never actually felt this bad in my entire life and I had done some pretty horrible things. She was right, up until now I had no fucking clue about what exactly I had taken from her.

"You ready?" Raven asked hobbling up to me. Every instinct I had told me to hug her and say sorry repeatedly, but I didn't I couldn't bring myself to do it.

"Yup"

All the way to the car and on the drive it was silent. I suddenly didn't want to talk, I felt guilty just talking to her. I just looked at her out of the corner of my eye, that sadness screamed in her silver eyes.

"I'm hungry" I said randomly as my stomach rumbled. It occured to me I hadn't eaten in a while.

"Good for you"

"Know anywhere good?"

"Turn left, there is a good diner just up the road" She barely got the words out.

"Are you sure about this?" I looked at the diner. It was red and black, the words Suicide Diner flashed above in bright yellow.

"Trust me, they do good burgers" Raven was already getting out of the car as I killed the engine. Once again I helped her out of the car, she seemed to postpone letting go of me. Her fingers slid down my arms and into her crutches.

"If your going to rub me I've got a better place you can do it" I couldn't help myself, I wouldn't blame her if she slapped me. Instead she smiled.

"Don't flatter yourself, I'd rather hold onto you than the cold metal"

"Again I have a better place you can hold onto"

"Yes but how is that going to hold me up?"

"Well the way I'm picturing it you wouldn't be standing"

"Not tonight, I have no energy" Raven giggled hobbling in the entrance.

I couldn't believe how fast things had turned and I was starting see what everyone else had seen in the beginning.

We took a seat at the rear end of the diner, not many people were here which was good.

"Now would you like a slutty waitress who will get your order wrong but will offer you STD ridden sex or would you like a proper waitress that know's what she's doing?"

"Uh"

"I'm actually asking because your answer is very vital"

"Food" The only one I wanted to sleep with right now was her, somehow I don't think she was about to offer that.

Some blonde chick stopped by our table, tits almost popping out of her uniform. Even if Raven wasn't a factor I wouldn't gone there. She just oozed slutty-ness.

"Keep moving sweet heart" Raven gestured at her. "Any day now Nada"

The person known as Nada finally came up and Raven smiled again. She was a tall maori woman of about thirty. "Hi Raven"

"Hey Nada. Two steak burgers with extra mushrooms and bacon bits. One carton on wedges to go and a large coke. He will have a peice of celery"

I pulled the finger at her.

"Your girlfriend is going to be really sad when I rip that finger off"

"I'll have a bacon and egg burger and a large sprite"

"Alright, I'll be back soon with that. Now Rae do you want me to tell the head chef your here?"

"Nah, I think I'll live not seeing her"

"You know the owners?"

"Yeah, the head chef slash co-owner is my cousin. She does a mean burger"

After we had eaten we were back on the road, she had begged me to let her drive. I put my foot down on that I knew that she couldn't at least not without crashing. Even though it had cut into my training I enjoyed the time with her.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure" Raven stuffed a few wedges in her mouth. How the hell she could eat so much got me.

"Are you and Wade together"

"He wishes" Raven snorted "I think I would rather kill myself"

"Thought you two were friends?"

"Friends yes but too much time with Wade Barrett will drive you insane and I really don't wanna lose whats left of my sanity"

"How did you lose your sanity?"

She didn't say anything and I wondered if I had crossed a line. "You don't have to answer if you don't want too"

"The state classed me insane even though by psychological standards I'm perfectly sane" She said slowly putting her wedges away.

"Why would they do that?"

"Because their idiots" Raven laughed bitterly "You ain't heard the rumours around the locker room?"

"Only the bullshit ones"

"Ah so who am I fucking this time?"

"Apparently Miz and Alex Reily"

"Wow, Think I'd rather have Wade. At least I won't hear I'm awesome every six seconds"

I had to laugh "That was just way too much info Rae"

She just looked at me, "What?"

"You called me Rae"

"My apologies" I prayed that this wasn't gonna start a fight, of all the things we had argued over this would be the most idiotic.

"Don't be sorry. Everyone else calls me Rae"

"I thought maybe it was restricted to friends only"

She laughed again "Yeah because that's the way it works Randall"

"So why did they class you insane?"

Raven took a deep breath "Might as well say it, I've never been ashamed of it, not gonna start now. I snapped and almost murdered my sister"

"Are you joking?"

"No but in my defense bitch had it coming"

"What did she do?"

"She slept with my sister's boyfriend right after she had finished sleeping with mine. So I snapped and tried to kill the slut"

"Sounds fair" Something like that should of deterred me away from her but it didn't, if anything it made me want her more. If anyone understood the betrayal of having your partner cheat on you, it was her.

A/N Really long chapter I know but I just couldn't stop writing it LOL.