Give me love 10
Rosalie PoV
Oh god oh god. Prom was next week! Ah and I was planned to go with emmett. Could this be any more amazing for me? I got dressed and went down surprised to see my mum still here. It was the weekend thank god… I could really do with another break from school.
"What are you doing? You have work."
"I know but, I didn't plan to go in till later... Look what arrived in the post." She then quickly smiled holding up a big white letter addressed for me.
"No way." I smiled opening it. "Driving licence." I pulled it out and examined it closely. I had been waiting 9 months for this shiny little piece of plastic to arrive.
"If only you had a car..." She sighed whilst the sound of loud tooting came from out front.
"You didn't." I laughed.
"Your right I didn't." She answered as I jogged out the front to see my cousin Jacob standing next to a big fat truck in our drive way. It had been a while since I last saw him, due to him moving away from Forks for a little while. I missed him a lot, and dreamed about seeing t some point again, little did I know it would be today.
"I didn't but Jacob did." Mum laughed behind me.
"Oh my god no way!" I gasped running over to see him. I jumped into his massive arms tugging tightly.
"Been a while hasn't it. I remember when we used to make mud pies together." He grinned letting go.
"Yeah no I remember. How could I ever forget?"
"So we good to take it for a test run?" He asked sounding excited.
"Mum?" I turned round to see her holding Scooby in her arms for the first time since we got him. What had gotten into her? She wasn't my mum.
"Sure. Be back for lunch though." She said going back in the house as we both climbed into the truck.
"This is awesome." I giggled sliding the key in, getting the engine started.
I reversed and got driving fine, so now it was catch up time with jake.
"When did you get so big?" I asked still keeping my eyes on the road in front.
"You're observant."
"I have to be. It's my job."
"I don't know... Just started working out a bit."
"A bit? Jake you look like you just swallowed a twin pack of steroids."
"Just filling out."
"Just? You filled out a long time ago… You're still a kid you know."
"How's your mum?"
"Never better."
"Progress..."
"I wish I could do more for her, you know?"
"You do enough.."
"But is it enough? Will it ever be enough for her? She needs someone. She needs my dad."
"You are everything to her."
"More like everything she has left."
"Either way. She's got you."
"How's billy?"
"He's still dancing."
"Good for him."
"Yeah, expect now he's learnt to ram people in the ankles."
"How's the guys been?"
"Erh... Just some strange stuff. Nothing I can't handle."
"What sort of stuff? They getting high?"
"Worse. They've formed some sort of pack together. Sam's leading it."
"Is Sam a problem?"
"For the mean time no. But he keeps just looking at me, likes he's waiting for me or something."
"If I was you, I would just stay out his way..."
"You say it like I don't already. He follows."
"Maybe he's got some big gay crush on you. Maybe they all do."
"I wish. They've all got chicks."
"Are you still into cars?"
"More motorbikes now... I'm working on a convert 3000 metallic black engine fire gas."
"I don't know what any of that means but okay." I laughed.
"You should stop by sometime and come see. We could go out riding together."
"Yeah, that sounds like fun." I had a pit stop up mountain by a cliff where we both got out to go look at the view together, just like old times. The water smashed up against the rocks crashing loudly. We both watched in silence before Jacob choked.
"Do you ever think about jumping?" He asked honestly.
"…Yes." I couldn't lie to him. It wouldn't be worth it.
"But why?"
"Suicide is the only thing I won't live to regret." I whispered but loud enough to echo between the trees around us.
"How have you been?" He asked again, his voiced drained for my answer. I couldn't hold anything back now. The truth flooded out of my mouth. It boiled in my blood and tingled on my lips. But my throat dried out before I could speak.
"Don't you ever just wish you could fly away from your biggest fears and live your most perfectly designed life? Do you wake up and think to yourself 'was I destined to live the life that I do?' Do you ever feel like everything around you is just one big joke, and you're the plot yet you don't know it yet? I don't wake up and live a life anymore, I just get up and survive. And that's all it ever is. There's no point to that, and I'm tired of thinking that I don't know maybe something will change that, or I'll change."
"What's being depressed like?" he whispered closely.
"It's like drowning deep underwater, but you can see everyone around you still breathing."
"Would you kill yourself?"
"I'm still here because I don't have the guts to. As if my mum's life isn't crappy enough. If I'm gone who will she have? Another therapy nurse is who. It's not suicidal but for example if a car was coming at full speed towards me, I don't know if I would get out the way."
My thoughts ate me alive. Every moment of everyday.. if it wasn't this it would be that. Or if it wasn't that it would be this. I still questioned myself as to how I was still actually here.
"... It's not my right to ask. But how's your dad?" Jacob cooed through the silence we had created.
"Married... Recently actually. And er, his wife's expecting soon." The topic of my dad was a tough one. Something I didn't talk in details about ever.
"Sorry..."
"No that's okay. He is your uncle after all."
"I mean sorry he moved on like this. I'm sorry you were forgotten. I'm sorry that your life was forgotten." He words punched me straight in the heart but I held back the blood. It was true anyway, I just didn't want it to be.
"Oh right... Yeah. So how come you're back all of a sudden?"
"Missing forks."
"You're kidding?"
"It's my home... You got to love forks."
"I prefer spoons."
"Dad said something about coming here to protect the area."
"From what?"
"He didn't say... Guessing like animals and stuff."
"Animals?"
"You're not in Arizona, remember?"
"Course. This place is infected with innocent caterpillars, and marshmallows."
"You're such a marshmallow."
"Shut up! I'm older than you."
"So? Age is just a number, what are you like 40 now?"
"It feel like that sometimes."
"Maybe if you stopped acting like old.."
"Hay!"
"Alright I'm sorry..." I pulled up back home in time for 12. I missed Jacob a lot. With moments like these, we could talk for hours on end about anything and everything which we did.
"So you living back where you used to?"
"Yep."
"I'll er stop by at some point. Come see the gang."
"Please do... " he jumped out. My relationship with jake was different. He wasn't much of a cousin to me, more of a brother or a best friend. And I like that quality in him. He was just the completion to my life really. I would be nuts without him.
"Who's that?" He asked as Emmett pulled up in the drive way. Talk about timings.
"Hay baby." He smirked getting out the car and coming over to me. We snogged a bit before I pulled back finally realising we were getting into a bit too much for Jacob's viewing.
"God you look beautiful today." He smiled down showing me his cheeky dimples.
"Emmett meet Jacob, my cousin." I introduced them. Both of them automatically twitched to each other. Scrunching his eyebrows Jacob stood in horror looking at emmett. Both of their eyes shaded to black with anger. How the hell did they know each other to hate each other so much?
"You're not actually seeing him? Are you really that stupid?" Jacob grunted as emmett gripped my waist. What had gotten into them all of a sudden? It was like the bear met the lion and I was the fucking lamb.
"I think you should go." I snapped in shock from his response.
"You heard her, leave." Emmett added into it. Both seethed disgustingly at each other. The tension was building gradually into something I didn't want it be. Emmett was known for his anger explosions, I witnessed him destroy Royce and I was not going to watch him break Jacob too.
"There's no point staying here. I don't want to be fucking brainwashed too." Jacob argued getting onto his bike and driving off without goodbye. Just like dad.
"How'd you know him?" I asked.
"Long story really..."
"I've got time."
"I can't be bothered. I'll tell you some other time. I stopped by to give you these..." He handed me over 2 tickets.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Paramore. You and me are going to paramore tomorrow."
"Shut up!" I squealed. "They're my favourite."
"I know, that's why I got them. Thought it would be fun for us. Then after my mums, got a night shift at work and Alice's going out for girls night so I have the house to myself and would enjoy some company..."
"That sounds great. I'd love to."
"Er cool then. I'll text you details later..."
"You're forgetting something!" I chuckled lightly.
"Love you?"
"No em look!" I pointed to my truck and pulled out my driving licence from my back pocket.
"You passed!"
"I know hahaha."
"Trucks pretty shit."
"Don't hate the truck!"
"Right sorry, I got to go anyway... Meeting jasper at skate park."
"Okay, well I don't want to be the one to keep him waiting so... Go have fun and I'll see you tomorrow?" I asked.
"Positive." He simple kiss on the lips and he was gone.
"I love you so much." He sighed pulling away. I flushed a shade of bright red, the things he did to me...
Going back into the house. My mum was on my laptop.
"Rosalie I can't believe this!" She laughed calling me over. I've never seen her smile like that before.
"I've just been asked out on a date from this guy on this dating site for tomorrow!" The hell was all this chaos coming from all of a sudden.
"Woah what? I didn't even know you knew about sites like that!"
"Look look look! He even sent me a wink in my message box." I ran over an flicked through her page.
"You have to go!" My statement had double meaning. I need her gone for the night so me and emmett could go to the paramore concert. But also I really didn't want her to miss the chance to move on with someone.
"Rosalie I can't breathe!" She sighed getting off the couch and running out to get a fag.
"What are you going to wear?" I asked following behind happily.
"Oh my god I don't know! You have to help me! I haven't been on a date since in like forever..."
"I'll sort something out."
"How was Jacob? I saw him leave in a hurry..."
"Erm everything was fine but then emmett turned up and they sort of both went into like this zone against each other..."
"They know each other?"
"Apparently, and not in a good way.." She paused taking this information in. I still wasn't really sure if she had excepted emmett and me. Like she never had met him, didn't talk to him and had seen him probably once from my bedroom window.
"Prom's next week right?"
"Yeah."
"Got a dress?"
"No I haven't..."
"Have a look online tonight and I buy whatever one you want."
"Woah mum what has got into you?"
"Rosalie, for the first time since your father left, things are finally going right for me. And they are going to go right for you too" She smiled a true hale smile. I think for the first time in a while I could see mum and not the left overs.
"I'm really happy for you..." I smiled.
"I'm going out to the store, won't be too long."
"Scooby needs some food."
"Will do." She grabbed her bag and went off to the store. M y mum was happy. Actually happy. I got my laptop and went straight onto online to find my perfect prom dress. I wasn't into all the big glammy ones, but I still wanted to be good enough for emmett. Not like ever really would but it would be worth taking a risk. Flicking through pages and pages, I found my dress. Pure white lace from the higher waist and up, with black velvet down to the ankles. It covered my boobs fully my was a suited shape.. I fell in love with it completely, it was my perfect prom dress. Without a single doubt in my mind I ordered it for myself there and then.
My phone flashed an unknown number on my phone. I opened quickly into my inbox to see who and what had been sent to me. It read clearly in bold text,
I hope you like surprise because you sure hell are going to get a big one.
What the hell could that possibly mean….?
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CHECK OUT ROSALIE'S PROM DRESS ON MY PICTURES ON MY PROFILE SECTION, I DIDN'T DESCRIBE IT VERY WELL SO SORRYY.. I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE STILL LIKEING THE STORY AND I CAN'T THANK YOU ALL ENOUGH FOR THE FEEDBACK AND ALL THE SUPPORT SO THANK YOU AGAIN. THE CHAPTERS TO COME ARE ABOUT TO GET INCREDIBLY JUICY NOW, THE TRUTH IS COMING OUT SOON AND THE RESULT ISN'T GOING TO BE PRETTY FOR SURE …!