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Chapter 10. Ten Days is all it takes…

So we've put an end to it this time.
I'm no longer yours and you're no longer mine.
I said this hill looks far too steep
If I'm not even sure it's me you wanna keep.
And it's been ten days without you in my reach,
And the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.

I sat behind my piano and played the song, I wrote today.. I woke up this morning with the melody in my head and the words already on my tongue..
Today I could play like my live depend on it…

But time has changed nothing at all -
You're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes and
I let you go but you're still the only one
That feels like home.

I felt deeply sad, like my heart had dropped. Like it was cloudy for two weeks.. I just missed him.

You won't talk me into it next time,
If I'm going away your hearts coming too.
'Cos I miss your hands I miss your face.
When I get back let's disappear without a trace.

I could wish all I wanted that he was just back to New York for half the month and that he'd be back soon, but deep down I knew he was gone.. while in my heart we would never leave…

'Cos it's been ten days without you in my reach,
And the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.

But time has changed nothing at all -
You're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes,
Tried letting go but you're still the only one
That feels like home.

If it hadn't been only ten days since he'd left.. since I told him to go.. maybe this wouldn't have been so hard. But it had only been ten days.. of which five I'd been on the road. If he hadn't told me that if I'd send him away he wouldn't come back, I would probably have picked up the phone and called about ten times only today.. Maybe that was just all I needed to stand tall till the worst was over.

But time would change nothing at all.. he would always be my north.. my true north.. The only one that felt like home..
I'd cried so much over the past ten days that I started to wonder when I would come up dry..

I missed him more than I would miss myself in anybody's life.

I felt Brooke's hand on my shoulder.. as she understood my pain.. my aching heart. It had to be hard for her to watch me suffer again because of a boy. I'd rounded off the song and looked up at her. "It's only been ten days.."

"Sometimes it's all it takes…" she whispered.

I had enough… I was going mad in this hotel room. I wanted to go to Haley and tell her I loved her. I wanted to go home to Alison just to know that they were still there. I had to do something, because staying was driving me mad.

From moment to the other, I had began to pack my stuff together and went home. This three year long affaire ended and I was going to give my wife my full and undivided attention, unlike what I'd been giving her for the past three years..

I checked out of my hotel. I had made up my mind. I was going to pick of my life as it was before Haley had entered it. I loved Haley, but if she couldn't live like this anymore I had to respect that. I had to move on. Live a better life, than I'd been living for the past three years.

I checked in for my flight home. I was excited to go home. It was going to be a new start.. it was going to be perfect now. Brooke had been trying to plant so many seeds of doubt in my mind about Alison's love for me that I was going to prove her wrong now. I was going ot be the husband to Al a once was. The kind I was in the beginning…

While I boarded my plane I thought about home. About where Alison would be when I came home.. she would probably at her cardio class, with the kids at Lucas' that gave me the chance to decorate the house for her arrival back. (that reminded me to let Lucas keep the kids a little longer.)

I was racing home.. escaping the need I had to turn around and beg Haley to take me back. The need I had to take my son and hug him. I had barely gotten to see him in time I had been in Charlotte. Now it was going to be like there was no Jamie. Like Haley and I never met.

As I arrived in New York.. I took a cab home. Rushing back to the place that was my only home from now on.

I stifled a moan as Dan Scott thrust into me. It was four days till Nathan was coming home and since Mr. Scott. 'like his comfort' or like I thought of it.. liked to torture his son, we'd began to het sex on our bed in our house in New York. Yes when I say 'our' I mean Nathan and mine.

As my father in law came inside of me, not bothering to conceal his pleasure, I rolled the fat man off of me and rolled to my side. Since we began to use a bed.. the 'sessions' were longer and the comments worse. "How long till Nathan's Back?" Dan asked. He always had to remind me of Nathan. Just so I knew what I was doing was wrong. (like I didn't know that!) it was Nathan he wanted to punish, so why was it me that got punished!

As He grabbed my breast and began to roughly massage them, I knew he was 'ready' for round two.

I wished that Nathan would come home. I wished he wouldn't leave so much anymore. And somewhere I wished he would find out, so I didn't have to have sex with Dan Scott anymore.

The truth was that I didn't even know I Milou and Lex were Nathan's or Dan's. As Dan plunged his dick into me again I heard the front door shut with a bang. My breath hitched up, but Dan only continued to pound into me harder and harder. I dug my nails into his back. Hoping that whoever was down stairs thought I wasn't home and would leave.. only just then my orgasm rushed over me and I had yelled before I realized the consequences.

I heard footsteps up the stairs and the floorboards in the hall crack a door open and I squeezed my eyes shut…

When it stayed silent… I opened my eyes to find Nathan standing in the doorstep.. His face displayed anger, confusion, pain, but most of all he seemed to think he'd done something stupid. Self blame? I really couldn't grasp it. I'd expected him to be angry, but he really did seem to feel that way.

"Unbelievable. All this time…" He sputtered. "Hello son, you're home early." Dan said as he slid out of bed and in his naked figure collected his clothes. I pulled up the sheets and looked at Nathan with teary eyes. "I'm sorry Nathan.." I cried.

"Unbelievable.. Unbelievable!" He said louder and louder. "I cannot I believe I did that.." He murmured. "I can't believe I felt guilty.."

"Nathan please it isn't what you think it is.." I tried.

"Ali baby, I think Nathan thinks we've been having sex behind his back and that's true." Dan said with a smug smile on his face. "How long." He asked still slightly shocked. "Since you and her got married." Dan told him. I wished Dan would shut up, but what could I expect he was the one to come up with the crazy plan in the freaking first place! "Yeah I thought I'd answer, you never know if you'd get a straight answer from your wife.."

I stood there.. only thinking about how I had been doing wrong to Haley and Jamie all this time, while feeling guilty towards Alison for being a bad husband. I felt so stupid. I could have know that my father would find a way to repay me for what I did to his scheme.

I once told my mom and she told the police about his business scheme. Holding back money he made on his at the time he owned a dealership. I was about eighteen and when I found out I reported it. I could have know he'd find a way to screw with me and mom.

Oh my god.. Haley. I didn't care. "Nathan please say something." Alison said. Haley and Jamie. God I'd been a jerk. "I don't care." I told Alison. I grabbed another bag with clothes from the bedroom and then left hailed a cab outside and told the driver to hurry to the airport. I needed Haley to know what happened. I needed her to know I wanted her I needed her and that I'd been so stupid not to see my whole Marriage had been one of my father's schemes.

I left Haley a dozen of massages saying that I was on my way back to charlotte and partly telling what happened and that I'd been so stupid. I'd never felt worse in my life knowing I'd been conned by my father. As the speeding driver approached a cross road all I could worry about was that Haley could forgive me… That I could take her in my arms again. That I could take her pretty face between my hands and kiss her perfect lips. That I could wipe her tears off her face and make a smile appear on her face. That I could make love to her, that I could tell how much I love her and that I wished I'd met her when I was in college. However, I hadn't and now I was stuck with a whore as wife and kids that probably weren't even mine.. I suddenly felt this icy shiver down my spine as if there were more bad things about to happen and once again I pulled out my phone and dialed Haley's number.

I was so caught up in my thoughts I never saw the truck approach us from the side. Screeching medal a painful stab in my head and sides, came out of nowhere. When I opened my eyes all I could see was the dark inside of what I thought to be the cab I was in and all I heard was her voice answering the phone this time.

As I felt that I was losing consciousness again all I could think of was that I needed to tell Haley how much I loved her. "Nathan?" her voice sounded pained. "Haley… I love you. I love you and I love Jamie. I love Brooke too but she knows that already. I don't blame her for siding with you, she's a good friend take care of her."

"Nathan .. Please don't do this.." Haley said. "Haley please don't I was coming to you.. to tell you I love you and to tell you I want to marry you. I want to spend my live… with you." It got harder and harder to speak and this dark heavy could of unconsciousness was having over my head "I want you.. not Alison. I need you to feel alive. You're all I ever had." After that the cloud dawned on me and I lost my consciousness completely hearing Haley's frantic voice call my name as I couldn't answer anymore, softly mouthing 'I love you'

It was about ten pm that day that I got a phone call from my mother that Nathan had been in a car accident. I had been half way out the door with Haley by my side when she told me he hadn't made it. Nathan had passed away. He died from his injuries.

The rest seemed like it had gone in a blur.. all I remember was a crying Haley. Haley crying so hard, like someone burned her house down with everything and everyone she loved in it, like someone ripped away a part of her. Among the cries and sobs Haley told me about her conversation with Nathan. Not knowing he'd been dying when he told her all that, even though she'd had a knot in her stomach all day since the call. Conceivably, regretting that she decided against telling him she love him too, even thought he knew that. She's been a mess ever since. I had Jake come and take care of her and Jamie while I flew in for the cremation. It pained Haley even more that she couldn't appear there. Anyone who would see her would know she'd lost more than just the brother of her best friend.

Her eyes showed the pain of a lost love, and the eyes of her boy screamed "Nathan" that much he resembled him.

While the cremation was disgusting, Haley sat at home singing and writing or crying and sobbing.

It was disgusting. Haley told me about the voicemails Nathan left her about what happened and I felt fury and at the same time joy somewhere that I got to prove that I was right when I said there was something wrong with their marriage. But it was mostly disgust that someone could do that, that someone would. That Nathan and Haley could have lived Happily ever after, their fairytale if that bitch had been there. If Dan Scott hadn't been the manipulative bastard I'd known him to be.

While I was dealing with my own grieve over losing a brother I loved so much, I was there, the one that held Haley together because she fell apart. She was a mess, wouldn't eat. She would just sleep, or lie in bed sobbing, while I had to take care of Jamie and myself. I knew that pilling onto her problems with the fact I could use some comfort was unfair. But I needed Haley to be my friend right now as much as she needed me. Tears ran over my cheeks as I sat next to Haley on her bed holding her. "We're going to get him back Hales. He's ours.. The will will be read in two weeks where after we are going to spread his ashes with the family.. we will take him back with us, I promise.." Luckily I found my support in supporting Haley and Jamie and keeping busy.

When I found Haley's letter that afternoon, I realized that the day his will would be read, was going to be the day. Haley had received a letter from his attorney about the will, which mean she was in it. Which meant Alison was going to find out about them as well as Dan Scott.

Our time was coming. I was getting my chance to prove to the entire Family that Alison was the one responsible for his death. I was going to get my chance and so was Haley.. she too was getting her chance to speak her word. To face that what took Nathan from her. To make it up to Nathan.. that she didn't trust him enough..

We were going to avenge his death.. one way or another. Someone was gonna pay because we had all the power. No one knew Nathan left it all on Haley's voice mail and it was gonna come back to bite them in the ass.

Yes.. I know it's my second story for Naley where one of them dies.. It's not like I do it on purpose or anything it's just prettier and less corny in someway you know. Life ain't perfect it's not always a happy ending.. and frankly people shouldn't hang onto it like it is and act like if you talk about it enough it;s goign to happen anyway.. I think the moral Is a lot stronger, especially in stories, if one of the leading charachters dies or both.. (that's why Romeo and Juliet is such a famous play.. It's tragic and it's sacrifice) Anyway this gives Brooke and Haley the chance to confront Alison and Dan with the consequences of their actions...

Also the song that I used in the begining, is Ten Days by Missy Higgins. Beautiful song if really caputured the feeling on the moment for Haley I thought, also because the original story began with a song where the whole story evolved around I figuered it was great. One Tree Hill has always been aboutthe music and i find it always very usefull the lyrics of tone setting songs in Fanfics, even if it was just the get to know more artist or Music.

There is goign to be a 11th chap, that will involve the will reading.. and there will be a 12th Chapter.. maybe or maybe it will be the epilogue I'm not sure that depends on what reviews i get. if I think it's neccesary to explain some stuff i will be another chap. the reviews usually inspire me at some point to add a certain soemthing to it.. more of the time to spice things up or to make it completely different .. (the Alison Dan thing wa kinda one of them.. it totally changed the tone of this couple so crazy in love and him finding someone else to be crazy in love with too. into they were both cheating and they are both crappy people.)

Okay.. I think've added enoughto the bottom of this chapter.. :P Leave me a review.. or a smile.. Anyway.. later..

Love Philine