To be honest, the ending of this chapter isn't my favorite. But, this was one of my favorite chapters to write to far.
I love the lovey-dovey J&T scenes, but writing anger scenes with Jax, makes me all hot & bothered. Even when he is killing a man, Jax Teller is the hottest man alive. He could be picking his nose, and I still wouldn't care. I love this man.
There are a few cute moments with Jax & Tara, but we all know this chapter is dedicated to J & his over-bearing mother.
I really hope you enjoy! Many more chapters to come!
"What the hell is wrong with you?! You go behind my back, and start hooking up with my president, lie to me about it, and then all of people you tell Tara? You tell my girlfriend before you tell me? I'm your fucking son! What the hell is wrong with you? Did you expect me not to find out? Did you really expect Tara not to tell me?" He yelled.
"I told that little bitch to keep her mouth shut. You can't trust her, Jackson!"
"Don't you ever call my girlfriend a bitch again, or I'll hurt you. I don't care if you're my mother. She told me the truth because we don't lie to each other, we don't keep secrets from each other! What the hell did you expect? I'd be pissed if she didn't tell me! Don't you dare be mad at her, be mad at yourself! What the hell is wrong with you? Did you really think I wouldn't find out? And then you tried to wait until I found so I would already be prospecting? So what? So I wouldn't be able to rebel? Fuck you."
He had never said that to Gemma, but at this point he didn't really care.
Jackson was livid; more than livid. He had never yelled at his mother like that, especially with all the cussing. He was taught to never disrespect his mother, and he normally never did. But, because he never disrespected her & never stood his ground, she walked all over him, telling him what to do, say, how to act. Tonight, he couldn't take it anymore. There had to be a line drawn, of what she can and cannot do. Lying to him, going behind his back, trying to split apart him and Tara, all of those things crossed the line. She really meant nothing to club anymore, she may be "Queen Bee" but she's still just an Old Lady, just a wife of a member.
They were in the office of the garage, with everyone outside. Clay, along with every member and prospect of the club. Donna and Tara were sitting outside under the patio, trying to avoid the situation. Jax knew Donna was putting up with the same games that Tara was, he felt the need to defend her too.
Jax was tired of Gemma interfering with his relationship, she had been the from the start, he was just too oblivious to notice it, until Tara told him Gemma's secret.
1 hour earlier
She confessed after his birthday bash. She kept ranting on about how it wasn't her fault, his first thought was that she had somehow cheated on him, which would definitely cure his hangover. When the words "I love you" came out of his mouth, he stopped listening. He was too happy to care about anything else. He would never admit it, but he was scared to admit his love for her. So many things could have gone wrong, but when he first said at his birthday barbecue, when Tara debuted his beer cake, Jax knew in that moment that he was in love with Tara Knowles and always would be, no matter what their future may hold. And then when he said it when getting on the party bus, heavily drunk, he was scared. She still hadn't said it back, and that scared him more than joining the club. But, when those three little words came out of his mouth, he had never been happier.
Which is why, the anger and hatred towards Gemma and Clay didn't resonate in him until much later, when he had time to think about what Tara had told him. He was so overwhelmed with Tara, it didn't hit him until he was getting ready to leave his house.
"How long have you known?" He asked.
The couple was laying on Tara's couch, her head resting on his chest.
"She told me on the way to your barbecue. I was going to tell you then, but it would've ruined your party, which I didn't want for you."
"No, babe it's okay. I'm not mad at you. Just trying to understand Gemma, it's okay. I'm not mad." He kissed her head to confirm his feelings.
"I don't know why she would tell me, she knows that I would tell you."
"I don't know either, babe."
Tara hesitated and then asked, "Do you think she's trying to break us up?"
Jax began playing wit her hair, thinking carefully of his answer, "I wouldn't put it past her. I just like to think she would put my happiness before hers."
"I hope not, but you can't ignore the facts. She told me about the engagement, and then told me not to tell you. So I had to decide to tell you or not. Which only gave me two options, keep her secret and risk you being mad at me. Or tell her secret, and have her mad at me, and then she would convince you that I can't be trusted and to break up with me."
"I'm not breaking up with you, but I get where you're coming from."
They were silent for a while, Jax kept playing with Tara's hair to distract himself from his impending anger. Tara could tell he was getting more furious every second they remained at her house. If he didn't let out his anger, Jax would explode. It's how he his, it's how Tara always knows what he's thinking or how he's feeling. She would always be grateful for that, she knows how Opie holds everything in, not wanting to scare or hurt Donna with club business.
Tara was the first to stand up. Grabbing her purse, "Let's go, cmon."
He was obviously confused as to where she wanted to go.
"I know you, Jax. I know how you explode when you don't release your anger. The more you sit here with me, the more angry you're going to be. I know you need to talk to Gemma and sort this out. Now, I love you, let's go back to the clubhouse." Tara said, collecting his keys.
"God, I love you so much right now."
"Yeah I know," She said, then kissing him softly and lightly, "now let's go. The quicker we start this fight, the sooner it ends." She grabbed his hand outside, towards his parked motorcycle.
Tara would never how sexy he thought she was in this moment. He was so glad that she knew him so well. She knew what he needed, how his mind worked, and how he felt. They were already becoming a partnership, two bodies with one soul. He loved her so much.
Even though he had just taken her home almost two hours ago, they were headed back to the clubhouse, to air out his anger. If there was one thing Jax hated, it was lying and secrets. He liked the truth. He is a simple man, with simple needs and simple requests.
He pulled into the garage parking lot, with the other bikes. He was nervous about yelling to Gemma, but it was time. They were walking hand in hand, towards the garage office.
He pointed towards the sitting area underneath the patio, "Wait over there, babe. I don't want you getting involved."
He kissed her hand, and then let it go, making his way towards his mother.
She was sitting behind the desk, pouring over paperwork. He had to admit, without Gemma running the garage, there was no way this place would stay in business.
Jax barged right in, demanding her attention.
Using his stern voice, "We need to talk." And closed the door shut so no one else would hear their fight.
She immediately stopped what she was doing.
"What the hell is wrong with you?! You go behind my back, and start hooking up with my president, lie to me about it, and then all of people you tell Tara? You tell my girlfriend before you tell me? I'm your fucking son! What the hell is wrong with you? Did you expect me not to find out? Did you really expect Tara not to tell me?" He yelled.
"I told that little bitch to keep her mouth shut. You can't trust her, Jackson!"
"Don't you ever call my girlfriend a bitch again, or I'll hurt you. I don't care if you're my mother. She told me the truth because we don't lie to each other, we don't keep secrets from each other! What the hell did you expect? I'd be pissed if she didn't tell me! Don't you dare be mad at her, be mad at yourself! What the hell is wrong with you? Did you really think I wouldn't find out? And then you tried to wait until I found so I would already be prospecting? So what? So I wouldn't be able to rebel? Fuck you."
He had never said that to Gemma, but at this point he didn't really care.
Jackson was livid; more than livid. He had never yelled at his mother like that, especially with all the cussing. He was taught to never disrespect his mother, and he normally never did. But, because he never disrespected her & never stood his ground, she walked all over him, telling him what to do, say, how to act. Tonight, he couldn't take it anymore. There had to be a line drawn, of what she can and cannot do. Lying to him, going behind his back, trying to split apart him and Tara, all of those things crossed the line. She really meant nothing to club anymore, she may be "Queen Bee" but she's still just an Old Lady, just a wife of a member.
They were in the office of the garage, with everyone outside. Clay, along with every member and prospect of the club. Donna and Tara were sitting outside under the patio, trying to avoid the situation. Jax knew Donna was putting up with the same games that Tara was, he felt the need to defend her too.
Jax was tired of Gemma interfering with his relationship, she had been the from the start, he was just too oblivious to notice it, until Tara told him Gemma's secret.
"Maybe you're the one that can't be trusted! Dad dies so you go can find the next club president to suck off and put a ring on your finger. How long have you been hiding this from me?" He demanded an answer.
"Jackson! You do not speak to me like that! I am your mother and I demand respect from you!"
"Going from one club president to the next isn't a way to get my respect! Now answer my question, how long have you been hiding your relationship from me?" He asked, growing angrier and more violent every minute.
"We've been hooking up on off for a few years, but we started dating six months. He loves me Jackson, and I love him. He was there for me after JT died and somewhere along the way, it turned into more. Now you will respect me and my choices, and you will respect him. He is your President, he deserves your respect."
"He's nothing to me. I'm not in the club, Gemma! Respect is the last thing he's going to get from me."
"Jackson, what are you saying?"
"I'm saying, I'm sure not sure I want to prospect under a guy who's fucking my mother."
"You do not talk to me like that, Jackson! You can be mad at me all you want, but you will not take this out on him. This is between me and you, son."
"You should have told me about this when it first happened! I should not be hearing about this from my girlfriend! What the hell were you thinking!? Did you really think I wouldn't be pissed about this? Out of all the guys in Charming, you pick to start fucking my future boss!"
"I didn't plan it this way, Jackson, and you know that! Why the hell can't you just be happy for me for once?"
"Because you always put your happiness before anyone else's. You telling Tara the truth, and then making her promise to keep her mouth shut, proves my point. If you really cared about me, you would've came to me directly! You know how much I hate liars."
"I care about you Jackson! I've done everything for you! I'm doing this for you! I'm marrying him for you!"
"How does you fucking someone, and then marrying him benefit me? No, fuck you. You're marrying Clay so you can stay Queen Bee. Don't you dare make this sham of a marriage about me just to clear your conscious. You may think you're Queen Bee, but you're just another Old Lady who has no say what goes on in church. I'm fucking done with you." He made his way to the door, and then said one last thing.
"Cut this shit out. Stop messing with my relationship, it's obviously not working. Whether you like it or not, Tara is apart of my life, and she's not going anywhere. If you don't apologize to Tara, I'll never speak to you again. Because now, she's my only family."
He walked out of the office, leaving Gemma speechless at what her son had just said. He knew she felt like her heart had been ripped out of its chest.
Jackson knew he dropped the f-bomb way too many times, but in order to your point across with Gemma, you had to be stern. Part of him ached to go back into the office and apologize to his mother. He was raised better than that. He would never yell and disrespect a woman like that, especially his mother. If Gemma caught him speaking to Tara like that, he would be the one with belt marks on his back.
He knew the family comment was a little too far- Gemma and Jax had been through hell together. First she had to bury her son before he had a chance to grow up, then her husband was in Ireland practically every months screwing some whore, and then he died a few years later. They had both seen a lot of shit, they needed each other. But, Gemma needed to realize that Tara was becoming family too. Jax had never been serious about a girl, and the fact that he finally was, showed major signs. He would never bring a girl around the clubhouse if he didn't have feelings for her, Gemma knew that, and so did everyone else. He would never bring one of the school sluts around this place, they aren't strong enough to handle club shit.
Maybe Gemma was jealous, that another girl was taking his heart. She had to have known this was coming eventually. It's the natural cycle of life: meet a boy, fall in love, get married, have a few kids, they grow up, start dating, boy meets girl, boy falls in love with girl, they get married, have a few kids, etc. Did she really think that her son would never fall in love with someone?
He knew he was harsh, way too harsh, but all of it was true. It was time for Gemma to stop meddling in everyone's business. She will, again, be an Old Lady. Doesn't matter if she's Queen Bee or not, she's not a member of the club. She doesn't ride, she doesn't have a vote, she may be a major influencer, but she's not a SAMCRO member. She's just an Old Lady. And it was about time that someone put her in place. And Jax felt bad that it had to be him, but maybe he as the perfect person to do so. Jax was one of the few people Gemma would actually listen to.
He prayed, to whatever God he didn't believe in, that she got the message. He really did not want to have to yell at his mother a second time; the first was hard enough.
Jax was out of the office, walking towards Tara and his bike. He could tell there were at least forty sets of eyes on him, all gossiping about the fight they just heard between him and his mother. But he didn't give a fuck about what other people thought, there was only one person whose opinion mattered, the reason he just yelled at his mother, the woman he is in love with.
His eyes were set on hers. She could see the pain in eyes. She could tell that he already felt guilty about what he said, but they both knew it was the right decision.
"If you ever talk to your mother like that again, I'll kill ya." A familiar voice said, as someone grabbed Jax's arm.
"Clay, if you ever lay a hand on me again or talk to me about MY mother I will kill you myself. And that's a promise. Now get the fuck off me."
Jax shoved his arm out of Clay's grasp, walked away from the confrontation. The last thing he needed was to start a fight with the club president. He would never be able to prospect then, even if his mom was screwing him.
He was too fired up to think quickly, he needed to get out the clubhouse area, as quickly as possible. The longer he stayed, the higher risk of Jax pouring his fist into someone's face. These members may be older than him, but Jax has been fighting since he was sent to the principal's office in the 3rd grade. And he was damn good at it too. Jax Teller couldn't do many things well, the only thing he knew how to do well was outlaw.
Tara knew that he loved her. It was obvious to anyone who spent time around the couple, they could never keep their hands off each other, whether it was to cuddle kiss, or just be next to each other. And they constantly had to be together. It was young love at its finest.
They had said I love to each other, they were clearly a couple in love. Jax could say the three magic words a million times, and Tara would never truly know the extent of his love. He just told off his mom, with as many f-bombs as possible, threatened the club president in front of a large crowd, all for one girl, his girl. He never thought he would stand up to his mom like that, he loved her too much to disobey Gemma. But when someone interferes with your relationship, that's when it's time to say something. He was madly in love with Tara Knowles, he knew he was in love with her before he really knew it.
Things would never be the same between him and his biker family, but as long as he had Tara beside him, Jax had all the family he would ever need.