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Everyone followed the doctor into Jade's room and simply stared at her, she was just sat on the bed looking at the window like a statue and it broke their hearts, she had bandages around her wrists and a recovery boot on her ankle but her arms had many marks from injections along with a few scars and bruises, Beck felt an intense sadness and frustration towards the situation, Jade simply looked lifeless, it didn't even seem she was there.

"Jade" Tori said sweetly as she walked towards the bed.

"Jade, it's us... your friends" Cat exclaimed but Jade remained in silence.

"Jade, sweetie, it's me... your dad, please say something so we know that you're here, completely here" Eric insisted as he held Jade's hand. "Jade, please look at me, I need to know that you understand" He tried once again but no answer was gotten, Jade simply blinked once and remained in silence.

"What's happening to her? Can she hear us?" Andre questioned.

"She can hear you perfectly but she is going through a phase of post-shock, it's pretty understandable" The doctor answered "Don't give up, she has to react sooner or later, as for now I have to go I'll come back in a few minutes" the doctor left the room while Jade's father and friends talked to her without success.

"Jade!" Andre said louder but she didn't move at all.

"Jade, it's me Cat, can you hear me?" Cat questioned but Jade remained in the same position.

"Jade, Jade, please respond" Beck exclaimed but nothing happened, it was like Jade wasn't there anymore, it was an empty body

They spent the rest of the day trying to make her react but nothing worked, at night the nurse had to move her to make her lay on the bed but Jade was still like a mannequin, she didn't talk or cry or move at all, she only blinked every few seconds and stared into space.

Five days went by and nothing new happened, Jade's father and friends were happy because she was alive but it didn't make much of a difference because she wasn't really there, sometimes Beck or her dad sat next to her, held her hand and talked to her but Jade never responded; Eric called Jade's mother, Elisa and she immediately came to LA excited expecting to see her daughter but she had to face the cruel reality.

"How long has she been like this?" Jade's mother questioned after seeing Jade sat on the bed completely lost.

"She's been like that since we found her five days ago" Tori responded.

"How did you find her?" Elisa asked.

"We went to the cemetery and she was standing by her grave, she was alone so I guess before she saw us she was conscious but she didn't say a single word" Eric explained and stroked Jade's head gently.

"And what did the doctor say?" Elisa asked concernedly. "Is she gonna stay like that forever?"

"He said that it all depends, she could react in any second or stay that way for months, even years...she might never react but nothing's for sure" Eric explained sadly.

"So, what? Does she just sit here and stare at the window all day?" Jade's mother questioned.

"Yeah, the nurses feed her and give her medication every few hours but she basically stays like that the whole day" Robbie answered and Jade's mom shook her head slowly.

"Jade, sweetie, It's mom... I'm gonna take care of you, baby, don't worry" Elisa said with tears streaming down her pale cheeks while she held Jade's hand, she looked a lot like Jade but she was a blonde.

"Are you sure she can hear us?" Elisa questioned while stroking Jade's face sweetly.

"Yes, the doctor said she could hear us perfectly" Eric responded.

"I'm gonna take her home with me, she can't go to school like this so there's no reason for her to stay with you anymore" Elisa informed.

"No, you can't take her away from me" Eric exclaimed.

"She wouldn't be in this situation if it wasn't because of you in the first place" Elisa commented upset and Eric looked down sadly because he knew it was true. "I told Mark and he has no problem so Jade's moving back with me"

"Does that mean you'll take her to New York?" Beck questioned.

"Yes"

"No, no you can't do that, please" Beck begged, he didn't want to be away from her.

"It's the best for her" Elisa simply said "Bedsides I wouldn't be able to be okay knowing Jade is like this and I'm not there with her, she is my only daughter"

Suddenly the doctor walked back into the room and greeted everyone "Good afternoon, nothing yet?" he asked and they shook their heads.

"Are you sure she is okay?" Elisa questioned. "This is not normal"

"No, listen, we've applied her different tests and she is apparently okay, she shouldn't be like this so the problem is psychological but you never know, Jade consumed drugs for a very long time... they might have caused her some brain damage" the doctor said sincerely and Elisa covered her mouth while crying.

"No, no that can't be possible because she read her name on the grave and she recognized us when she saw us" Andre commented.

"Well, we don't really know if she recognized us" Tori commented.

"Like I said the possibilities are endless, maybe the shock of seeing her own grave detonated the bomb in her head, we don't have a way to be sure until and if she reacts" The doctor said.

Hours later everyone went to the cafeteria to have dinner but Beck wasn't hungry so he came back to the room and sat by Jade's side, he grabbed her hand and started playing with it like he used to while lots of tears ran down his face "I've missed you, you know?" he said and smiled at her. "You have to get better, please... "He said while playing with her lifeless hand "I remember the day we met, I thought you were the prettiest girl I had ever seen and I fell in love right away" he confessed "And do you remember our first date? I accidentally dropped water on your head and you got so mad, I thought you would never forgive me but you did after a while and then our first kiss in that abandoned park, it was magic" he said still with tears running down his cheeks but with a smile and a little laugh.

"You can't leave me alone again, I finally found you and I need you back" He informed "Please react, please" he begged crying as he kissed her hand "We still have many things to do, remember? All our plans... you have to come back because you have to become Hollywood's biggest star and travel the world, you have to come back because your parents miss you so much and you have to come back because I need you, I need you..." he said and looked at Jade's face to see if she reacted but she was still staring at the window emotionless which broke his heart once again.

That night they all stayed over, Beck slept on his chair next to the bed as always while Cat and Tori slept on the couch, Andre and Robbie had to take two other chairs and Jade's parents took the other couch. Everyone was sleeping when suddenly a huge scream woke them all, Beck even jumped off the chair and then they saw Jade sitting on the bed exalted, she was shaking her head and crying while staring into space but it seemed she was looking at someone, someone she was really afraid of.

"Jade?" Beck said and tried to reach her arm but as soon as he touched her everything got worse.

"Don't touch me" she screamed and looked at him fearful but she wasn't really looking at him and Beck knew it, the look in her eyes was enough to realize she was hallucinating "No, no, no..." she said scared and looked at everyone with the same facial expression before covering up her head "STOP, STOP, NO" She screamed.

"What's happening?" Cat questioned scared, what was happening wasn't something they were used to so they didn't know how to react, they could only hope it would end soon, Jade was on the bed screaming, shaking her head, crying and twisting her body like someone was hurting her; suddenly two nurses and a doctor rushed into the room and tried to calm her down but it wasn't an easy job.

"Jade, Jade... this is not real, this is not real, wake up!" The doctor exclaimed while holding down her hands so she wouldn't punch him, Jade was breathing heavily while looking at a person that wasn't there like when she first woke up "This is not real, Jade, wake up, wake up" the doctor insisted and when it seemed Jade was doing well she suddenly screamed again.

"NO!" She tried desperately to free her hands so she could defend herself from whatever she was seeing and ended up kicking the doctor "No, don't touch me, get away from me" she screamed again when she felt the nurses grabbing her, it was hard but they finally managed to inject her and in matter of seconds Jade fell asleep again.

"What the hell was that?" Andre questioned completely freaked out. "she was like possessed"

"That's a good sign, actually, I think she finally came back" The doctor informed "What happened is nothing but a psychotic episode of post-trauma, she must've relived some stressful event in her head and she probably also had a drug withdrawal, her body is too used to those substances so it had to react" he explained.

"So now what?" Elisa asked.

"My bet is that she'll wake up in the morning but we'll have to wait to be sure" the doctor responded.

Nobody could sleep after that, only Cat but the rest of them stayed up all night drinking coffee and talking, they wanted to make sure Jade was calm. Next morning around 11am Jade finally opened her eyes and saw the white wall; she quickly sat on the bed and looked around confused before seeing her parents and friends in the room.

"Jade!" Cat exclaimed happily because it seemed Jade had finally reacted.

"Jade, sweetheart, finally!" Elisa said and Jade stared at her confused, at first Jade didn't understand what was going on but she slowly remembered everything.

"Where am I?" Jade questioned.

"You're in a hospital" Her father responded and Jade looked down at her arms and bandages, she didn't remember what had happened, the last thing she remembered was being in front of her grave.

"How are you feeling?" Beck questioned and she immediately looked up at him but not with a smile like he was expecting her to.

"What are you doing here?" she asked upset and Beck stared at her confused. "I'm sorry... "Jade apologized with irony "I'm alive to your and my disgrace"

"What are you talking about?" Beck questioned. "We are all so happy that you're back and alive"

"Stop it" Jade responded madly. "Why don't you just do me a favor and disappear from my life?" she asked and Beck closed his eyes and sighed sadly. "Those were your words, weren't they? Well, I did... I did and I shouldn't be back" she said with tears in her eyes.

"Don't say that, please" Beck begged and Jade took a deep breath.

"I should've stayed in the lake" Jade whispered.

"What... what lake?" Tori questioned curiously.

"The lake I was supposed to die in" she simply answered. "You all thought I was dead, I even have a grave... and things should stay like that, I don't want to be here anyway, I don't know why I thought coming back was a good idea"

"No, don't say that ever, you are alive because god knows we all need you" Eric affirmed and Elisa nodded.

"GOD DOESN'T EXIST" Jade screamed at him as a tear streamed down her face "If he existed he wouldn't have let me live what I lived"

"Jade, no matter how bad it was, life is always worth it" Tori commented nicely and Jade laughed sarcastically as she wiped her tear away.

"You have no idea what it's like to be trapped and chained in a dark room for the longest time ever, just imagine not being able to see a single light for an entire year, knowing that in any second someone is going to come in, hit you, drug you, rape you and make you feel you're worth nothing, one, two or three times a day and then let you starve for a week just so they can come back and do it all over again, go through that and tell me if life is still worth it to you, it certainly is not for me" Jade said with lots of tears running down her pale cheeks and Tori looked down sadly. "You will never know how many times I wished I was dead, I prayed and prayed nonstop and I asked that god you all talk about to take me away but he never did, I'm alive, I'm here to prove that god doesn't exist"

"No, you're here to prove that he listened to me and brought you back" Beck commented and Jade shook her head.

"Shut up" Jade said upset "We both know that's not true"

"It is, I spent an entire year crying every night because I thought you were dead and because I regretted being so stupid and not telling the truth, I love you, I always have and I always will" Beck responded.

"You wanted me out of your life and I don't need you to lie out of pity, I hate the idea of you or anyone feeling pity for me" Jade commented upset "Get out"

"No, I won't get out because what I feel is not pity, it's love and a deep pain and frustration because I couldn't save you from those beasts" Beck exclaimed. "I would have done anything to save you from them, i would have died a hundred times before they could lay a hand on you"

"Just like you would have done it for Tori or Cat, I mean you would have to be a horrible person to be fine knowing a girl is being brutalized but the truth is you wanted me out of your life, maybe not like that but you did, don't even try to deny it" Jade commented.

"No, no I swear I never wanted you out of my life... I wanted you back in it, you are it" Beck informed.

"Even if that was true, it doesn't change anything, all I really want is to do is close my eyes and never open them again, why can't you understand?" Jade questioned them. "At first I thought that I wanted to survive so I could come back and things would be like before but I was wrong, nothing will ever be like before, they made sure to kill every single hope and dream I had, I'm dry... I'm empty"

"No, don't say that, you can do it, honey, life has been hell without you" Eric commented and held her hand. "You have no idea how much I've suffered, we all have... including Beck" he said and Jade pulled her hand.

"It's true, Beck's been here since we learnt you'd been kidnapped" Tori informed.

"The funny thing is nobody noticed that i disappeared until three days later" Jade commented.

"We had no idea you'd been kidnapped" Beck said.

"That's the thing, you cared because you learnt that i had been kidnapped which happened days after i left school, you didn't care the first day or the second and i bet you went to my house with everyone else the third day, not because you wanted to, am i wrong?" Jade asked and Beck looked down "Things would have been pretty different if i hadn't been kidnapped, you felt bad for me, that's why you kept going... it's not that you missed me or anything, if i had moved to New York with my mom you wouldn't have cared, that's the truth, i mean you said it yourself, you said you wouldn't care if i disappeared, don't deny it"

"I LIED, alright? I didn't want to admit that I was going crazy without you, all I wanted to do was to kiss you and hold you tight but my stupid ego didn't let me to do it and I never knew how much I truly need you until I lost you and of course i missed you, of course i would have cared if you had moved to New York but that would have been much better than knowing you were being tortured, my life turned into a nightmare since the day you left" Beck affirmed "Jade, I know I have been an asshole and I've hurt you but you need to understand that no matter how many times I tried to pretend I hated you, it was an act because you've always been here" he grabbed her hand with his J necklace and put it on his heart "See? You've never stopped being there, that's where you belong, I love you; how many times do I need to say it for you to understand? I love you; I love you, god, Jade West I LOVE YOU AND I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU" Beck affirmed and Jade was just staring at him with a few tears running down her face while her pressed her hand against his heart but then she pulled it back.

"No, no..." Jade whispered "I'm not the same person you remember and I will never be"

"Of course it does and you are you, no matter what happens" Beck said.

"You're wrong, I'm not... Jade West is dead and buried, she died a long time ago, whatever it is that I am now is just...damaged, I'd like to think I can be the same but that's impossible" Jade said.

"No, it's not, you are the same girl i fell in love with years ago" Beck affirmed and Jade sighed sadly.

"I might look like her but she is gone, I'm not the same, Beck and just so you know I've been with others..." Jade informed and Beck closed his eyes in frustration "Yes, it's true... I can only recognize four because they... saw me quite often but there were others, you have no idea what i went through" she said expecting Beck to step back.

"You were kidnapped; it wasn't your fault... Jade, you're only a victim and I don't see how that would affect me, I love you for YOU, you're much more than your body, I don't care if you have been with one, two, ten or a hundred other men, you were forced to, please understand IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT" Beck explained and Jade stared at him trying to hold the tears back but at the end she couldn't do it, she broke into tears and covered her face while crying her eyes out.

Beck couldn't resist seeing her like that, it was true, Jade was nothing like the girl he remembered, she seemed so vulnerable and sad but it was still her and that was enough for him to love her as much as before or even more, he hugged her and Jade immediately hugged him back while she cried "It's okay, it's going to be okay..." he said and kissed her head, Jade cried into his embrace for about ten minutes and when she finally calmed down she broke the hug to wipe the tears away. "Better?" he asked with a sweet smile.

"Beck, we are not going to be together, I'm not good for you or for anyone" Jade said sincerely, once again proving Beck's theory, her self esteem was extremely low, the old Jade would have never said she wasn't good for a person. "Listen; no matter how much you try to help me, I can't do this... I thought I would but I can't" she stopped to take a breath and continued "I'm-I'm not gonna be here for a long time... I can't do it, really even if I tried I know I'm going to end up killing myself at some point and-"

"Don't, don't even say that" Beck ordered "You're not going to do anything but be happy for the rest of your life"

"You don't understand!" Jade exclaimed "You'd have to be in my place to understand, there comes a point when anything would be better than having to live with the nightmares, the memories and the shame"

"No, Jade, you have nothing to be ashamed of, it's them... they should be ashamed but not you, you're going to be okay, we both will get through this together, I'm gonna be by your side the whole time and I swear this will be only a bad experience soon, I bet my life on it!" Beck affirmed "Please promise me you won't do anything, please" he demanded but Jade remained quiet and looked down. "Jade... please"

"I can't promise anything to anyone" Jade admitted and Beck sighed sadly "But I'll try... I will try if that's enough" she said.

"You won't have time to do anything because I'm gonna stick by your side every minute of the day" Beck informed.

"Are you sure that you love me? Cause you're not forced to be here" Jade commented.

"Of course I am and it's a pleasure for me to be here" Beck answered and hugged her again, everyone else in the room was just smiling at them, they all knew that Beck and Jade loved each other and now that Jade was back, it was fair that they finally got back together.

"Welcome back"

Bade is back together yay

However, the story is not over yet... ;)

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