Confrontation

Seeing that his suspicions were correct, he found Rose in the kitchen, an empty pack on Swiss roll in the bin, an open tin of custard on the unit, spoon at the ready as the bowl swirled in the microwave as she waited for her only comfort food to heat. Quietly, he walked up to the table and sat down, watching as she balled her fists, which was rare. A long few moments passed, the only the noise was the humming from the microwave. What if she wanted to leave? It wouldn't surprise him if she turned around and said she wanted to be dropped off at the Powell Estate, not looking back and ordering him to leave. She could play silent treatment all she wanted, but they needed to talk. "Rose-" he started, but she cut him off quickly.

"Why her?" she eyed him viciously. Taking her question the wrong way, he replied, "We'll probably never know. There was massive damage to the computer memory base. Probably got confused."

"No," Rose huffed. "I mean, why her?" The microwave stopped humming, a ping filling the kitchen as she turned to face him. "Why her? You chose her over me and Mickey... you chose her over me," she looked down as her fists, which were getting tighter, he nails digging into her palms. Feeling the tears- no. She couldn't cry now. She wouldn't. Taking a breath, she continued, "What happened to never leaving me behind? You said you'd never leave me. Let alone for someone else."

"I didn't leave you for her," the Doctor denied immediatly.

Rose gave a bitter laugh, giving him an icy stare. "You knew there'd be no way back," she hissed at him. "You knew it was a dead end, but you carried right on. You could have used the TARDIS. Programmed her to meet you somewhere or somethin'. It worked when you sent me an' Eliza back home. But that didn't even occur to you, did it? While me an' Mickey were on those metal tables, you were dancing with her, Doctor. Without a second thought, you went through that Window believing there'd be no way back." The more Rose talked, the angrier she got. She was hoping it would be the other way round, that she wouldn't be as angry after she'd got most of it off her chest. "Do you know how long I stood there hoping I'd seen wrong? That you'd come back through it and say everything was done and dusted? When you did come back, I was relieved. But then you go to invite her along. What happened to her being part of events?"

"I'd bring her back the same day I took her," the Doctor defended.

"Oh, like you did with me?" Rose spat sceptically. "I missed a year, Doctor. A whole year when you said I'd only be gone twelve hours. A month ago, we skipped a hundred years, and you didn't get it right in Cardiff, neither." The Doctor looked sheepishly around the kitchen, looking anywhere but at her. She didn't believe him, who would? His actions had spoken for him. No wonder she thought he was in love with Madame de Pompadour.

Leaving the bowl in the microwave, Rose sighed frustratingly, making to go through the door, stopping right by his side. "If you didn't want me, you should have told me in the first place."

As she moved for the door, the Doctor's arms snapped up, taking its place on door frame firmly, stopping her from leaving. He gave her an even stare before standing up, Rose backing off until she hit the wall. Trying to remain calm, Rose reflected his stare as he approached her. "You have no idea what I risked when I went through that Window, no idea what I thought I'd lost. Anything could have happened if they'd brought her back to their ship. History could have been completely re-written. That's why I went." The Doctor pressed his forehead on the wall, right next to hers. "I was miserable when it'd ended. I was there for an hour, looking up at the stars, wondering which one you were closest to… on that stupid ship which I'd left you on. Rose, I promise you, I'd have never done it if it weren't for a good reason. And even then, I'd find my way back to you, help from anyone or not." There was a long silence, hardly awkward, but far from comfortable. Placing his hands on the wall beside Rose's stomach, he sighed inwardly. "I'm sorry, Rose. I'm so, so sorry. It won't happen again, I promise." The Doctor shivered as her breath tickled his neck. Only then did he realise how close they were.

A few seconds later, Rose placed her forehead on his shoulder gently, quickly encircling her arms around his waist, fisting some of his coat in her hands as she held onto him tighter. The Doctor placed his head on her own shoulder, breathing in her scent as he basked in the fact that, at least for now, he was forgiven. It was like a whole load had been taking off his shoulders. Muttering his continuous apologies into her neck, giving it a kiss from time to time, she slid her hand up, resting it in his hair. They stood like this for a long while, both waiting for the other to do something. Eventually, it was Rose. Taking his hands from around her, she took one of his hands in hers as she placed a light kiss on his cheek, ignoring the abandoned microwave which held her comfort food, nice, warm and toasty from the heat.

She took him to the Media Room, telling him to sit down as she grabbed a bag of popcorn, the TARDIS warming the bag quickly. Laying down with the Doctor on the sofa, she placed the bowl just above her head, snuggling into his chest as the TV came on. Pressing play on the remote, they watched whatever film that was in the DVD player, which was a Harry Potter film.

Rose was dozing by the time the film had ended, but truthfully, she wasn't really paying that much attention to the movie anyway. The main thing she did was listen to the rhythmic beat of his duo hearts, one ear pressed against one, a hand pressed against the other.

The credits ran, the popcorn bowl empty, the two were still on the sofa, enjoying the others presence as much as they could. The Doctor didn't understand. Rose should hate his guts right now, begging him to take her home while screaming she never wanted to see him again. And yet, she was scrawled up in his arms, himself taking in the smell of her hair. He decided not to think on it too much, dreading the thought that one day that might actually happen, and instead listened to her steady breathing.

"What are we, Doctor?" Rose asked eventually, the drowsiness of sleep dripping from her voice. The Doctor didn't really know how to answer that question. He knew what he wanted to say, and knew what she wanted to hear. But to spare himself further pain for the future, he had to say the exact opposite. That they were friends. Really close friends that travelled together throughout time and space. The Doctor shook his head, and held her tighter. "We're us," he replied quietly. Pressing a kiss to her hairline, he repeated, "We're us."

Sighing happily, Rose smiled. She knew what he meant, crystal clear. Snuggling closer into his chest, she nodded, the darkness of sleep finally taking her away. The Doctor held her tighter as she slept. He didn't know what would happen next, and that terrified him. He always knew what was coming. But he was tired. Tired of rules he'd set up for himself, tired of everything. All he could really concentrate on at that time was the beautiful young woman lying asleep in his arms, her full lips parting as she exhaled…

A.N: Oh, God! Sorry for the long update. Been a busy few months. Even though I'm a few weeks late… the 50th anniversary, wow…

Now, everything that is said/written is completely my opinion. I think it wasn't very good. It wasn't terrible, but defiantly not one that I'd regard even being close to one of my favourites. There were a load of issues with the special, such as freezing Gallifrey, I'll get to that in a minute. But seriously, Moffat, what was with all the kissing? Sure, now we know why Elizabeth seems to hate the Doctor in season 3, but seriously, 10 got enough of that during season 2, 3 and 4. And I was happy to see the return of Bad Wolf, but when 10 hears the name, he seems really excited for a moment, and then just lets it go. That was one of the major issues for me. He just forgets in a matter of two seconds that Rose Tyler, who was meant to be in a Parallel Universe at the time, may or may not be there (Also the word Bad Wolf meant the end of the Universe, but for some reason that didn't matter). I know a lot of people were disappointed that neither 10 nor 11 saw her, but I sort of understand why they didn't. It would probably cause the 10th Doctor to be really unhappy to know it wasn't actually her. I liked when the 13 Doctors made an appearance, but it was completely altering parts of previous stories, making them practically non-existent. Moffat is basically sticking his middle fingers up at previous Doctor Who writers and saying, "Fuck what you guys did, it's my show now, I'll do what I want." He's changing a few things that happened and I'm not okay with that. For example, Time Locking Gallifrey. Now, don't get me wrong, I thought that adding all 13 Doctor to the mix and freezing the planet rather than burning it was an epic idea, but again, it's altering what other people have written. Also, it makes me feel really bad for the Doctor after he believed he burnt his own planet. He became a broken war hero, went through all that grief and misery for jack shit. Although, that does bring up the question, what incarnation is Peter Capaldi (again, Moffat is fucking with what other people have written)? With John Hurt in the mix, that makes Eccleston the 10th Doctor, Tennant the 11th Doctor and Smith the 12th, which makes Capaldi the 13th… which means that Doctor Who might be ending very soon. However, Moffat did explain in an interview that he hoped Doctor Who would reach its 100th anniversary (sorry I keep mentioning this… BUT AGAIN he's completely ignoring what the brilliant master minds have written and is probably going to make his own rules up), but what do you guys think?

Rant over.

Now, if you have any angry comments towards my because of my opinion, then go right ahead, people have done it before and I have a feeling they'll do it again. But do remember the important key word: Opinion. This rant was in no way an effort to change anyone's mind about the Special, so please don't leave reviews or send me PMs trying to change mine. But really, what did you guys think of it?

Also, it might be a while longer before I update again. Apologies.