Chapter 10: thinking and breaking.

Rose Weasley sat at her window staring out into the night. There wasn't much to see, it was pitch black and the only light came from the moon. She wasn't even really looking at anything, just staring. Not that she was taking in the sight; she was too busy lost within her own thoughts.

She was thinking about her parents. She missed them more than words could say. After seeing them again today she knew that she wanted to go home. She had also thought about this earlier on the beach.

'Should I go back? Should I contact them? But I am afraid of what might happen. They know that they have a granddaughter, soon more grandchildren', she thought laying a hand on her stomach. These same thoughts had been playing round and round in her head for the last few hours now. She couldn't sleep because of the guilty feeling that was slowly eating away at her conscience. The desperate look in her mother's eyes had haunted her all day.

The person she missed most however isn't either of her parents, but her brother. Yes they had had disagreements in the past but she could never think of leaving him behind. The image of her sad, lonely brother popped into her mind adding to her guilt.

'What a great birthday,' she thought bitterly.

She got a sudden crave for toast and oranges. 'Well I guess pregnancy has its perks,' she thought as she made her way down stairs. She walked into the kitchen turning the light on and began hunting for the bread. She popped four slices in the toaster and turned it on. She then grabbed an orange and started peeling absent mindedly.

'What is wrong with me? Wasn't I just saying yesterday how much I wanted to see my family again? Especially Hugo, I miss him so much, Kimberly too. Why did I run again? Now I really regret it. All I wanted was for them to except my decision to be with Scorpius, now they obviously do because they came looking, not only that but they were working with Natalie Malfoy! That must mean that they want us back', she thought to herself.

Just then the toast popped out the toaster bringing her out of her thought train. She got up and buttered the toast. She sat back down and ate the slices one after the other while her guilt and regret increased.

By two o'clock she was feeling really guilty. She decided that enough was enough. She would get in touch with her brother. If he didn't want to speak to her then faire enough, she couldn't really blame him. At least she would know that she had tried to make amends.

She began to write him a letter;

Hugo,

Its Rose, I'm really really sorry about running off the way I did but I want you to know that I had to because of dad…

She scrumpled the paper up and threw it in the bin. This was going to be harder than she thought. After another hour she was getting very frustrated.

She took a deep breath and started again;

Hugo,

Hey, its Rose. I don't know if you knew but mum and dad tried to find me yesterday. I avoided them and ran away again, I feel so bad now, so guilty its just eating me up inside. I couldn't bare it anymore, the reason I have contacted you is because I miss you so much. The person who I feel worst for is you and Kimberly; I was closer to you guys than anyone, even Al.

I'm so sorry that I ran away, in a way I hate myself for it because I know that I hurt the family doing so and I know that I hurt you because you had no idea what was going on, probably the rest of the family don't either. In another way I am extremely happy that I did. I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful daughter. I am also expecting twins in June.

You probably want an explanation of why I ran away. I have decided that I should give you one because you deserve it. So here goes; Scorpius Malfoy and I started dating on my birthday, three years ago yesterday, as you know we were very good friends up until that point. I loved him with all my heart and he had made me happier than I had ever been. When he asked me to marry him I was over the moon but after I told dad he went mental. He told me that he never wanted our families joined together and the only way I would do so was over his dead body. I got so upset that I stormed out of the house to go see him. He told me that he had been kicked out by his father. I hated seeing him so alone so when he asked me to go to Spain with him I did. At that moment I wanted to hurt dad the way he had hurt me. I didn't think twice about it. Then I started to miss the little things that I always took for granted, and I wanted to come home. However, I had walked through a one way door.

Then today mum and dad showed up with Scorpius's mum and I felt so guilty and regretful about leaving you all but I couldn't face them. I started thinking and realised how much I missed you all but especially you and Kimberly. I want you to know that I love you so much Hugo, don't you ever forget that. I hope that you can forgive me for what I have done and write back as soon as possible.

Love Rosie xxx

P.S. please don't show this to anyone else, but give my love to Kimberly for me.

Rose finished the letter a little after four o'clock. She took her owl out of her cage and attached the letter to it. Then she realised that she had no idea where Hugo lived. She suspected that it was not far from home but he could have a serious girlfriend by now, maybe even a wife. She could put her trust into her owl to find him though.

"Take this to Hugo, don't let anyone else see it," she whispered while opening the window. She watched to owl take flight and fly into the sunrise. She kept watching the sun rising for half an hour. Then she felt a pair of long muscley arms wrap around her waist.

"Beautiful sunrise isn't it?" Scorpius whispered into her ear, making her smile. All her worry and doubt was gone from one simple gesture.

"Humm, yes it is but who wants to watch that when we have each other?" she asked playfully.

"Well when you put it like that…" he said scooping he up into his arms. "Your chamber awaits you my lady."

Rose laughed and allowed him to take her up to their bedroom where they spent the next few hours together.

okay for those of you who thought that this neeeded mor emotional depth how did i do?

i would also like to thank everyone who has reviewed so far thanx a bunch : ) but i am still expecting some more cause i have 32 people on the alert list so i want at least half of you to review please? this is different to my other chapters and i want to know how i am at writing emotion down cause i havent been so good at it and i need to know if i have improved or not!