A/N:Hi I have another song for you. This is Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis.
Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious or the song.
Bleeding Love
Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain. Love never last, I've seen it with my friends, their relationships last a matter of weeks. I've seen it with my parents, they were married for 18 years and it didn't last. I've also seen it with myself, I don't know if it was love but it was the closest thing I've ever felt to it. Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain. The other guys weren't in love with me though, it was all for show. The first guy was the one of the popular guys in school. He was my first crush. I was head over heels for him but he was only dating me because he needed a better grade and I was smart…guess I wasn't smart enough to see through his game. The second guy I dated was one of my friends, I truly cared about him but he was only dating me to become more popular, not that I was really all that popular but I was more popular than him. After all that I decided love wasn't real. Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen. My heart was frozen, I wouldn't let anyone in, I couldn't let anyone in.
I needed a change. I changed high schools. I wanted to go to Hollywood Arts. I needed to change my look and personality. All black clothes seem to be fitting with my new mean girl attitude. I didn't want any guy getting remotely close to me. Four months into the new school year and my plan was working. No guys dared to ask me out and the ones that were stupid enough to….let's just say they wont even look in my direction.
My best friend Cat, she loves to make new friends. Why am I even friends with her? Oh yeah she is the only one that excepts me for me and I do love her. She made friends with this puppet boy nerd, who is friends with this dude with awesome dread locks and….you.
But something happened for the very first time with you, I wasn't sure what it was at first, it wasn't something I've ever felt before. It was like my heart melted to the ground. I think this is what love feels like, I think I found something true, there is something inside me screaming to trust you and no matter how hard I try not to, I do trust you and everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say, I never did to begin with. I'm in love with you. No, no I can't be, this wasn't suppose to happen. My friends, they try to pull me away because they know this isn't want I wanted. They don't think this is good for me but they don't know the truth. The truth is I'm in love with you but I can't act on it because my heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. I can't love anyone. But you cut me open and I
Keep bleeding, keep bleeding love. Ugh I can't feel this way but you cut me open…I can't fight it anymore.
I hear them, my friends, even the skank girls that are all over you. I'm trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud. They tell me you're a player, that this isn't what I want. Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt. The skanks are trying to act like my friends and tell me you're no good for me yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling, so they can have you but I really don't think they would have a chance either way.
Sometimes their words get to me but nothings greater than the rush that comes with your embrace. You make me feel as though I can fly. It's like when I'm around you I'm running on pure adrenaline. Everything has been so dark in my life for so long and in this world of loneliness I see your face, and it give a new light to my life and to me. Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy…maybe I am, maybe I like it.
Three years together, three wonderful years. Yeah we had our problems but what couple doesn't. But you broke up with me and it's draining all of me. Our friends oh, they find it hard to believe that we aren't together anymore. They were able to see you made me a better person. They were able to see that I loved (still do) you with everything I had. But I guess that wasn't enough…I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see because after months of hiding it and pretending everything was fine, I just can't do it anymore. It's killing me because I keep bleeding love for you and I always will.