Love in Chains

Chapter 10

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I was pathetic. I was cradling myself in a bath tub full of darkened, cold, soapy water listening to pandora radio play it's best playlist for me. I wasn't sure how long I had been there, or what I was thinking about. I was numb, and numb was good, especially when I've been an emotional wreck for two weeks.

Naraku called me everyday, I ignored most of the calls or turned my phone off when my heart began to tear, sometimes I would pick up and listen to him ask if I was there; I always stop myself from speaking. I've called him twice, but again, I stopped myself from speaking.

I was confused, torn, and extremely unhappy.

I decided it was a good time to get out when pandora asked me if I was still listening.

After my bath I laid in bed, trying not to think. My phone went off but it wasn't Naraku, it was Sesshomaru asking if I wanted to hang out tomorrow. I didn't really feel like going out but he convinced me of it, saying it would be fun.

Fun was good, fun was a distraction.

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Naraku-

I was an emotional wreck.

I spent my school day fuming with anger, my temper was worse than it ever had been, I was constantly on edge. In between classes I hunted for Kagome, wishing for a chance to talk to her. Every time I've found her, she was with Inuyasha or Sesshomaru; they act as her bodyguards.

Inuyahsa will give Kagome a nervous look when he sees me, causing her to quickly walk with him into a classroom without looking over her shoulder. The boy is afraid of me, as he should be.

Sesshomaru however has began to build a rage in me. He spends a lot of time with my Kagome, and when he sees me when he's with her, he dares to give me a threatening look. I worry that something is going on between them, I would never be able to handle Kagome being with someone else, especially a Tashio.

I return home everyday to be overcome with depression, I don't care to do anything. My head is constantly filled with questions and painful memories.

Kagome's sweet scent has left my room, my bed, I missed it desperately; it gave me such comfort.

I knew Kagome still loved me, how can something so powerful die so quickly? Even so, I knew she was struggling, she has convinced herself that I'm the bad guy. I'm sure everyone has convinced her of that.

However she can say whatever or act however she pleases, I'm not buying it. She cares just as much as I do, I'll just have to remind her.

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"Man, I have no idea what to get Sango for our one year anniversary, it has to be special right?" Miroku sighed as we walked around the mall aimlessly.

Miroku had asked me if I wanted to hang out with him today while he tried to find the "perfect" gift for Sango.

I agreed to it, although I didn't care to. However I knew that if I remained too distant from my friends, they would know I was taking the break up hard. I didn't want their pity.

"What do you think I should get her Naraku? I've never been in a relationship this long, apparently it's a big deal." He chatted, sounding helpless.

I sighed, "A mushy sentimental card, a giant stuffed animal, jewelry, chocolate, things that smell nice. Chick stuff dude, it's not that complicated." I told him in my masking monotone voice.

"But she'll be expecting something like that, what would you get if it was for Kagome?" He blurted out, obviously not thinking before speaking.

My heart cracked as my mind flooded with ideas of what I would get her for our one year.

"Shit, I'm sorry man, I forgot about-" He started before I cut him off.

"Just make her something." I told him.

"What?" He asked.

"Something that you can't buy that sums up your year of dating. Do you have pictures together that aren't posted on Facebook?" I inquired.

Miroku thought for a minute, "Oh yeah, I have a ton on my Mac." He said with a large hint of excitement in his voice.

"Print them off and put them on a thick sheet of cardboard so she can put it up on her wall." I instructed as I lead him away from the Hallmark store and towards the exit.

"And she'll really like it?" Miroku asked anxiously.

I sighed and rolled my eyes, "It's cheesy and sentimental, of course she will dumb ass."

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I spent the rest of my day with Miroku as he purchased all of the things he needed in order to make this cheesy gift happen.

After bland take out, Miroku and I went back to his home. I laid down on his couch listening to his stereo as he carefully cut and overlapped the pictures together on the cardboard.

"So man..." Miroku started hesitantly, "How have you been since the Tashio party?" He asked.

I swallowed and thought for a moment, "I'm fine." I lied.

"I mean, you can talk to me about it if you ne-" He started before I cut him off once again today.

"I'm fucking fine, I'm just really pissed at those damn Tashio brothers." I spat angrily.

Miroku was silent for a moment, "I haven't heard the whole story about what happened between you and Inuyasha but I think Sessh is a real dick for seeing Kagome after you guys just broke up two weeks ago." Miroku said, causeing my eyes to burn with sudden anger.

I sat up and glared at him, "What?"

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