Hey! i'm so sorry that this took so long, i just had some really bad writers block with this! the next chapter will most likely be the last one! thanks to everyone who has read this! without further or due... here goes chapter 10... wow :)
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"Logan! Guys?" Katie yelled. She knew that if she was going to help her brother she would need to have everyone here with him.
Logan came rushing into the room with Carlos and James close behind him.
"What's wrong Katie? Is everything okay?" Carlos asked her.
"I don't know, ask him." She said gesturing to Kendall.
Logan looked at his friend who had his head down in shame, but Logan couldn't see what he could possibly be ashamed of.
"What's wrong Kendall?" Logan begged "And don't even try to give us any of that 'I'm fine.' crap because it won't work."
"If I knew what was wrong I would tell you," Kendall said coldly "But I don't…"
"How could you not know?" James asked confused "There has to be a reason your so depre-." He got cut off.
"You don't think I realized that, James!" He snapped "I don't know how to control it! It's like someone or something is out to get to me, and all they want is to ruin my life. All day long I keep hearing this voice in the back of my head saying that…" Kendall trailed off from his angry rant.
"Saying what, Kendall?" Carlos asked.
"Saying how much you guys hate me… it tells me I'm worthless and that nobody cares. The awful is that I started to believe it after a while. At first I tried using music to drown it out… but the voice just kept getting louder and louder. Now it never leaves, even when I'm sleeping, the one time when I thought I could forget everything for a little while." Kendall let a stray tear fall down his face.
"There's so much pain inside, I don't know how to not notice it. I just want it all to stop."
"Kendall we could never hate you," James said. "And you know what? That little voice inside your head needs to freaking piss off."
Kendall let out a small chuckle.
"Dude, he's not kidding." Carlos told him "I don't care what it takes; we're going to get that voice to shut up!"
"How could you let it convince you that all of us, especially me, hate you?" Katie asked reminding everyone that she was still there.
"The mind is tricky thing, baby sister." Kendall muttered so quietly only she heard him. He wrapped an arm around her shoulders.
"So now what?" James asked "I mean we can't let this thing control you, it's only going to ruin you inside as person until you go of-." Kendall cut him off abruptly
"Okay, first of all. The thought of suicide never even crossed my mind, plus I'm smart enough to know that that won't solve my problems." He said looking James directly in the eye. "Secondly, this 'thing' already has ruined me… wow."
"What?" Logan questioned.
"I never thought I would say that… ever. It sounds worse out loud then instead of in my head."
"It's like you said, the mind is a tricky thing." Carlos told him proving him wrong.
Kendall smiled.
"I love you guys, you know that?" he told them, sarcasm practically dripping out of his mouth
"I think we've heard it before." Logan told him.
Katie looked at her brother, then at his friends, then to her brother again.
"Oh just hug them already." She told him.
Kendall did as he was told and stood with open arms towards his friends. They accepted the gesture and squeezed him tight.
"Can't… breathe." He gasped. The guys immediately let go of their blonde friend.
Kendall stretched his arms out and let a giant yawn escape from his mouth.
"Tired much?" James chuckled.
"No, I like yawning just because it's fun." He said with even more sarcasm then before. "I'm exhausted."
"That makes two of us; hey at least you can leave tomorrow."
"Then I get to go to work… with Gustavo… Yay."
"Okay, you know what?" Carlos said "We'll deal with Gustavo. You, my friend, need to focus on getting completely healed."
"Thanks, Carlitos."
"Don't mention it." He said.
Kendall looked at all of his friends confusingly.
"What are you all still doing here? Go home. I mean that in the nicest way possible, I promise."
"It's okay, we want to stay." James told him
"You guys can't be serious? I know for a fact that these hospital beds may just be the most uncomfortable thing ever, and plus, you guys really need to take a shower." He said to them, waving his hand in front of his face.
"Fine, we'll go home!" Logan exclaimed "Let's go Katie." He said turning for the door.
"Katie gets to stay. I'm going to need someone to talk to."
"Fair enough," Logan said with a shrug "Later."
"Bye guys." Kendall told his friends as they left.
"Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yes Katie, I'm fine."
"Good, I'm glad you're okay again." She said leaving to go to the bathroom.
'Yeah,' Kendall said to himself smiling. 'Me too baby sister.'
Hope y'all enjoyed that! please review! peace love and :) ~B