Train

by xNewtx

"He was so mean to me, and I didn't even realize what was happening until the last second—it was like a train slamming into my chest at full force, shattering my heart on impact and scattering useless emotions everywhere." Takes place a week or so after Thomas's arrival in the first book, but time is weird and Teresa comes in a lot later. Newt and OC relationship :)

10. Hate and Love

I was wide awake somewhere around 2 A.M., and that's when I realized.

What I said was a lie.

I didn't hate him.

I couldn't hate him.

He could ignore me, or continue to insult me, or freaking murder everyone I cared about.

But I'd still love him.

Not him, as in, present him.

No, I love the old Newt, the "knight in shining armor" Newt.

I love the "protector" Newt, the "comforting" Newt, the "guardian" Newt.

No matter what he did, or what I did, that feeling would never leave me. I knew it.

Because whenever I cried about Newt, the only person I wanted to hold me was Newt.

When I wanted to beat Newt to the ground for being an idiot, I wanted Newt to be my partner in crime.

It was a terrible love, a forbidden love, a "Romeo and Juliet" love.

But it was love just the same.

And I couldn't help but wonder, if maybe, just maybe.

His was love too, just misunderstood.

Hate and love aren't really that different, after all.

Hate and love, they cure each other.