Hey guys,

I know it's been an awful long time since the last chapter and I really hope that anyone is going to read this one. I really was having a bad writer's block until a few days ago I had a new idea what to write more, so here it comes.

Here is the promised summary for every one who hasn't read the last chapter due to my warning:

James and Lily were having a "Welcome-back-Party" with Remus, Sirius, Albus Dumbledore and Minerva McGonagall. Everything was fine until James found out about the torturing of Frank and Alice Longbottom. He got a little mad at Lily for not telling him. In the following night James was dreaming about a very horrific moment during his captivity and Lily was softly rocking him to sleep.

So, that was it. Now comes the new chapter. Yet be warned, the is a sex-scene coming up, even though you won't notice since I'm not really that awesome on writing THOSE scenes. I'm better imageing those though! ;)

Now here comes the new chapter:

Chapter 9

Reality drifted slowly into James dreamless slumber. He could feel the sun on his face and hear birds singing their songs in the trees outside. The house was quiet, he couldn't hear Lily or Harry anywhere.

Fear gripped his heart tightly. What if something happened to them and he didn't wake up to help them? To defend his family against all evil? He hadn't done it once and this thought still teared up his heart. All these years ago he hadn't been able to defend what he believed to be his. His wife, his son and - not to forget – his home.

James jumped out of his bed, grabbed for his pants laying on the floor and while stepping towards the closed door he checked for his wand to be in his back pocket. It was there.

Silently he opened the bedroom door to peak into the hall. There, he heard them – voices whispering in the living room. And, to James' great relief, he heard the small voice of Harry, playing with his new wand he had gotten from Dumbledore yesterday.

Was it yesterday? Or was it the day before yesterday? Ever since he'd returned from where the Death Eaters had held him captive, he had lost the feeling of time. He couldn't say how long it took an hour to pass neither how long a day lasted. Yes, 24 hours, but he wasn't able to feel it actually anymore. James knew from his auror training that this was normal for captives but to know it and to be the one who had to deal with it where two separate shoes.

James returned to the bedroom and retrieved a black shirt from his closet. Now, that he knew everything was okay and his family safe, he thought that entering the living room without a shirt would not be the wisest. He wanted nobody but Lily and his respective healers to see the scars on his former well toned chest. He knew that they scared Lily as they where symbolic for his inner scars, the ones on his soul.

When James entered the living room the talking stopped and all heads turned into his direction. Harry stood up from the place on the floor he had been sitting on and ran to him.

"Daddy! Daddy!" James took Harry in his arms and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Hey there, little one! How was your sleep?" All the while James couldn't get rid of the smile on his face. He absolutely loved his adorable son who looked so much like him. James could only guess how much it must have hurt Lily to look at their son every day reminding her strongly of her lost husband. He loved her the more for it.

"Good. I dreamed of flying on broom, dad!" His green orbs sparkled saying that.

"Well, if your mother allows it, I could take you for a ride on a real broom. How does that sound?" James asked, knowing the answer already. Harry was his son after all.

"Mommy! Mommy! Dad is going to let me fly on a real broom!" With that Harry started to wiggle and James let him down on the ground. Than he took a closer look on the persons sitting on the sofa in his living room.

There was Lily, of course, sitting on the sofa. Next to her sat – to his big surprise – his former boss, Alastor "Mad-Eye" Moody. In the seat across the couch he saw Albus Dumbledore.

Now that Harry was playing in his corner again, Lily stepped up to James and gave him a short kiss on his lips.

"How did you sleep?" In her green eyes he saw her concern and James knew how Lily really meant this question.

"Good." James reassured her. He didn't want Lily to press the matter and it seemed that his answer was enough for her. But James knew Lily too well to know that she would ask him later about his nightmare. James could feel that the time had come to slowly tell Lily about his torture. James just wasn't sure if he was ready himself to open up to her fully. But he would think about that when the time came.

"I'll get you some breakfast, okay?" he heard Lily mutter.

"Thanks, honey!" He gave he another kiss before Lily went into the kitchen and James to the couch to see what his former boss and his former headmaster want.

"Dumbledore, Moody" James said while sitting down on Lily's spot on the couch looking at each while saying their names.

"You're looking way better than you did the last time I saw you, Potter." Moody said, his glass eye focusing me.

"Yeah, I'm also feeling way better than the last time you saw me. Being home again does have an effect on me, I guess." James said with a small smile.

"James, we're here to talk to you. When we arrived, you were sound asleep and Lily asked us to let you sleep in." Dumbledore said, smiling at James.

"Thanks. But now that I'm awake and I already can smell the pancakes my lovely wife is preparing for me, you can tell me why you are here."

"Potter, we need you back in the department. There are some attacks going on but nothing too serious. What we need you for is the training of the trainees." Moody said, taking a side glance at Dumbledore.

James could see that there was something on Albus' mind but didn't say anything.

"What is it, Albus?" James asked for his opinion.

"I think that Moody's offer comes too early. You still need to get used to your new life and get things settled. We don't want to rush you, it is just an offer. You know that this offer does never end."

"Thank you, Albus. And thanks to you too, Moody. What exactly do you think I could teach?" James asked, aiming that question at Moody directly.

"Mainly tactics."

In that moment Lily entered the living room with a plate full of pancakes and a pot of hot coffee. She placed that all in front of James and sat down next to him.

"Thanks, dear." James said, smiling warmly at her.

"You're welcome." Lily answered, kissing him on the cheek.

James knew that Lily has already been informed about the working offer. He could see in her eyes that Lily was having some doubts but didn't voice them out loud. But it was her opinion James was needing to make a final decision. Mainly because it would effect them both if he would return to doing what he was best at: being an auror. James just wasn't sure about the teaching thing.

"Lily, what do you think?" James asked her, which made her smile at him. Asking for her opinion showed Lily how important it was for him.

"Well, I think this would be great thing to do. You could do what you're so good at and still would have time to recover. Plus you wouldn't have to fight in the front line. But I personally think that it might be too early. People will ask you what happened. They would want to know everything. I don't know if you're ready for this already. But that's my personal opinion, it is up to you to decide." Lily voiced her concern looking in James eyes to read if he would get mad at her or not.

But James stayed calm, running a hand through his tousled brown hair. Oh, how much Lily had missed that gesture.

"Albus?" James asked his former headmaster and head of the Order of the Phoenix.

"I'm afraid I have to tell you that I think Lily might be right. I think you're not ready for this now."

Moody made a sound of disapproving but didn't say anything.

"So, you both are saying that I should wait a little longer before returning to my job, is that correct?" James asked, looking at Albus and Lily.

Both nodded their heads.

"Potter, how about I give you a week to think this through properly and talk about it with Lily. Than you can tell me about your decision." Moody said, looking into the round.

"That sounds good to me." James answered, relieved that he would have more time to thing about this.

"Well, I have to return to school. There's some business I have to attend to. But you two know that you can step by whenever you feel the need to." Albus said, nodding at everyone before disappearing into nothingness.

"I hope to hear your answer in a week, Potter." Moody grumbled and also vanished into thin air.

Little Harry still was playing on the ground, totally being absorbed into his play with the wand.

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It was evening again and Lily and James where sitting in the living room with a glass of wine each and just enjoying to be united again. Little Harry was laying in his bed already sound asleep.

James had embraced Lily tightly and was kissing Lily's neck softly. Lily had her hands in James hair, enjoying the feeling of the silky strands of the always tussled looking hair.

James' hair had been the first feature that drew her to him though she used to despise him back than. They were staring into each others eyes, knowing everything without saying anything.

"Lils, may I ask you a question?" James asked his wife with a small smile returning to his former doing of trailing small kisses on her neck.

"Yeah, go ahead." Lily answered trying to pull his head up to hers to get a kiss.

"Why don't you think that I am ready to go working again?" he asked, finally looking up to her but only to look in her eyes.

Lily sat back up when he had asked her and took a sip of her wine before she answered his question. "Well, I think that because I'm afraid what all these questions, people are going to ask you about that time, might have an effect on you. I'm a little scared that this could all get too much for you and I don't know what will happen then, you know?"

Her hand was stroking his cheek softly.

"And what if I could handle it? Let's say, that I might get through the staring and asking questions, would you be okay with me working again?" James asked, placing a small kiss in her palm.

"Yes, I do not have a problem with you working again. As long as you will not fight again because that would be something I would have a problem with. I don't want you to fight again in a real battle."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to loose you again. I could not bear it and I know that Harry won't either now that he had finally gotten to know the daddy he's just known from pictures."

A small tear escaped her wonderful green eyes and slowly slid down her cheek. James softly whisked it away with this thumb, taking her head in his hands. He stared at her lovingly, placing a soft kiss on her delicious lips.

"I can not imagine what you must have gone through all these years. But I promise, that I will never do anything that could get me in danger again. Please, don't be afraid of losing me again, Lily." James said, kissing her again.

"I will always be afraid of losing you, no matter what." Lily said matter-of-factly. "I've already experienced what it feels like living without you and I am not eager to do that again. Just promise me not to return to combat. Stay with teaching, please.", she begged.

"I can promise you that, flower." James said looking into her wonderful shining eyes. He had always loved those because he could read in those green orbs like in a book. They would give Lily's soul away.

Slowly he lowered his lips again to hers, this time with little more force. James lowered his back against the arm rest of the couch, Lily lying on top if him. His hands wandered under the hem of her shirt, trailing up and down her back. Hers were also exploring, running up and down his sides. A soft moan escaped his lips as the kiss deepened.

When Lily softly tugged on his shirt James sat up a bit so she could pull it over his head which left him with a bare chest. Every time Lily saw his scars he felt the fear. Fear that she might get scared of his scars filled chest and run off. But each time she didn't react the way he almost expected Lily to do he was relieved. It showed that a few scars didn't scare his wife off. James was happy that Lily didn't seem to mind these reminders of his past at all.

Feeling his fear Lily slowly trailed small soft kisses on each of the visible scars. With each kissed she aroused him even more and when he tried to move, Lily looked up to him and asked in a soft and caring voice.

"Did I hurt you?"

"No, not at all.", James smiled up at her, "I just don't know how you would react seeing these scars again and again."

"I only wish I could make them disappear but even with my healing powers I know this will never be possible. I just can heal wounds but no scars." Lily said sadly. Her hands slowly trailed up and down his chest feeling each part of the broken skin.

"I know. It's okay as long as you don't find them … well, disgusting."

"No, that's not it. I like every one of your features, James, and I will get used to these scars, too. They now belong to you as does your brown hair and your hazel eyes." Lily smiled reassuringly down on him. Slowly she bent forwards and placed a soft kiss on his parted lips. "And now shut up and enjoy."

James smiled to himself. Within the deep of his soul he'd always been afraid how Lily would think about his one so strong and well built body that was now mostly covered in scars. Hearing her saying this he felt absolutely relieved. Showing how much exactly he was thankful towards her he placed every single feeling in this kiss which quickly deepened.

To feel more of Lily's wonderful soft skin, James pulled her shirt over her head and left it on the ground. His wandering hands returned to the smooth feeling and softly stoked over her back.

Meanwhile their kiss deepened until they had to separate to breath again. Eyes, willed with love and lust, stared at each other while the hands kept up their ways exploring the other.

For both it felt like their first time being with each other and giving into the strong feeling of lust. It's always been like this and they knew that this would never end.

Returning to kissing again, James switched their positions so he was laying on top. James felt Lily's hands wandering deeper and deeper his torso heading for his waistband.

Without breaking the kiss James opened the clasp at Lily's bra and freed her delicious breasts. Her nipples had already hardened and James left her mouth and kissed a trail of wet kisses softly down her chest towards her left breast. Closing his warm and wet mouth over the nipple Lily let out a soft moan gripping him tighter around his waist and pressing him closer to her wanting body.

James also gave some of his attention to her other nipple making Lily moaning louder. Feeling his hot wet mouth closing around her nipples had always aroused her to no end. James knew that and he would always use this knowledge to get her satisfied.

After giving his attention to her breast he pressed soft kisses down her stomach until he'd reached her waistband. While he had played with her nipples Lily had stopped pulling on his waistband to fully enjoy the feeling he was able to give her.

James now opened her pants and pulled them down until he could pull it off her legs. With it he'd taken her slip. Both peaces of clothing now where join the pile on the floor where their shirts had already been thrown to.

Lily could feel him at her very center. His tongue was starting to work her wonder and soon she could feel the fire building up in her body. James' hands had returned to her breasts and where softly stroking them, his thumbs playing with the erect nipples.

Soon Lily could feel her orgasm rising and with a soft scream she fell over the edge, falling down directly into James' loving arms. While Lily tried to regain her breath James placed soft kisses on her nose, cheek and blood red lips, a small smile gracing his face.

When Lily had regained her breath again she tugged on his waistband. She wanted him to pull off his jeans to give her better access to his already aroused member. After a few moments of silent pleading her sat up and opened his belt breathing a little heavier than normal. Soon he had gotten rid of the left garments and they also joined the pile on the floor.

Returning into their previous position Lily now could reach out to his erect member. She wanted to feel him and without hesitation she softly stroked over his full length and enjoyed the feeling of the incredible soft skin.

James was hovering a little above her and she saw his eyes closing and joy and lust showed on his face. His lips parted a little to release a moan and he bucked his hips into her hand. He wanted to feel more and Lily was happy to return the favour.

She increased the speed of her stroking and after a few moments of her stroking and his small moans James pulled himself out of her grip. He was breathing heavily now.

Pushing Lily back onto the sofa he positioned himself between her legs and entered her with one strong push. Feeling his big strong penis inside her moving let the fire inside her belly return with full force.

James had put his arms on each side of her face so wouldn't have to lay on her with his fully weight. He bent down to give Lily a deep kiss, letting his tongue explore her mouth. James kept the speed of his moving slow to enjoy the feeling for a little moment longer.

Lily had put her hands into his hair and her legs around his hips to push him even deeper inside with each move. Slowly they where increasing the speed until both reached their peaks and holding each other in their arms the fell together over the edge knowing that the other would always catch them. Always.

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