As the weeks and months passed Nicole and I's marriaged hit new highs. After our talk, things all started to work itself out and we got better at communicating about our differences. Like the two month battle of potty trianing Levi, and taking away the bottle for a sippy cup, which i was glad about.

"Hey, honey." I hummed softly as we got ready for bed, turning on the baby monitor so we could listen for Levi.

"Yes, baby?" She smiled over at me, a mouth full of toothpaste, she was still the most beautiful girl in the world.

"We still need a theme for his birthday, you know. It's only a few months away and I have zero ideas." It was true, I really had no idea. He was so different from last year, it seemed so weird to think about.

"I know, I was thinking Paw Patrol, but he only likes them Saturday mornings." Nicole giggled, finally sliding into bed next to me.

"I was thinking more along the lines of big brother?" I smiled softly as i wiggled my eyebrows, seeing a small smile creep upon those lips.

"Yeah? You think we're ready?"

"Totally. We are in such a better place now, I just, I feel ready. He's in school, potty trained and out of a bottle."

I watched her eyes flicker and flutter, i watched that beautiful brain of hers work and after a few short second of quiet she spoke.

"Okay, Waves, lets do it."

"Really?" Cheered a little too loud, hearing Levi stir in his bedroom.

"Really," She giggled, pulling me in for a kiss.

I let the weight fall off my chest, the weight I had been carrying for almost a year now, I was getting my wish of another baby, a sweet, innocent little baby made of our love once again. I couldn't wait, I could tell Nicole was actually excited this time around too.

"Let's make this baby, Waverly Earp."

"Haught-Earp." I corrected with a smile, pressing our lips together once again.

"Levi, No baby!" I sighed, scooping him up from the chair he was falling off of. "You are going to cause me a heart attack by the time you're five." I joked softly, kissing his perfect little cheeks.

"Wanna color." He said sweetly, flashing me those adore teeth, sometimes he really was a spitting image of Nicole with that smile.

"Okay, we can color, but you have to be good, okay? No more coloring on the walls. Your special play room is almost done," I couldn't wait until that damn room was done. Nicole had been working so hard on it, my favorite part was the chalk wall, giving him the freedom to color whatever he wanted on the walls.

In the back of my mind I wondered about adding another baby into the mix, we already went through the process of getting me ready to ovulate and concieve, all we really had to do now was wait and set up an appointment to get the insemination. The very idea of Levi being a big brother made my heart swell. I set Levi down and set up his coloring station, making sure to add extra paper around his little table incase he was feeling brave and wanted to use paint.

"Okay, baby. You sit here and color and i'll make lunch, but if you need help, come ask me." He nodded, in full color mode with his tonuge sticking out as he focused, he is one hundred percent my son.

"Well hello, Officer." I giggled as i answered my phone.

"Beautiful." Nicole responded back, i could hear the smile in her voice.

"What's up?"

"Oh nothing, I just got a little phone call from Doctor Harp and we are all set anytime to get the insemination."

"Already? Geeze it feels like we just started the process again." In the back of my mind i was nervous to get pregnant again. I had such a hard first trimester with Levi, I was in misery, I was so worried about the same thing happening with this little one.

"Waves, relax honey. Everything will be alright." I knew she could hear the anxiety in my voice, and I hated how bad it had gotten latley.

"I know, i just-"

"Baby, stop. I'll be home a little early, we can eat dinner together and enjoy a nice hot bath once Levi goes to bed," I couldn't help but smile.

"That sounds amazing. I have to go finish Levi's lunch, he's in full color focus mode."

After putting Levi to bed, Nicole and I did infact take a hot bubble bath and i enjoyed it. But once Nicole fell asleep I tried to fall asleep cuddled up next to her, but nothing worked. My anxiety was through the roof, it had been for months and even I couldn't figure out why, our life was so perfect, I had a perfect wife, son and home, but somehow some way, my anxiety had gotten worse then it was living in Purgatory. With a heavy sigh i rolled myself out of bed and padded into the bathroom to look at myself long and hard. You could tell I hadn't been getting any sleep, but Nicole couldn't know that, as far as she knew, I was getting sleep. I got put back on medication from my doctor, but I wasn't actually taking them, I didn't need them, did I? They had helped before, before Nicole came along, after we starting dating and got married it seemed to go away almost instantly. Maybe it had came back with the worries of our rough patch and the nervousness of adding another baby into the family. Regardless, I couldn't keep going like this, If we wanted another baby, I needed to sleep and I needed to let Nicole know what was happening.

"Baby?" I hummed softly as i crawled back int our bed, trying to wake her up.

"Waves?" She mumbled, rubbing her eyes, "What's going on, beautfiul?"

"My anxiety, I can't sleep, I havent' slept in weeks." I heard her little sigh and sank into bed, "I'm sorry," I whimpered.

"Don't be sorry, baby, it's okay. I'm here. We're going to get you through this." I felt safe knowing that Nicole wasn't going to run anywhere, how could she? We were married and had a child together. "I love you, don't ever forget that."