CHAPTER 6

I looked over at my clock. 4am. What had just happened?

Thankfully I hadn't actually fucked either Rose or Natalie. Unfortunately, I was as hard as a fucking rock. Why did I have such a vivid dream about two girls that I barely knew? And why the fuck was my ex involved in it? I looked back over at the clock. 4:12am. I rubbed my eyes and stood from the bed. I walked to the bathroom and pissed and brushed my teeth before walking back into my room and putting a pair of faded jeans with holes with a robin-egg blue button down on. God damn. Never had smoking a blunt before bed affected me like that before. I just wanted the sun to rise so I could get out of the house. Fuck….Get out the house to go to school…where Rose and Natalie would be.

"Shit."

I swore out loud before deciding that I would go ahead and go to campus. If I was lucky Rose would be awake and I could hang out with her before class. I wasn't going to make it awkward. It had been a dream. I wasn't physically attracted to her, so it wouldn't be a problem to be alone with her.

I walked out to the car and pulled out of the driveway. Ten minutes later I had parked on campus and was walking to the housing building. I was able to walk straight in by showing my student I.D badge. After finding the room directory I got on the elevator and pushed four. The door opened a short second later and I found her room. I knocked softly. No answer. A little louder.

"Who is it?"

"Dimitri."

The door opened.

"Do you own a clock? It's 5 in the fucking morning dipshit!"

"Yea I know I'm sorry…. I'll go. See you in a few hours."

"No. You're already here, stay."

"I don't want to bother you."

"I was awake. Come in already."

I walked into her room. It was small and covered in clothes. I stood awkwardly.

"You ok?"

"Uh..yea. I'm good."

"Then sit down for fuck sakes."

She was already lying in her bed again. She had shorts and a tank top on. Her hair was pulled up on top of her head. I walked over to the bed and stood.

"Come on, Russia."

She slide over on the bed motioning for me to get sit down.

"So why are you here at 5am?"

I sat down on the bed.

"I had a horrible dream, woke up and couldn't go back to sleep."

"Okay and the dream was?"

"You'd die if I told you."

I smiled and exhaled.

"Try me, Belikov."

"Ok…. I fucked you and Natalie."

"Excuse me?!"

"Told you. I smoked a few joints before bed. I can't control my dreams, Rose."

"I know that, but damn. Was I at least good?"

"For a virgin."

I smirked and winked. She punched my upper arm.

"What?!"

"You're a virgin too don't be judging weed dream me."

"I might be a virgin but I have been with girls."

"Last time you had a girlfriend?"

"Oh, she was in the dream too. You stayed the night after Natalie left and we were about to screw again and she walked in. That's when I woke up."

"Ok, no more weed, dude."

I laughed.

"So about your last girlfriend?"

"Tasha."

"Tasha?'

"That was her name. Well it was Natasha but I called her Tasha."

"And?"

"And what? Not really anything else to say about her."

"Why'd you break up?"

"Saying it would've been a long distance relationship if we were still together is a bit of an understatement."

"So it was just because of you moving?"

"Partially."

"And the other reason?"

"Why do you care?"

"Just curious."

"We stopped talking months before I left."

"Why?"

"Rose.."

"Russia."

"I told her I was moving. She said fine, left my house, fucked another guy, told me she wasn't sorry."

"What a bitch."

"Yea, well. We were together for three years and we didn't have sex. So I can't blame her."

"She wanted to?"

"Well, yea. In case you haven't noticed I'm fucking hot, Rose."

"Yea, yea."

"I'm joking. But, yea, she did want to. I told her I wasn't ready every time she asked."

"So what did you guys do?"

"Same stuff we did the other night. Mostly oral and touching. We stopped kissing a year before I left."

"Yep, she's a fucking bitch."

I laughed.

"So.."

"Huh?"

"Would it be awkward to cuddle after dream you fucked dream me?"

"Are YOU going to make it awkward?"

"No!"

"Then it's fine."

She scooted closer to me in the bed and I put my arm around her.

"Head on chest?"

"Go ahead."

"You should do this every night. No one can walk in on us here."

"Yea, well, I can't."

"Why?"

"Because we're friends."

"Are you fucking kidding me!?"

"No."

"Why does that matter?!"

"Rose, shut up please."

"No! What are afraid will happen? Us being in the same bed will not change the fact that we are friends, Dimitri!"

"Rose. Stop."

"TELL ME WH"

"Because I like you."

I stood up and started for the door. She jumped out of the bed and ran in front of me.

"No. You are not leaving. You are going to walk your ass back to my bed and you are going to sit down and talk."

"Move, Rose. I want to leave."

"And I do not care."

"Rose."

"Bed."

I swore under my breath and walked back to the bed and sat.

"K, on the bed. What the fuck do you want to talk about?"

"I told you I liked you the other day."

"What's your point?"

"So we like each other, so what. We're still friends. We don't have to be together. We just like each other. We can be in the same bed without it being awkward."

"Great conversation. Can I leave now?"

"What's the point? Time to get ready for class."

She was pointing to her clock. 6:00am.

"I'll go so you can get ready."

I started to stand. She grabbed my pants pocket.

"Stay. I just have to shower really quick."

"Ok."

She got up and walked into the small bathroom in her room. The door shut then opened again.

"You know you can join, right? Like, if you wanted to."

I looked at her and smirked.

"Thanks, but I'll pass this time."

The door shut again and I laid back on the bed. Ten minutes later she exited the bathroom wrapped in a hot pink towel.

"Do me a favor?"

"Yes, ma'am."

"Second drawer."

She pointed to a tiny dresser in the corner of the room. I walked over to it.

"Leggings or actual jeans?"

"I don't know?"

"Do you want to look at my ass or nah?"

"Rose."

"Jeans it is then. Open the drawer."

I need as I was instructed. Panties, bras. God damn.

"Toss me a pair of panties."

I did. She caught them and smiled.

"Close your eyes if you don't want to see."

I turned around while laughing.

"Mhmk, we're good."

I turned back towards her. She walked my way, topless.

"You're staring, Dimitri."

"And whose fault is that?"

She grabbed a bra and hooked it before looking up at me.

"Stay with me tonight."

She stood on her tiptoes and pressed her lips against mine. I didn't try to stop her. She pulled away after a short amount of time. We both smiled.

"So?"

"I'll stay."

"Yea?"

"Sure. As long as I get kissed again."

I winked and she put her clothes on.

"Let's go get breakfast."

We walked to the already full cafeteria.

"Do you see an open table?"

"There are two seats with Natalie and Jesse, Rose."

"I don't like them."

"Whatever, come on."

We walked over and joined Natalie and the others at the table. Natalie spoke.

"Well, this is a surprise. What made you decide to come eat on campus today?"

"No food worth eating at home."

They all laughed as we ate the fruit that had been placed on the table.

"So, Rose, you and Belikov a thing already?"

"No, Jesse, not every girl is easy to get."

"We're just friends."

Rose smirked before speaking.

"Yea, just friends."

The ten minute bell rang and everyone stood and made their way out of the room. Natalie walked right beside us.

"Are you guys sure you aren't at least talking? I mean I wouldn't judge you. I slept with Jesse after five days of knowing him."

"Unlike you, Nat, I have a little more self-respect than that. Besides, Russia's a gentleman."

"He's also hot as fuck."

I laughed loudly. I stopped at my locker and thankfully Natalie kept walking.

"Oh my God."

"What's wrong, Rose?"

"Natalie likes you."

"So?"

"You act like it's so normal."

"I just don't care."

"Ok."

We walked to class and sat down together. Everyone was in class already and Mr. Zelkos began early. Twenty minutes later he was done lecturing and assigned homework.

"I really hope you listened to all that because I didn't."

"Day dreaming about me, huh?"

She looked up at me and I smirked and winked.

The rest of the day was just awkward smiles and nudges from both of us. And for some reason I was really looking forward to staying with her tonight. When the dismissal bell rang I hurried to my locker to meet Rose. I opened my locker and then there were hands. Hands covering my eyes.

"Guess who?"

"Natalie?"

"Fuck you!"

"God, please do!"

She moved her hands and I turned around to face her. She didn't look happy.

"Oh come on, Rose. What'd I say that was so bad?"

"Well there was the part where you guessed Natalie. Oh, and then the part where you asked me to fuck you."

"Relax, I was only serious about one part, jesus."

"I'll fuck you."

"Not the part I was serious about."

I laughed. She didn't. I kept laughing and hugged her.

"Get off, oh my God."

"Everyone already thinks we're together."

"What's your point?"

"Me hugging you isn't a big deal. Everyone thinks we're together. I'm not going to not hug you just to keep people from thinking that. I don't give a shit what they think."

"Great schpill and everything but I hate being touched."

"Not in my dream you didn't."

"Dude! Not funny!"

"No, no, you're right. I'm sorry."

I turned back to my locker and grabbed the shit I needed before turning toward her again.

"You're right."

"About what?"

"Everyone thinks we're together."

"Yep."

"So, why not."

"I'm sorry, what?"

Her hands moved to my face once more. Then her lips. I kissed her back but couldn't help but laugh in the middle of it.

"Not the best way to get me to keep my hands off of you, Ms. I Hate Being Touched."

Now she smiled, which made me smile.

"Come on."

"Where we going?"

"You promised to stay the night."

"Yes ma'am I did."

"So we're going back to my room."

She took my hand and we walked out of the school and across campus to her dorm.

"God, slow down. What's the rush."

I stopped walking causing her to pull me.

"Rose, I am a lot stronger than you. You aren't going to move me."

"Dimitri, come on, please."

I got as close to her as possible. I could hear her breathing heavily.

"Okay, whatever you want."

I took her hand again and continued to the elevator. Four floors later we exited and walked to her door, still hand in hand. When we reached the door she stopped.

"Why do you always stop at doors? It's like you're afraid of them. Or me. It's always with me."

"I'm not afraid of you."

"You were when I got close to you downstairs."

"No I wasn't."

"Sure."

She unlocked the door and we stepped in. I let go of her hand and shut the door behind us.

"We can go eat later if you want."

I walked over to her while she was looking in the mirror.

"You're gorgeous."

She turned toward me without looking up.

"Rose. Look at me please."

She spoke while looking up.

"I'm not afraid of you. You just make me nervous."

"Why is that?"

"Because I don't want to like you."

"Gee, thanks."

"No, Dimitri, not like that."

"I mean, I can go if that works better for you."

"No!"

"Thought we weren't going to make this awkward?"

"I'm not trying to!"

"Can we sit down. Standing is making me nervous."

We sat down on the bed and she sighed.

"What?"

"Why the fuck wouldn't you have sex with your girlfriend? Like I don't understand."

"Because I didn't. There isn't much else to it. It didn't happen."

"Kiss me."

I leaned in and kissed her gently.

"Come on, Russia, you can do better than that."

I laughed and leaned back in. I crawled on top of her.

"Mmmmm."

I stopped.

"What the hell!?"

"I am not having sex with you. So I need to stop."

"Dimitri!"

"I'm not like that! I can't."

"Ughhh. Good God."

"I'll go."

"No. Please stay."

"Rose, I like you and I am not going to make it seem like it's because I want sex, because it isn't. I genuinely like you."

"I got it. Why can't we make sex a part of it?"

"Are you deaf? I am not like that."

"I sucked you eight hours after meeting you. Don't even start with the 'not like that' bullshit."

"I'm not. I shouldn't have let you do that."

"But you did. And we both liked it. You're in my room alone with me, come on."

"We aren't having sex, Rose."

"Ok."

She stood up and walked to the bathroom. I stayed on the bed and exhaled sharply.

"Are you coming back?"

"Eventually."

I got up and walked to the closed bathroom door. I knocked.

"Am I allowed in?"

She sighed and I cracked the door open.

"I didn't say you could come in."

"You didn't say I couldn't."

I opened the door the rest of the way. She was sitting on the sink counter.

"I'm sorry."

"No, it's fine. I just…why don't you want to sleep with me?"

"I do."

"Then why not?"

"Rose, stop."

I wrapped my arms around her. She sunk into my chest and I kissed the top of her head.

"Do you want to go back to the bed?"

She nodded into my chest and I picked her up and carried her back to the bed. I laid her down and crawled in right beside her and slipped my arm around her.

"What's that sound?"

"Huh?"

"Is your phone ringing?"

"Oh, shit. I guess it is."

I answered.

"Hello. Yea. I won't be home tonight so. Ok. Yea. Got it. Bye."

"Who was that?"

"Dad."

"Kiss me."

I did as I was told. After several minutes Rose pulled away and got on top of me.

"Rose."

"Please."

I pushed her off and got up.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm leaving. I'm not going to stay here and have to tell you no a million times before you get me to give in and make a huge mistake."

"So, sleeping with me would be a huge mistake? Wow."

"No. Sleeping with you tonight would be a mistake."

"Dimitri."

"I'll call you later tonight, Rose."

"You promised me you would stay."

"And I want to stay with you, but I told you no sex and I meant it. You cannot possibly want to lose your virginity to someone you aren't in love with."

"Wait, what? Is that why you wouldn't sleep with your ex? You didn't really love her?"

"No, Rose, I wasn't talking about me. You, you shouldn't want to sleep with me yet."

"But I do."

"Except the fact that I am not fucking you tonight or tomorrow night or any time soon or I will leave."

"Then leave."

"I'll call you later."

"Don't bother."

I looked at her with my hand on the doorknob.

"Rose."

"Bye."

I said bye and walked out of the room. I stood in the hallway for what seemed like forever before snapping back to reality.

"Hey, Dimitri? You ok?"

Natalie.

"Uh, yea, fine. I just need to get home. See you later."

I walked away quickly, opting to take the steps. I jogged to my car and drove home.