It had been two weeks since I had first hid my food, Mum was completely unaware about this, I had thought she had found out a few times but it always turned out to be stupid nonsense, I need to weigh myself, I've been doing so well, I haven't eaten and I've limited my insulin, without it I pass out and I don't need to draw any unnecessary attention to myself and I've been doing tons or working out like, running and stuff.

I;m in the bathroom standing in front of one of thee most scariest things right now; the scales. I swallow hard and step onto them, I squeeze my eyes shut for a second dreading what the number will be, I open my eyes again slowly and look at the scales "fifteen pounds. I've lost fifteen pounds" I say to myself excitedly, I step off the scales feeling proud of myself.

I put my hoodie back on and walk out of the bathroom, I walk all the way down stairs and into the kitchen to fetch myself a glass of water, when I arrive in the kitchen Robbie is sitting across in the dining area talking with someone, I can't quite make out who it is because they are facing the other way, but I can tell it is a woman, I continue what I came here to do and I get me a glass and fill it with water, Robbie's head jolts towards me and he looks slightly nervous "Hey Rob" I say calmly to him "hey Jase" he replies sounding rather suspicious, the mystery woman turns her head around to face me; oh shit not again, it's Celine again, since I was in hospital she is like a bad smell, she's everywhere, I can't escape her. "Hey Jason, how are you" Celine says sweetly, ugh can she get anymore sickening right now, all she ever does when she sees me is ask me how I'm feeling and talk about my social life or some shit like that, I suppress all my feelings and say "Hey Celine, I'm fine, how are you" she smiles at me "I'm fine thank you"

"What brings you here" I ask her rather fast "here to see your mum, but shes not in so I've been talking to Robbie here"she said calmly with a smile on her face"Oh, right" I say and head towards the door "you're welcome to join us" Celine says kindly "nah you're alright, don't want to be the prune" I say slightly snarky and then leave for the living room, I sit down on the sofa and don't even bother turning the telly on, I just curl up and hug my knees while watching out of the window.

Why is she always here? Why is she always with my mum? why wont she just leave me alone?

The three whys, I just don't understand, what else I don't understand is why mum let dad move in, doesn't she think he's a waste of space, and that she shouldn't bother wasting her breath on him? lately everything around me has been quite confusing, but hey at least I have lost fifteen pounds.

My thoughts are cute short when I hear some one say "Jase, what you doing? why are you just sitting here without the telly on just zoning out the window" I knew who it was know, it was Ziggy "Thinking" I reply to him "about the day you fall down a drain" This time it was Freddie who spoke, he had just entered the room "shut it" I snap at him "what you gone and said that for" Ziggy shot Freddie a sharp glare "just a joke" Freddie adds looking slightly confused "anyway, do you want me to put the telly on? I think there's some boxing on" Ziggy asks me "yeah sure" I say back, I'm not really bothered what he does anyway.

Ziggy rummages for the remote control, finds it and flicks the telly on and changes it to the boxing "Zig, why is Celine always here" I finally ask someone "don't know sorry" he replies "what about you Fred" I ask Freddie this time "well actually-" Freddie is interrupted with Ziggy's obnoxious cough "sorry, as you was saying" Ziggy said and looked at Freddie, is this was a cartoon I would swear that Freddie would of had a light bulb above his head "right as I was saying, I was gonna agree with Zig, no clue mate" Freddie says and gave Ziggy a look as is to say 'was that okay'.

I decide to ignore my instincts telling me that something was going on behind the scenes as my paranoia, lately it always feels like people are always there, watching me, judging me or laughing at me. I shrug away these feelings and look at the telly, Ziggy and Freddie did the same "cor blimey, don't he know when to quit? he'll be in hospital before you know it" Ziggy commentated. Then we heard the door open and I hear Robbie shout "MUM IS THAT YOU" obnoxiously "YEAH" mum shouts back, she walks by the living room "you boys okay" she asked "yeah we're smashing ay we" Ziggy said me and Freddie just go along with him "Alright then" mum said and left for the kitchen.

I finish my glass of water and get up "gonna get a refill" I say and go towards the kitchen when I reach the door I stop and listen for a second "I have noticed that yeah" I hear mum say "any other signs" this time I hear Celine speak "I haven't seen him take his insulin today" I hear Robbie's voice say "maybe we should tell him" Celine says "no, he'll just think we're interfering, best just to play this out" Robbie said, that's it I've had enough I walk into the kitchen in a small storm and go fill my glass up.

I turn around to find them all staring at me "what!?" I snap "nothing darlin" mum said, obviously I know that's a lie "I heard you" I add "Heard us?" Robbie said looking from mum to Celine "yeah, and I know you was talking about me, come on spit it out" I spat "we know you're not taking your insulin properly, and have noticed a drastic change in your behavior, attitude and your weight, come one Jason, I told you I was here to talk, I knew as soon as I saw you in hospital you needed help" Celine said, Robbie and Mum shoot her a glare "sorry, he had to know the truth, and as he said he heard our conversation" Celine defended herself.

I look at all three of them "none of you understand" I begin, they all look at me "none of you understand me" I finish, I smash my glass down onto the fool, it shattered into millions of pieces and I ran open the back door, left through that door and ran away from that house, I ran and ran until I reached Holly's flat, I bang really hard on the door hoping that shes in, I hear her shout "alright alright, keep your hair on" then she opens the door "Jason, is everything alright" she asked looking concerned "sorta" I pant "can I come in" I just about make those word out, I'm knackered "yeah sure" she said and lets me inside the flat.