EPOV
I couldn't smell fresh blood. Thank god, or I would have lost control entirely. It took all of my concentration not to run away. My chest was heaving in pain. Disgusted at myself, I wanted to leave her to Carlisle's care and run forever trying to escape the feelings. And that was what I hated most of all. How could I want to leave my very life? But how could I have let it get so far?
I looked down at her so small and fragile in my arms. How did I ever think I could control myself around her? Even now her smell aroused the worst in me. I couldn't see her face, I was sure she was terrified and unable to look at my monstrous face. I closed my eyes and tried not to cry out in anger when I suddenly felt her warm fingers lightly caress my face.
"Edward?"
My eyes snapped open but I couldn't bring myself to look into her face.
"Edward, love, that was unbelievable."
"I'm so sorry; I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'll never.. I'll never touch you again. I couldn't help myself." I looked down at the tear stains streaking her face and it finally dawned on me that she was looking very confused but smiling.
"What on earth do you imagine you just did?"
I cleared my throat, it had constricted and I couldn't quite speak normally, "You screamed…."
Bella's flushed face managed to turn a darker shade of crimson and I heard her heart stuttering again. I raised my eyebrows, eyes widening as I started to realize just what had occurred.
"Oh, thank god, Bella!" I pulled her even closer, breathing deeply with relief into her neck.
"How could you think that you had hurt me?" She didn't give me enough time to answer before she kissed me on the lips roughly, trying to prove to both of us she was tougher than she looked.
I stiffened and pushed her away, "I wasn't thinking. That was the problem. You are … I'm not sure there are words for everything I was feeling when I was in you." I swallowed hard, clenching my teeth together, "All I know was I'm pretty sure I was focusing entirely on myself and I had somehow been careless and got carried away. And then you screamed."
BPOV
I had rarely seen him look so ill. And even looking ill he was amazingly beautiful, like a pouting god. "Edward, you were so tender and I've never felt anything like that before," I closed my eyes remembering the sensations in more places than just my mind. "I'm sorry I lost control and scared you so bad."
Edward was starting to look better with each word. He was sitting up straighter and a bemused grin was beginning to form on his lips. His fear had melted into pride, "It was less like losing control and more like turning into a mountain lion. I never imagined such a sound could come from your mouth."
I was shaking in his arms again, this time with suppressed laughter, "Yes, but only with you."
His shoulders slumped again and he shook his head, "I'm not sure I can handle this again. If I weren't already dead, you would have surely killed me."
I frowned slightly, "Soon you won't have to worry about it. But you shouldn't have been scared. You could never hurt me."
Edward's black eyes gleamed down at me and his face looked hard, "I think you tend to forget that just because I am better at controlling myself does not mean that I am not constantly fighting to not kill you."
I sighed and snuggled closer to him, "Then get it over with already."