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Chapter 10: Dead or Alive?

Roxas POV

Floating... I was floating again. When I landed I was in Demyx's arms and he was running his fingers through my hair. Where was Axel? I wanted my Axel back... I must have said his name because Demyx smiled sadly. "He's dead..." Dead? Axel was dead? No... no! No! Axel couldn't be dead! No! This was my fault... my Mate was dead because of me... my Mate... I just remembered and now he was gone... why did this have to happen?

As I was crying from the corner of my eye I saw Zexion, flicking his wrist Demyx screamed and was gone in a puff of smoke. "That wasn't Demyx! Roxas hurry up you have to tell us now what's going on? I can't get in touch with Sora... damn it... they're coming Roxas stay here don't wake up... Roxas, Roxas!" Zexion called as I watched him go further and further away from me.

I woke up with a start to find myself handcuffed to the wall, Axel was sitting in front of me his eyes were closed and he looked like he was sleeping. But when I called his name I realized this wasn't my Axel, when he opened his eyes they were blood red. He lunged for me and I screamed as he missed me by inches. When he growled it sounded so farel I didn't even recognize him. "Axel?" I whimpered reaching my hands out.

"He won't remember you... he's too far gone." Cloud chuckled leaning back against the wall. Once I saw the table stained with blood I knew where we were and I knew what Cloud was planning.

"You're going to make Axel kill me aren't you?" I whispered tears gathering at the corners of my eyes and finally falling.

"You see Roxas Vampires there such nasty creatures, knock them out with a few drugs and they go crazy... he can smell it you know... your blood just look at him." Cloud chuckled running his fingers through Axel's hair. His eyes were trained on me as I tried to inch away. He lunged again sinking his nails into my hand pulling bits of flesh with them. "Xemnas made something special, he said that it make Axel do whatever I wanted... and I wanted him to kill you."

Smiling he bared his fangs at me which with were dripping with saliva. "Blood... His I want it!" Axel roared lunging at me again.

"Now, now just wait love you'll get his blood." Cloud cooed bringing his lips to Axel's. I had to sit there and watch as he stuck his tongue down my Mate's throat. I knew Axel wasn't his self right now but I had to wonder did he used to kiss Cloud like that? The way he groaned lifting his arms to wrap them around Cloud's neck bringing him closer. Did he still have feelings for my brother?

I couldn't stop looking it was as I was watching a train wreck. The way they were kissing it was so sensual just like the way Axel used to kiss me. The way he did kiss me... but I had been so horrible to him... What if Leon really did betray us? The way he just stood there I couldn't believe that Leon would do that. Pulling back Cloud grinned, "He's always been a good kisser hasn't he? Thanks for training him for me I'll take him back now." Sauntering off Axel watched a low growl in his throat that sounded like approval.

When the door slammed shut behind him I tried my best to get as close to Axel as the chains would allow me. "Axel... please you have to remember me. I love you Axel please don't do what Cloud says!" I whimpered.

"Shut up you filthy whore!" Axel growled. "Who would want to even Mate with you... just look at you! How many men have you slept with? I can't wait to kill you... your blood is so sweet tasting. I never even loved you besides who would? You tore Cloud and I apart!" He continued to pull at the chains until he broke free from the wall. Tackling me to the ground his fingers threaded in my shirt as I felt his fangs sink into my neck.

My vision was swimming as he continued to drink my blood. There was no pain only pleasure, I was sure I heard screaming somewhere but I'm not sure where. I tried to move my body but it felt frozen and my lips felt thick as I tried to convey to Axel that I didn't blame him. That I still loved him with all my heart. I knew he wasn't himself… I knew he didn't mean anything he said but I couldn't find a way to tell him. Just like in the vision I had I wrapped my arms around his waist and held him tight.

Vision blurred I dropped my head to the ground and closed my eyes. I was so tired but I had to tell Axel… had to make sure that everything was ok that he was ok. I think I remember telling him that I loved him but I wasn't quiet sure. When I woke up I was in a room filled with light. There was a woman there with long fire red hair, she was like the feminine version of Axel. Her eyes were a bright green and she was tall with pale skin like Axel's. Turning she smiled when she saw me bringing me close, "It's not your time yet young one." She crooned.

Axel's POV

Roxas no run! Run Roxas get away from me! I didn't want to hurt him, I really didn't want to hurt him! My body was acting on its on as if I were no longer in control of my body. Somehow I remembered kissing someone, was that Roxas I was kissing? No it was Cloud something in my body reacted to the kiss and as I watched him saunter off I couldn't stop the growl that bubbled out.

"Axel... please you have to remember me. I love you Axel please don't do what Cloud says!" Roxas was saying he was tugging at the chains that held us to the walls. I wanted so badly to reach out and pull him close. I wanted so badly for this to be a dream but I couldn't stop the words as they flowed out of my mouth.

"Shut up you filthy whore!" I shouted. "Who would want to even Mate with you... just look at you! How many men have you slept with? I can't wait to kill you... your blood is so sweet tasting. I never even loved you besides who would? You tore Cloud and I apart!" No Roxas I didn't mean that! I didn't mean any of it! Suddenly I tore the chains off the wall and tackled Roxas to the ground.

He didn't scream or cry out or even beg me to stop he just lay there his mouth moving over and over but no sound ever came out. His arms wound around my waist and he pulled me close. I couldn't stop drinking his blood I just continued to let the blood flow, until I had drained him dry. Whatever they had injected me with had finally worn off and when I finally realized what I had done I screamed. Roxas lay there his eyes closed with his throat torn out, blood continued pooling from the wound and I scrambled to get as far away from the body as possible.

No! No… no I didn't do this, I couldn't have done this! No Roxas was dead… Roxas was dead. I felt a hand on my shoulder and when I looked up I saw Cloud grinning. "Good boy Axel… very good boy." He crooned.

"Why?" I whispered crying for the first time in many years. "He's dead! He's dead, my Mate is dead! It's all my fault… I killed him."

Standing up on my wobbly legs I reached my hands out and grabbed Cloud for support. He smiled at me gently until I wrapped my hands around his neck, I wanted him to die he needed to pay! "I will kill you… I will get revenge for my Mate!" I screamed pressing my hands against his throat.

Someone grabbed me and threw me off of Cloud, looking around I saw it was Leon. "You traitor! You fucking traitor!" I ran at him my Chakrams drawn. He flicked his wrist as I ran into what felt like a brick wall. A shield? He brought a shield up?

"Stop! Please… stop this! I still love him Axel. I never betrayed you guys! I would never betray you but this… this isn't going to bring Roxas back!" Leon cried he was standing in front of Cloud his arms spread. Flicking his wrist I fell to the ground as the shield was taken away.

"I don't care! I want him dead! Let me kill him! You fucking bastard!" Tears sprang to my eyes and I pounded the ground in frustration. "I hate you… I HATE YOU! I WILL MAKE SURE THAT I KILL YOU MYSELF!"

Cloud stepped forward cupping my chin he brought me up to look at him. "I still love you Axel why can't you see that?" Grabbing my arm he swung me to the side I only stopped when my head hit the wall.

Charging forward I threw one of my Chakrams dousing it with fire, he dodged it at the last second. The fire was put out rather quickly as it hit the cold cobbled ground. Slicing the air I felt the large blade nick my back, turning around I put my last Chakram up just in time defending the blow.

Cloud ducked when I threw a large fire ball at him but I was able to burn his pants leg. He slapped at the fire as I rounded the corner throwing my last Chakram. It embedded itself in his chest and he laughed disappering in a puff of smoke. Grabbing my chin he jerked my head up placing the large blade under my throat.

"I don't want to kill you Axel." He whispered trying to control the heavy blade.

"I'd rather be dead and with my Mate then to suffer in this hell hole!" I spat kicking his kneecap and shattering it. He screamed in agony dropping the blade. Kicking it to the side I walked towards him summoning my Chakrams from the ground where they lay.

Grinning Cloud knocked me down, stunned I sat there as he grabbed his sword now only a foot or two away and pressed it again to my throat. "Just kidding." He crooned.

Leon came up behind him knocking Cloud to the side. "I can't take this anymore! Cloud… its over I'm done!" Leon was now standing in front of us again but this time he was guarding me. His hands were outstretched and he was shaking. "You love him more than you love me… I get that. I just thought staying by your side was going to be enough for me but its not… I'm so sorry. You saved me from Xemnas and what he was planning on doing to me and for that I owe you my life. But I can no longer remain by your side anymore…."

Turning his back Leon helped pull me up and away from a stunned Cloud. He continued to apologize to me over and over even though it wasn't his fault. For now I just wanted to be by my Mate even if he was dead.

"Guys, guys! He's alive… he's still breathing but just barely." Snapping my head towards the voice I saw Riku but he was covered in blood. Sora was standing behind him twitching nervously. "I told you I wasn't going to let them take my Mate." Riku pulled out a phone and dialed Zexion, well at least I hoped it was Zexion. Rushing over I gathered Roxas in my arms.

"Roxy, you're ok. Everythings going to be ok, please stay with me. Don't leave me here alone again. Please I'm begging you!" I dropped my head on his forehead and let my tears slide down his cheeks.

Warm hands encircled mine, looking up Sora had a piece of cloth that he was pressing against Roxas neck. When Cloud walked over I growled, "GET AWAY FROM HIM! YOU'VE DONE ENOUGH!" He looked different this time his eyes were as big as saucers and Leon was holding his hand leaning his head against his shoulder. Even when he dropped down on his knees beside Roxas I growled when he tried to touch my Mate. "Don't even think about it! I don't even want you near him!"

"This is my fault… everything is all my fault. I'm so sorry Axel… Xemnas he fed my sadness and anger that I had been holding back. He kept saying I could get you back that there was a way. I was so stupid to even think that and now my baby brother he's dead." Cloud didn't make a move to touch him he stayed where he was until Zexion came in.

Making sure that nothing serious was broken I was able to pick him up and carry him to the car that was waiting for us. Cloud and Leon were no where to be found. Once we made it to the hospital I laid Roxas down while Zexion called for Olette and Demyx they wouldn't let me stay in the room so with a kiss to his forehead I left the hospital never to return.

Strangely enough I ended up heading towards a church. It was an old run down church the windows were broken and there was graffiti everywhere. The cross that was standing in the ground hadn't been touched. Walking inside the pews were filled with dust, the hymnal books had long been taken out. Picking a seat towards the front I bowed my head.

I didn't say anything I didn't even pray… no one would listen to me anyway. As night started to turn into day I contemplated just sitting at the pew, it would be a peaceful death. I would simply turn into ash and be reunited with Roxas right? I'm not sure what made me get up but there was a tugging on my arm so when I got up I felt like I was being pushed towards the back of the church. I ended up in one of the Sunday schools that had a black sheet covering its window.

There was a small chalk board hanging on the wall so before the sun rose I decided I would just draw. I wasn't surprised to see my drawing was a picture of Roxas, he was smiling in the picture he was so beautiful. Dropping to the ground I swear I saw Roxas standing in front of me. "I'll be back…" He whispered touching my cheek just as my eyes closed.

When I was a child I was told that Vampires couldn't dream… maybe they were right and maybe they were wrong. But I swear I dreamed of Roxas, he was smiling at me and cupped my face. Kissing me slowly he pulled away and wrapped his arms around my neck. I held him tightly to my chest. I didn't want to let him go ever. But sadly dreams are just dreams... Roxas was long gone wasn't he?

When I finally woke up I saw there was a message on my phone. "You fucking bastard! When I wake up there better be a message on my phone as to where you are! I can't believe you right now! You're just going to give up on him is that it? Fuck you Axel... fuck you." Once the line went dead I contemplated deleting the message before just saving it and curling up on the floor.

Three days passed before I grabbed my phone and dialed Riku's number. He didn't answer the phone but once I left the message of my whereabouts it wasn't an hour later and there were crashing sounds in the church. I had been enjoying my time alone as Riku finally made it in the room Sora close behind. "You ass! I didn't say respond to me three days later!"

Sora chuckled and came around to sit beside Riku on one of the chairs. "How..." I sighed putting my head in my hands. "How is he?"

"He's not going to get any better unless your by his side." Sora piped up reaching out to take my hands in his small ones. "Please go to him..."

"I can't, I just can't." I started.

"Cut the bullshit! He's your Mate! So what? You attacked him and almost killed him..." Riku tried going over and shaking me until my brain rattled around in my head.

"That's right! I almost killed him! He'll be better off without me! I don't want to hurt him... I swore that I'd never hurt him!" I cried sinking back down to the ground.

Riku turned his head over to Sora who smiled and nodded. Standing up he kissed Riku on the cheek and headed out. "Sora and I weren't always like this Axel. When I first met him I was head over heels for him. I loved him without even really knowing him... After we started to date I swore to him that I would always protect him. But I didn't... I hurt him Axel... I was so jealous of anyone that he was close to that I made him stop seeing them. He was so scared of me, I accused him of cheating on me. I... I... I even hit him Axel! I was so angry... everyone tried to get him to leave me.

"But he wouldn't he just wouldn't leave! He told me over and over that he loved me and that he would never leave. But I kept hurting him... Finally after a few years it dawned on me that nothing I did was going to make him leave. We've been much happier ever since, Axel just go to him. He needs you right now." Riku was right I didn't want to see him because I didn't want to hurt him again. "Axel have you eaten in these past three days?"

"No... I haven't even left this church or this room. I confined myself in here so that I wouldn't hurt anyone." I responded not meeting Riku's eye.

"Damn it Axel I'm not your mother! You need to feed! You know we can't go more than a week without feeding. Sora come here!" Riku called. Sora bounded in grinning from ear to ear.

"Axel's coming back with us?" He asked skipping over to sit in Riku's lap.

"Yes love Axel is coming back with us... I need you to do me a favor. Axel hasn't fed in a while would you mind if he took some of your blood? You know you don't have to say yes." Riku said nuzzling his Mate's neck. To me he said, "I'm only doing this because I've known you for so long. Don't think for a minute that I trust you with my Mate." Baring his fangs Sora walked over and sat in my lap.

Pulling his long sleeved shirt up he exposed his wrist to my mouth. "Sora no I can't I'm sorry. Riku I'm going to see Roxas... Sora no, Sommpphh!" Sora pressed his wrist to my lips, my fangs popped out and I quickly bit into the soft flesh. Tearing my mouth away was hard especially when I'd only gotten but a taste of the blood. "No! I will not feed until Roxas is better!"

"You idiot! You can't go that long without blood!" Riku shouted.

Getting up Sora crossed over back to Riku, he whispered something in his ear to which Riku nodded. Sighing he and Sora agreed on something, ushering me out of the small church we headed off to the hospital. Once there Olette ran over and pulled me close before slapping me. "You've made us worry! I'm sorry Axel. Roxas... he isn't doing good at all.. there expecting him not to make it." Olette was in tears and I was floored. Tugging on my arm she led me into a small room.

Roxas looked so tiny on the bed as if these last few days had been longer. There were ivs hooked to his arms and machines everywhere beeping. I wanted to rip them off of his body he shouldn't have to endure that! Not because of me! Slowly I crawled on the bed and made myself as comfortable as I could. "I'm so sorry Roxy.. I love you so much."

I hadn't been lying there long when Zexion followed by Demyx came in. "Glad you could finally make it." Zexion sighed going over to take Roxas vitals. "I thought you should know Cloud has been here to. But don't worry he's fine now." After he was done Zexion stretched and rubbed his eyes. He looked more tired than usual.

"Really he's gotten a lot better in these past three days. Zexion has been counseling him and he's even been visiting Roxas. But don't worry he was supervised." Demyx said.

Yawning Zexion nodded, "Yes... he's been doing very good... Demyx will you get me... get me the... damn it! Sorry I haven't been getting much sleep. I've been able to fight it off to check on Roxas every few hours. Olette and Demyx have been tending to Roxas while I've been talking to Cloud. Xemnas has him very confused right now... he believed that the only way to get you back was to kill his own brother... grief can be a very cruel thing. Don't judge him to hard though."

"Zexy... I think you should go to sleep Axel's here now and Olette and I can take it from here. He should be on the mend now right?" Demyx asked walking over to wrap his arms around his Mate. Zexion nodded wobbling on unsteady legs as Demyx tried to steer him back to his office.

"What do you mean he'll be on the mend with me here?" I questioned sitting up.

"It's very... its all very odd for some reason when a Vampire and Dhamphir Mate and the Dhamphir gets badly injured its as if they draw the life force they need in order to heal themselves faster then they can by themselves. Same if you were to be on the brink of death all Roxas would have to do is feed you his blood, you would be better within a matter of hours. I wish I knew more but if you stay by him then he'll recover." Demyx allowed Zexion to take him out of the room to get some much needed rest as I curled back up on the bed beside my Mate.

Roxas POV

"Young one… you're not supposed to be here. Its not yet your time you need to go back." The lady with red hair said. Go back? Go back where? Oh wait! Go back home right? "Go back to your Mate he's waiting for you." She said taking my hand in hers.

"How do I go back?" I asked cocking my head to the side. I enjoyed being here it was nice and warm. I didn't realize how much I missed the light. When I closed my eyes I could imagine being barefoot and feeling the grass under my toes like when I was a child. How the sun would warm my face and the times I would bring a blanket outside under one of the old trees and read. Did I even want to go back? I liked it here... it was nice... welcoming.

"You know the way back, he's waiting for you. He misses you very much. You have to tell him that everything will be ok. He didn't mean to hurt you." She was wearing a bright green dress, the color of someone's eyes... whose eyes? "You can't be forgetting him that quickly can you?" Sniffing the air she wrinkled her nose before smiling again... it wasn't as genuine this time.

"You've been here once before the man with golden blond hair took you here didn't he? To erase your memories? Young one you need to leave now! Here I'll open the way for you!" She waved her hands and a portal filled to the brim with blackness opened up. Grabbing my hand she pushed me in and waved as the portal closed behind her.

I had just gotten used to the light... where was I? This darkness I didn't like it. Brushing myself off I decided I wasn't going to get very far by just standing here. Taking a tentative step forward I put one foot in front of the other until I was walking at a brisk pace. There was nothing but darkness here with a flash of light every once and a while. I opened my mouth but no sound came out. Pushing myself forward I ran as fast as I could never once running out of breath.

I had to get back, get back to where though? I didn't even know where I was or even where I was going! As I was running I heard a voice that made me pick up my pace it was like liquid honey.

"I miss you... come back to me soon." It said. That voice alone drove me forward I didn't understand why but I knew that voice wouldn't lie to me. I wasn't sure how long I ran I just quickened my pace hoping to hear that voice again.

"Love you... so sorry..." Broken was the only way to describe how the voice sounded. The owner was so heartbroken I couldn't let him be, he wasn't supposed to ever sound like that! I had to make sure he was ok! But who was he? I couldn't stop now I had to find him I had to make him see that I was ok!

"... Understand if you leave me... just com..." I was ready to give up how long had I been running? Minutes? Hours? Weeks? Years? How long?! The voice was only getting more desperate by the second! His voice was fading in and out but the message was still the same, he needed me. Whoever this was he needed me, or he wouldn't be calling me right? I had to keep going I couldn't stop!

Flashes of red and green penetrated the darkness the closer I got to my destination. Part of me wanted to stop and stay here that maybe I was going to be stuck here forever but the voice never wavered the message he was sending still the same. When the red and green began to pulsate I knew I was very close! It was like a heartbeat, over and over they broke the monotony of the blackness.

There seemed to be a portal the closer I got it showed a man with fire engine red hair. He was lying on my chest panting, he looked haggard and worn out. His eyes were closed and there were fangs protuding from his gums. His arms was torn into pieces and was dripping crimson red blood. He looked like he had been sweating, his eyes fluttered open and he started at me a moment before resting his head back on my chest. My feet carried me closer to the portal until I was only arms length away.

"...iss you...com... ack... ple..." His words were broken but I understood the meaning. His name flowed so effortlessly to my lips and as I silently said the name the me that was lying there in the hosptial bed hooked up to the ivs and machines must have said it out loud, because the man with fire engine red hair had managed to pick himself up and stare at me.

Axel's POV

How long had I been lying there? Days probably the machines were keeping my Mate alive and I had long since torn into my own flesh to keep from feeding on my Mate for fear that I would hurt him again. I had been talking to him constantly never leaving his side, even when Cloud had come to visit him. He indeed was doing better but I don't think I could ever trust him with my Mate again.

Riku had come by often asking if I was ok and threatening me that he was going to hook a iv of blood up to my arm if Roxas didn't wake up soon.

My arm was bleeding and I was lying on Roxas chest when I heard it. "Axel." Picking my head up I weakly stared at my Mate willing him to say my name again. I knew I wasn't dreaming... I couldn't be right?

Eyes fluttering open I was met with the most beautiful set of ocean blue eyes. Roxas was alive... Roxas was going to be ok!

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