Chapter 10

"Who are you?" the girl asked in a very annoying (and rude) high pitched voice.

"Tanya, who is at the door?" I heard Edward ask. How I loved to hear his voice again. So the girl's name was Tanya.

"Some girl, but she won't tell me her name." I was getting very annoyed.

"Maybe if you lived here I would tell you but seeing as you don't I have no reason to tell you." At that moment Edward appeared.

"Bella?" he asked in a surprised voice.

"Surprised to see me Edward? So this is what you have been doing? Did you even know that Emmett woke up from his coma?" I asked him raising my eyebrows. Before he answered he looked to Tanya.

"Would you excuse us for a minute?" Edward asked politely.

"But Eddie, why do I have to leave?" she asked. I rolled my eyes and Edward seemed to get frustrated.

"I need to talk to Bella and I would appreciate it if we were alone." She huffed.

"Fine, will you call me later?" she asked as she grabbed her keys. Edward just shrugged. Tanya kissed him, and I nearly gagged and was shocked she would even do that. When she left Edward invited me inside. I walked in not looking at him. There was a silence before Edward spoke up.

"Emmett woke up?" he asked.

"Yes, if you answered anyone's calls or talked to Jasper maybe you would have known." I raised my voice, paused then spoke lowering it again, "I didn't come to yell at you. I came here to talk to you about what happened that night between us. Obviously I caught you at a bad time just now but I didn't know we were seeing other people or if we were broken up. That is clear now." I said.

"You said you didn't need me. What am I supposed to do, just wait until you need me again? I can't do that Bella. If we are in a relationship together then we need to let each other in even when bad things happen." He stood up and his voice became a little louder.

"So if someone says they don't need someone the other person just takes that as a 'we are breaking up'. But it seemed like you didn't care since you didn't bother to call anyone to find out what happened. This isn't about Emmett or his car accident. This is about us. It seems that you don't want to be together. I thought you were different Edward, I really did, but I'll leave you to be with Tanya." I grimaced at her name. "You are probably happier with her. I'll see you around." I finished before leaving. He grabbed my arm and I spun around to face him, "You want to see other people? By all means go ahead. You want to break up, then just say those words and it will be over." He said looking me straight in the eye. I didn't want to break up. I also didn't want to cry in front of him, but some traitorous tears made that impossible.

"Do you want to break up?" I whispered scared of his answer. He pinched the bridge of his nose.

"God, Bella, no I don't but…I don't know. It seems that is what you want." I couldn't take it anymore. I got out of his grasp and left his apartment. I never thought the best relationship I had would end that way. Maybe we weren't meant for each other like everyone thought. When I was back in my house I was sobbing again. It seems I was doing that a lot within the last couple weeks. I was right, I did lose him forever. Alice came home about ten minutes later. I was lying on the couch curled up under a blanket.

"Did you talk to him?" she asked hopefulness in her voice.

"Yes and we are over. I got there and some girl opened the door. You wonder where Edward is at night that is your answer." I told her.

"He has been with some other girl? I thought you guys weren't broken up." Alice said appalled.

"We weren't but he said that he couldn't just wait until I needed him again. I needed him so much that night. All I wanted was to be wrapped in his arms with him telling me it would all be ok." I began crying again. I was getting annoyed with how many times I cried. Alice came over to me and pulled me into a hug.

"Oh, Bella I am so sorry. Even though he is m brother I wish he didn't do that. It isn't like him to just let you go that easily. He really loves you." She said. I scoffed at her last statement.

"He has a funny way of showing it. Every time I am in a relationship someone gets hurt. I should just avoid them all together." I said. Alice laughed.

"Bella, don't worry it will all work out in the end." She said trying to reassure me.

"Do you want some coffee or tea?" she asked me. It was late and I just wanted to get some sleep.

"No thanks. I think I am going to go to sleep now. I have to be up early tomorrow." I said standing up. She nodded understanding. I gave her a hug.

"Good night Ali, thanks again. Love you."

"Night Belly, love you too. Your welcome." Alice smiled and I went into my room. Sleep that night did not want to come. I tossed and turned all night. By the time I fell asleep, it seemed like only five minutes and then my alarm went off. I got up threw on some clothes and grabbed a small cup of coffee. Alice left a muffin for me on the counter. I smiled at her thoughtfulness and left to go to the campus. One guy in my class, Jacob, came over to me. I just wanted to be left alone.

"Hi Bella." He said. I plastered on a smile.

"Hi." Then I continued to take notes.

"Are you ok? You seem upset." I was friends with him but we didn't hang out outside of classes or anything

"I'm fine." He eyed me.

"Don't lie to me. If something is wrong you can tell me."

"Thanks Jacob but I just want to be left alone right now." I said politely. He nodded.

"I understand." Then he got up to left. When class ended I got out of there as quickly as I could. I walked passed Edward; we didn't even glance at each other. I longed to be next to him. Then that girl Tanya ran up to him. I rolled my eyes and continued to my next class. Lunch was tense. Edward and I didn't speak so Alice and Jasper were in the middle of it all. I truly felt bad so I got up,

"Alice, I'll see you later."

"Where are you going Bella?" she asked standing up. I gave her a hug and whispered in her ear, "I can't be here right now." Sadness filled her eyes, "I'm sorry. I only have one class left so I am just going home."

"It's ok. See you later Belly." She said. I walked away. I practically ran back to my apartment, trying to get away from everything and on top of everything it started raining. The weather matched my mood tremendously. I sat on the couch and read my book. At one point I fell asleep and I was woken up by two voices.

"Alice leave her alone. She needs her rest." It was Rose. I opened one eye.

"She lives!" exclaimed Alice.

"How are you holding up?" Rose asked me. I shrugged.

"Fine I guess. I've been better."

"Want to go out tonight? We were thinking just us girls go to dinner." Alice suggested. I didn't want to go, but I wanted to make it seem like I was really fine even if I wasn't.

"Umm, sure. No Bella Barbie right?" I asked not wanting to get all dressed up. They shook their heads, "No just a simple, casual night out to eat." Alice said.

"Ok then I am up for it." I said attempting to smile.

"Great! We are leaving in ten minutes." I nodded. I decided to change my clothes and attempt to do something with my hair. I put on new jeans, a shirt and a zip up hoodie. I just put my hair in a messy bun.

"Are you ready Bella?" Rose asked from the living room. I walked out of my room.

"Yup, let's go." I said. It might be good to get out with the girls especially after everything that has happened. We went to a nearby pizza restaurant. It was really good.

"Bella!" I heard someone call. I turned to find the voice and I saw Jacob sitting at a table near ours.

"Hi Jacob." I said and smiled. He walked over.

"Are you better now?" he asked. I nodded.

"Much better." He smiled.

"Jacob get over here!" someone yelled. Jacob looked back at his friends.

"Well I'll see you tomorrow. Bye" he said. I waved and he walked away. Rose and Alice were eyeing me.

"Who was that?" Alice whispered.

'That's Jacob. He is in two of my classes." I told both of them. They changed the subject. I constantly found my thoughts focused on Edward. Welcome back depressing mood. Alice and Rose noticed.

"Bella, do you love Edward?" Rose asked. I sighed.

"Very much, more than life itself." I confessed. They both smiled.

"Then you need to go after him. You can't let him slip through your fingers. I don't doubt that he loves you." Alice said. We finished dinner. Alice was staying at Jasper's tonight. When I was getting ready to go to sleep someone knocked on my front door. I went to go answer it. I opened the door and saw Tanya.

"What are you doing here? I asked more harshly then intended.

"I came here to tell you to stay away from Edward. You are making him depressed and it is getting on my nerves." She said.

"I am making him depressed? Wow, look I don't know you all that well but you seem like the type of girl who uses guys. You have no right to come to my apartment this late at night at tell me to stay away from the guy who was my boyfriend first. You don't know half of the stuff that is going in my life and his so just stay out of it." I shut the door in her face. I went back, climbed into my bed and cried. Cried over Edward and how I would probably never have the chance to be in his arms again. Cried over that fact that I would never have the chance to kiss him again. And I cried because I would never be able to say 'I love you' again. I decided not to go to classes the next day. Instead I stayed in bed. I didn't eat anything, I didn't talk to anyone. It was still rainy outside, and I hadn't seen Edward since that day I left school early. Late one night I decided to sit on the couch and listen to the rain fall. I turned the music on low and got lost in my own world. A knock at the door interrupted me. I got up ready to yell if it was Tanya.

"I do not want to talk to your fake tanned face." I said opening the door.

"Do I really have a fake tan? I thought I was rather pale." The voice that was music to my ears, belonging to a green eyed man I loved so much was standing at my door. I gasped.

"Bella" he breathed.

What is going to happen? :D sorry another cliff hanger :P