I'm sad. And angry... mostly sad :'( our poor boys...BUT! They will ALWAYS be winners in our minds =D
This is for Man-Suz-she =) I hope it's okay that I'm doing the other suggestion/request instead of "Sober" (this song was easier for me to do).
Disclaimer: I do not own BTR or the song.
Mama never told me how to love
Daddy never told me how to feel
Mama never told me how to touch
Daddy never showed me how to heal
Mama never set a good example
Daddy never held mama's hands
Mama found everything hard to handle
Daddy never stood up like a man
Logan Mitchell feels tears come to his eyes. His boyfriend, Kendall Knight, examines him with great concern.
"Logie? What's wrong?" Kendall asks, wrapping an arm around Logan's waist to pull him closer.
Logan shakes his head and stands up quickly. "We have to end us!" The brunette cries.
The taller boy rises to his feet. "W-what are you talking about?"
"We just can't do this!" Logan screams. "I can't do this!"
He runs past Kendall.
Out the door.
He runs out of the Palmwoods.
And into the streets of LA.
Logan had never felt the way he had with Kendall. Not even when he was with Camille. Logan knew it was wrong though...being with his best friend.
Or did he?
Logan never knew what love was. He didn't know how to feel, or when to feel it. At least, until he met Kendall.
But was it even love that he felt then? Logan wasn't sure. That was why he broke up with Kendall. The night before, Kendall had told Logan he loved him.
Love.
It had always been foreign to Logan.
I walked around
Broken
Emotionally frozen
Getting it on
Getting it wrong
Logan slows to a walk. He shivered as wishes he had a jacket. The brunette sighs and breathes out.
He feels frozen inside. His heart feels like stone.
Logan knew nothing. Absolutely nothing about being in a relationship with someone. He had failed to keep Camille.
He knew that he had lost her twice. First when she and James kissed, then when Logan had tried to get her back; but she was with a guy named Steve.
"I just can't get it right," Logan says in a whisper.
How do you love someone?
Without getting hurt...
How do love someone?
Without crawling in the dirt...
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
But Camille wasn't the first person who Logan had failed with.
There was his first girlfriend, Lena Collins. Logan thought he could make something of them. He thought she could be the one he was looking for.
He was wrong.
Lena had used him. Used him so she could get back together with her ex. Lena told Logan that she, nor anyone else would ever love him.
Logan was heartbroken that day. He knew he messed up. The sun did not shine that day. Logan was virtually trapped in a world where the clouds blocked the light.
I was always the chosen child
Their biggest scandal I became
They told me I'd never survive
But survival's my middle name
Logan stands with his back against a wall of an alleyway. He slides down until he is sitting down. He runs a hand though his short dark hair. His face is wet from crying.
"What's wrong with me," Logan sobs.
He wanted to be stronger. Not physically. Emotionally. So stronger he became.
Logan got over Lena. He remained isolated from love as often as possible.
I walked around
Hoping
Just barley coping
Getting it on
Getting it wrong
The day is leaving and night had begun to rise. It casts shadows on streets. Logan can just here sirens in the distance.
He instantly knows they are police. They are searching for him. Logan doesn't care. He thinks, so what if they find me?
How do you love someone?
Without getting hurt...
How do love someone?
Without crawling in the dirt...
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
Logan sees the flash of lights again.
Hears his name being called.
"Logie? Logie, where are you?" The voice belongs to Kendall. Logan bites his bottom lip as he starts to cry again. Then...Kendall is at his side. "There you are; I was worried."
Logan is embraced in the blonde's arms. He looks up into those beautiful green eyes and sees that Kendall has been crying as well.
Kendall pulls the smaller boy to his chest and buries his face in the crook of Logan's neck.
"Why did you come searching for me?" Logan chokes to get the question out. "I'm nothing special...I'm not worth it."
It's hard to talk…
To say what's deep inside
It's hard to tell
The truth
When you've always lied
Kendall moves back. "How can you say that?"
Logan knows why he's saying what he has.
Because of Lena.
And Camille.
And the very fact that Logan cannot be loved.
How can someone who doesn't know love, be loved?
Logan shakes his head and stares at the ground. He is unable to look Kendall in the eyes. "I-I just...I can't..." Logan cried. "You have to understand that no one can love me! No one can be with me!"
How do you love someone?
Without getting hurt...
How do love someone?
Without crawling in the dirt...
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
How do you love someone...
And make it last
How do you love someone...
Without trippin' on the past
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
How do you love...
How do you love someone?
Someone...
Kendall cups Logan's cheek with one hand. "But...I love you," Kendall says in a gentle voice.
Logan sighs. His eyes close shut. "I'm sorry Kendall...It's just I...I can't..." He opens his eyes again.
Dark brown meets bright green.
Electricity sparks between the two as they share a breathtaking look. They are only centimeters apart.
Finally.
There lips meet in a heart-stopping kiss. Kendall wraps an arm around the back of Logan's neck to put more force on their lips.
Until…
They pull away and rest their foreheads together. "Let's go, everyone is worried about you," Kendall whispers. He takes Logan's hand and helps him up.
Kendall wraps an arm around the smaller boy's waist. Logan rests his head on the blonde's shoulder.
Logan breaths come out slowly.
He is thinking.
Wondering if he can really do this…do this without letting his scarring past romances tear him down.
Logan let's the questions flood through his mind as Kendall leads him into light.
I'm still very depressed so, sorry if it's bad…ya know what, I'm gonna make a video for our BTR boys! Yup, that's what I'll do! C'mon people, let's show them some support =)