Okay everyone this is the end of the road for this fic. I'm really sad about this fic being done. I think that this is one of the best chaps that I have posted I hope that all of you like it and will read my new fic that I'm going to post which will be the Leah & Embry fic. Om a little bit about it there will be sex, drama, jail, imprinting, babies, and anything else that i throw in the mix. It's going to be good. So i hope that everyone will stay tuned for that. Om I would just like to think everyone that left a review and has taking the time to read this. It's over which is really cool for me becasue it's the first thing that I got done. Well.. here is the last chap I hope that you all like it as much as I do. R&R one last on this fic for good luck 4 the next one. thanks & i luv u all bunches //Back 2 Earth//
Disease
I Miss You
Everyday Your Gone
Its Killing Me To Be Without
Without You
I Cant Make It Alone
Baby Can We Work It Out
I Miss You
Its Fatal You Know
Girl I'm Gonna Die Without
Without You
Tell Me What To Do
Girl Cause I'm Missing You
I was laying on the couch when I got the text from him. It's the first time that he has made any contact with me since I left La Push a month ago. I haven't done nothing for a month but laid around in a state of heartbreak that I have never experienced before and now I get a text from him ripping another tear in my heart as if there wasn't enough already. When I read it I the words touched my heart so deeply It made me wonder how someone so far away could be feeling the same thing that I was feeling.
The Imprint
I really was a mess, I hadn't been out of this apartment since I got off the plane and came home. Nikkei tried to be helpful giving me words of wisdom telling me that it was all be okay. If only she knew that a love like this you don't get over. You live with it for the rest of your life no matter if you give into it or your the one left out of it. Either way you live it until you die, and when you die the other person dies a few days after you.
Yep
Love on it's own is a sickness, but Imprinting is a disease, the worst of them that takes every once of your life slowly. A disease that there is no cure for, no medication can clam the symptoms, no therapy can help you build up the strength that you once had. Your marked for death a miserable time consuming death. Dragging you to the darkest pits of hell. There is no chance for surviveal no matter what you do.
I couldn't stop looking at the message, I wanted to delete it and never think of it again yet here I sat staring at it. Memorizing every word of it over and over again. He missed me, as much as I missed him. I wanted to hit the reply button but I didn't know what to say. It was never going to work, he wouldn't be happy with damaged goods like me.
He could do much better then me, someone that would drag him to his death
I was just about to send him them exact words when the front door came open with a gush and Nikkei stood there with an arm full of stuff. I looked over at her not making any effort to move from where I was at.
" Om..A little help Leah!" She said sarcastically
I got up and grabbed a dvd that was slowing making its way to the floor " Right on it." I told her as I throw the dvd on the table in front of the couch and took my place back to sitting on it. Not even looking back to see what all she had and why she was making so much noise. I went back to staring at the empty screen on my phone thinking over what I was going to send back to let him know that I wasn't ever coming back and I wasn't giving into something that would never work out in the end.
" LEAH!?" Nikkei yelled standing in front of me holding two cups.
I looked up at her focusing all my attention on her " Yeah, why you gotta yell when your right in front of me?" I asked reaching out to take a cup from her.
She handed it over willing with a smile " I've only been talking to you since I've been here and you have been off in Leahland or something." She rolled her eyes taking a seat next to me. " So, I'm giving up a Friday night to sit at home with you and help you through whatever it is that's got you down, You've been home for a month and haven't went out of this box. I know that this is over a guy and it's not like you to be this down over a guy. So here I am.. We're having the total girls night in and your going to get better so that we can be happy again."
After her speech she hit her cup against mine and took a drink. I laughed and followed her action taking my own drink. Nikkei put on The Notebook and me and her sat watched it and got drunk. We really didn't talk and when we did it was about something other then the reason for this girls night that she was having. I was having a nice time but it still didn't get anything off of my mind. I would still look at my phone every now and then thinking of something that I could write back.
" So Leah tell me what's going on with you?" Nikkei looked me in the eyes sincerely
I took a deep breath and finished my cup throwing it on the table " It's nothing really, just a guy that it's never going to work out with so why worry about it." I stated not making eye contact with her, knowing that my answer wouldn't be enough for her.
She laughed at me picked up my cup and went to fill it back up " Well, after this the bottle is done and we still haven't worked through anything so you better be ready to talk we still have a whole night." She stated happily as she brought my cup back to me.
I already had a really good buzz going on so I knew that after this cup I would be drunk, a feeling that I would normally welcome but I wasn't trying to let it really catch me tonight because I knew that there was a good chance of tears. I took a drink anyway might as well try to drink my pain away even if it wasn't going to work.
I deiced that it would be better for me to start the conversation with Nikkei " Okay, say that you knew for sure that you was meant to be with someone, but your heart is telling you one thing and your mind is telling you another."
She looked at me with big eyes I had caught her attention. " Okay, so how does this someone feel about the person that feels that they are there soul mate?" She asked beating around the bush as I had.
I laughed at her taking another drink. " Well, I really don't know I mean I think that they like the person and have liked the person for a while but they don't know that they can do so much better then this person, that this person is only going to bring them down and isn't capable of doing anything right."
" Uh Huh." She mumbled deep in thought. " So...These people have knew each other for a long time and feelings just now came into there relationship and it's all meant to be and everyone came see it even the person debating there feelings but the question of what if is standing in the way?"
I shook my head yes smiling because she was hitting the nail right on the head.
She smiled back at me taking a drink and then her whole face changed to a hard look " Well I think that this person whoever she is should stop being so hard on herself, I mean if she has time to think of all the bad that could come from something then she must not be that bad of a person if she's trying to save someone else from heartbreak that she doesn't even really know will come. I think this girl needs to stop being self-centered and think about the other person involved and give them a say in things, Because I'm sure that they can see all the good things that other people can't and they might be the one to save the girl from the biggest enemy that she has."
" And who is that?" I asked really not knowing the answer.
She rolled her eyes " Herself silly girl, look Leah you've been miscible for a month and if you didn't get over it after the first few weeks maybe it's not something that you need to get over. Listen to your heart and not that crazy mind of yours for once." She laughed before she wrapped me in a hug. " Leah, your a good person and have grown allot since the first time that I met you. You mean so much to me you're my best friend, my sister, the peanut butter to my cups. I love you and think it's about time that you did something that made you happy." She whispered in my ear as she rubbed my back.
I let myself go in her arms and cried. I cried for the way that Sam and had hurt me. I cried for the way that I was just so mad after it happened. I cried for having to leave home to find a peace of mind. I cried for going back to La Push, then for leaving it again. I cried because I had already hurt the only person that might ever love me, my imprint. And I cried because through it all I realized that I was stronger then I ever thought I could be. Then I ever knew that I was. I was strong enough to listen to my heart this time and let the love I felt inside of it over rule my mind. I was strong enough to let myself be happy.
Nikkei stood up after I got myself together " So when should I start packing?" She asked me smiling
I looked up at her laughing I should have knew that this time she was going to go with me because she knew this time I wasn't coming back " Well.. I want to be there before my birthday."
She looked at her phone " So in about a month and a week?" She asked counting up the days in her head so that she would have them exactly right.
I laughed " Yeah, something like that I'm going to let you know now that La Push is nothing like you have ever been through."
She laughed " Well, LA was something that I had never done so what's a rez going to do to me?"
I laughed at her as I got up walking in to the bathroom with my phone there was something that I had to do. It was time that I made things right between me and my Imprint.
I get butterflies just thinking the word
I pulled out my phone taking a deep breath I was going to text from my heart
Embry, look I have issues and it might not ever work out with us
No, Leah that's not what you you wanted to say
Okay,
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
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That's not enough
Look, I'm letting my wall down and I have issues but I want to work through them with you I'm willing to try if you are.
I stopped texting after that just to give him time to read all of them a think about what I was saying. I don't know I expected him to text right back I mean it had taken me almost a whole day to say anything back to him after his text, so I couldn't expect him to text me right back. After a few hours I felt hurt because he hadn't said anything to me. Nothing I checked my phone again and again to see if I had missed it. Yet every time I checked there was nothing new. So I read over his message again and again wondering if I was too late. If I had hurt him enough to say the hell with me. If he had realized that he could do better then me. That he himself could imprint on a girl and love her better then he could ever love me. Maybe he didn't want the imprint he deiced that he was going to fight it. Even if it did bring the death of him. Because death would be so much better then having to live with me for the rest of his life.
Why did I ever belive that someone as great as him could really be missing me.
I laid down in my bed keeping my phone close to my side checking every time that I would drift off and come back making sure that my phone still had all it's bars and that it was working right. I was restless waking up every hour or so the whole night. I had just woke back up when I heard something hit my window. I was going to count it off as rain until I felt something in my heart tell me to get up. I rolled over and tried to fight it, but whatever was on the other side of that window was pulling me to it.
I pulled myself off the bed making my way to the window I was on the third floor so I knew that it was really stupid of me to be looking but I couldn't fight this feeling I had to look. I pushed the curtains back drawing the shades up and looked out at the starry night LA sky free of clouds it took my breath away every time that I looked at it. You could see all the lights from the buildings and tell that down below people was still out having a great time, it would be hours from now before people started calling it a night.
I looked down and my heart spasm inside of me sending me a sention that I only have felt once in my life. My breathing slowed to the point that I wasn't even sure if I was breathing anymore
There he stood leaned up against the side of a taxi with a single white rose in his hand, looking up at me. My heart was screaming at me to go down to him, so I did what Nikkei said and listened to it slipping on my slippers running out the apartment leaving the door open behind me. I felt like I was floating as I made my way down the three flights of stairs. I pushed open the big doors and there he was standing there waiting for me.
I stopped when I was standing right in front of him looking up at him into his eyes, the tugging on my heart so tight that I thought it was going to be pulled out of my chest. We just stood there silent for a while.
He gave me a quick smile that didn't last long enough to warm me the way his smiles always did. Taking a deep breath looking deep into my eyes he started.
" Leah, when your dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest thing to do. But I want you to know that if you want to wake up I will be here. I could look a million girls in the eyes and not one of them would be able to make my heartbeat the way you do. I would walk a million miles just to see you smile, your everything that I have always wanted and something that I never thought I would ever deserve. And for some crazy reason fate was on my side, I was blessed with a beautiful angel with broken wings that I can help mend. You're my Indian Princess and I will do everything to be you knight, to protect you, care for you, be all that you need. I belive in us." He put his head down breaking the eye contact and I felt like my world was rushing away from me.
" Embry...I...I...want this." My voice was shaky as I said it given that I was on the verge of tears.
He pulled me close to him enclosing me in his strong warm arms. " Leah, you don't know how long I've waited to hear you say that. I love you tonight, I loved you the night you imprinted on me, and I will love you for the rest of my life. You're my everything and I will never do anything to ever break your heart and I know that you won't break mine either I have fate in us Leah and that's what will keep everything all right."
He looked into my eyes showing me that he meant every word that he said. I pushed myself closer to him not wanting any space between us.
" I love you." I whispered so low that only he would hear it and with that I was at peace.
Standing there wrapped in his arms I knew that all my fears had been pushed aside and he was the one thing in my life that wasn't going to let me down. And that everything happens for a reason. The reason that I had to go through all the bad was so that when I got to the good I would appreciate it. I had really been blessed to have everything that I did in life because most people don't ever find there soul mate and I have. Embry was put here for me. To love, care, and heal me. He is the pull that brought me Back 2 Earth.
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