A/N:

So we finally get to hear from Edward. Shall we see what he has to say for himself?

As always I do not own twilight.

I HIRED MY HUSBAND AN ESCORT

Chapter 10

Edward's POV

Life has always been easy for me. I have been given almost everything that I ever wanted as I was growing up. I lived in a huge home with my parents, sister, and brother. I never wanted for anything; I asked for something, and I got it. All that was expected of me was to do as I was told, no questions asked.

My father is a doctor, and because of this he was gone a lot. I knew there had to be more to it; did doctors need to go away that often? My family has always been close. We never question one another; we're just there for each other, whenever we're needed.

I've always done everything that was asked of me; it's just the way it was. I cleaned my room, and I got excellent grades in school. I became a doctor, and I married my high school sweetheart. That was the one and only time that I ever questioned my parents. They pushed me to marry her. I asked time and time again, why so soon? I had just graduated college; why did I need to rush? I wanted to be free for a while.

The weekend before graduation, my father and I had our first and only fight. I proposed the following weekend.

Flash back. The fight:

"Mom said you wanted to see me?" I ask my father as I sit across him in his office.

"Yes, your mother said you're not sure you want to propose?"

"I just want to wait. We have been together six years, but I have been so busy in school. I just want to relax for a while. I want to live a bit, and take time to enjoy each other."

"Why? Do you plan on leaving her, finding someone new? After six years, do you just now want to explore?" he asks.

"No, that's not it at all. I love her, but I want to make sure we can last. We have both been so busy with school. We've never even lived together. I want to get married once, and only once. I want to make sure that I have the love you and Mom have."

"I married your mother when we were both young. It was what my dad wanted, and it worked out great. You also need to understand Son, that I know what's best for you. There's more to this family than you can even begin to imagine. Things you aren't ready to know. I can tell you that you need to marry her, and do it soon. It will be your job to take over the family business one day, and when that time comes, you will understand the reasons that you must marry her. No questions asked. " My dad was always firm, but he was normally reasonable.

"But why Dad, why do I need to be married to take over the family clinic? That makes no sense. I can run it now without any issues. I don't understand what the rush is. I'm twenty-two I can make my own choices. Are you trying to tell me this is some arranged marriage?"

"Sure you can make your own choices, but I've raised you not to question me. I understand you think you are a man now, and are capable of running everything. Maybe that's true, but you need to know that there is much to this family and life that you don't understand. Things you aren't ready to understand. One day, you will know the truth, but not now, not yet. And no, this is not an arranged marriage, but I can say that it was a lucky coincidence. You could not have picked from a better family if I had done so myself. The question is, can you live with her forever?"

What the hell does he mean, "this is not an arranged marriage, but I can say that it was a lucky coincidence? You could not have picked from a better family if I had done so myself." What the hell is going on? There's something he is not telling me.

"Yes. I think so. I've never been with anyone else, but I'm sure it's love. We've been so busy with school, and work to get on each other's nerves. There has always been so much other stuff going on, I just want to be sure we can make it forever. I've never been in another relationship, how do I know if this is what I want? I am not saying I want to leave her, it's just that I wanted to spend time together when things were calm…" He cut me off.

"There are no buts, Son. You must marry her, don't wait for something to go wrong. There are incentives to getting married now you know. One is money. You will not get any of your trust funds until you are married. The day you marry, you get half with the other half being given when you have been married for five years. I know that it may sound harsh, but you will one day understand. I have not asked much of you, but you need to make the choice. You can never know the whole truth until you are married. It is just the way it has to be in this family. Make her your wife or leave her."

"Dad, you can't be serious. What is going on? You can't force me to marry someone." I'm getting pissed and starting to raise my voice at my father. This was something that no one does.

"Do not raise your voice at me. No questions, it's the way it has to be. We need to keep her family close; you will understand when you are ready. There will be no more talking about this, now go help your mother with dinner."

End Flashback

I did a lot of thinking that night. There were so many things I didn't understand, but as always no one questioned my father. I did love her and want her for the rest of my life. I didn't know any different. She was comfortable, safe, and we never fought. I was also greedy and wanted my money. So sue me, I now have more than enough to go around. Tanya doesn't even know about all the money, even after all these years. The next weekend, I asked her to be my wife.

I've spent the last four years trying to making her happy. Always wondering what my dad meant that day. Life was complete in the beginning. We had so much fun, but things changed. I changed. I met new people at work, and I saw how life was outside of school. I began to wonder if I made the right choice. I still had so many questions about the words my father spoke that night but never dared to ask them. So I kept on going like life was perfect.

When she said she wanted a baby, I agreed. I was hoping it would bring the passion back. Five months ago, things changed a lot. I started to learn what my father was talking about four years ago. I began to learn why he pushed me to get married, and it scared me. It still does sometimes.

I learned a lot about my family and was shocked to hear the truth. I learned that all the times my father was away when I was a growing up, was not always due to being a doctor. My father was not the outstanding doctor and citizen that everyone thought he was. My family has dark secrets. I've been beginning to learn these secrets; learning to accept, and embrace them. It is now my responsibility to help with and one day take over the family business. I need to decide if I want this responsibility or if I want to get out. So, between the stresses of learning the family business; that I can tell no one about, and the stress of trying to have a baby, I have pulled away.

I am beginning to question so much in my life. Why is this being thrown at me now?Why couldn't I have learned this sooner? How could my family keep this from me? I don't know how to deal with everything. I began to take out my anger and frustration on her. It wasn't intentional. It started out with me venting to her, knowing that she would be there for me. It soon grew out of control.

Things have been getting worse at home. The past few weeks I've been going out with my brother Emmett a lot. There are nights that I'll crash with him and his wife, just so that I can be free. It's hard to deal with everything that is changing in my life, and Emmett understands. He found out the family secrets six months before I did. He has it a bit easier though. He is not the one they want to take over everything. That job falls on me.

The one night of not fighting is worth the hell I have to deal with when I get home. I know that I don't love Tanya the way I once did. Is it because of time, or my family, or myself? I may never know. I do know that I have some choices that need to be made, and they need to be made soon.

The last few weeks have all gone the same. I go to work at the hospital, then work with my family. When I get home, the first thing I do is shower. It's my time to unwind, and think about the day's events. It's my fifteen minutes of peace. Now she thinks I'm cheating on her.

I mean, yes, I can see how my actions could lead her to think that, but does she seriously think that I could do that to her? I would never cheat on her. I am not that man. Yes, I am being an ass, and not telling her the truth about everything, but I can't. And after what my dad told me tonight, I am not sure I want to. I don't know how she'd take news like this. So the new fights just add to the stress. I don't know how much more of this I can take before I break.

A few weeks ago, I found a way to release my stress. I was at the bar and met Katarina. She is stunning. My wife is a beautiful woman, but Katarina is breathtaking. When she sat next to me, the air changed. It was like it was charged with a strong electrical current that only we could feel. We talked that first night about stupid things. It was easy and carefree, effortless. There were no demands on me; no one yelling at me, competing for my attention.

It's so easy to talk to her. She listens to me. She hears me, and she doesn't judge me. It's as if she understands me. I feel she's the only person that I can talk to. In a way, she is the one person I'm not worried about letting down, or her letting me down in return. I'm worried about her being honest, she had no reason to lie to me, or keep things from me; she doesn't know me. I hate it when things are kept from me. I've had too many people run my life from behind the scenes so to say.I don't have these issues with her. She not involved. She has no ulterior motive. It's an incredible feeling.

So, all this family drama, both with my parents and wife, is what brings me to where I am today.

I got home late again and just wanted to shower and go to bed. When she came in the bathroom, I couldn't help but watch her. I caught her looking at me in the mirror, and I just stared in her eyes as she watched me shower. I was looking for answers. I was looking for anything that may help me make my choice.

When she joined me in the shower, only to beg, and plead with me to touch her, make love to her, I gave in. I tried to make love to my wife tonight, but I just didn't feel connected to her. Not like I used to anyway. I tried, maybe I should have tried harder, but I just couldn't do it. I had to get out of that shower.

This, of course, led to another fight, so I left. I couldn't stand to hurt her any more than I already have, but I couldn't stay there either. So I went to the bar. I will admit that I was hoping to see Katarina. I needed someone to talk to; someone that I could be mostly honest with.

As I was walking to the bar tonight, I was hoping that she would be there. I needed to see her. I needed to feel that current between us. It made me feel alive, normal, and human. A part of me feels ashamed for feeling this way while my wife was at home, but I couldn't stop it, besides it was only talking. I needed to make a choice soon. I could not keep stringing my wife along much longer. It isn't fair to me or her.

As I walk into the bar and spot her, I feel like an enormous weight has lifted off me. She is sexy as hell. She's sitting there at our normal table, in a tight red dress that appears to be showing off all her curves. I can't help the fact that my mouth is watering. I quickly swallow, and walk to the table. "It is just talking, talking is not cheating," I tell myself over and over as I walk to her.

Somehow, she knows I'm there, before I even speak. Does she feel it too? Does she feel the pull, the current that runs between us? I greet her and sit down. We talk for hours, about home, life.

On my way back home, I begin to think of how I got myself into my current situation. After I informed her about my wife's plans to go to the spa, she asked me to go away with her and I agreed. I agreed to spend a weekend, with someone who is not my wife. Yes, I said we would get separate rooms, but does that make it any better? I want to get closer to her, to know her better. I am surely going to hell for this. Why don't I feel guilty? What does that say about my marriage?

A/N:

So we know a bit more about him. We will learn even more from him soon. He will start to reveal some more truths about him and his family.

Here is a peak at chapter 11

"As I walk into the kitchen, I'm met by the most delightful smell. When I see Edward at the stove, my heart skips a beat. I'd be a fool to say that he's not a handsome man. In fact, I've never seen a man more gorgeous than him. There he is, making us dinner, still dressed in his suit. He's taken the jacket off and rolled up the sleeves of his shirt to his elbows. I swear the temperature in the kitchen just rose twenty degrees."