Hatch
I wake up and decide to get up. Locke will be gone for most of the day with Boone so I decide to go down to the beach. I have my water and sunscreen and lay my towel down in the warm sand. I lie down and untie my bikini top around my neck and I see Sayid and Shannon talking and looking at something. I smile and lay my head down. They are adorable; I hope they end up together.
I open my eyes and flip to my back. I hear Sayid and Shannon start to argue. She then storms off and all I can think is "Ugh". I scan the beach and see people moving things around, maybe away from the beach to the caves. I decide to not just go over and help out because I am in my bikini relaxing for once. The sun feels so nice on my back. I just think to myself what Locke has uncovered about that metal we found. It kind of annoys me how much he is on my mind. No guy has eve captivated my mind this much before. Could this be love and if so what do I do next?
I've been down here soaking up the sun for hours now and I pick up my stuff and try to find something to distract me from my confusing feelings. I see Kate sitting staring out at the ocean and walk over saying "Hey" as I sit down. It takes her a few seconds before she returns the greeting. She looks distressed and I ask "Are you ok?" She continues to stare at the waves crashing on the shore and replies "Yeah"
"Do you want me to leave? We don't have to talk if you just want company… I know that helps me when I'm anxious or whatever" I say trying to comfort her
"Yeah ok, thank you" she says and I nod and look out copying her gaze. We sit in silence together for a while and then Jack comes walking toward us with a silver briefcase. Kate turns around and sees him. He walks up and looks at her. "We are gonna do this together" he says. I look at her confused. She asks him why and he responds with "Because that's what I said we'd do" and he walks off. "Umm rude" I say to her. She gets up and follows him. I get up and decide to help people move stuff farther up the shore; it's nearly sundown.
By sundown I am back up at the caves sitting around the fire next to Kate. She is holding a toy plane, was it in the briefcase? I look around and see Charlie crying talking with Rose and also Sayid and Shannon talking. She starts singing in French one of my favorite songs. I assume this is their make up, thank god. Jack then turns to Kate beside me. She is staring at the plane. I just stare into the fire wondering where Locke is. I hope he is ok. I head off to my shelter and go to sleep
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I am woken up by the sound of the tarp door being opened. I turn over and see Locke. I quickly get up but fall to my knees because I'm basically half asleep, so I just hug his legs. "Where have you been" I sigh "I've missed you, was getting worried" I say. "I was with Boone at the hatch again" he replies. I let go of his legs "Please come here" I say scooting back on my side of the bed. He sits on the bed and I hug him properly, kissing his neck slowly not letting go of him. "Ugh I missed you" I sigh. I seriously love this man and I'm not sure if I should say something now or wait until a better moment, if there will be one. As I think I lay down as does he. I then rest my head on his chest and he put his arm around me. Listening to his breath is so calming, I quickly fall back asleep.
I wake up and the sun is just rising. I see Locke is gathering supplies to head out to the hatch again. I rub my eyes and kneel over and wrap my arms around him. "Hi" I say
"You're up early" he says
"Yeah, Must be well rested for once. Headed to the hatch?" I ask
"Yes. Packing a few things then will head out"
"Umm" I say hesitating "Do you think I could come. No one is up yet so they'll have no idea" I say. He looks back at me and then looks back to his backpack and says "Yes of course" I smile and gather a few things to bring, and then we head out.
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We have been clearing the extra dirt away from the sealed door of the hatch for hours now. We all sit down for a break. Locke is mixing something. I watch him in awe, he knows so much and I am mesmerized by basically every thing he does. Boone then walks over and says "That glass isn't breaking and the door's sealed shut. I think its cement." Then looks to Locke and asks "What is that". Locke looks up but didn't hear what he said so Boone repeats "What is that, the stuff in the bowl."
"It's for later" Locke replies. Boon sits besides Locke on the opposite side of me and then starts to go on about how they have been out here for a couple days and what are we doing. I turn to Locke because this is my first time being here since we found it and he clears his throat
"Ludovico Buonarrati, Michelangelo's father. He was a wealthy man. He had no understanding of the divinity in his son, so he beat him. No child of his was going to use his hands for a living. So, Michelangelo learned not to use his hands. Years later a visiting prince came into Michelangelo's studio and found the master staring at a single 18 foot block of marble. Then he knew that the rumors were true - that Michelangelo had come in everyday for the last four months, stared at the marble, and gone home for his supper. So the prince asked the obvious - what are you doing? And Michelangelo turned around and looked at him, and whispered, sto lavorando, I'm working. Three years later that block of marble was the statue of David." I look at him and smile. "Wow" I say impressed. "You really know the way into my panties." I feel my cheeks turn red, forgetting Boone was there. "Oh god, Shit… sorry." Locke laughs and then looks at Boone who is just staring at me like what the fuck. Thank god Boone speaks up breaking the silence I made so awkward.
"We're not going to stare at this for 4 months, are we? How are we going to open it?"
"Well, that's what we have to figure out. That's why we're sitting here. I mean, how do you open a hatch that has no handle, no latch, and no discernible way of opening it?" Locke replies. We all then look to the hatch door.
We start to head back to the caves when Boone interrupts the pleasant silence. Talking about hoe we need to tell everyone what we found and what we are doing. Locke then says that we don't even understand it so they won't either, so why bother telling them just to add unnecessary panic. "Look, at least I've got to tell Shannon" Boone says. "Why?" Locke asks. "What do you mean why? She's my sister… you get to bring your late night lay so why can't I tell my sister"
"What the fuck did you just say" I say sprinting up to him. "What the fuck. Say it again" I say right up in his face. Locke pulls me away. "Motherfucker" I say toward Boone, angrily sighing "Hush, calm down ok" Locke tells me.
"She can keep a secret. I just want her to get off my back" Boone says.
"You sure you want to do this?" Locke asks with a serious tone.
"Yes I'm sure" Boone replies without a beat.
"Have you thought of the ramifications to telling her?" Locke asks
"Yes" Boone replies
"So be it…" Locke says as he knocks him unconscious in such a swift motion I gasp when I look back. "Locke Jesus Christ… Warn a girl, you scared me.
"Sorry" he says
"He should be sorry…" I say looking at the ground. "So am I really you late night lay" I ask. He looks at me with the softest face I have even seen on him. "No way, are you serious" he says walking toward me. "I'm sorry to have what he said get to me but you know what I've dealt with in my past and…" I trail off. He bends his finger under my chin and tilts it up so I'm looking at him. I look in his eyes for a moment and then look away. "What is it? You can tell me anything you know that" he says softly. "I just feel differently than I ever have before and it scares me" I look at him "I think I'm in love with you John" I say. "Shit" I mumble to myself and turn the other way, embarrassed by this. I hear him walking. I assume he is walking away. How could he love me anyway? Our age difference, everyone always says I'm crazy for wanting anything serious with an older man. I start to walk as well; this is probably it for us. Why did I have to say anything… we were fine.