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Chapter Ten

After a lazy day around the hotel room in the afternoon I put together a bag for our day trip to the Hall of Fame. I think I was more into it than Cristina. I was looking forward to the history of music of the bands, I know they have some films to watch, costumes and other memorabilia from the bands. Cristina has been a real champ going there for me. I think we are both looking forward to end of the trip. I was tired so I told Cristina I needed an early night tonight. I gave Sofia a bath, got her comfortable on the bed, turned on the TV to entertain her for a while. I came out of the bathroom and Cristina and Sofia were sound asleep on my bed, instead of moving Yang, I climbed into her bed hoping sleep would come quick.

I laid there trying not to think, I even pulled out my nighttime mask hoping the darkness would lull me to sleep. I heard my phone ringing I knew the ring tone, it was my dad letting me know that he heard from Arizona. She apologized to him for letting him down and not being the good man in the storm. As I listened to my dad tell me about the conversation they had, I was very surprised. He said he never told her where I was, but said he would get a message to me. I laid there thinking after hanging up from my dad, he said he would support whatever decision I made. I knew I could not just turn around and go back either. I was so torn. You think I would have learnt a lesson from making hasting decisions, I was so hurt I didn't think of all the consequences.

I woke up hearing Sofia crying for me, I threw back the covers to get up and grab Sofia to put her next me in bed before Cristina woke up.

"Shh Sofia, it's okay, come on lay down with Mommy for awhile." Sofia put her head on my chest and played with my necklace as she settled down. I heard Cris ask if she was okay.

"Yeah, she's fine, probably having a bad dream that's all."

"I am going to get up shortly, get us breakfast so we can get out of here at a decent hour Cal."

"Alright, I am rolling over for an hour if Sofia lets me."

Well we made it through the Hall of Fame with wonderful memories. I even think Cristina really enjoyed the history of American music. We are about to check into the hotel in New York, and once we do I know I need to tell Yang how I am feeling. We arrived at our room, I arranged to get one with a kitchenette, figuring we might be here for a little while. Sofia was so excited to be out of the car as well. I stayed with Sofia while Cris and a bell hop unloaded the car. We emptied most of it to the room to have access to everything. I knew once that was done I would just go get some groceries for a week, the hotel supplied the dishes with some pots and pans.

I put Sofia down for a nap asked Cris to watch her while I ran to the store for us. This gave me a chance to think how I wanted to tell Cris how I was feeling. I felt my phone beep in my pocket, I pulled it out and saw it was an email from Arizona. I sat in the car looking at it for awhile then decided to read it.

Dear Callie

I want to start by saying thank you for the pictures of Sofia. I cannot express in words how much they mean to me. Meredith let me watch the video of her on the Dumbo ride. She looks so happy.

I am Sofia's Momma.

I will always be her Momma. I don't want that to change.

I need you to know how deeply sorry I am. For hurting you, for betraying you. I never intended to hurt you. I have no explanations for what I did. I am having trouble rationalizing it to myself. I am working through my issues in therapy, I want to be better. I am making progress, it is so hard though. I know I should have done this a long time ago, for all our sakes. I wasn't ready before. But I am now

I understand that you probably do not wish to speak to me, but if you could call me, just let me know how you are both doing, where you are, I would appreciate it.

Arizona

I sat there reading the email from Arizona. I closed my phone laid my head back to gather my thoughts before going in for groceries.

I finished shopping putting the bags in the car when Cris called asking for beer and wine too. I laughed and said sure I will bring booze too. Told her I should be there shortly. I decided to bring back Chinese food for dinner. I pulled up to valet parking to make things a little easier with all the bags. Another bell hop came over to help me out with getting the bags to our room. Cris was ready to open the door to give us a hand. I tipped the bell hop before he left while Cris put away the refrigerator items. I heard Sofia calling for me.

"Sofia, big girl, why are you crying sweetie?"

"Momma," Sofia sniffled, "Momma."

"Oh Sofia, Momma is home getting better honey, come on, snuggle Mommy. I have your favorite tonight Sofia, some chicken nuggets with some juice and apples."

I had Sofia settled down eating at the time trying to restore some normalcy to her. We were eating dinner, not really talking, when I blurted it out that I only wanted to sign a contract for six months to Cristina.

"Callie, are you okay?"

"Yeah, it's just I don't really think I am making the right the decision, Cris."

"I know Torres, I agree with you, maybe we jumped the gun but let's give it a try, we will ask for a six month contract, look for either an apartment or house to rent for six months. If it works out we buy a house, if it doesn't we return to Seattle."

"I got emails from Arizona and Meredith saying she is getting some help. Arizona said she still wants to be in Sofia's life as well. She didn't mention the divorce papers. She has asked me to call her."

"Are you going to call her Cal."

"I will after we get settled some with the hospital and a place to live. I want to get Sofia set up with daycare and in a routine."

"While you were out shopping I called the hospital to set up a time to go meet the chief, I told them we would like the same day so we could switch off watching Sofia. I thought we could get a feel for our surroundings, see what they have to offer for a place to live. Maybe you should email the realtor, let her in on what we are thinking for a six month lease too. She might have some contacts for us."

"Alright Cris, thanks for understanding and yes I will email the realtor after I clean up the kitchen. I feel better knowing we are not committed for longer."

Cristina poured us some wine while I did the dishes, Sofia was playing with her toys when I said, "Have you ever thought about you and Owen adopting a child rather than you giving birth, or are you just so set not to have any children?"

"I just never wanted kids Callie, I just wanted to focus on my career, to be a world famous cardiologist. I want to perform miracles. Now, when I see Meredith with two kids, you have Sofia, I see things a little different too. I know Owen would make a wonderful father, I just don't know if I am capable to be a mom Torres, that is what stops me. Going to parent conference meetings, soccer games or any sport. I didn't want to leave the hospital to go pick up a sick kid. I have been watching all of you do it and honestly, you all do it so well, but what if I fail? Or find it a burden?"

"Do you find Sofia a burden through this trip, and be honest Yang, or do you feel that Zola or Bailey was?"

"Honestly? Not with Sofia, but Meredith had a hard time shuffling between work and the kids."

"Arizona and I did too you know, and you know she never wanted children either but she was willing to change because she loved me. Then Africa happened and it wasn't the way we wanted to start our family, but we made it work because we loved each other. I will not tell you it is easy because it is not by any means, but when you have that bad day they make it better is all I will say."

"I know Torres, it gives me a lot to think about, I am not sure what Owen wants anymore."

"Send him an email, find out where things stand. This break will be good for all of us I believe."