A/N: So I'm back from my cruise and got this together to post this morning then FF decided to piss me off and not let me log in, then RL happened when the issue was finally fixed so now I'm posting it tonight
Hope you Enjoy
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the characters in my head Stephenie is one lucky lady.
I hung up with Edward and slumped down in the chair at Charlie's desk. " That is not how I envisioned that phone call going." I humphed.
" What you though he would be shooting rainbows and glitter out his ass, doing cartwheels and jumping up and down, you freaking dropped a nuclear bomb in his lap Bella."
" God I know Rose do you need to be so damn harsh all the time, I." I paused not knowing what to say.
" You what Bella." Rose was picking at her beautifully perfect manicured nails.
" I, I just thought that maybe he would be happy to hear my voice." I paused again what was I really expecting. I blew the hair that had fallen in my face out of the way.
" Listen Bella I've tried to be nice about this but shit is about to go down and you girl need to put on your big girl panties and be prepared for his anger. I know you want to blame yourself for everything that happened but the truth is Bella, the only person that is to blame is Charlie he made a choice and because of that the three of you have suffered a great deal." She came over and sat across from me at the desk.
" Look I'm not really good at sugar coating things, Edward is hurt and confused do you fault him for that."
" No absolutely no, I get it I just thought that maybe just maybe he would not be so angry."
" Bella you fucking did not give him anything with that phone call just that you were alive and he was a father to a little girl." Her voice was raised.
I hung my head in shame, she was right I dropped a huge bomb in his lap and gave him nothing to explain it. " I know I just wanted to do it in person I thought he deserved that then over the phone." I whispered. Hot tears were streaming down my face
Rose came over and kneeled in front of me. " Sshh its going to be fine, Emmett texted me right before the plane took off, he said Edward's emotions were all over the place but one emotion stood out and that was for the first time since Edward came to live with them he saw a glimmer of hope cross his face. It came and was gone quickly but he saw it that's got to count for something right. Darling he's just confused."
I love it when her Texas twang comes out; I could not help but start to giggle. " Darling." I tried to mock her but I sucked at accents.
" Please for the love of God never do that again you Bella Swan can not do accent's." we both started laughing.
" Feel better yet?" Rose asked.
" Yes and no, I'm scared shitless right now, I don't want Harper here, but then again would that be fair to Edward."
" You mean you don't want her here when he gets here?"
" I just think it would be safer if she was not here when I drop then next bomb, you know what I mean, he's going to be hurt I just don't think it would be wise, is that selfish of me."
" No Bella its not selfish, I think your right maybe Sue can take her out for some ice cream, I'll have Sam drive them into town on the way to pick up Edward and his family he can go back into town and pick them up later what do you think."
" That sounds like a good plan." A knock on the door came and I heard my sweet little girl's voice announce that dinner was ready and Sue expected us down in five min.
" Guess we are being summoned to the kitchen." Rose stood up and walked to the door she stopped and turned around. " You know what I think the princess is going to be the bridge between the fire."
She walked out of the room leaving me perplexed and confused what the hell was that suppose to mean. I caught up to her as she was walking down the stairs then it hit me Harper would make it possible for us to cross the fire to each other she would be a bridge.
Rose turned her head and smiled, she knew I figured it out. " You think it's possible."
We kept walking down the stairs " Bella whether you guys are standing on that bridge together as a couple or standing there together as friends raising your beautiful daughter, you are going to be in each other's lives and Harper and for that matter Lucas will be responsible for that."
She was right, Harper and my beautiful baby boy were our bridge, I just hope that Edward does not crush the bridge and we all burn. We walked into the kitchen Harper was sitting in her usual spot coloring a picture. I walked over to her and kissed her mess of copper curls on her head.
" What are you coloring princess?" I looked at her picture, she had drawn a Christmas tree and around it was what looked like a family holding hands. I did not need to ask her to know who the people in the picture were.
" It's a picture of you, me and daddy looking for a Christmas tree." I drew in a breath.
I knew what I needed to do. " My sweet sweet baby girl that is the best picture ever, can mommy take a picture of it."
She nodded her head and kept coloring. I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and snapped a picture of her coloring. I waited till she was done with the picture then snapped one and sent them off to Edward with the captions. Our little girl coloring, one of her favorite pastimes. And this is what she drew enjoy. I knew he was probably in the air and would not receive them till he touched down but maybe they would softened him a little bit.
I wanted to eat I was famished but my mind was racing I knew Edward would he here in less than an hour and I needed to get Harper out of here without her being all nosy why she had to go with Sue.
" Hey Sue, um I was thinking maybe Jennifer could bring Riley to the ice cream shop and you could take Harper, Sam could take you and bring Harper back when you guys get done." Rose asked. I mouthed a thank you to her.
" That would be great Riley has been asking about getting together to play, let me call Jen and make sure they are free, it will be great for Jen too she's going stir crazy if that baby boy does not show up soon I think we are going to have world war three on our hands."
We all laughed yeah I knew how she felt although I spent the last 2 weeks of my pregnancy with my babies in bed in a hospital only being allowed to get up to use the bathroom then back in bed. I thought Jasper was going to go insane I was batshit crazy but pregnancy hormones make you do that. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
" Harper do you want to go get Ice cream with Sue and Riley." She bounced in her chair and nodded her head.
" Are you going to come too mommy." She looked at me her emerald pool's mesmerizing me.
" Sweetie mommy needs to get some things done so Santa can come tomorrow night."
" Oh okay can we go right now, I want to go right now." She bounced in her seat.
Sam came in to the kitchen. " Mrs. Swan the Eagle will be landing in about twenty minutes we need to get going." My heart leapt out of my chest he will be here in forty minutes.
" Okay." I whispered. " Let me just get Harper's coat and boots, Leave the dishes Sue I'll get them it will give me something to do."
" Okay darling there is some hot cocoa simmering on the stove for our guest's." she whispered in my ear so Harper would not be able to hear.
I walked down the hall to the coat rack to retrieve Harper's coat and boots; I bundled her up in her pink bubble coat and slipped on her brown snow boots. " Be good for Sue okay." I kissed her nose and hugged her tight. Oh my sweet angel I hope when you get back tonight your daddy will still be here and you get your Christmas wish.
I kept busy washing the dishes and cleaning up the kitchen, Jasper and Rose knew well enough to leave me alone to my thoughts they both were sitting in the family room waiting on me to pull myself together.
" Bella, Sam just called and said they are pulling into the drive right now, you better hurry your ass up in there." Rose quipped.
" Don't get your panties in a bunch Rose I'm just setting up a tray for the hot chocolate."
" Ooh trying to win over the family with your domestic skills huh."
" Shouldn't you be in here doing the same bitch."
" Love you too." She came and helped me fill the tray with the marshmallows and the crushed candy canes and we brought them and set them on the coffee table I started pacing in front of the fireplace, my fingers found their place in my hair a nervous habit of mine."
" Stop you are going to look like a freaking troll doll." Rose grabbed my hands and pulled me down to sit on the brown microfiber sectional.
" Could be worse she could be biting her nails." Jasper said hiding behind the newspaper he was reading.
I picked up one of the red pillows and hurled it towards his head. " Ass." I missed by a long shot it bounced off the back of the couch and landed on the hardwood floor.
" We need to work on your aim Darlin." Jasper chuckled; he folded up the newspaper and set it on the coffee table. He stood and reached behind the couch and picked up the pillow hurling back at me and I tried to deflect it but was to late it hit me square in the face.
" That my girl is how you throw a pillow at someone's head." We all started laughing then the sound of footsteps coming down the hall stopped us. I must have stopped breathing cause Jasper was standing next to me telling me to breathe.
Sam's figure came into view, and then I heard his velvety voice ask where I was, and my world was turned on its axis as I laid my eyes on the most beautiful man on the planet. We both stood there starring at each other not one of us moving, I wanted to run and jump in his arms the last five years fading away, I felt like I was standing there on the platform again in Chicago.
A throat clearing behind Edward broke our gaze and Edward stepped out of the way of the offending noise, Emmett came through the doorway from the hall. Rose waived shyly and the rest of the family came into the room.
" I'm sorry please come in and sit down." I pointed to the couch, Edward stood off to the side while Emmett, what I assumed was his mother and father and his sister came and sat down. " Do you want some hot chocolate."
" Sure." They all said.
" Our house keeper Sue makes the best." I poured them all a cup. " She even crushes up candy canes to put in it." I was holding out the bowl.
" Enough of the pleasantries where the fuck is my daughter?" Edward spoke with venom. I dropped the bowl the candy cane pieces flying all over the floor. Tears sprung to my eyes as I dropped down to pick up the pieces of the bowl that shattered as it hit the floor.
" Edward behave." The women with caramel hair said looking over at Edward. " Dear are you okay, she got down on her knees beside me helping me with the mess.
Jasper appeared with a dustpan and broom and swept up the mess. He hugged me and whispered " Do you want me to kick his ass for you."
" I'll take a rain-check." He kissed my head and walked out of the room.
" She is having a playdate with a friend at a ice cream parlor, she's with our house keeper who I trust with every fiber of my being." I whispered softly. I don't know why I said that, why I feel like I have to defend my parental skills.
" So what you are saying is that you got her out so that I could not see her how very smart of you."
I turned from starring into the fireplace to starring into his fiery emerald pools. I shot daggers at him how dare he question my motives. " I am protecting her, I would like to do this without five year old ears close by, I have that right as her mother to keep her from getting hurt."
" And what about my right as her father, oh that's right those were taken away from me five years ago."
I looked around the room everyone's eyes were bouncing back from me to Edward. " Look we are not getting anywhere yelling at each other can you please sit down and let me explain things."
Edward left the doorway and went and sat beside his sister on the couch he motioned for me to start. I had no freaking clue where to start though and I started pacing.
" God women you are giving me whiplash would you stop pacing please." I stopped in my tracks at Edward's words; my hand found its way back into my hair.
" I don't know where to start." I mumbled.
Edward's sister spoke up " How about you start at the beginning."
I nodded and took a deep breath, ready or not
" Well December 23rd was like any other ordinary day in Chicago, it was cold and the snow was heavy, I woke up and finished packing my bags I had just said my last good-byes to the only parent I had in my life. She died of breast cancer, she wanted her ashes scattered under the Golden Gate bridge, we had planned to take a trip there during one of her summers off from teaching we were going to take the train, something that my mother always wanted to do, but then she became ill and we never got to go." Fresh tears streamed down my cheeks I wiped at them. Jasper came and sat by me on the hearth wrapping his arm around me I looked up to see Edward gritting his teeth.
I took another deep breath. " I waited in my driveway for the taxi to pull up the wind was whipping my hair around and it was bitter cold, the taxi pulled up and I got in that's the last thing I remember before waking up in a hospital bed 2 weeks later." I heard gasp's all around me everyone had stunned looks on their faces.
" What do you mean that's the last thing you remember? Edward asked.
" When I woke up I had no memory of anything that happened after I got in the taxi, I woke up with tubes coming out of arms and this handsome gentleman sitting by the side of my bed." I pointed to Jasper. "And another man who I found out was my father standing in the doorway to my room." I looked up at Edward.
" They told me they found me by some train tracks in Utah, I had a very bad head wound, they think I must have hit the rocks by where I was laying they had no clue how I got there. I was very confused and disoriented, when the doctor's came in they said that I had amnesia. They did not know when or if I would get my memory back."
" So you don't remember anything that happened." Edward's sister asked.
" How awful." Edward's mother came and sat by me on the hearth putting her arms around me.
" Up until a few months ago no I did not remember anything but thanks to Jasper taking me back to the place it all started slowly the pieces all came back together."
Edward was sitting there stone-faced. " So why did it take you so long to go back, why now?"
He had a point and one that I did not have a great answer for. I took another breath " With everything that happened after waking up I needed to focus on healing, then when I found out I was pregnant and had no clue how it happened my focus became the baby inside me I guess I was afraid of what I might find out. I could have been raped for all I knew. Don't get me wrong I wondered everyday who the father was, I… I just did not want to see me little girl hurt."
" And did you ever once think about how hurt her father might be when he found out." Edward hissed. " I fucking loved you for Christ's sake, I thought for five god damn years you were dead. My heart and soul were ripped from my body and thrown in a fire, all the color in my world faded and yet all this time you were alive why, why was I lied to do you have an answer for that?" He was up and pacing in front of the couch.
I hung my head, I knew he was going to be hurt when I told him everything but would he still love me, did he still love me? Jasper squeezed my hand, my rock.
" Edward, if you can sit down I will try and explain things, it's going to hurt hearing some of these things but let me get it all out before you ask questions please." He nodded his head and sat down. I don't know how I'm being this strong. I can feel the pull towards him so strongly and I just want to wrap myself up in him and just leave this ugly world behind, pretend like we are still on the train and that none of this happened but I cant.
" We can't go back and change what happened I don't know if I really would want to, I or I should say we have a beautiful daughter because of it. Who's too say you would not have walked away in the beginning I only pray that you want to have a part in her life now."
" I do Bella, god I do I… I just don't understand things I'm confused as hell and very deeply hurt I missed out on so much of her life and that my choice to stay or go was taken away from me."
" I understand I'm sorry your not the only one that had choices taken away." His head snapped up with my confession. I was about to drop another bomb in his lap with the news of Charlie.
" Until a few days ago I had no clue how I ended up in the snow by the tracks then I broke my wrist and everything fell into place, like it was fate. I guess I passed out from seeing your picture and my mind became very clear, while I was out everything came flooding back to me. You bumping into me on the platform, feeling the jolts of electricity race through my body with your touch. Me tripping my way into the dining car you once again saving me from my face hitting the floor." Everyone chuckled even Edward had a slight grin on his face.
" Sitting with you discussing the merits of fry sauce Vs ketchup."
" That's why you like that barfy looking stuff." Emmett piped up. Edward just shrugged his shoulders.
" Emmett that stuff is the bomb, don't knock it." Everyone turned to look at me. " What it is."
Edward motioned for me to continue. " I remember you coming to my seat and offering me your bed for the night saying it looked uncomfortable sleeping upright."
" Manwhore." Emmett said under his breath, I think he got 4 slaps to the head, one from Rose who was sitting right by him, Alice who was sitting on his other side, Edward's father reached across Rose and slapped him and Esme got up and slapped him too.
" Ouch," Emmett rubbed the back of his head.
" You're a big oaf you know that." Alice piped up; I looked over at Jasper he was smiling brightly at Alice. Alice turned and winked at him.
Oh good lord, think Jasper has a crush, I rolled my eyes. " As I was saying before the idiot with the dimples opened his mouth." Everyone except Edward laughed. " You invited me back to your train car, which I gladly accepted and we all know what happened after that." I looked up to gauge Edward's reaction and he was looking down at his lap but I could she a slight smile.
" I don't, care to share the details." Another round of slap's to Emmett's head ensued.
" Ouch would you guys stop doing that." Emmett rubbed his head again.
" Stop being a doofus and maybe we would stop hitting you." Rose smiled at him.
" We have a beautiful daughter because of that night, you're a doctor Emmett would should know how babies are made." Edward looked up into my eyes and gave me a sexy smirk I felt the blush creep up my cheeks and I think I just swooned right off the hearth.
" Well who's to say she's even Edward's I just wanted to make sure the deed was done." My eyes bugged out of my head how dare he. I was about to get up and go slap him myself when Esme slapped him hard.
" Are you fucking insane Emmett Cody Cullen." Everyone's jaw dropped. " One look at that beautiful little girl and there is no mistake, you would have to be blind not to see she looks just like her daddy."
" Ma I was just trying to lighten the mood, of course she looks just like Edward."
" And here I thought you were going to be trying to win this beautiful women sitting next to you over." She turned and looked at Rose. " I will not hold it against you if you want to drop kick him to the curb."
Everyone laughed " See the mood is lightened."
" Oh Emmett just sit there and look cute don't open you mouth anymore." Esme patted his cheek and went and sat by her husband who kissed her on the cheek.
I turned to Edward " She's yours I promise, I have the paternity papers if you want them." Edward looked up at me in surprise. Shit I got ahead of myself.
" Just let me finish the story it will answer most of your questions." He nodded. " After we um you know, we must have fallen asleep I was woken up by some man shaking me and yelling at me to get up, I tried to wake you up but you would not open your eyes I was scared and felt so alone, they told me to follow them if I did not comply they would shoot you." Edward gasped.
" So I got dressed and followed them out of the car the man behind me held a gun to my back and pushed me through the train to the doors they ordered me to jump, I was afraid and told them no they said they would kill you if I did not jump off, the train was slowing down and I knew what I had to do I took one look back and jumped off the train." I took a breath not ready to tell them that my own father threw me off the train.
" When I first started remembering what happened I could never see the men's faces but in the sitting in Emmett's ER it all came to me, the man that threw me off the train was the same man who stood by the side of my bed day in and day out until I was released." Edward looked over at Jasper and I shook my head no.
" No Edward that man was my father, Charles Swan."
It must have clicked in Edward's head; he got up off the couch. He looked like he was ready to punch something. " You have got to be fucking with me, no, just fucking no."
I stood up and went to stand in front of him. " Listen I'm not going to sit here and defend his actions cause I'm still really pissed at him, but he thought he was protecting me and I kind of get it. I would do anything to keep our little girl from getting hurt, but still you had a right to know that you had a daughter and he took that away from you. One would have thought that out of anyone on this planet he would have felt a little bit of compassion for you. My mother took that away from him he had no clue that I existed until Jasper tracked him down imagine the horror he felt when he saw me lying there and knew he was the one that put me there in the first place."
Edward looked at me, his eyes softening a bit. Tears were forming and I could see he was trying to hold them back. " He…he told me you were dead and it was my fault, for fives years I have blamed myself, everyday I felt like a failure for not protecting you, for bringing you into my world. It was selfish of me to want you so much but I had not control I needed you.
I reached out to him, to comfort him but he turned away from me. It was like a punch in the gut. " I'm sorry, I can't say sorry enough but it was out of my hands Edward, my father drugged me so I would not remember. I was the perfect subject for a drug the government had come up with to block the memory of people they took hostage. I was the first and the only one to last as long I'm sorry." I cried and sat back down on the hearth.
" Look you don't know hard it was for me when they told me I was pregnant, I had no clue how it happened the last thing I knew I was still a virgin. Everyday waking up with a human being growing inside of me and not know who the other person involved in the miracle was killed me. I wanted to know so badly I would get so frustrated trying to remember things that it nearly killed me, I knew that I had to just move on for the sake of my health and the babies." Shit got ahead of myself again.
" Did I hear you right did you say babies." Edward was shooting daggers at me again.
" Yes I found out I was carrying twins at my 10 week appointment the doctor thought she heard two heartbeats and ran an ultrasound to check sure enough there were two heartbeats and two sacs."
I looked around the room everyone had their eyes trained on me. I hung my head feeling very ashamed of the next bomb to drop, they are going to hate me I just know it. " Everything was on track and I was scheduled for my twenty week ultrasound I was excited and nervous, the ultrasound tech put the wand over my huge belly and I saw my babies, she checked out baby A a perfect baby girl who would be the first one to make her appearance in the world." I paused and took a deep breath to calm my nerves but it did not help and the tears started flowing, Jasper hugged me tighter and whispered words of encouragement in my ear.
I could not control the sobbin.g " And then she moved on to baby B a little boy, I was ecstatic I would have one of each, she finished her check and put the wand back in its holder on the machine next to the bed then left the room, I was confused, the tech and the doctor came back in the room, my doc said she wanted to look at baby B's heart again they thought there might be something wrong but not to be concerned it was routine if anything abnormal came up in the check it felt like hours before the doctor asked me to come back to her office with her, I was scared.
" The look on the doc's face told me everything, something was seriously wrong with my little boy. I felt like I was standing in a tunnel and all the cars were zooming past me, I could not focus on what the doctor was saying I missed everything she said, she came over to me and held my hands and that's when my whole world was shattered my little boy had half a heart."
Edward was clutching his fist his face growing redder, Esme, Alice and Rose were crying Emmett and Carlisle were whispering, I'm sure making their own diagnosis's and Jasper held me to his side keeping me upright.
" Bella." Carlisle finally spoke up. " Are you saying that your little boy our grandson had HLHS?"
" Yes."
" Okay can you dumb it down for the rest of us not in the medical field please." Alice looked to her father.
" Mary Alice HLHS is a condition called hypoplastic left heart syndrome." Carlisle explained.
" One again dumb it down please."
" It's a condition in which the left side of the heart does not develop and now the right side has to take the work load, the left side pumps all the blood in your body so now the right side has to do that, most of these babies do not survive the first hours of life."
" Is it not curable, that can't do anything to fix it." Alice asked again.
" In most cases if found before birth and after birth yes they can, the baby needs to go into surgery within the first few days of life, they are put on medicine to keep the ductus arterious open so the blood can get through, in most normal babies this closes right after they take their first breath but with HLHS babies they want to keep it open."
Alice nodded her head.
" Sorry Bella I should have let you explain that." Carlisle looked over at me.
" Its fine I always have a hard time explaining it to people you did a good job." He nodded and let me continue. Edward was starring at me, I think he knew what I was going to say next.
" I was very scared, Charlie set me up right away with the top doctors who deal with babies with congenital heart defects in Seattle, I was told that not only was I high risk cause of the twins I was now extremely high risk and I would need to try and go to full term for my little boy."
I took a breath. "At thirty weeks I started having contractions and they put me on strict bed rest in the hospital I was only allowed to get up to use the bathroom, then at thirty one weeks once again I took a turn for the worse I started showing signs of pregnancy induced hypertension. To dumb it down for you Alice my blood pressure skyrocketed. They wanted to take the babies right away but the pediatric cardiologist talked them out of it and put me on meds to try and bring it down it worked for a week then one night all hell broke loose I had a seizure and they rushed me into the OR put me under and brought the babies into the world. When I woke up a few hours later confused as to what happened they told me that the babies were doing okay they were both very tiny and were both on oxygen tubes the meds I took to help with lung development helped but they were too tiny. Harper grace Swan was born at ten fifty five p.m. weighing 2 pounds and my little fighter Lucas Charles Swan came in to the world two minutes later weighing just 2 pounds also. They told me that Lucas was stable enough to under go his first surgery the next day. They wheeled me into the PICU to see him, he was so tiny my heart was filled with joy at being able to touch is little hand."
I took another breath and wiped my tears, " Jasper and I took turns going from one room to the other, Harper was in the NICU while Lucas was in the PICU, Lucas made it through his first surgery with flying colors my heart broke for him, lying there tubes coming out of every orfus, a million machines beeping keeping him alive, his chest left open so it could heal, the nurses called it a zipper."
And here comes the hardest part of all, how do you tell someone that their child died, that you could not do anything about it. " Lucas took a turn for the worse his spiked a fever of 105.2he got an infection, I knew he was not going to pull through it and begged and pleaded the nurses to let me hold him, they finally gave in and my little boy passed away two minutes later after they placed him in my arms." I could not see through my tears reliving the nightmare did me in and I turned and sobbed into Jasper's neck. I heard Edward get up and storm out of the house the front door slammed, and I lost it again.
I felt warm arms encircle me and hushed whispering of I'm so sorry's over and over. I looked up into the green eyes of Edward's mom. She kissed my head.
" I'm so so sorry I tried to do everything but it just wasn't enough sorry." I hugged her tight.
" Bella, honey look at me it's not your fault it was gods will, he's in a better place and his heart is whole once again, you can't blame yourself."
" Edward hates me."
" Hey look at me, he might not be my blood but I know him better than anyone he just needs some time to process it all, in the span of a day he found out the love of his life is alive, he is a father to a beautiful little girl and a little boy that had a rough start at life who is now in heaven just give him sometime he will come around."
I stood up " I need to go to him, I need him." Esme released me and nodded her head in understanding.
" We will just wait right here you take your time okay, he loves you very much Bella."
And I was off running down the stairs; I flung open the front door and took off down the front steps I could see the outline of Edward's figure walking down the driveway.
" Edward, please stop." I called out the wind was whipping my hair in my face and the snow started falling making it difficult to see if he stopped.
" Please stop, if not for me for your daughter she needs you, I need you." I begged. He stopped and turned around.
And then he was on a dead run back towards me. We collided in the middle of the driveway, and I was in the arms of the only man I knew I could love. I inhaled him he smelled almost the same minus the tabbaco smell. " You quit smoking."
He chuckled. " Esme made me."
" That's good."
" You smell exactly the same." he took a big whiff at my neck and then sobbed. " Bella, my love my angel you're here, your really here, we have a beautiful daughter, and a little boy." He gulped.
" I'm so sorry I tried I really did."
" Hush it's not your fault, god baby I should have been there, it should have been me not that other guy what's his name."
" Jasper."
" Yeah him, is he your boyfriend, lover, significant other."
" What, no." I took his face in my hands. " It's only ever been you." And I crushed my lips to his taking him by surprise, our lips melted to each other igniting a fire inside me, I was no longer cold, I was toasty warm, and finally I felt like I was home.
A/N: hope you enjoyed them meeting up, remember this is my story and its a work of fiction yes, yes HLHS is a real condition and yes babies and children die every day from it, if I got something wrong I'm sorry
this story is not beta'd
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