Bette and Tina were sleeping after going to bed at 2 a.m. Having six months old twins, a six years old daughter, a house and jobs was not a good combination. Bette has just returned to work after five months of maternity leave and now the twins were in daycare in the mornings. Tina was on leave for two months also that finished three months ago.
Today had been chaotic because Angie got sick at school so Bette had to leave early and pick her, take her to the hospital where they told her she has the stomach flu so she needed at least three days off and a lot of water and medicine. By the time they left the hospital Tina had leave job earlier too and picked the twins that were especially moody because they were getting new teeth. Angie had been sick on Bette twice and had been crying to sleep until 1 a.m that was the time that the twins choose to wake up and cry.
At five in the morning Bette woke up to the sound of crying from the room beside her, the twin's bedroom. She was going there when Tina's arms wrapped around her waist and take her to bed again, kissing her hard on the mouth.
-Babe, I have to go take care of the twins, is time for a feed –Tina kissed Bette ribs and stomach and Bette giggle- Babe, our boys wants us
-Hmmm…I'll go with you
Before they can open the door of the twin's bedroom they heard their daughter's voice calling them so they looked at each other and decided that Tina was needed in Angie's room because their daughter always says that Tina is the one that always can calm her and the twins are breast feeding so they need Bette.
Bette enters the boys' room and found Lucas up on his crib, grabbing the bars and crying for someone to pay attention to him. Michael was still sleeping but Bette knows that he would wake up soon. She goes to Lucas crib and grabs him, hugging her little boy.
-Hi, baby boy, are you hungry? –Bette found her answer when Lucas grabs her boob and try to found the nipple. She chuckle and sit down on the chair getting in the pleasure of feeding her son- Yeah, you are definitely hungry. Let something for your brother.
Three minutes later Tina enters the room with a sleepy Angie on her shoulder, she leant into the doorframe and smiled at her wife that was humming at Lucas while he fed. When Michael started making noises Bette looks in T's direction and smiles.
-You are going to take her to our bed, right?
-Yeah, if you don't mind.
-No I don't, go and take her, I would take care of the boys, Lucas is almost sleeping anyway.
When Lucas get away from her nipple Bette left him on his crib and tucked him, kissing his forehead. Michael starts crying and Bette knows in a moment why.
-Ohhh hi Mike, how are you today? –She takes him on her arms and hug him and she also smells his diaper –You need a change, c´mon.
She changes his diaper and then gives him some milk but he get away soon and stay awake, looking at her with his big brown eyes, matching her eyes. She needs him to sleep for at least two more hours so she hums a song to him and he at first keeps his eyes open, stunned by his mother voice but then, at the slow song, his eyes starts to close, slowly and he yawn and his grip on his mother pajama shirt lose forth.
-Ok, Michael, now to sleep that is super early.
So Bette return to her room but stop in her track at the sight that she has in front of her: Tina has Angie against her chest and is touching her curls softly, trying to make her sleep and when she looks at them she discover the similarities between the two of them. Angie's eyes are the same hazel color as Tina's and her lips are the same also.
She walks slowly, trying to not disturb her daughter and get into bed in the other side of Angelica that looks at her and smile.
-I'm poorly mommy
-I know sweety but moms cuddle would make you all better, like they always do when I am poorly.
-Can you sing me a song?
-Of course baby girl
Tina pass Angie to her so Bette can put her mouth to Angie's ear and she grabs her mother's pajama shirt the same way her brother had done before. Bette, in that moment found the perfect song to sing her daughter, the first child that she held in her arms.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
Ooh, baby
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand, I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
By the middle of the song Angie had lose her grip on Bette's shirt and now she was fully sleep so Bette put her in the middle of the bed, and together, in sync, both mothers kiss their daughter's forehead.
-I truly believe in that song, you know? And not only was I singing it for Angie, I was singing it to you too because is true that everything I am today is because of your love for me. Your love, Angie's love, the twins love.
And suddenly Bette start to cry so Tina wraps her arms around her and kiss her on her lips and both think the same thing with this kiss, the first kids that they shared in the SheBar Bette started crying and Tina kissed her to calm her. After she is better they go to sleep with their arms around their daughter.
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Bette left work at four like always and went walking to Angie's school. Her daughter was in piano classes and she stay listening to her for a few minutes until the teacher told her that her mom was here and that was the moment when she left the chair and run to her, wrapping her arms around Bette's legs.
-Mamma B, mama b, I know a new song and we learned how to read new letters today. I want to saw you later, peeeease!
Bette pick her daughter in her arms and hug her –That's awesome pumpkin, you would read with mama T and I later. Say bye bye to Ms Rogers.
-Bye bye Ms Rogers, see you Monday
-Bye Angie, have a nice weekend
Bette put her daughter on the floor and took her hand while they walk through the street to her sons' daycare. When she gets there the receptionist say hi and let them enter the classroom where the remaining babies are sleeping or listening to music. Angie loved to listen to the music so when she enters the class she sits with the one and two years old.
-Hey Lucas! Mike! Look who is there…is that mama B?
The teacher signal to where Bette is and the twins look at her with smiles but soon Bette smile open big because Lucas, wanting his momma more than his brother, put himself in all four and then give impulse with his little arms and stay on his feet, alone. Bette starts crying when she sees this but she open her arms big for him. Lucas take some brave steps before he fall to the floor but he doesn't care, he want his mama B so he do three more steps and soon he is in his mother arms, receiving kisses and hugs for no reason according to him but he was very happy with it.
Bette put him on her right hip and go take Michael in her left hip filing him with kisses and hugs too. He had not walked, but he was her little boy nevertheless.
-You will see when we go home and tell this to Mom Lucas.
When they get home Tina was not there yet so Bette put the boys in their carpet that was in the middle of the living room so she can see them from the kitchen and told Angelica to do was she pleased until it was time to set the table. When Bette was finishing the fried chicken and noddles Tina enters the house and Lucas, remembering the way his other mom reacted, did the same as before, get up and walk to her mother who wraps him in her arms and cry.
-BETTE, BETTE, DID YOU SEE THAT?!
-Emm…yeah…he did that a few hours ago when I picked them from daycare.
-Yeah mommy, he walked and fall but he got up and…and walked again.
The rest of the afternoon was bery quiet except for the sounds of the babies. Tina was looking at her plate like she can break it with her eyes and Bette couldn't stop looking at her and trying to know what she was thinking. When they bathed the twins and Angie an put them to bed after reading with their daughter Bette give Tina a glass of wine.
-You need it
-You don't know what I need, I don't want alcohol.
-T, why are you mad at me?
Tina sighed and get up, she made a few walks up and down the living room until she was less nervous: I don't know, I think I am mad because I wasn't there when he first walked.
Bette suddenly was angry too: You know I was not there when Angie started walking, right? I was not there for her first words either, T.
-Oh, yeah, crap I am sorry, I was an ass back then.
Bette started remembering…
"It was the month after Angie's first birthday and Bette was still feeling lonely and angry. Very angry. Every time she closed her eyes she found pictures of Tina: Tina in a white shirt and jeans in her old office, sharing their first kiss. Tina crying and telling her that she was in love with her and that she broke up with her boyfriend. Tina when they were on their first date. Tina's naked body the first time they made love and how scared she was. Tina's smile when she told Bette she was pregnant. Tina giving birth to Angie…
She also missed having her daughter with her all the time. She missed getting her daughter to bed, changing her diaper or reading a story to her.
Tina took everything from her. And that Henry bastard has all that she wants. He has her daughter and her wife. She is also scared because legally she is nothing to Angelica, not yet.
But today is her weekend with her daughter and she wants to enjoy it. She hears the door open and found Angelica WALKING to her. ANGELICA IS WALKING! She said internally.
-TINA, COME HERE, ANGIE IS WALKING!
Bette pick her daughter up and kiss all her face, the little girl giggle and kiss her making a Muak sound.
-I know, she did it yesterday at home. She is a big girl now, aren't you Angie?
And that was when all the color left Bette's face. She put Angie on the floor and went to the bathroom because she didn't want Tina to see her crying. She is unaware of Tina leaning against the door, crying too because she wanted to share the first walk of Angelica with Bette but she still has those hard feelings inside her.
-I'm going now Bette, I am sorry you were not there but we are not together anymore so…
And when Bette gets out a minute later she hugs her little daughter and run with her all around the house. She is going to enjoy Angelica and not focus on the first steps; she is going to be there for every other step she takes in life"
-You have to be there for every other step, for every first word and for every first smile. Now we are together and we experience our sons together.
-Yeah I am sorry; I have no right to be angry. I would be there for Michael's first steps.
And she was, two days later Michael was tired of crawling behind his walker brother so he stan up on his feet and make the first steps toward Tina and Bette that were lazing on the sofa. Tina spun him around and kissed his face multiple times.
-You did it my boy! We are so proud of you!
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-Ok guys, your uniform into the laundry, your shoes to the entrance and your socks into your feet. You can play until supper time.
-MAMA B! PLAY WII WITH US!
Bette smiled and nodded at her four years old son. She can't believe that her sons were already four and on preschool and that Angie was nine and a very beautiful girl. The twins said their first words at 14 months and they were talking without stop since they were 26 months old. They are very active and competitive boys. Angelica, on the contrary, is calmer and less competitive.
Bette remember their first word so clearly in her mind:
"Tina was making the children breakfast and Bette was getting them ready. She picked the dress for Angie and let her dress by herself, at almost six she was good at that. She went to the boys room and hear them babbling in baby language so she smiled at them and started changed Michael diaper. Then Lucas. She put them on the floor while she choose in what to dress them.
She liked Lucas in shirts and jeans and Michael in polo shirts and jeans. Lucas doesn't like shoes and Michael love converse. She picked a red shirt and jeans for Lucas with black shocks and a red polo for Michael with jeans and black converse.
She took them in her arms because even if they liked to run and walk all the time, at this time in the morning they preferred to stay in their mother's arms. She took them in both her arms and took them to the kitchen where Angie was setting the table and she put them in their high chairs.
Tina kissed Bette on the mouth with the usual protest from Angie and then kissed the forehead of the 14 months old twins.
-You want some food my boys? EH, say food!Food!
-Michael, say mama, mama B!
-No, say mama T, mama T!
-Angie! Say Angie!
-Lucas, what about you? Say mama B!
-No Lucas, say mamaT!
Both twins looked at each other's and said NO! at the same time. Both mothers looked at each other also and burst out laughing at the fun situation but then they stayed in shock because they had said their first words. A funny and perfect day to remember the first words"
Bette went to the living room after changing clothes and play wii with them. They started with wii sport playing tennis and they did some bowling but soon Angie was bored and wanted to play Mario Party. They also did that and by the time they finished it was seven p.m.
-Angelica, did your mother say something about being late tonight?
-No, she said she would be at her usual hour, before dinner.
Bette started to panic. She dialed her wife's phone but went straight to voicemail. She tried again but has the same answer. So she called work.
-Hi?
-John? I am Bette Porter-Kennard, Tina's wife and I am searching for her, she is not home yet and she should have been here forty minutes ago.
-Yeah, she left work over an hour ago. She should be there.
The phone started ringing so Bette hung up the mobile and pick up the other one that her daughter was offering her. She knew this call was bad, she knew it. Tina was not okay, she could feel it.
-Yeah?
-Mrs. Porter-Kennard?
-Yeah, is me.
-I am calling from the New York Hospital Center, your wife has been in a car accident, a drunk man forgot a red light and crashed against her, she is in surgery right now, you are her first in kin so…
Bette felt tears falling into the floor from her eyes, she has to grab the counter because she feels like she is going to collapse. She know she must me as white as a light and she knows that she has lost her ability to speak.
Angie saw her and get worried: Mama B, are you ok?
-Mrs. Porter-Kennard, are you still there?
-Hmm, I-i-I there soon
She hung up the phone and crashed into the kitchen wall, crying so hard that she scared her children. Angelica hugged her brothers to protect them, to assure them everything would be ok. When they were better and went to watch TV Angie went to her mother and hugged her. She knew something bad happened but she needed to calm her mother, like they always do with her when she has a tantrum or a bad day.
Bette mind right know was suffering, her heart was suffering too and all her body feels like she has been in Tina's car with her. She couldn't lose her T, not again, not after everything they went through.
-What's wrong Mama B? Is Mama T ok?
-A-An-NO –she couldn't speak correctly –She…she w-was in ca-car accident Angie, she is in the hospital.
-We need to go see her, come one Mama B.
-You are going to stay with Nana Peggy, you can't be there if…if…something…no, you can't be.
-K', you would tell me?
-What?
-If mom gets worse or she…she die?
-ANGIE, you are just nine, how can you think about dying?
-The grandma of my friend Lexie died a few days ago and my friend Hugo has no father, he died in the military.
Bette just hugged her daughter; she would not let her feel what it was to be without one of her mother. She was going to bring Tina back. She doesn't want to live without her.
AN: i HAVE MY INSPIRATION BACK! HOPE YOU LIKE WHERE I AM GOING WITH THIS!