Hello again, trying to move things along but is so hard! Hope you like this one!
i dont celebrate valentines day...but if you do, happy valentines day.
on to 10!
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After a lot of pacing and sighing Beca finally told Emily about herself. Beca talked to her about why she didn't want anything to do with Derrick, Derek or whatshisface; about how she found out and about how she would've love to talk to her mom about it. She never got the chance, but she knew she would've been ok.
Emily's reaction left her in shock.
The girl just run away to her room and slammed the door.
Beca was heartbroken.
She cried for the first time in ages all alone in her room. She wanted to be her sister's role model, her heroine… but what if after this… Emily decides to hate her because this new information added more drama and pain into their already unconventional life style?
Did she had to find a husband now in order for her sister to accept her?
Beca tried to call Ashley but her line was busy. Shit.
Why don't I have more friends? Wonder Beca sobbing.
Well…she did have one more friend.
"Fuck it. She said we were"
Beca looked through her contact list and pressed call.
"Hi Beca! How are you this fine evening?" Answer a happy but fairly tipsy Chloe Beale.
Beca sniffled a little before answering. "HI…hey Boss…I…-"
"Beca, are you ok? you sound weird…" the redhead asked worriedly getting sober by the second.
"Am I interrupting something? I don't want to interrupt you…you must be busy having a life or with people or maybe on a date…I don't want to inconvenience you with my shit…shoot sorry…language Beca!" she tried to giggle but it came out more like a sob.
"Ok Beca you are rambling, please tell me what is going on? Are you hurt? Where are you? You are kind of worrying me…"
Fuck it.
"I just came out to my sister and I think she hates me" She broke into tears. Beca was gay? unimportant Beale, focus!
"Beca, honey, do you need me to come over… I don't even know were you live but if you need me there I'll be! I'm sure Emily is just confused… you told me she was smart for her age but remember she is only ten Becs… give her a chance…please breath for me…"
"I am so sad I can't even function… she just left me there… not a word. I feel worthless…I don't want to lose my sister too…I already lost too much. I hate my life… I hate it!" Beca said with gritted teeth making her point by punching her thigh with her fist.
"Listen to me Beca, and listen good! you are brave, the bravest! Coming out to your family is nerve wracking, especially when they don't understand…and you are just a little bruised…not worthless. Never worthless. You need to understand this in order to explain to Emily once she is ready. This is what you are meant to be Beca, and I can imagine what things are going through your mind right now, and no…going "straight" is not an option if you ever want to be completely happy. This is you! Embrace it, show Emily this is ok, being gay is ok! everything will be fine Beca. Let her swallow this first…don't jump into conclusions…trust me."
"I'm sorry….i'm sorry to drop all this on you…I just met you… this is insane….and you are my boss…im sorry this is so embarrassing… I didn't have anyone else to call…apparently Ashley is on the phone and I was losing my mind…so sorry Chloe"
"Calm down Beca, you can call me anytime, we are friends remember? We were friends before you started working with me!" Beca could feel the wink through the phone…she smiled for the first time in hours. "and i'm kind of offended that I wasn't the first choice though!" Chloe protested making Beca laugh. "Yeah, that's more like it. Feeling better?"
"Yes…thank you Chloe, my hero." Beca said blushing.
"nah, just being a good friend and all that." The brunet smiled.Beca heard Emilys door creak open…
"Boss, I think Emily is coming out of her room…I want to check on her. But thank you so much for everything you said…thank you and sorry for interrupting your night."
"Beca Mitchell so help me god if you say sorry again! You can call whenever ok!? get that thru your skull. Ill see you tomorrow. Good night!"
"ok ok got it, Good night Chloe…and thank you"
They shared one last goodbye before they hanged up.
Beca indeed felt better, she needed that in order to face Emily. She was about to get up from her bed when her door swung open. And there was Emily running towards her and…
"oofff"
With a tackle they fell over the bed.
Emily was hugging her sister with all her strength and she was relieved when Beca hugged her back.
As soon as Beca told her about her being gay…she ran. She was so confused she didn't know how to react. She needed to talk to someone…she couldn't go back out to Beca because she was embarrassed of how she reacted in the first place. So, she called the next best thing.
Ashley.
She found out Ashley was gay too during that phone call…but it helped. A lot. She wanted to know why it was kept a secret. And her cousin told her it was hard to come out… that people judge without knowing, and that she was too young to get it too. She argued that she was smart enough to understand…"but you still ran…" Ashley said to her… well, burn…Ashley finally told her that the only thing Beca would want now, was a hug. That's it. No words no apologies…. just a hug. So, she did that. She ran to her sister and hugged her hard.
Emily started crying damping her sisters shirt… she was attached like a little koala bear. Beca found it adorable but she hated seen her sister cry, so she pulled away a little cradling Ems face with her hands.
"hey kid, look at me," Emily looked upward shyly, sniffling a little "we are ok…it is ok…no more crying please."
"I'm sorry BecBec I'm so sorry!" another round of tears came down Emily's face, but Beca quickly wipe them out.
"there is nothing to be sorry for, it is fine, we are cool… I promise! I love you and if someone has to apologize is me sweetie, I should've tell you sooner or something… or smoother maybe…I don't know. The point is, I love you and I want you to love me just the same…ok? do you love me the same?"
"I love you more" Beca smiled widely.
"I'll take more every time! Now let's get ready for bed ok?" Emily nodded.
"yeah ok, but can I ask you something?"
"yes, of course, anything…"
"why don't you have a girlfriend? Is it because of me?"
"What? Why do you ask that?"
"I don't know, I have never seen you with anyone… and… and I don't know… you are super pretty and smart and funny… so I was thinking maybe it was because girls don't like that you are kind of a mom… " Emily shrugged.
Beca laughed. Emily just stared back at her with a frown.
"why are you laughing?!"
"Because! Sweetie I don't have a girlfriend because I don't want to…plain and simple. I've had more important things to do, and I have... to this day. And I'm fine with it, honestly. If I ever found someone worthy...I will give it a go. But you must approve first. If you don't, just yell Neeext!"
They both giggled.
"I think you will find someone very soon. And what do I tell derrick?"
"oh, poor derrick boohoo. Just tell him I'm unavailable… that should keep him away."
"ok," Emily yawned "can I sleep with you tonight?"
"Obviously…why are you even asking?" Beca tickled her and then got up to turn the lights off.
"Nite Bec"
"Nite Emi, sweet dreams little star" Beca whispered.
Xxxxxxx
Beca felt lighter the following days. She went to work, had fun with it, something she only did while DJing back in the day. Sure, she was just an assistant, but in the right environment it felt like heaven. Emily was back to her sweet self, they talked every day about school or work. They practice every day for the talent show too. She even told Derek that her sister was seeing someone, but the chauffeur didn't mind at all.
Because on Wednesday there were flowers on Becas desk.
"What the fuck…." She said as soon as she got there. She was picking up the card when she heard….
"Good morning Beca!" a very happy ray of sunshine appeared. Beca turned her head so she could hide the flowers with her body. This was so embarrassing.
"Good Morning Boss, your coffee is waiting riiight on top of your desk." But Chloe wouldn't budge…she was slowly circling Beca too se what the burnet was hiding.
Beca felt like a contortionist trying to hide the flower arrangement. It was big and ugly.
Who sends orange flowers?
"what's that?" Chloe finally asked when she spotted the flowers.
"That? Uhm nothing…someone must've left them there for no reason…" Beca was sure they were from Derek.
"Beeeecaaaa"
"Boooooooss"
"I do not want to be rude, believe me, but they are kind of big, and kind of…."
"Ugly?" Beca laughed. Chloe blushed.
"well…I was going to say hard on the eyes….but yeah ugly, who sent you those?"
"I have no idea…I will get rid of them asap boss… they are making me gag… I prefer lilies. What's your favorite flower?" Beca asked smoothly.
"Mine…simple purple tulips."
"Pretty…hum I better throw these… I'll be right back."
"Yeah totes, see you in a bit."
As soon as Chloe head to her office, Beca opened the card.
"Dear Beca: Every time I see your face it reminds me of you. XO
-D."
"OH MY GOD" She couldn't help it, she laughed so hard it made Chloe run out of her office to see what was going on.
"What? What? I wanna laugh too…" without uttering a word and without thinking, Beca handed the card to Chloe.
"Every time I see your face it reminds me of you? What the hell… who wrote this? a chimpanzee? It doesn't make any sense…. what? who sent you this?" Chloe said while laughing.
"well… I think it was Derek…"
"He what?"
"wow calm down, the guy has good intentions, but he is jus not getting the hints… my sister already told him I was seeing someone…but he dismissed her."
"Are you?"
"Am I what?"
"seeing someone?" Chloe asked trying to sound nonchalant.
"Me? No, nada, no tiempo." Beca responded casually. Chloe smiled.
"Oh ok…good. Should I talk to Derek? I mean I'm his boss, and if he is bothering you I have to step in."
Good, hu? Chill Beca!
"no no, I got it… I can handle it. Thank you though."
"Just tell me he goes too far ok?" Chloe went back inside her office.
"Yeah totally." The brunet answer before she turned to the arrangement from hell.
Beca grabbed the flowers and walked towards Candyland, she knew they were the only ones who would take this without a peep. She passed by Ashley's desk on the way throwing a "don't ask" and receiving a "wasn't gonna" back.
Gail actually liked the horrible piece…it matched her personality…do the math.
Xxxxxxxxx
Beca was sitting at her desk finishing her second song when she heard Emily approaching.
"Hey sis, let me finish this and we'll go practice, maybe we can ask Chloe to give us some feedback…."
"I was going to….-"
"Hey Beca!" Derek rudely interrupted Emily. Beca sent a glare his way, but he didn't catch it.
He was as dumb as a rock apparently.
"Dude, my sister was speaking. What was on your mind sis?"
"I was sa-" Emily tried again but...
"Sorry Beca I just wanted to ask you if you liked the flowers!" Emily liked hanging with Derek but this was crazy. She started glaring at him while she crossed her arms over her chest.
Beca took a deep breath…she was going to punch him.
"Derek, let my sister finish her sentence…then we will talk." Beca said gritting her teeth.
"But Beca this is important!" Derek whined.
Strike three dumb dumb.
"Em, why don't you go to Ashley's, she bought reeses pieces at lunch…go get me some." Beca winked with a smile. Emily was smart enough to get it and walked away.
Beca stood up to face Derek. At first, she was going to let him off easy…but this whinny shit was crazy. And nobody is more important than her sister.
"Sooo, did you like them? You seem like an orange kinda gal…where are they though?" Derek looked around the office trying to find the flowers.
"I'm kind of allergic to anything orange…" Derek laughed super hard. Beca just rolled her eyes.
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"Wait! You cant be allergic to the colour orange! That's crazy!"
Yup, dumb AF.
"Look Derek, first, I don't like orange, it gives me nightmares. Second, absolutely no one else is more important than my sister, so you cutting her off and demanding attention…not cool. And third, I do not want a relationship with you. Do you understand?" Beca made sure to articulate everything like he was a little kid.
"But why?"
Really? OMG….
"Are you serius?" Beca raised her voice, she was about start her rant when the phone rang. She picked up switching from crazy ass bitch to professional master in seconds.
"WW Records, this is Ms. Beale office…"
"Beca, breath…I can feel a blood vessel about to pop in your head…." Beca chuckled, relaxing as soon as she heard Chloe's voice.
The walls were kind of thin, and she saw Derek approaching Beca so she got closer to her door just to hear… she knew eavesdropping was wrong…but just this once she made an exception.
She knew Derek wasn't the brightest crayon in the box, but this was too much even for him.
"Yes, I feel it too…but I've got it under control Ma'am"
"Ma'am ? really Beca? I'm ready to jump in…I'm your hero remember? Ready to save the day!" Chloe giggled making Beca blush instantly remembering her conversation from last week.
"That you are Ma'am, that you are" She smiled.
Derek was looking lost. Whatever.
"Just say the word ok?"
"Ok"
As soon as Chloe hanged up Beca looked back at Derek…he looked like a lost puppy…urgh.
"Look dude I will make this super clear for you. I am GAY, I am super into the ladies like you are…and I am already kind of taken sooo from every angle you look at it…I CANNOT BE WITH YOU. Do you understand now?"
He looked confused, but he nodded.
"sooo you like chicks…it's not me then?"
Really? Is like the first part of this conversation never happened! so self absorbed!
"It is all me and my leeeesbian ways Derek. You are good bro…" She patted his arm trying to give him some comfort. He beamed.
"Oh ok! cool! well…I'll go then…see ya' around Beca!"
"Bye Derek"
Her phone vibrated inside her pocket alerting her of a message.
ChloeB: "You and your lesbian ways"? You crack me up Mitchell.
BMH: I aim to please Ms. Beale ;)
ChloeB: My my Mitchell…didn't pegged you for a fifty shades reader…
Shit!
Well…
BMH: I didn't pegged you either.
ChloeB: Touché.
BMH: Please don't tell anyone. It is one of my deepest secrets. ;)
ChloeB: Your secret is safe with me. Do you have notes too? I have so many…it could be better.
BMH: OMG! Stop! I have to get back to editing some of your letters.
ChloeB: Laters ;)
Emily return as she was finishing her last text, and asked "why are you smiling so much?"
"me? I'm just telling my boss I have to work."
"ok…is Derek gone? I wanted to ask you something before"
"Yeah he is gone…for good."
"Good, Can I ask Chloe to come to my talent show tomorrow?"
"Whaa-?" Beca was interrupted by her phone vibrating in her hand.
ChloeB: Yes, she can! I would love to go!
"Why don't you go aske her then…"
"Really?!" Emily asked excitedly
"yeah go, you know you are the only one welcome there without knocking"
ChloeB: Yeah she is!
Beca couldn't help but chuckled.
BMH: Don't spoil her too much.
ChloeB: I do not know what you are talking about…
Emily didn't wait for anything else and ran to Chloe's.
Beca noticed that her sister had created a unique bond with the redhead. They had their inner jokes, and had a lot in common. Chloe even surprised Emily with her own banana backpack one evening "it's my new laptop bag Beca..." she said. It was really cute. Everyone in the office loved Emily, she was just a great kid that didn't cause trouble and was very polite. So, she was welcome everywhere. Even down at the studio with CR.
They were both completely accepted,
And she felt great.