*Agh, I still don't own Pokemon. Darn.*

(Double digits, baby! ;p)

Chapter Ten - Regret

-Louella's POV-

As I opened my eyes, I was not in my new, cramped room anymore...But in the clutches of the familiar, lifeless void I had once floated in years ago. Other than the two beautiful eyes that seemed to be reading everything about me, there was not a single spark of light anywhere in my line of view.

I was shocked that I had to returned to the very place I had first encountered Darkrai, so my voice was quiet with confusion and awe as I stared into his eyes.

"D-Darkari...Why did you bring me here again?" I looked around, staring at my surroundings.

A rather stern, familiar voice spoke from what seemed to be nothing but an all seeing pair of eyes.

He appeared several feet away from me, his eyes filled with regret. Louella, I need to apologize.

I realized he must have been talking about his reaction about Charles, and I thought it was sweet of him to apologize. Because of his kindness, I decided I'd tease him about this at a later date.

"Oh Darkrai, there's no need for you to say sorry about all that," I gave a small smile. "You were just worried about me, so no hard feelings!"

He didn't seem happy about my answer, so his brow furrowed.

That's not what I wanted to apologize for. He took a deep breath. I could of given away our position due to my over thinking.

A confused look entered my eyes, while a million questions entered my thoughts. "Position? What do you mean? Who would be looking for us? Are we in trouble? Darkrai answer me!"

He gave a defeated sigh. There is...A lot more to this situation of ours than you know of, Louella. He motioned to the floor. You might want to take a seat, you have every right to know everything.

Suddenly, to my amazement, I was no longer floating in an endless void. I felt myself slowly falling against my will until I landed on something soft, yet familiar.

After realizing I was in a bed, I sat up and I observed my surroundings. I was...in my very own room. Everything was exactly how I had left it, including my several messes.

What made my eyes spark with awe was the very view that was outside my lone window. It was not the labyrinth of trees, but a field of never ending, graceful roses. There were colors of roses I had never even seen, and the field seemed endless.

Deciding to ask him about all of this later, I focused on the main problem that filled my mind with worry.

The look of awe left my face, and it was replaced with a concerned look. "O-Okay Darkrai, you have my full attention."

He sat in one of the shadowed corners of my room. Dear Arceus where do I start? He stared at what my room contained for what felt like several minutes, before shocking me with his sudden eye contact. I am not exactly what you think I am, Louella.

I gasped, shocked by how calmly he said such a thing. "W-what? Are you not a Darkrai?"

He gave a soft, sad laugh. Sadly, I am truly a Darkrai. He paused. But that is exactly the issue I am being faced with.

I slowly walked over and sat to his left. "What? A-are you okay?"

He gave a defeated sigh. Yes. There are just many dangers I have brought upon your life, and I haven't even told you about them.

All I could do is stare at him. Had he been struggling with past events all alone over these years? Perhaps...even longer than the time we had known each other?

I suddenly felt a pang of guilt in my heart, I was not being there for him when he needed it...He was always there to lift my spirits when I was upset, while I never noticed when he was upset.

He cleared his throat. Revealing myself to other humans made me realize why I have been isolated for so many years. Avoiding my eyes, he continued. You had every right to know on that day we agreed to be partners, yet I felt as if you wouldn't care or would despise me like the others-

Feeling the worry in my heart grow to an even higher level, I reached out and grabbed his hand. "Me? Hate you?" I stared at him for several seconds. "I swear to Arceus that that's not possible."

He pulled his hand away with a sad glare in his expression, which made my heart feel as if it were torn in two. I would like you to say that after you hear my story. After you know who I truly am, and what I have done.

Knowing he would never intentionally be cruel to me, I gave an understanding nod.

He continued his story. I am a Darkrai, yes. That is fact. He looked up at the ceiling above, which to my amazement was not hardwood, but a sad, stormy sky. Louella, do you expect my kind to randomly wander forests for no reason?

I nodded no, not wanting to interrupt his story.

Exactly. I was not...Lost in that forest. His sad expression suddenly turned into a mixture of anger and loneliness. I was banished from my very home due to several reasons. I had been on the run from someone at that time when I had found you.

There was a pause while I tried to digest this information. Darkrai was...banished? That made absolutely no sense. For all the years I'd known Darkrai, he had never done anything to harm anyone. He was everything anyone would want in a Pokemon, and even in a friend.

You are sweet, Louella. But, I was shunned for not having the traits of an average Darkrai. He was still looking at the endless, dark sky. I apologize for reading your thoughts.

Ignoring the invasion of privacy, I could only bare to whisper at this information. "What...traits?"

He suddenly laid back onto the floor, staring at the sky above him with an even more pained expression.

Darkrai are meant to be merciless, dark creatures. He seemed to be gazing back to the past. As a child, I always tried to be the way I was told was 'normal'. I was told to despise happiness and kindness. No matter how I tried, I never wanted to harm anyone. He sighed. This even...lead to me losing things I would...never be able to regain.

It suddenly hit me why he was so stubborn when it came to training, and I felt a pain of guilt for trying to force him to get stronger. He must of simply saw no reason in the sport of harming other Pokemon to gain power. If you think about it, Pokemon battles as a whole are rather cruel.

Realizing that there were more important problems in what he just said, I snapped back into reality.

I was still simply whispering. "W-what did you...lose?"

It is a rather long story. He said, still gazing at the sky above us.

"I have time, Darkrai. P-please tell me, i-if you want to," I whispered.

I will attempt to sum it up to as little as I can. He took a deep breath, probably thinking about how he could fit his story into words.

I was...Perhaps only 200 years at the time when I had started realizing I was different from my family and friends. Being young and stupid, I decided to run off. Perhaps, to find where I truly belonged. He laid in silence for a few minutes, presumably remembering his past events.

Eventually...I found myself lost in an uncharted area on the island my species currently lives. Being as young as I was, I had no way of manipulating shadows properly...So I could not travel back even though I completely regretted my childish actions.

I laid down next to him, taking his hand in mine. I wanted him to know that I was there for him no matter what he had done. I knew this was hard to talk about for him, he's not one to keep secrets so he wouldn't of kept this to himself all these years unless he had no choice but to do so.

After several more minutes of silence, he continued.

I was not alone on that area of that very island, I learned that very soon after realizing I was lost. He suddenly held pure hatred in his eyes. A certain Pokemon had gotten herself lost as well, and that very Pokemon I had met that day saved my life. But, that's an entirely different story for another day.

We both continued to stare at the sky, hand in hand. "D-darkrai...If she saved your life, why do you look so...upset?"

We had gained friendship after that moment, and I continued sneaking away to discuss my inner thoughts with her. She understood my 'abnormal' feelings, so it was nice to talk to someone who understood. Suddenly, his eyes turned into slits, and he squeezed my hand. Apparently, over the years of meeting in secret, she started taking an interest in me.

I stuttered at the idea of someone taking interest in Darkrai, it just didn't feel right. "I-I see. Who...who was this Pokemon, Darkrai?"

Cresselia. Cresselia is her name...Or was her name. I have not seen her in four years, so I do not know if she is still alive. Everytime he spoke her name, it was as if it pained him to do so. You have probably heard of her, I would not be surprised. She is very well known among children for being a loving, kindhearted Pokemon. He gave a venom filled laugh. Such ignorant lies.

Silence.

The once depressing, rainy sky above us turned dark, and was filled with thick, black clouds.

My expression was filled with sadness and guilt. "What did she d-do to you?"

He seemed to no longer be himself, he was almost darker than usual. His eyes were an alarming shade of red, and he seemed to be blowing away with the wind.

Extremely long story short...My kind and Cresselia's kind have been at war for centuries. The sky had now turned to a complete, solid black, without a single cloud in sight. Even with my reasoning of not feeling the same, she was stubborn to make me hers. Realizing she could not be with me because of our families at war…

There was a long pause.

I squeezed his hand. "Darkrai...What did she do…?"

...

She murdered my entire family, Louella. She did so with no thoughts about the future, she was selfish for she could not have me as her own. His voice was spilling sadness and pure anger. Cresselia was caught not long after, but I was dragged down with her. Her reasoning was that she had done all of this for me. She thought they were holding me back from being with her, when I had no plans of becoming an item with her.

I felt my eyes fill to the brim with water, but I managed to hold them back. All these years...Darkrai had been struggling through this alone, and I was never there for him.

Even though with every word his eyes filled with more pain, he continued his agonizing story. That's not all to her cruelty, she had convinced my kind that I had partnered up with her to betray them. Her decisions had gotten her removed from the neighboring island she had been living on from her elders, and she decided to drag me down me with her.

He closed his eyes. It's my fault my family is gone, Louella. If only I had talked to them about how I felt...I could of avoided all of this. No matter how you look at it, my ignorant, childish decision to run off had gotten my parents and younger sister killed right before my very eyes.

With that, silent tears fell slowly down my cheeks.

He sat up and turned on his side to look at me. Louella. I am sorry for invading your thoughts again, but please do not blame yourself for anything. I was afraid to tell you, so it is simply my fault.

Realizing I was crying, I quickly sat up and pulled him into a tight embrace.

"D-Darkrai...It hurts so much that you would think I'd hate you over something you had no control over…" I had lost control of my tears entirely, they were rapidly falling against my will.

"I already swore to Arceus that I could never hate you," I sobbed, having no plans of letting go of him. "And I'm sticking t-to that promise, Darkrai."

He spoke in a tone I had never heard, yet even expected from him. Y-you do not know how much you mean to me, Louella. He said with tear filled eyes.

He hugged me back, seeming to have no plans of letting go any time either.

After several minutes of me crying like an idiot, he let me go and stared me in the eyes.

He spoke in an extremely defeated tone. I-I forgot one major thing...She has now realized over the past two hundred y-years that she cannot have me. She is seeking her r-revenge, for somehow she sees her exile as my fault. If s-she gains knowledge of you...She would have no mercy and harm you...I have p-pulled you into it. I cannot express how sorry I am, no m-matter how many times I say so-

"D-darkrai, I don't c-care what danger you put me in!" Still bawling my eyes out, I wiped my tears away. "I-I'll stick by your side through all of this, and you don't h-have a choice."

We sat in silence for several minutes, still in a deep embrace.

The sky above us slowly turned into a beautiful sunset, accompanied by fluffy, peachy clouds.

Still crying into his cold shoulder, he suddenly leaned away and put his right claw onto the back of my head with an expression I couldn't explain.

We stared at each other for what felt like an eternity, while never breaking eye contact once.

...Louella...I-

...

He was cut off by the sound of my screaming room mates and I started to fade away. No matter how much I wished to stay with Darkrai, I was pulled into reality.

What do you think he was going to saaayyy..? ;)

Hmm, don't you think Darkrai's backstory would make a good story on it's own? Maybe I'll write that, hehe!

But thanks for continuing to read, strangers! :^)