The night was young, the backyard was filled with Stef and Lena's friends and family. Everyone dressed up, excited for the occasion, excited that Stef and Lena were finally able to get married, legally that is. The air was cool. The whole yard was illuminated with string lights and from the moon itself. Lena had waited so long for this moment, so long to be married to the beautiful woman she had spent ten years with, and to have beautiful children with her.

Lena had a huge grin plastered on her face as she stood next to her soon to be wife, Stef. Stef's beautiful blonde hair resting on her shoulders, curled ever so delicately, golden curls framing her face. Her eyes so bright and full of joy, twinkling under all of the lights.

Lena thought she looked so beautiful in the white pantsuit she wore. It fit her shape perfectly, she looked like an angel. Her golden hair almost glowing under the lights around the yard. Lena's natural curls and coils pinned back. Her long white dress hugging her form.

This was the happiest day of her life. It felt like a dream. It was almost too good to be true. For ten years she had waited to be Mrs. Adams Foster, and now here she was, standing in front of her loved ones, marrying Stef.

Just as they said those two magic words "I do" they turned to face each other. Stef looking into Lena's eyes, her smile growing as she realized that this was actually happening. She whispered "It's like a dream." as she leaned in to kiss her bride. Her arms wrapped around Lena's back, her warm hands on Lena's cold skin. Setting her heart aflame. Lena's hands cold from the night air, as she placed them on Stef's shoulders. Her eyes full of love as she gazed at her new wife. She leaned in to meet Stef halfway for their first kiss as a married couple.

Right as their lips met everything faded into darkness, the whole scene ripping away from Lena's eyes. The sadness ripping through her chest as she struggled to breathe. Her eyes snapped open and she reached next to her for Stef. Her hand hitting the cold mattress, reaching for something that wasn't there, that never would be there again. She started to remember where she was, her whole world came crashing down, just as it did that day just one week ago.

"Stef!" She called out only to get no response at all. Her heart breaking from the silence. A piece of her was missing and she would never get that piece back.

Realization hit her and she saw that she was back in reality, the horrible twisted reality that was her life now. Her life without Stef. The pain swelled up in her, her eyes filling with tears as the sobs wracked through her. She curled herself into a fetal position, hugging Stef's pillow to her chest. The scent of her still there, and still present on the shirt she was wearing. It was one of Stef's flannel shirts, Lena had slept in a different one every night since she died.

"It was just a dream." She said to herself in the darkness. She had never felt so alone before. "A dream." She repeated. Her head was spinning trying to comprehend how this had happened. How did she manage to lose the one person that had always been there to save her. Who was going to save her now? She sobbed even more as she remembered the last thing Stef said to her.

"Will you marry me?" Stef said with a quiet rasp. She was extremely weak, exhausted from the trauma of being shot, and from her surgery. She had been shot the night before.

Lena had replied with "I thought you'd never ask." She gave Stef a small smile as tears streamed down her cheeks. She was emotional wreck. In the last 24 hours she had went from worrying about Stef, to relief as she's talking to her now, to the joy of being engaged to the gorgeous blonde woman laying in front of her.

Stef kept her eyes closed. "I love you so much Lena." Her heart rate was slowing down. Her breathing becoming shallow.

Lena held Stef's hands in her own. Her heart starting to race, she had a bad feeling about how Stef's heartbeat was slowing down. "I love you too Stef." She pressed a kiss to Stef's knuckles, and another to her lips. "So much."

"Goodbye, my love."

Lena wanted to ask her what she meant. Maybe it was just the medication she was on, or because she was falling asleep. Lena was in deep thought wondering why Stef had said that. Then she heard it. The noise that meant her life was forever turned upside down. The moment she heard it her heart ripped out of her chest. She heard the long beep that meant Stef Foster was no longer in this world. Her head snapped up only to see a flatline on the heart monitor. She sat there unable to move. Emotionless and empty trying to comprehend how everything changed in a matter of minutes. She sat in her chair having an out of body experience, just staring at the straight green line on that black screen.

Lena's ears rang as she recalled the worst day of her life. It's all she could hear besides the sound of her own sobs in her dark empty bedroom. She hated how easy it was for her to flashback to that day, how her mind would trick her into thinking it wasn't real, and that her dreams felt like reality. She hated that she believed it and fell for it every single time, only to be woken up by the cold emptiness of her lonely world.

"Stef" she called out again, hoping this wasn't real, that the love of her life wasn't gone, that it was just some sick twisted nightmare.