Okay I have to say something real quick: I know everyone is use to the bitchy Tanya. The one who is horrible and mean and will do anything to get what she wants, well my Tanya is NOT like that. She is sweet and kind and is an all around good girl! I hate to burst you bubble but yea it is true. (Trust me I was tempted to make her mean and stuff but I just could do it)
Song inspired Chapter: Congratulations-Blue October.
Great song that fits the chapter!
"Oh Tanya you are lovely," Irina complimented. Irina was Tanya's just as beautiful sister. Tanya smiled but looked nervous as her two sisters' fidgeted with her hair and dress.
They were wearing gowns identical to mine but looked so much better. Irina I had met before and she was a little more snobby than her sister but Kate was all but a twin of Tanya. They acted the same and laughed the same and did everything the same way.
They were all a year apart Tanya being the middle child and Kate being the baby while Irina was the first born.
"Edward is the luckiest man on earth," Kate cooed and Tanya giggled as she stared at the full length mirror. She turned toward me with a smile on her face.
"What do you think, Bella?" Tanya asked with wide eyes as though my opinion mattered more than her own sisters.
"I think…you are an example of a perfect bride," I said with a small smile as I leaned against the wall. At least my words were true that much I could say.
Tanya's eyes brightened and she turned back to the mirror.
Tanya really did look beautiful in a off the shoulder long sleeve wedding dress. It left her collar bone exposed. A diamond necklace rested on her neck and her hair was pulled back into a decorative bun.
The veil was placed on top of it and came down her back and you would have sworn she came out of a wedding magazine.
"Well I'm going to go find the groom, and Kate you should go and find Daddy," Irina said and Kate nodded as they both left the room leaving me and Tanya alone.
I pushed myself off the wall and made my way over to her. I stood behind her staring at the mirror. I looked like a plain rag doll compared to picture perfect Barbie.
Tanya closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
When she opened them they were watery.
"Bella, did you tell anyone about my…news?" she asked. I was stunned. Had Edward told her something?
Edward.
I hadn't really talked to him since that day. We talked but only small chit chat and we stopped taking walks and visiting the city.
I missed him.
"No, why?" technically it was true. I hadn't said she was pregnant he figured that out on his own.
"Good. Bella I'm not pregnant," she said and her voice cracked.
"What? But I thought—"
"I thought I was pregnant. But when I went to see the doctor he said that…" she started and I suddenly understood.
"Oh Tanya, I'm so sorry," I said softly.
She sniffed but I didn't see a tear. "It's alright. It hurts but I guess we could always try again right? And the good thing is that only I know about this. I'm the only one that has to hurt. I delayed telling Edward until I was sure, but I guess that day didn't come," she sighed and turned back toward the mirror.
I stood stunned.
It was then that I saw a tear rolling down her cheek. Just one single tear.
"No Tanya, don't cry," I tried to comfort her but it was hard when I needed comforting as well.
She gave me a watery smile and brushed the tear away.
"I'm acting silly I guess," she said. "No your not. It was hard on you," I said she threw her arms around my neck.
"Bella, thank you. So much for everything," she whispered and I wrapped my arms around her. I felt tears coming down me eyes and I laughed.
She pulled away and saw my tears, she chuckled also. She wiped away my tears with a gentle hand and smiled. "Aren't we suppose to cry after the wedding?" she teased and I nodded.
I felt guilt run through my whole body. I wasn't crying for the same reasons she was, but she never had to know that. She would never know that I gave up my fairy tale to save hers. I wouldn't tell her.
Her eyes grew wide and she walked away from me to glance out the window where the wedding was taking place. We were of course having it in her huge backyard.
"Bella, I'm going to get married. I'm 23 and getting married. I-I can't do this. I just can't," she said and I could hear worry behind her voice.
I walked toward her and turned her shoulders toward me.
"Do you love him?" I asked sternly.
"Yes," she whispered.
"Do you want to spend the rest of your life with him?"
"Yes."
"Than why wait! You love him and you know he's the one so why wait?" I asked and her eyes teared.
"Bella I just I can't—"
"Look you are going to walk down that aisle and say your vows and give him a kiss that will seal the deal. Than your going to live your happily ever after with the man you love!" I scolded.
She smiled and me and brought me in for another hug.
"You're right I'm being silly, again" she said and I pulled away. The bedroom door opened and Kate walked in.
"How's the bride to be?" she asked and Tanya smiled as she looked at me.
"Perfect," Tanya answered.
"I'm going to check on the groom alright," I said and Tanya nodded.
I walked out of the bedroom and down the hall and toward the door in which Edward would be in. This had to be no doubt the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I was doing the right thing.
I'd better be going to heaven.
I knocked on the door softly.
"Come in," the soft voice said on the other side.
I opened the door slowly to see Edward his back to me. He was staring at the mirror fussing with his bow tie. He looked amazing in a tux and it hurt even more. I glanced down at me bridesmaid dress and I wished I was wearing a bridal gown instead.
I closed the door behind me softly.
"The big day is finally here," I whispered and he turned.
"Bella?" he said and a smile lit his features.
"Hey,"
"What are…I mean..." he shook his head and I laughed. "I wanted to see my friend before the wedding," I said and he smiled. It surprised me how much I hated saying friend. I didn't want to be a friend.
I walked near him and pushed his hands away from the bow tie.
"I can tie it," he argued and I shrugged. "I know you can but you trembling with nerves," I teased and looked up at him. He chuckled and let me tie the bow.
"How'd you learn?" he asked when I was finished. "My dad," I answered and she smiled.
"My dad knows how to tie a tie but he can't tie and bow tie to save his life," Edward said and turned toward the mirror.
"Is Carlisle here?" I asked and he nodded.
I had met Emmett's parents a number of times. When Alice planned dinners she usually included them.
"You've met them before right? They talk about you often, they like you," he said and I smiled. "I like them too. Its funny how were all connected though. I mean Alice and I were friends since forever and then she met Jasper, whose sister was dating Emmett. Funny isn't it," I asked thinking back.
"Yea it is I guess," he said with a sigh staring at the mirror.
A smile lit his face slowly. "I'm getting married," he whispered and I laughed a sad laugh.
"With someone you absolutely love?" I asked.
"Yes, with someone I love," he said tore his eyes away from his reflection and toward me. "Bella, I want to thank you for everything. For being a friend to me and—"
"No need to thank me. I did it because I…care about you," I said and he hugged me.
Edward pulled away and rested his hands on my shoulders as he looked me up and down.
"You look great. Blue is a lovely color on you," he said and I laughed.
I glanced down and a sighed. "Yea, I like it but I wouldn't have picked this if it were up to me," I said staring at his eyes. "What would you have picked?" he asked softly. I leaned closer to him staring at his lips. The lips that made a shock run through my body. The lips I had been kissing only a few weeks ago.
A banging on the door made us jump apart.
The door swung open and Emmett came in. "Come on, Ed—oh hello Bella," Emmett said flashing me a grin.
I raised a hand to say hi and made my way past him.
"Goodbye Emmett, congratulations Edward" I said looking at them both and getting ready to head back to Tanya's room.
"We're staring lil bro," I heard Emmett say and I knew that my heart had gone beyond repair.
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I walked down the aisle and Edward gave me a smile as I stood where I was supposed to. I stood next to Kate and watched as Irina came walking down the aisle.
Then the light melody of the wedding march filled the backyard and it broke my heart as I watched Tanya walk down the aisle. I glanced at Edward's face and saw it glowing with a smile on it.
He had pretty much forgotten me. See me as the friend he use to. Maybe he only said those things to me because of wedding nerves.
Edward stole a glance at me and I saw his eyes soften. He smiled at me and I smiled back as he looked toward Tanya.
I barely heard when the music cut off and the priest started talking. I had gone into one of my famous bubbles. The bubbles I had alone or with some else.
In my mind all I saw were flash backs.
The dance. The trip at the restaurant. The dinner. The meeting in the book store. The walks. The time he held me close when the bike almost hit me. The elderly lady saying we were a couple. The time he held me and let me cry. When he told me he loved me.
He loved me!
He did and it wasn't nerves. I saw the look he gave me and I knew that he loved me.
Tanya wasn't pregnant and there was nothing holding them together.
Could I still have my happily ever after? Could I take it away from Tanya? Could I be so cruel to break her heart like mine was?
I loved Edward and so did Tanya and as the priest spoke the words "speak now or forever hold your peace" I knew the decision was up to me.
It was now or never.
If Edward truly loved me shouldn't I have my happy ever after because of all the heart break I had to suffer. If I got to spend the rest of my life with Edward then I wouldn't mind going to hell.
Time was running out I had to say something before it was too late but what do I do?
My happily ever after or hers?
Which do I chose?
I know it's a cliffy but I never said I was giving away the whole wedding. So how do you like it?
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